Tuesday, December 26, 2006

Benda Tak Seberapa Untuk Dikongsi Bersama

"Kadang-kadang, orang yang paling kita sayanglah yang paling payah nak disayangi" - Makcik Rubiah, filem Cinta.

Aku baru tahu result UPSR dua orang budak darjah 6 yang aku ajar tusyen tahun ni. Sorang dapat A dalam Science dan Math. Sorang lagi dapat A dalam Science tapi B dalam subjek Math. Not bad la kan? Well done.

Now jiran aku mintak aku ajar tusyen PMR dan UPSR untuk anak dia. Aku tak kisah sebab family aku jaga anak-anak dia since anak sulung dia tu baby sampai ke anak dia yang nombor 4. Pendek kata, budak-budak tu dah jadi a part of our family. Lagi senang aku nak ajar. Kalo malas, "Alang bedal ajer Kakak dengan rotan!". Tersengih-sengih budak tu bila dengar aku cakap camtu.

8 Januari nanti aku akan jumpa dengan budak-budak PMR dan SPM dari Rumah Anak Yatim Bakawali. Aku mengajar tusyen kat situ for free. Aku tahu aku ni amal tak banyak. Esok-esok kalau aku mati, ini ajer lah amal jariah yang aku dapat bagi. Duit sendiri setakat ni belum banyak lagi untuk menderma buat masjid ke, nak buat rumah anak yatim ke or nak buat sekolah ke. Cuma boleh mengajar for free saja.

Kadang-kadang aku rasa geram pada cikgu-cikgu yang selalu mengomel pasal karenah pelajar-pelajar di sekolah. Sebabnya aku rasa, diorang sendiri yang pilih profesion untuk mengajar. Jadi kenapa nak kecoh-kecoh? Ada pulak yang ada low expectation pada anak murid sendiri. Sampai satu masa, kita kena beri peluang pada students untuk buat sendiri. Kita hanya sediakan panduan dan mereka harus fikir sendiri untuk bergerak dalam garis panduan diberi. Kalau diorang buat silap, kita mesti beri sebab kenapa diorang salah supaya diorang boleh berfikir. Kesilapan mesti dihukum, tapi bukannya untuk semata-mata menghukum. Sebaliknya mesti ada nilai-nilai pengajaran. Aku ingat lagi kata Residence Life co-ordinator aku, Mike Lovett kata, "It's okay to make mistake for as long you don't kill people".

How true is that? Pengalaman mendewasakan kita. Kesilapan mematangkan kita. Guru-guru zaman sekarang selalu tekankan jangan buat silap. Jadi, kalau tak pernah silap, maksudnya tak pernah buat apa-apa lah kan? Tapi kalau buat silap yang sama berjuta kali, siapa yang bangang kat sini?

Hmmm..tepuk dahi tanya diri sendiri lah!

Ayam Dah Kahwin

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Hari Sabtu lepas aku attend kenduri kahwin kawan aku sejak dari Form 1. Sama-sama sebilik, sama-sama dalam rumah Amiekids and sama-sama bersilat dalam Silat Seni Gayong dulu. In fact, sama-sama datang interview scholarship PETRONAS di bangunan Dayabumi and sama-sama isi borang pilihan negara. Bezanya, dia pilih Australia and aku pilih Amerika. Dia kata dia nak ikut kakak dia yang study kat sana. Aku pulak nak gi ke Amerika sebab aku nak join band kat sana. :D

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Nama mamat ni Nizam tapi since form 1 kami panggil dia Ayam. Senior Form 5 yang bagi nama tu kat dia sebab mamat ni terkentut masa senior tu lepak kat katil dia. "Ayam betul kau ni!". Lebih kurang camtu la, terus melekat nama tu sampai laa ni.

Berkawan dengan Ayam memang sangat senang. Aku jarang sekali dengar dia cerita yang buruk-buruk pasal orang lain. Semuanya yang best-best lah dia citer pasal orang. Kad jemputan kenduri kahwin dia pada aku pun, dia pi taruk nama "Tan Sri M*hd F*rid". Memang kuat memuji betul dia nih.

Apa-apa pun aku doakan dia suami isteri kekal bahagia hingga ke akhir hayat. Susah sama diredah, senang sama dinikmati. Aku tahu dia ada ramai ex girlfriend dulu-dulu time kat Australia tapi yang ni, she is the ultimate one.

"Isteri itu bukan hak milik, tapi satu anugerah" - Cikgu Elias, filem Cinta

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

A Dinner at the Banker's Club - Masquerade Night

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Monday, December 18, 2006

The Triple A's of a Great Relationship
Posted by Dr. Laura Berman
on Tue, Dec 12, 2006, 4:51 pm PST


Couples can lose the spark for every reason under the sun. They get too busy with work or kids. They forget the little things, like kisses and small thank you's. Most relationship splits don't come down to a dramatic, life-shattering problem. Rather, it's the gradual slip of each partner's behavior that does it.

I've got an easy formula that will put some life back into any lukewarm relationship. I call it The Three A's of Relationship Rescue:

1. The first ‘A' is for Appreciation. Both sexes benefit from getting back to the sweet adoration of early love. In those days it was effortless. You rocked each other's world without even trying to. Every gesture was met with the simplest of relationship life-preservers: gratitude. Ultimately, showing appreciation makes the other person feel seen and heard. You feel like you matter. In the workaday of chores, errands, bills and whose turn it is to take the dog out, appreciation can go right out the window. You're both so busy that you start to take what the other person is doing for granted. Take a step back and say ‘thank-you' more than you might. Think of something everyday that your partner did and thank him or her for it-even on the bad days! It will help you weather the storms of love.

2. The second ‘A' is for Attention. This one is more for the guys. Remember how much you used to court your partner in the beginning? Every date was an event. Every absence a tragedy. It helps to bring back some of that urgency and romance to what's going on now. If you haven't brought home flowers for no particular reason since the last Leap Year, please head directly to the florist. If you never call just to say I love you, pick up the phone. Women want to feel cared for and loved and cherished-and not just when you're trying to get sex or make something up to her. Little gestures of seduction, with no expectations, will go a long way towards reigniting her attraction to you. Why not plan to do something nice every week? The more a woman feels that her partner is tuning into her emotionally, by helping with the kids or the house or doing something sweet, the more apt she is to be sexual. Need any more reasons?

3. The last ‘A' is for Appearance. Ladies, do you remember how much effort you put into your looks at the beginning of your relationship? I'll bet that a day at the ballgame got more effort than your anniversary does these days! Men are visual creatures. Your hair, your body, your appearance is what caught his interest in the first place. As I like to say, if you've let yourself go, your partner may still love you, but he's not going to lust you. And sorry, but kids and cooking dinner and all of that other stuff is not an excuse for looking disheveled on a regular basis. Your appearance needs to once again become a priority! In fact, when you keep yourself looking good on a daily basis, it becomes a habit. Don't reserve looking nice for a special occasion. It sends the message that you only care in a way that's strategic, designed to appease him rather than prioritize a fundamental part of his attraction to you. It will also make you feel better about yourself to stop making excuses. Eat right, put on a little mascara and lip gloss, and shave your legs more than once a week!

And men don't get off the hook here. While the visual is not quite as important to women, generally speaking, no one wants a slovenly partner. Beer guts, untended nose hair, and clothing from the mid-90s are serious offenses! If you expect her to look good, please do the same.

Ultimately, a healthy relationship is what's going to drive your passion for each other, which is what's going to rev the engine of a healthy relationship!

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Special Note

Seriously, go watch Cinta. Worth every penny you spent on the movie. I did and I enjoyed the movie immensely. I enjoyed analyzed every aspect of the movie; script, lighting method, camera technique and facial expression. So many good things about it.

The essence of the movie touches my soft spot. Hehehehe..men do have soft spot, ok? But I will not about it right now. I have two appointments tonight.

But seriously, go watch the movie. Tell me about it later, ok?

Monday, December 11, 2006

Coach Gary Gaines: Being perfect is not about that scoreboard out there. It's not about winning. It's about you and your relationship with yourself, your family and your friends. Being perfect is about being able to look your friends in the eye and know that you didnt let them down because you told them the truth. And that truth is you did everything you could. There wasnt one more thing you could've done. Can you live in that moment as best you can, with clear eyes, and love in your heart, with joy in your heart? If you can do that gentleman - you're perfect! - Football Head Coach 1988, Permian High School, Odessa, TX.

I'm aint perfect man. That I know.

Thursday, December 07, 2006

Another Note, Another Thought

Some people misconstrued my latest entry. I wrote it not to serve as warning or letter of notification but I wrote the entry as this blog serves as a place of expressing myself. Honestly and straightforwardly.

No dik, she's not you. In fact, she is far different than you. I did promise to take care of you and if i may, to continue to nurture you and protect you. I did promise you that you can contact me anytime and anywhere and I'm here if you want some advice or some attention. I am a man of my word and I intend to keep it that way. So, no worry - she's not you.

Anyway, there are so many things going on in my mind. Last weekend I called Kak Anim and we had a long talk over the phone. Yep, she knows exactly what was I thinking. After all, she knows me since I was in Form 4 and she knows precisely how I would behave when it comes to certain matters. I asked her many questions that night. Some of the questions made her a bit dumbfounded. But I guess I need to get some answers from her. She has been the place where I seek humanly guidance especially when I need a quick handbook guide for man-woman relationship. What's the point of asking men when it involves women, actually?

I've been cold to some people lately. Perhaps I put a thinking cap on. Perhaps, I try to find solace in my own dragon's cave. Some solitary moments may help me to do some reflection. Re-evaluating the whole situation. Re-evaluating some relationships. Try to see from a third person's perspective. Some people make me feel elated. Some people make me feel a bit disheartening and some people are just mean. Hey, I can't complain much of what I can take. But if I can't take it anymore, i'll explode and it will make everyone not happy. Who cares? Seriously, who cares? So I choose to be resolute; to be loyal only to my own feeling and I wont give a shit to anyone who doesn't show any respect to my feeling whatsoever. One of my life's mantra, if you don't care about me, then i won't give a shit about you. and if anyone of you starts to feel like i'm being distant from you, maybe it's because I sense no respect in regards to my feeling from you. That's why I keep a distant to protect myself from getting hurt emotionally.

You see, we human have developed a very strong survival instinct.

On another note, I finished reading one romantic novel. A huge achievement for myself considering I hardly read any romantic book except Dan Brown's novel, 'Angel and Demon. And the book has been in the room for the past three years without me noticed it. Now the bad news is, I can't shake this story off my damn mind. The story is so enchanting and I think I over-romanticized the whole drama. Let me put the synopsis here.

The Princess, Jude Deveraux
Her name was Aria - a beautiful, arrogant princess from a small European kingdom. Kidnapped, then left for dead in the ocean off the Florida Keys, she is swept ashore and into the arms of dashing J.T Montgomery, an officer of the American Navy. Disdainful at first, Aria is secretly tantalised by the handsome officer's brash independence...and beneath her proud reserve, J.T discovers a woman of sensuous passion.
But she has enemies who threaten to destroy her, and now she must choose between the kingdom she was born to rule and the mane she was destined to love.


I managed to finish the whole novel in one night. Damn, the story is just too beautiful for me. They've got to make it into movies. Ahhhh..I'm sucker for romantic movie. Hahahaha....

Oh well, I am done with all whining and complaining about my life. Time to plan the meeting for tomorrow. One with Northport Berhad and another one with an engineer in Jalan Yap Kwan Seng. Off to make more money!

Saturday, December 02, 2006

some people they just want to drop by in the relationship to fill his/her emptiness and break up when they have gotten what they want..though certain relationship are not for last but at least it is not for lust..rite??

Saw that somewhere on someone's blog. Yep, definitely I was there too. I mean, someone dropped by and had so-called relationship and the next thing you know - she's gone. Sigh, well...it's okay. Life has to go on. And she's gone in my list.

This is what I call karma.

Have a blast weekend, everyone!

Sunday, November 26, 2006

Some Wisdom

I was at Dewan Perdana FELDA last night for helping out with photography and some multimedia work. I had an opportunity to have chit chat with an old couple, a friend of Dato' Nurazman. The couple, a chinese husband and a malay wife, shared with me some wisdom about relationship. Coincidentally, the MC for that night was giving a pantun based on Barbra Streisand's song for which I think it was a crappy pantun. The old lady, whom I addressed her as Aunty, corrected the MC by saying to her husband, "it's not when you meet the other half, your life will be complete. Instead, you need to complete yourself first before you meet your other half". Uncle seemed to concur with his wife. I was perplexed and unhesitantly proceed to ask her.

So she replied by saying, a man or a woman should complete him/herself first before getting into relationship. He/she must discover of who he/she is and what is his/her purpose being on this earth. Her husband, once again concurred with what she said. He said, he was trying hard to woo his wife back when they were in college for his wife at that time wasn't quite easily let him get to her. Finally Aunty told me that at the end, she accepted Uncle for his sincerity to be with her. He worked hard to get to her and didn't take her for granted. Instantenously, I felt sad. I felt 'sebak'. I held my tears from rolling down and I fake my smile. It's true that I am having a little bit of difficulty in my life now and their advices meant a lot for me.

They both continued sharing with me about the wisdom in relationship. Uncle said, in order to maintain a harmonious and healthy relationship, the couple must have at least some similarities. Unlike the popular belief - to be in relationship, a couple must have compliment each other. Uncle strongly believed that in order to successfully maintain a relationship, both individual must support each other by sharing the same similarities. It's not like everything must be the same. You can be different but at the same time, have one or two things in common. Like for them, they both made their life purpose to seek the Truth when the Truth is actually coming from one source - Allah Ta'ala. He was a Christian follower before he converted to Islam. He told me that he didn't convert to Islam just for marrying his wife. He saw two marriages broke off because of the wrong objective in converting to Islam. In fact, subsequently due to the same reason, that impressed his wife. I continued asking them of how they know that they are meant for each other. Uncle and Aunty both advice me to do solat istikharah when I'm having difficulties dealing with this kind of situation. He said again that eventually I'll have to face the big question squarely. It will come to me for sure. But don't be despair for help is always available from the high above. I just nod my head.

We talked about so many things later - business, personal background, issues on certain policies especially in education etc. Apparently, Uncle is the Chairman for few corporate bodies and member of few board of directors. One of the corporate entity which I am familiar with is Kuwait Finance House Inc. He then asked for my business card. Unfortunately I didn't have my name card with me and so he gave his to me. I asked him whether I can contact him through his email if I want to ask for his advice. He welcomes me to do that albeit he doesn't promise to reply it promptly. Aunty even invited me to come and meet her family. Insya Allah, that's what I will do.

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

Citer Pasal Orang Kelantan

Aku serius rasa nak gelak tepuk2 meja bila baca komen-komen yang sebanyak 152 komen haloscan kat blog Judd. Demm la weh! Mengutuk orang kelantan gila babeng tak ingat punya. Particularly, lelaki Kelantan. Perghhh...

Yang anehnya, yang dok mengutuk lelaki Kelantan tu, khabarnya taklah secantik mana akhlaknya. Itu yang dikhabarkan orang-orang yang ada sekeliling dia. Lagi sekali buat aku nak gelak pecah perut.

Dalamm gelak-gelak tu, aku dok terpikir jugak. Apa pasal orang lelaki Kelantan selalu kena kutuk kaw-kaw punya? Tak cukup semangkuk, depa bagi sebaldi pulak kutukan pada lelaki kelantan. Kemudian, sampai habis satu Kelantan depa dok kutuk. Sian sungguh aku pada nasib orang senegeri dengan aku. Nak-nak sejantina dengan aku yang lahir kat Kelantan dan juga bernombor 03 di tengah-tengah dalam IC diorang.

Tapi yang aku pelik, kenapa orang lain tak kutuk pulak orang negeri lain? Atau pun tak banding-bandingkan lelaki dari negeri lain. Kire aneh la nih sebenarnya. Bak kata orang jawa, ini diskriminasi!

Aku tak pedulik la apa orang nak kata pasal orang-orang Kelantan. Aku lahir kat Kelantan, my first few years of my life aku dibesarkan kat sana. Walaupun aku dah takleh nak cakap sangat dialek Kelantan, still aku boleh paham apa orang Kelantan cakap. Tak ada masalah, bereh! Aku bangga dengan tempat lahir aku. In fact, aku bangga kalau orang kata Pasir Mas tu tempat gewe-gewe comey. Tuh kelantan tuhhh..

In fact, aku bangga jugak tengok ramai anak-anak Kelantan yang berjaya dalam bidang perniagaan. Tu satu pencapaian yang bagus.

Ada pernah kawan perempuan aku sekali cakap, dia tak nak kawen dengan orang lelaki Kelantan. Bagi aku, okaylah. Itu pendapat dia. Tapi toksahlah nak besar-besarkan isu-isu di sebaliknya. Mana lah tahu, kot dapat betul laki orang Kelate, tak ke haru? Jilat ludah sendiri, bak kata peribahasa orang Melayu.

Bagi aku, aku hormat semua orang baik dari negeri Sabah sampai ke Perlis. Masing-masing ada hebatnya, masing-masing ada buruknya. Just because I had bad experience dealing with some people from some state, it doesn't mean I have the right to stereotype them. It's just unfair. It even becomes unfair when people start to exaggerate the whole stereotype issues. That is so wrong and puerile.

Manusia ni bermacam-macam perangainya. Itu hakikat. Itu kelebihan dan kekurangan kita. Samada mahu kita terima atau tak, tepuk dahi tanya hati. Boleh? Tapi jangan sampai melampau batas. Sendiri mau ingat la kawan, kan?

Monday, November 20, 2006

Dating Is Good for the Soul

Dating isn't just a road to marriage -- it's spiritually good for you, too.

By Donna Freitas

Donna FreitasIt's Friday. You have a 7 p.m. date scheduled with someone you've had your eye on for a while—he's smart, good-looking, and funny. Just for kicks, you visit a fortune-teller for the inside scoop on your future with this guy. At first, the seer's words lull you into what feels like eternal bliss: this date has great potential.

But she doesn't stop there, and your steadily growing excitement is suddenly crushed like that scary bug you saw on the bathroom floor the night before. Apparently, after two years of relationship paradise, something will shift. Eventually, you will go your separate ways. Your once fluttering heart drops like a stone through your body.

Unfortunately for many singles, if someone could give us a damage/risk assessment for every possible date, we'd probably choose to remain at home alone in front of the TV instead of going out with anyone. Lurking behind the innocent question "Do you want to go for coffee?" lies the hope that this date will turn out to be a soul mate, that you will be compatible, and that you will build a future together.

Dating has spiritual value

Our culture's obsession with marriage only furthers the idea that dating should be for the sake of marriage. This view of dating can easily make us forget that dating has spiritual value in and of itself. We need to stop focusing on its potential for marriage and accept its temporary nature. Dating can help us to grow spiritually -- if we allow it to.

While it is not quite friendship and not quite marriage, dating shares similar qualities with both types of relationships. Through all of these relationships we learn about other people, and in turn about ourselves, who we are, what we like and dislike, and what it means to be in a good or not-so-good relationship.

The spark of intimacy that turns a dinner with a friend into a date is the same spark that holds the seeds of spiritual possibility.

Divine intimacy

Countless theologians and spiritual figures understand setting out on a spiritual path as waking up to the possibility of divine intimacy, an experience “sparked” in much the same way our interest in dating another person begins. Upon discovering God, Methodism founder John Wesley described his heart as strangely warmed, Catholic theologian Bernard Lonergan talked of suddenly falling in love and seeing the world anew, and the Persian poet Kahlil Gibran, urges that "when love beckons to you, follow him." Hafiz, the fourteenth-century Sufi master and poet, described loving God as if a game of tag. In playing, God flirtatiously tags us as "It."

As with divine love, going out on a date is like an invitation to mystery: the mystery being both the other person, as well as the depths within ourselves we have yet to discover. Dating encourages us to take leaps of faith into the unknown, to invest ourselves, even for a short time, in the idea of a relationship, in opening ourselves up to someone new, and in presenting ourselves in our best form.

There's no denying that heartbreak is part of the deal, as it is with any relationship -- marital, friendly, and even divine. No relationship comes with a guarantee, not even a godly one. A broken heart is not an indication that God is punishing us; it is the very human experience of knowing that we have loved, an experience foundational to spiritual growth, one that can lead to a deepening relationship with the divine, and a growing understanding within ourselves of what it means to love another.

Forget the need to know the future

If we allow it to, dating can encourage self-transcendence, asking of us that we forget the constant need to know the future, encouraging us instead to see another person as an end in themselves. Our contemporary dating sensibilities too often make us forget about the person before us in favor of the aisle we hope to walk down some time in the future. Rather than seeing our date as a person worth at least an hour of conversation, we instead subject them to our respective checklists and interview them as a means to another end: for the job as our future mate, forgetting the tried and true religious teaching of treating someone else as we would wish to be treated, as worthy of an investment of our time.

So, when 7 p.m. rolls around and your date comes by, reconsider your approach to the man or woman knocking on the door. We would do well to take the advice of that fourteenth century Sufi poet, and bask in the idea that at least for the night, we've been tagged as "It." We are free to learn, share, and grow, whether it lasts the evening, or a lifetime.

P/S: Some girls are paranoid when guys ask them to go out on date. (Duhh...we men don't ask girls to marry tomorrow after the casual date, ok?) That I know.

Monday, November 13, 2006

The Pursuit of Happiness

Don't ever let somebody tell you, you can't do something. Not even me, allrite?

You gotta dream, you gotta protect it. People can't do something themselves. They wanna tell you, "You can't do it".

You want something, go get it. Period.

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

Setulus Bahasa

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Dalam surat khabar hujung minggu baru-baru ni, Ramli MS ada memberi komen tentang peranan bahasa dalam muzik. Lebih-lebih lagi pada senikata lagu orang Melayu kita. Katanya, lagu dulu-dulu banyak nasihat dan kaya dengan kehalusan seni bahasa. Berbanding dengan lagu sekarang, ianya ada banyak bercirikan puitis. Kata orang muda, ianya 'jiwang'.

Kusangka aur di pinggir tebing
Kiranya tebu di pinggir bibir
Kusangka jujur pancaran batin
Rupanya palsu penghias zahir

Kukira hati jiwa nurani
Suci seindah wajah terbayang
Kukira puji seikhlas budi
Kulupa lidah tidak bertulang


Aku berkesempatan mendengar lagu-lagu Melayu asli masa pulang dari Kuala Krai ke Kuala Lumpur. Bayangkan 6, 7 jam dalam kereta sambil dengan lagu nyanyian Tan Sri SM Salim semasa konsert yang diadakan bersama MPO dulu.

Lagu-lagu dulu memang banyak selitkan unsur-unsur nasihat. Terutama dalam perjalanan hidup, baik sebagai orang muda mahu pun sebagai seorang yang sudah 'veteran'. Tapi tak kurang juga lagi-lagu lama yang 'jiwang'. Jiwang orang dulu-dulu tak sama dengan jiwang orang zaman sekarang. Kata mak pada seorang kawan aku dulu, orang dulu-dulu kalau rindukan seseorang, biar dapat tengok atap rumah orang tu pun jadilah. Orang zaman sekarang, bila rindukan seseorang, di sms nya orang tu sampai habis kredit. Tak pun, sampai habis bateri cellphone.

Di manis gula semut binasa
Kail berduri bersalut umpan

Di manis kata insan terlena

Kerana budi, hamba terkorban


Inikah dia, lakonan hidup

Di pentas dunia, insan berpura

Tipu dan daya pencapai maksud

Budi dan harta merangkum noda - Tak Seindah Wajah, Tan Sri SM Salim


Dulu-dulu, orang kita suka gunakan bahasa berlapik. Bahasanya halus tapi makan dalam. Bunyinya hormat tapi maksudnya sampai jauh ke perdu hati. Itulah orang dulu-dulu kata, "Tak paham bahasa!", maksudnya dah habis bersembur air liur nak berlapik cakap tapi tak faham-faham juga. Elok ditampar ajer! Eh, eh, eh...tak lah macam tu. Elok disepak ajer.

Tapi orang kita zaman sekarang, oleh kerana masa berlalu dengan cepat dan kita terkejar-kejar dengan banyak urusan, boleh jadi tak sempat-sempat nak fahamkan bahasa. Sebab tu kita suka guna bahasa direct. Akhirnya kita jadi kasar. Bahasa kita jadi hambar, tiada bunganya dan tiada serinya. Bukanlah kita nak suruh berbunga-bunga selalu bahasanya. Menyampah pulak orang mendengarnya. Cuma lebih elok dan lebih manis kalau bahasa kita teratur, lembut dan bersopan.

Okay ler, nak tamatkan entry ni dengan satu lagu Melayu asli. Setulus bahasa orang kita, seindah hasratnya dan secantik gubahan lagunya.

Mohon Kasih
Ku bermohon kasih, Ku bermohon sayang
Padamu wahai kumbang
Dalam rindu kasih hamba tak berdaya
Menempuh jiwa siksa (2 x)

Kasihanilah hamba....
Merayu sehingga merana...
Wajahmu menawan hingga tertawan
Menjadi idaman (2 x)

Hai muda bistari
Kumbang madah suci
Yang menawan hati
Hamba mohon kasih, harapan nan bersih
Ku puja dikau saja (2 x)

Kasihanilah hamba
Merindu balasan darimu
Hati ku tertawan tak dapat kutahan
Engkaulah idaman

Monday, November 06, 2006

Friday, November 03, 2006

Dua hari sudah aku bermimpi. Aku rasa mimpi aku tu sangat real. Aku mimpi dia duduk di sebelah aku. Dia nampak sangat jealous dengan perempuan lain yang cuba bermanja dengan aku. Jadi dia pun rapatkan dirinya pada aku as in she wants to show, "He is mine!".

Aku pun tersedar dari tidur aku. Terbaring kat katil sambil blur-blur tengok siling bilik aku. Aku still terasa pipi aku disentuh oleh pipi dia. Rasa sangat real. Wonder if that is a glimpse of future, or it was my deepest desire? God knows the truth.

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

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I am attracted to the dialogue in the movie Kingdom of Heaven, when Balian told the Princess of Jerusalem, "Your brother's kingdom is here (pointing at his head) and here (pointing at his heart)".

I can't hardly argue with him that what he claimed about Jerusalem or in fact, any country, is true. The real kingdom is actually started from its basic foundation, which is us. The very human whom populate the kingdom. The definition of kingdom or country changes from time to time. Centuries ago, kingdom is defined as having its owner and its boundary. Today it may require more than those two.

I am a firm believer that a leader should lead the people with his heart and manage the country with his wisdom and intellects. Those are rare qualities which we can't find among our leaders nowadays.

How I wish this country will be kingdom of conscience...

"A King may move a man, a father may claim a son, but remember that even when those who move you be Kings, or men of power, your soul is in your keeping alone. When you stand before God, you cannot say, "But I was told by others to do thus." Or that, "Virtue was not convenient at the time." This will not suffice. Remember that". - King of Jerusalem, Kingdom of Heaven

Monday, October 30, 2006

A Simple Meeting

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Yesterday I attended Anwar Ibrahim's open house in Bukit Damansara. Once again, I was being introduced to him by a friend and apparently, he remembers me still from our first meeting in the civil court last year. I was a bit speechless for not knowing the right thing to say to him. We were standing quite close to each other and facing each other. Except there was a guy who frequently wanted to come in between the two of us. I found that guy was very annoying. Plus, he smelled bad too. Must be Anwar's bodyguard though!

Anwar looks a bit old. Yes, I know he is old but there is something missing from him. I couldn't figure out what it is but I knew for sure, something is not there with him that day. He usually appears looking fresh and vibrant but somehow, he wasn't like that day.

Anwar has been my political idol since I was in high school. Since the days he was the Ketua Pemuda UMNO. What happen to him after he was sacked was very influential to my political standing. It fortifies my understanding about the political impact on my personal belief. I got a chance to communicate with him through letters when I was a student in America. Getting answers straight from the ex deputy prime minister is something you don't get every day in your mailbox. I received three letters from him and the last letter started with this sentence, "Soalan-soalan yang pelbagai dari saudara seringkali memaksa saya berfikir panjang untuk menjawabnya...". That I could not forget for rest of my life. :)

I always believe that Malaysia can be a better place to live. A better place to create honest friendship and the right place to do business without prejudice and bias.

Unfortunately, due to our past leaders' bad attitudes and wrong decision, they have led us to be a passive and reactive country. We react to many incident with narrow minded and only on lip service per se. We hardly deal with any matter vis-a-vis.

For instance, the incident of Dato Zakaria of Pandamaran, Klang, has certainly shown the quality of our leader. I feel ashamed of having Malay leader like himself. I feel ashamed towards my fellow Chinese and Indian friends in Klang for having him as their representative.

Kalau Takut Dengan Risiko, Jangan Bicara Soal Perjuangan

How much I wish there are many people who share the same aspiration like Anwar has. I did write somewhere in my blog about Anwar's spirit. His courage to show defiance towards injustice and corruptions in this country had cost him many sacrifices. He should be the societal symbol for fighting injustice in our motherland.

However, that alone couldn't be the reason for us to put him above than anyone else. He can come and go. He will die someday. That is the fact. But the real fact that we must sincerely admit is, who will continue his struggle? Who want to assume his role in this country?

I don't know how to answer the question. I'm just doing my part, step by step. By God's will, if we all work together and forget the differences which divide us, we can make our beautiful country a very much better place to live. Not only for us, but for our children as well.

p/s: Starting in December, I will be giving free tution to PMR and SPM students of Rumah Anak Yatim Bakawali in Taman Melawati. Who wants to join me, feel free to contact me through this blog.

Saturday, October 28, 2006

Satu Hari di Hari Raya...

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Aku melayan anak-anak sedara...tengok movie hantu Siam.

Monday, October 23, 2006

Sangap Di Kuala Krai

Hari ni dah masuk hari ketiga berada di Kuala Krai. Esok aku akan menyambut hari raya. Still aku tak rasa happening, atau pun pening. Cuma biasa-biasa ajer. Dah masuk dua hari juga aku lenjan motor atuk aku, dok keliling pekan Kuala Krai. Sempoi.

Sebenarnya aku pergi cari cyber cafe. Kemaruk nak check e-mail lah, kemaruk nak layan blog lah, kemaruk nak baca BBC News lah. Macam-macam kemaruk.

Pagi tadi aku pergi ke pasar Kuala Krai. Mak aku dok suruh aku cari carrot, bunga kubis and putik jagung. Hmmm..tak pernah lagi pergi sendiri ke pasar kat sini. So aku dengan penuh inisiatifnya meng'explore' pasar tu sendiri. Menarik jugaklah tengok pasar kat sini. Besides, aku dah sangat lama tak buat groceries. Aku enjoy beli barang-barang dapur masa aku di Penn State dulu. Rasa seronok dapat pilih-pilih ayam ke..ikan ke..sayur-sayuran ke. Itu dulu la kan. Sekarang ni, enjoy gitu-gitu ajer.

Sempat jugak dok belek-belek tudung, kain sarung, butang baju melayu etc. Aku teringat kat Seri lak. Dia pernah nak kirim tudung kalau aku balik Kelantan. Masa dok usya-usya harga tudung, giler babeng terkejut aku dibuatnya. Ingatkan tudung cokia murah jek. Rupanya dekat-dekat nak 50 hengget sehelai! Okaylah...dapat jugak la aku sambar sehelai tudung untuk Seri. Itu pun lepas almost semua kedai kat situ aku visit. Check and compare the price. In fact, kalau boleh aku nak suruh tokey kedai tu keluarkan quotation untuk aku. Tapi tu stok melampau la kan? Nak beli tudung pun macam nak buat bisnes besar-besar..giler yahudi! Dapat jugak la harga yang aku rasa boleh tahan lepas aku tawar-tawar dengan makcik kat bazar tu. Ikut ati, cam malas jek nak tawar sebab aku memang tak pandai tawar harga. Apa yang dia letak situ, ituler yang aku bayar. Tapi pengalaman tengok orang menawar kaw-kaw punya masa tengok Seri tawar harga sandal. Giler dia ketok pakcik peniaga sandal kat pasar malam tu. Stok kagum la aku dibuatnya.

Mungkin sebelum aku balik ke KL, aku nak melawat Hamizah di rumahnya. Tanah Merah dengan Kuala Krai taklah jauh sangat. Tapi kalau aku dok evaluate traffic situation, macam payah nak sampai ajer. Orang kelantan ni ramai sangat dok kat luar negeri. Time bila raya, abih pakat semua balik ke Kelantan. Of course jadi traffic jam kat jalan. Kita tengok ajer lah macam mana ya.

Kawan kite di Australia dah pun sambut hari raya. Esok dia ada exam. Kesian, nak buat lagu mana? Dah cenggitu nasib student kat oversea. Meh kita sama-sama doakan dia berjaya dalam exam eh?

Friday, October 20, 2006

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Saya nak ucapkan Selamat Hari Raya kepada semua. Mohon maaf zahir dan batin pada sesiapa yang saya kecilkan hatinya, yang saya terkasar bahasa dengannya atau pun yang terkurang ajar dengannya. Kalau ada sesiapa yang rasa tak berpuas hati dan mahu bersemuka dengan saya, bagitaulah saya cepat-cepat sebelum saya pulang ke Kuala Krai pada hari Ahad ni selepas waktu bersahur.

Mohon maaf pada kawan di Australia sebab saya buat dia marah pada saya, sebab buat dia terasa kecik ati dengan saya and sebab buat dia rasa dangkal dengan saya. Terima kasih banyak-banyak kerana bersabar dengan saya. Saya sangat-sangat menghargai kesabaran anda. Awak selalu ada dalam doa saya.

Mohon maaf pada kakak kawan di Kuala Terengganu sebab buat dia rasa marah dan juga kurang senang pada saya. Saya manusia biasa saja, cuma lakukan terbaik untuk beroleh hasil yang terbaik. Kadang-kala tersilap langkah, tersungkur juga. Mohon maaf, usahlah marah berpanjangan ya kawan?

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Pada rakan semua, jemputlah datang berhari raya di rumah raya. Apa yang ada, itulah yang saya akan sajikan. Duit raya pun tak dapat nak bagi banyak. Hari raya untuk meraikan kemenangan, bukan membuat 'pelaburan'. Hehehehehe....

Sunday, October 15, 2006

Aku BOSAN


Your Seduction Style: Ideal Lover



You seduce people by tapping into their dreams and desires.

And because of this sensitivity, you can be the ideal lover for anyone you seek.

You are a shapeshifter - bringing romance, adventure, spirituality to relationships.

It all depends on who your with, and what their vision of a perfect relationship is.

Friday, October 13, 2006

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Kat McDonald KLIA.

"Cepat teka..baper umur kakak McD ni?".
"Haa..dia ni mesti umur 20 punya!".
"Abang rasa dia umur 18 kot".
"Dik, dik...adik umur baper ek?".

"Saya kat tengah-tengah. 19. Atas 18, bawah 20".

"Mizah, kat situlah abang duduk dengan dia. Sampai sekarang abang ingat lagi tau".
"Iye? Elehhh...".

Kat kedai minyak wangi.

"Abang F*rid, Mizah suka tau perfume Bvlgari tu. Yang botol tu".
"Okay. And then?".
"Ye lah, suka yang botol tu".
"Hmm..kalau dah suka, beli ajer lah. Hehehe..beli sendirik!".

"Mane yang kertas-kertas tester tu? Mizah nak simpan dalam purse nih".
"Nak buat apa? Buat kumpul sampah ajer!".
"Ehh..mane ade! Nanti wangi la purse nih".
"Gila!".

On the way to Domestic Flight Gate.

"Mizah nye baju ni aneh lah!".
"Eh...mana ada laa. Kat Jepun, ni kira biasa aper?!".
"Entah, abang rasa pelik. Ada ke panjang sampai atas lutut. Aneh, ishhh!!!".

Hahahah..aku suka melayan adik aku. Nak-nak bila time dia berkira sangat dengan aku. Seronok kenakan dia balik!

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Adik aku akan balik dari Jepun esok. Dia sampai di KLIA dalam jam 5 petang cenggitu. Aku akan berbuka puasa dengan dia kat KLIA. Hmm..lama tak jumpa dia. Dalam dekat-dekat nak setahun gitu. Balik ajer dia dah nak pau satay hj samuri dari aku. Hmm..tak kisahlah. Bukannya selalu belanja orang makan satay, kan?

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Actually a few weeks before birthday aku, aku dengan adik aku ada gaduh sikit. Bukan gaduh lah. It's more like berselisih faham. Sampai masa birthday aku pun dia tak wish happy birthday. Isk isk isk..sedey gak lah (saje nak bagik dia rasa bersalah ni kalo dia baca nih!). Reason berselisih faham tu sebenarnya agak remeh temeh lah. So lepas aku ada arguement dengan dia tu, aku pun gave a long stare at my laptop and began to write quiet a lengthy email to her.

If there is any wisdom in that message, i'd like to share it here.

This is for hamizah.

Dear dik,
I know you are facing tough question. It is one of the important questions ever thrown to you in your entire life. You are at the crossroad. Everybody has gone to that place. Myself including.

At the moment, you feel the heat comes from every angle. You also feel the pressure is building up and it presses you. You feel trapped. You feel small. But let me tell you dik, everything that you feel right now is just in your head. They aren't real. They will be real if you let them be real. Unfortunately, knowing you, you will feel week and brain dead.

Hey....Let me remind you, "be brave, be courageous".

Sometimes life doesn't deliver to us of what we want. Instead, we must show to ourself that we control our life. Not the life itself. We are the captains of our fate. Have faith in what you are doing and by God's willing, everything will start to fall into its rightfully place.

I was reminded by my senior design lecturer, Prof Nedwick, "Guys, if you ever remember anything from my class. Just take this, if it doesn't kill you...it will only make you stronger!". I pass you his wisdom so that you can keep this close to your heart and understand that nothing will or can stop you from achieving what you want in your life. Don't let other people make you feel small.

You can be as big as you want in your imagination. All you need to have is faith upon yourself. It will subconsciously project to your surrounding via your believe. I went through that. I know it is not easy. But I can tell you one thing; the final result is the feeling of relief! How do you feel when you feel relief? You feel good, aren't you? Yes...you feel good.

So dik, be calm. Do simple calculation of every step you want to make. Sometimes you just have to close your eyes and hope your feet land on safe land. Sometimes it does but sometimes, it doesn't. You don't have to know it all but you must be ready. Only by doing that, success will be with you!

If you need support, you know where to find me. Wake me up at 3 am or buzz me at 3 pm when I'm busy with my business. I will still entertain you. You know that I'll be your number 1 supporter. If you ever decide to give up, that simply means I don't do a good job. That means I have failed you as your brother. Don't let me fail in doing my duty. Just don't do it.

Pick up the challenge. Jack up your spirit. Have faith you can conquer your fate and you life will change. Take the risk and you will see, there are many options table in front of you. Spread your wings and soar to the air.

I wish you good luck and I bid you all the best. Have faith, have belief. God won't give you anything you can't handle. Trust the Big Boss, ok? Take care and love always be with you.

abg f*rid
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Monday, October 09, 2006

Oh well SB, please arrest me if you think this article is less worthy to be read. But you know what, screw you! I am much patriotic than you riot-mongering people.

I welcome all the learned audience to read this and understand the underlying issue with our country.


Grooming the next generation of leaders
M Bakri Musa

JACK Welch, the retired legendary chief executive of GE, related his less-than-pleasant task before leaving office of personally telling the three or four other capable candidates under him that they were not his choice to succeed him.

There are two points to this observation. The obvious is that GE under Welch had no shortage of capable talent for the top slot; the second, Welch's acute sense of obligation (and class) to let the other accomplished contenders hear the bad news first and directly from him.

A common lament to my recent call for Abdullah Badawi to step down was the lack of solid candidates to succeed him, best expressed by one of the government's backbencher in Parliament. Although when he said it, Zaid Ibrahim was merely trying to praise Abdullah Badawi, however awkwardly.

Grooming the next tier of leaders is one responsibility many leaders do not pay sufficient attention. Of all the prime ministers, only Tunku Abdul Rahman had acquitted himself well on this point; he had the capable Tun Razak. (Photo: Razak with Mao Tse Tung during the former's visit to Peking)

Razak and Ismail - dynamic duo

For a while Tun Razak had Dr Ismail as deputy prime minister. It reflected favourably not only on the calibre of these two distinguished Malaysians but also the prevailing climate in Umno at the time that the two worked well together, the skills and personality of one complementing the other. In the political climate of today's Umno, there would be endless intrigues and Machiavellian maneuverings.

Their smooth rhythm was shattered with the unexpected death of Dr Ismail. It could not have come at the worse possible time for Tun Razak, for he was at the time fighting his own personal battle against a deadly cancer. This fact was concealed from the public; Dr Ismail was one of the few whom Tun Razak had confided his innermost secret.

That was the kind of trust and confidence they had in one another, a combination and display rarely seen anywhere, or since.

Tun Razak displayed his astuteness in spotting talent on other than Dr Ismail. The late Tun used his trips to the districts as opportunities to size up junior officers. He enticed many into politics, including some whose talent could easily have been overlooked because of their earlier less-than-stellar academic performance in school. Abdullah Ahmad for example, became his personal assistant. Later following the Tun's death and the shift of political wind, Abdullah Ahmad was jailed under the Internal Security Act.

Talent, like water, finds its own level. On his release, Abdullah Ahmad went on to Cambridge; he later served as Special Ambassador to the United Nations. The Tun also saw the talent in one young Dr Mahathir, and quickly brought him back into Umno's fold after the Tunku had expelled him earlier.

Not all of Tun Razak's choices were right, of course. Struggling with his own lethal battle, we could readily excuse his choosing Hussein Onn to replace Dr Ismail. Hussein's subsequent tenure as prime minister was a forgettable one, but he had one enduring legacy: his choice of a deputy.

Selecting Mahathir was Hussein's greatest contribution. It was ironic that later in the midst of Umno's internal squabbles he would repudiate what turned out to be his wisest decision!

To be sure, Hussein did not make that prescient choice on his own. The three then Umno vice-presidents had essentially given him an ultimatum to pick one of them. It was a reflection of Hussein's personal weakness and lack of leadership that he did not tell them off for usurping his prerogative.

Hussein displayed other ineptness as prime minister. Mahathir found out about his lucky future not directly from Hussein but through the latter's press conference. Presumably the other two vice-presidents heard their piece of unhappy news likewise. Hussein lacked class in not personally informing them in private ahead of time.

Practice does not make perfect

Mahathir had three deputy prime ministers before Abdullah Badawi. The principle that practice makes perfect obviously eluded Mahathir, for he now openly regrets his choice. Instead of ruminating over it, he is trying hard to remedy the situation.

In picking Abdullah, Mahathir, like Hussein before him, did not venture beyond party tradition. Mahathir limited his choice to only the sitting Umno veeps. By anointing Abdullah and discouraging contests in the two top slots (in the name of party 'tradition') Mahathir denied Umno members their voice. More crucially, he denied the party a wider selection and the collective wisdom of its membership.

It is a delicious irony that while Mahathir endlessly exhorted Malays to break free from the suffocating bounds of our traditions, he was unable to liberate himself from the strictures of his own party!

Mahathir has one redeeming trait: determination. When he discovered late that Anwar Ibrahim was wanting as a would-be successor, he did not hesitate in correcting the error even though it was painful to him (and also Anwar), his party, and nation.

Whether Mahathir would be successful in rectifying this latest blunder (in selecting Abdullah) remains to be seen. He is now older and, more significantly, out of office. The only power he has is his considerable influence, personal conviction, and, not to be lightly dismissed, good health. Those are the very qualities lacking in Abdullah Badawi.

Abdullah's 'Mr Clean' facade

Abdullah's public piety and 'Mr Clean' image is nothing more than a shrewdly crafted facade. The man's character does not justify those descriptions.

Take his piety. Soon after becoming prime minister, he unashamedly indulged in a grand gesture of being Imam by leading his ministers in a widely publicised congregational prayer. The latest had him leading an even larger group after breaking fast. These are nothing more than a crass attempt at evoking the powerful images of our great Caliphs, giants who were not only political but also spiritual leaders.

Malaysians forget (or more correctly were never reminded) that Islamic Studies was not Abdullah's first choice. He stumbled upon it because he could not handle the mathematics to pursue economics. Then, as today, Islamic Studies was a dumping ground for those not inclined for or incapable of rigorous academic pursuit.

Likewise his 'Mr Clean' image; he never had the opportunity before! Now that he is prime (and finance) minister, he is furiously making up for lost time.

All previous prime ministers were magnanimous upon assuming office by pardoning prisoners, especially those held under the ISA. Abdullah granted none; so much for the charity of his Islam Hadhari.

As for his humility and frugality, this was a man who would not move into the official residence until it had undergone multimillion-dollar renovations. Apparently the décor was not up to his exquisite taste! To think that he could not even afford a house when he was dropped as a minister a while back.

Such profligacy reflects an aesthetic sophistication of a Marcos rather than the Kennedy.

The late Tun Razak agonised over putting in a swimming pool for his young children at the old Sri Perdana. He did not have to brag or publicise his frugality, humility, or piety. The fact that Abdullah has to means that he is anything but.

It is not just the citizens who were taken in by Abdullah's carefully cultivated public persona, even the hardnosed Mahathir too bought into it. Mahathir mistook the man's eager nodding to mean agreement when actually Abdullah was merely bidding his time as a raccoon would for the farmer to leave the chicken coup. Mahathir now publicly calls his successor a chronic liar. Any self-respecting man would take deep offence to that; Abdullah took it in stride.

Prevention always better than remediation

Jack Welch offers many insights on preventing such succession errors and the more general lesson of grooming the next tier of leaders. On his frequent visits to the periphery, Welch would ask his divisional heads to identify their promising junior officers. He would then size them up personally to see whether he agree with their superior's assessment. Additionally he would them what they were doing to nurture those talent.

Whenever promising candidates were fast-tracked, Welch would also reward their immediate superiors. That would encourage them and others to develop the talent under them. It would also prevent the dirty trick prevalent in the Malaysian civil service where promising subordinates would be sent to obscure postings lest they become a threat to their superiors.

The civil service has an elaborate process for evaluating officers, but it is done in secret. When I was in government service, I made it a point to discuss my report with my young doctors individually and in private. There would be no point to the exercise if they were denied the valuable feedback. My senior colleagues pointedly told me that I was breaching the civil service code.

Such sessions benefited both parties; I had occasions to change my evaluations following them. Far from being dyspeptic encounters, they permitted me to know my junior officers better. Today I still get letters and e-mails from them, even those whom my evaluations had been less-than-rosy. I also bask in the reflected glory when they shine, especially those whom I had given glowing reports.

Had Malaysian leaders followed Welch's example, they would now enjoy the luxury of having an abundance of leadership talent, and the nation would be spared the present embarrassment.

Friday, October 06, 2006

Baru saja lepas berbual dengan mama di telefon. Mama sekeluarga hari ni berbuka puasa di rumah Tok Mak. Alah, bukannya jauh sangat rumah Tok Mak. Setakat depan rumah ajer. Seronok dapat berbual dengan mama sebab aku dah lama tak datang melawat dia di rumah. Ada banyak juga benda yang nak dibualkan dengan Mama.

Mungkin kalau jumpa Babah nanti, boleh juga kenen-kenen dia untuk ajarkan aku main golf. Yeah, another new game to learn. Sebenarnya bukan aku beriya sangat nak belajar main golf ni, tapi dah ada orang dok suruh-suruh. Dia kata mana tahu, boleh main golf dengan ayah dia pulak one day. Satu kerja pulak!

Mama pernah juga minta datang ke rumah untuk berbuka puasa dengan family dia. And lepas berterawikh sekali. Segan aku walau pun aku dah buat rumah dia macam rumah aku sendiri ajer. Lama juga tak sembang-sembang dengan Abang, Kakak, Amer dan Ayet. Amer mesti ada banyak benda nak tunjuk kat aku tu. Riuh nak melayan budak tu.

Nantilah, lepas raya balik dari Kelantan nanti...aku datanglah. Erkk..kena bawak duit raya ke?

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

Last night I stood at the verandah. It was just passed 1 am and I just had my shower. Talking about a long day yesterday. My laptop plugged song from Ruffedge, "Bila Rindu". I gave the KL skyline a long stare. It was a clear night last night. I could see the glimmering lights from the KLCC Twin Towers as well as the glorious lights from KL Tower.

Obviously I was thinking about someone. Or perhaps something.

Anyway, I attended my friend's kenduri in Shah Alam on Sunday night. Later that night I wrote something in my diary for the event. Something nice to write about a friend.

Same Face, Different Mind

I used to know him as one mischievous lad. We met for the first time in one dormitory back 13 years ago. He was just a kid. Another kid from city. Simple and yet obnoxious sometimes. We practically grew up together in that boarding school. He maintained his 'otai' style. Perhaps, pailang would be the buzz word during that time. Later he got pulled out from the school by his dad when we were in Form Four. I heard his dad had enough of him causing troubles for the school. So then our batch was reduced to 110.

I did'nt meet him for quite a long time. I continue my life as usual, from the graduation of high school to enrolling myself in premier university in the States. Then in 2003 I flew to London just to visit old friends from school. I enjoyed myself by walking alone on the streets of London. Then one day while I had coffee in Starbuck near Marble Arch, someone came and approached me. He looked tall and dark skin. At first, I thought he was an African American. What surprised me was his language. He spoke Malay.

"Excuse me, ni Farid ek? Farid Md Nor?".

I was taken aback. Who the heck is this guy? Then a face came to my mind, together with a name. Well, well, well...it has been 7 good years since he departed from the school and oddly, we finally stumbled each other in London. Of all places in the whole world. Weirdly enough, later he attended a private college in Philadelphia, which is 3 hours of driving away from my college but we never met up for a hang out.

But the friendship continued until today.

Today he has become a father to a cute boy. Muhammad Asyraf Ariff. And last night I was personally been invited to his humble mansion in Shah Alam to witness kenduri cukur jambul for his first born child. I felt honored and I stayed till the end of the ceremony. I saw him carried his baby with all the gentleness he had and he moved from one uncle to another and from one aunt to another. That night I saw a different guy.

The guy whom I used to know as rebellious, mischiveous and quite an obnoxious type of kid has now become a peaceful man. He looks much content and he carefully chooses decent language to hold conversation with his friends. He is more interested to create friendship rather than creating enemies. In addition to that, he dazzles us with his wisdom. I never know that he too, has become somewhat religious and constantly improves his knowledge in religion based on knowledge, not the custom as we all do.

I congratulate him on his new born baby and I wish he will become the best father to his child, the best husband to his wife and the best friend for all of us, SASsian 9397. Congratulation again, Irwan Ariff b Dato Ir. Mohd Zain aka Ude. Looking forward to seeing the next baby comes up! :D

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

Well, Let's Talk About Sex

Yes, sex is indeed a topic of discussion. Don't worry, everyone is allowed to think and to think aloud (errr..am I quoting Jeff Ooi?). Please admit that not a single soul here has never discussed sex before. Or at least, arguing on the subject matter at least once in their lifetime. Many people approach sex in a disgusting manner. Albeit many would agree that sex is not exactly what is being depicted in the adult movies. Sex, in a simple word, is a lifestyle. It is a way of human being manifests his love. And of course, it must be contained.

Okay, let's talk about something relevant to us nowadays. I've heard many stories about sex. Particularly about pre-marital sex. I personally listen to a story of a guy who had sex with a tudung-clad lady. That is one of his stories. I'm sure there's a lot more to come. Another story of a girl slept with two different guys. To add more to the list, a lady personally told me of her story having sex with her boyfriend for more than once and that has been going on for quite sometimes. At the end of the day, I can only ask myself, am I the only one who is still virgin in KL?

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My friend is in Kementerian Perdagangan Dalam Negeri & Hal Ehwal Pengguna claimed that his department is constantly raiding porn vcd stalls and they seized self-made VCD porn a lot. Particularly made by our Malay youth. I guess our Malay ladies are in demand for acting in adult vcd (should they make it into reality show here?). Maybe they can earn well above their means as compare to what their fellow friends who get money from PTPTN. Ah, I can't blame them after all. "Siapa bilang gadis Melayu tak menawan", right?

And now the Parliament is arguing on Sex Education. Really, do we need a sex education course in our academic syllabus? You've got to be honest with this. Aren't we supposed to learn about this since early age. Maybe for guys when they first get their wet dream and for ladies, when they first get their period.

Why people are getting so excited about sex? Why they want to venture into sex? For one thing I can tell you off the hook is that, sex is pleasure. Sex is good. Unless it is a forced sex like rape. Our young people are inquisitive in nature. They think casual sex is a trend nowadays. Frankly I don't think so.

For me, sex is pure. It has to stem from the feeling of responsibility plus a sense of love from two consenting adults. Okay, some may argue that people in love can be two consenting adults and practically okay to have sex. Nay, that's not exactly what I mean. I mean, for you to get into sex, it takes more than love. It takes responsibility (translates it into a marriage institution). Responsibility for the other person than yourself. That is love.

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Studies in Malaysia shows that there are three main reasons why people divorce. These three popular reasons are money, sex and family affairs. Most couple do not discuss the issue of sex openly with their spouse, fearing that this will invoke the feeling of embarrasment for either party (could the pre-ejaculation be the real issue here?). Hell, why do we have to discuss this? Our parents never discuss this. And so did our grandparents. Well, I tell you what. We need to break this tradition. We've got to be transparent but tactful in discussing this issue. The family harmony is in stake.

People are doing casual sex in secret hideout think that this is thrilling. But I tell you what, it is more thrilling to know that the girl you bonk with do not get her period after few weeks having sex with you. Then you start to sweat alot!

The key point here is the openness to discuss this. I know it's a taboo to talk about sex. But for how long? Sometimes we just have to break the tradition. We don't talk sex for lust. We talk sex from the standpoint of academic. It has to start from home. We do not need the Parliament to decide the issue. We have to make sure that when it comes to certain age, boys and girls will have some restrictions. The mothers can tell stories to their young girls. The fathers can share some tips with their sons.

It has to start somewhere somehow. If you guys have any more good ideas, feel free to share. As I said, thinking is allowed here.

Monday, September 25, 2006

Last night I had a chat with Didie. Didie complained that some juniors think she is a snobbish and an awfully garang senior. She said, they just judge her through her physical look. Well, I don't agree with them at all. I know this lady since the first day she landed in the States. Erm, that didn't sound quite right. I know her since a few days before she left M'sia for Penn State. At that time her family was quite worried because she had dengue fever. And later, when she arrived, I still remember her sick face when she was stranded in Philadelphia International Airport.

So here I attached some photos of her while I was there.

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I must say that she is among the most hearty juniors I have while I was in Penn State though. She and Mahirah baked brownies for my birthday. She came to me when she had problems with Awie (actually that's how they two got together..heheheh). That I can remember clearly. Some people say that our face look alike. Okay, I really doubt on that one though!


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See, if you want to know people, you've got to go beyond taking a glance on them. Make friends with them. Ask them questions about themselves, about their families and about their friends. Who knows, you could be in the same crowd or in the same circle of friends. Besides, this world is too small for another fight. No?

I guess it is okay to say it here. I realize that my juniors in PSU are growing mature and becoming more sophisticated. However, through my eyes, I still view them as 19 year old juniors because that was when I first met them. During that time, they asked me a lot for direction and guides to adapt in college life. Of course, I felt more than welcome to be their guide, be their senior and most important of all, be their abang. I felt it was like a responsibility for me to care and to nurture them. Yup I know, not many of them got really close to me after they reach sophomore year but a few still maintain such relationship.

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So my attitudes towards them are still maintained even up till today. I still want to know what's going on in their life. How's the life has been treating them in the States. Who is the new person in their life. How's the family in M'sia. We often share those things back in Penn State because it was such a small community back then.

That is why I keep communicating with them even until today. The memory spent together cannot be easily removed. Eventhough the time still continues and the age is still rising, for me, they are still 19 year old. And I like to keep it that way. :)

Friday, September 22, 2006

Last night I went through all my digital video files which I had kept since my college days. Well, there are few of them still left intact. One of them is the RA Formal Night Dinner. It was good to see all the familiar faces in that video. Not to mention, my date for that night is Shahida. She's real good at dancing. So I decided to re-edit and make the file smaller here so you guys can watch it. It's only 3 MB worth of file (after edited for web-streaming).



If you guys are lucky, you might catch me and Shahida danced in the video. That was the first time I danced in public, and hopefully would be the last one.

p/s: Oh, did I tell you guys that I went to jazz restaurant last week? Good singer, Noryn Aziz!

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

the strongest thing in the world often seems the weakest, for instance
gentleness is stronger than cruelty,
patience is stronger than impatience,
mercy is stronger than revenge,
love is stronger than hate


This is the saying on my 20" Apple Cinema Display in the so-called office. It will be my reminder and remedy for feeling miserable these few days.

I don't think I have enough sleep since last week. I constantly woke up in the middle of night around 3 to 4 am. Something is bothering my mind. I could only sleep after the subuh comes in, which made me wake up at right at 11.02 am. Yep, it does sound ridiculous but it does happen.

"Saat tak seorang pun yang faham perasaanmu, berlarilah kepada Nya"

So when my eyes opened during those times, I would reach for Along's TIME magazine, ASTRO magazine, my own paperwork and proposals, Along's National Geography magazine and the newspaper. My last resort - read the quran and perform solat.

Hmmm..Ramadhan is coming closer. Does forgiveness await me in this coming holy month?

Monday, September 18, 2006

Undelivered Message

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Loved , and you'll be loved. Seek to understand, and you will be understood. Listen, and your voice will be heard.

I saw that on my sister's YM. I couldn't disagree more with her. Sometimes I do ponder how exactly can I deliver the message to the other soul that I truly care about her. The word care alone doesn't really convey the real message. To say the four-alphabet-word would be a retroactive act, at least for now.

But how to convey the message if the communication channel is closed. This is a real challenge. I am facing a solid wall in front of me.

So after the Isya'a prayer I had a monologue with my Creator. I'd ask, can I make a trade with You? A 'tawasul', if I may. Like in the story of three people behind the closed cave. What if You grant me one du'a with all the good deeds I did in the past? The deeds which I never ask for any return. The deeds which I did for the sake of helping others to improve themselves and get themselves out of scarcity.

And I left the praying mat with a full and clear conscience. My intention is pure and noble. I won't let anything, especially the trivial issues to bog me down and stop me from pursuing my intention. So, help me God.

Saturday, September 16, 2006

Ideas Rendered and Ideas Tendered

I went to Universiti Malaya last night. The charity organization which I joined, MIND, had been invited to participate in one of the residential colleges' activities for disabled people. There were other few prominent people being invited as well. Most of them are disabled people. I must say that I've been amazed by some of the invited guest speakers. One of them is a practising lawyer. He was a legal counsel for Bursa Saham Kuala Lumpur for 15 years and now he establishes his own legal firm. What is more interesting about this person is that he is blind for all this while. Now he is developing his own career after leaving BSKL for good.

Very much interesting eh?

Yes, I'm always inspired when I see this kind of spirit. The spirit of independence. The spirit of enlightened. He sees lights when people around him see dark future for him. He reacts in kindness without being judgemental towards his audience. I can feel his warmth and his loving personality while I chatted with him. Yes, we must always look and find that goodness in people. Regardless whoever is he or she.

Unfortunately, I couldn't spend much time there because the clock was ticking to almost 12 o'clock midnight.

On the way home, my mind could'nt escape from keep thinking about the idea I threw to my ex-deputy principal back in school. Now he is the principal for Sek. Sains Alam Shah (I always abhor the idea of putting the word Sains in front of Alam Shah). I told him that I want to initiate a project. I need 10 students who are the lowest in their batch, either academically or socially. I said, I want to help these students. I do this out of my conscience and I don't ask anything for return. I want to carry out my social obligation solemnly. Previously, I tried once with Rumah Anak Yatim Tunku Budriah but there was too much of red tapes that I needed to go through. So i cancelled that plan. This time, I went straight to the source of power/influence.

"Berikan aku sepuluh belia, nescaya akan ku gegarkan dunia!" - President Soekarno of Republic Indonesia.

Yes, he said that during 'Konfrontasi Malaysia-Indonesia'. (I also recall the fact that he said,"Ganyang Malaysia!" during that trying time). That's the power of youth. It's a shame if we can't harness this power for our own advantage. For the betterment of our own society.

I believe in human potential. Anyone has potential to grow beyond than what he realizes for himself. For me, I believe in Adidas's slogan - Impossible is Nothing! I feel pity for those people who do not know how to break from his own box. I'm not saying that I'm the expert at that. I am still learning but I think, I may as well share with people of what I know about some techniques. I want to have win win situation. I don't want to see these young people get influenced into something bad. Perhaps, being 'rempit' once they graduate from high school. Or, screwing their own life by taking drugs or smoking.

Furthermore, I notice the culture of excellence is eroding very fast in my alma mater. In fact, it is eroding elsewhere to. I'm not talking about the academic excellence per se, but the excellence in achieving the maximum potential of a human.

Just imagine if these young students turn into idealists. They stand tall on their principle. Be firm on what they positively believe. They act positively upon their belief. Would't that something we want from the youth nowadays?

And I am here offering my service free of charge. No question ask.

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

Not much of Stories

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I attended Copot's wedding last week. It's kinda weird to wish Congratulation to his father. "Ermmm, ini ayah Fauzi ya? Tahniah pakcik!". I've been calling him Copot or Fa'oz for the past 9 to 10 years and all of sudden, I muttered his real name reluctantly. First because I wasn't sure if that old man is his dad. Secondly, I wasn't quite sure how to pronounce his name correctly.

We had quite a number of boys turned up that day. For the first time in this year I met with SBY* (se-bai) and Tibao*. The rest is just the same faces whenever we have wedding among our friends.

Okay, enough of the wedding stories. Now, next thing.

Yesterday we had a friendly futsal match with SASsian class of 94. They were our seniors when we were Form 2. It was a good game. I think I was a pretty good at being a goalkeeper. There were few familiar faces among the seniors. One of them is Paipon.

I remember him as one obnoxious senior in 2B4. Yeah, we were physically small back then. And he was like a coconut tree height 'pailang'. But now, he's just slightly above average height for a standard Malaysian. Not that intimidating (especially when you have lived with 2 meter tall of people for 5 years).

A few of us played a bit rough that night. Ijane the senior got tackled a few times by different players of us. Hahahaha, can't imagine if we did that when we were in school. Surely we got 'rehabilitated' in the rehabilitation room of Dato' Onn house. Then, we're fucked!

Then, there was Bob the fat guy too. Yeah, he's fat. Real fat. The reason why I remember him is not because of his fatness. It's because of one incident in Zaaba House when we were Form 2. It didn't happen to me though. It happened to my friends in Zaaba.

Bob came back to the room, shouting and yelling to the juniors, asking them to gather in the room at 11.30 pm. That is when the light goes off. The moment they turned off the lights, this guy yelled again, "Haaa..apa lagi..cepat tonggeng! Tonggeng cepat!! Aku nak toron sorang-sorang!". Geezuzzz...everyone was scare shitless!!

Hahahahaa...I guess everyone cursedg him all night long!

Yep, almost all the good stories resurfaced again when we meet familiar faces. Stories which we probably won't remember until someone reminds us again. I'll never forget those seniors who beat me when I was in school. Same goes to seniors who showed me kindness and the meaning of patience like Abg Ungku, or Abg Husyairi and a few others. I don't mind to call them abang if I stumble with them in a street.

Anyway, I won't trade my experience in all boy's boarding school with anything else in this world.

Vocabulary
SBY = Saiful Bahri Yusof
Tibao = Shahriman
Pailang = Thug
Toron = sodomize

Friday, September 08, 2006

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To dearest you, thank you for the gift. Truly appreciate it. And yes, I've bought the present for myself,"The Success Principles".

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

Wednesday is a Big Day

Well, well...now we have come to the most dreaded day, Wednesday Sept 7th. I mean, in the next few minutes lah. Tomorrow at 2.30 pm I will be doing a presentation in front of board of directors of KLIA Holdings. Hmmm...I hope not all of them would be there, especially Tan Sri. Or else I'll be cold as dead meat.

No, I'm not afraid of doing presentation. It's just that the last time I had this kinda presentation is when I was in my senior design course. In front of Prof. Nedwick, of course.

Anyway, whatever it is, after this presentation is done, I will make sure I buy a gift for myself. First because I haven't bought anything for my birthday. So I'm thinking, getting a book by John Canfield, The Success Principles, would cut it. I've been dreaming to have and to read this book since I first saw it a few months ago. This will do as my birthday present.

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Secondly, I think this would be the first time for me to get a birthday present for myself. Never in my entire life to buy present for myself. I just thought, buying thing is just the same thing; you buy stuff for yourself. No big deal. Well, this is time to change that thought, eh?

Friday, September 01, 2006

Another Year Closer to Death

Yup, can't deny that fact, can I? Anyway, thank u for those who sms me on my birthday eve. It was very thoughtful of them to sms me. For those who don't sms me, shame on you!! Hahahaha...

Well, a very special thank you goes to my friend who called me a few minutes after 12 midnite. You put smile on my face for all night long. Not to mention, I received a cute hand-made birthday card from her as well.

Tomorrow I shall attend a program in Memorial Tunku Abdul Rahman. It's scheduled to start at 9 am and I tell you what, 9 am seems very intimidating for me! My day usually starts at 11 am.

The program in Memorial Tunku Abd Rahman is supposed for the children of August 31st. I'm one of them. I've been getting their invitation for the past 4 years including this one but my parents had to reject it due to my absence. I guess now I have to come since they persistently send the invitation card to me. I wonder what do I have to do for tomorrow.

To my dear friend, you know I would invite you to come along with me if you are here! That would mean a lot for me.

Anyway, what do I think about me getting closer to death? I think everyone should start appreciate everybody in his/her life. People say, we always take things for granted. Or, take people for granted. We know today our friends are being nice to us. Sometimes they go a little bit extra for us. It is time for us to do the same to them. I'd the same to them. I would go a mile extra to friends I really care. I don't feel ashamed to tell them that I care about them. Friends around us shape our mind, our actions and our personality. They are like mirrors to us. So, why don't we return the courtesy by doing the same things they would do to us.

Oh well, if they happy to do nothing for you, they are not your good friends. And if they ridicule your ambitious ideas, it means you better leave these losers and get into another crowd which share the same values like yours. Malaysia has 24 millions of people. Be wise, be smart!

In my conclusion, be nice to people around you. If he/she treats you like star, make sure you return the same courtesy to him/her. That will make you a very much better person. I would do exactly what I preach to people. I would treat people nicely (not that I don't treat people nicely now..it's just my affirmation for future).

Don't be nasty to people without any valid reason to do so. Not good....not good!

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

Straight From the Gut

I know nowadays it is not safe to write anything you want on the net. The government recently has announced that they will punish anyone who write nasty things about government without any proof. Well, I'd say, screw that! Why the government is so paranoid about this thing? Heck, I don't know! For all I know, my freedom of speech, to voice my concern over things which involves my welfare either directly or indirectly, is guaranteed in our nation's constitution.

Oh well, that's not what I want to write about.

All I want to write is about my wish for my birthday tomorrow. I only have one wish. One wish which I have kept since the year of 'Reformasi' has started.

All I want is a sincere leader to lead the nation. A leader who is charismatic and respected by the majority and who has integrity and honesty in delivering his/her promises. He/she who puts the people before him/her and he/she who believes that he/she is the servant of people. He/she serves for the country, people and God.

I don't want Pak Lah to lead the country. I don't even want to have Mahathir to lead the country. Certainly I don't think Anwar will be the next Prime Minister. All I want, is the combination of best characters we've seen in our country's political arena; boldness of Mahathir, reformation from Anwar and errr..nothing from Pak Lah.

Is it possible?

Monday, August 28, 2006

Biar Ku Menjadi Lilin

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Biarku menjadi lilin
Memberikan cahaya
Terangi sekeliling dengan diri terbakar
Tak siapa yang sedar
Disaat kegelapan rela aku berkorban
Demi satu harapan

Biar masa berlari
Dan kau terus mendaki
Aku tenang disini dengan sabar menanti
Tanpa dendam dan benci
Andainya kau terjatuh terluka dan tersungkur
Kurawat biar sembuh

Aku tak kan bertanya
Apakah nanti balasannya
Setiap pengorbanan setiap pemberian
Demi satu ikatan

Keikhlasan dihati
Walaupun kau ragui
Pada suatu masa dan suatu ketika
Akan ketara jua

Biarku menjadi lilin
Memberikan cahaya
Saat kau kesepian saat kau kegelapan
Kurela menerangkan

Aku senang begini dapat terus berbakti
Dengan cara sendiri


One of my favourite movies is The Laws of Attraction. Yeah, another romantic comedy in my list. Anyway, this quote is taken from that movie.

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"But I do care about you. And so I will give you a divorce, gladly. Because call me old fashion, but when you love someone, I believe you should be unselfish enough to give them whatever they want. I'll be around later to pick up my things."

It happened when Audrey (Julianne Moore) asked Daniel Rafferty (Pierce Brosnan) to divorce her on the ground of losing her trust in one divorce trial. Well, both are lawyers and unfortunately, they both are lawyers appointed by different clients in the same trial case. To add more misery to it, they both are living together, as husband and wife. Pretentiously, although they both know that they are actually in love with each other. Only ego is the wall in between them.

Yeah, relationship is very complex. At one second you can be very sure where it's heading to, the next second later, all you know both of you are going separate ways.

Nonetheless, as Daniel said, "when you love someone, I believe you should be unselfish enough to give them whatever they want." I'd do the same thing too, if the lady would ask the same kind of question to me.

Sunday, August 20, 2006

Please Come Home

The sun will set soon
And the winter chill is sneaking in gently
I am wondering where you are gone
You left me in hurry
O Lord, shower me with your Mercy
As I am praying for her to come home
For me
Because I’m missing her so badly
Because I need her madly


*I think it's worth to mention that, whatever I posted above has nothing to do with my personal life. It is just an inspiration only.

Thursday, August 17, 2006

Purpose of Working Hard

Early this week I was a bit busy with some dealings of my business. There are some proposals need to be written. There are some preparation needed to be done. And there are some thinking of strategically positioning our company in the business world. Yes, there are many many things I did early this week.

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Some of them are meant for future. Some of them are meant for the present.

A few days ago we managed to secure a 6-figure project. Wowww..that was an amazing achievement for us. Although the letter of intent has not reached us yet, but the enthusiastic promise to review and accept our proposal is well taken. I was damn impressed of myself.

Then came this question to my mind via a friend. Why are we looking so hard to get money? Why are we working so hard to chase the wealth? For whom we are doing this?

The real answer is simple. I want to secure wealth for I want to do many good things in life. And I want to have many good things for myself too. I want to be provider for my family. I want to help unfortunate people and I want to be a giver for my community.

The most important purpose is that I'm doing this for my family; the present and the future.

Yep!!! (gulp)....future

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Yes...for my future family. I don't know with whom shall I get married to but one thing for sure, only one name appears in my mind. It's just an idea. An illusion. But that idea has followed me into any business ideas I have in mind. It follows me in every business venture I join. And it is there with me whenever I close any business deals with my business partner. Yet, it is still a name. A name whom I utter almost every night before I sleep and a name which put a smile on my face. A name which brings joy into my heart and assures me that everything will be okay.

After all, I could have been dreaming only.

Sunday, August 13, 2006

How Long Does It Take to Get Into A Relationship

Okay, I know it doesn't sound original. But, who gives a fuck about originality nowadays? Right?

Okay, I recently read a note on this thing. It's not a note, it is just a personal writing by somehone I barely know over the net. Anyway, she mentioned someting about the timing of going into relationship.

Pheww...going into relationship huh? Sounds big but simple. Yet, very much confusing. At least to my own personal understanding.

You can easily go into one without taking too much of your time. For example, you meet the girl, you see the girl and voila! Love at first sight. Konon-kononnya lah. You start dating each other right after that. I mean, after you overcome your paranoid and self-humiliating emotion and walked straight to that girl and ask for her phone number or email address or YM address (what the hell?) or possibly, her friendster address as well. Weeks after that both of you are in love. Again, I don't see it is wrong to be in love.

But what if after a few wonderful and beautiful weeks which go into a few months, the two of you go separate ways? Perplexing huh?

However, on another account, I've heard stories about two person who met only through photos and later got married only after three meetings. Woww..tell me about that!

Or..I know a few friends who stay with one girl only for more than 5 years together. Only then they feel ready to bring the relationship to higher plane.

So, when is the right time to embrace the relationship? I mean, intimate relationship? Is it too fast, or is it to slow....who determines that? Which side determines the pace? Like the wedding I attended yesterday, they both have been seriously in love only within a year or so. Before this they were just friends. And since yesterday, they are husband and wife.

All the questions asked here are essential to everybody. Unless if you don't give a damn about your own current emotional state, I'm pretty sure everyone is at least....there is a tiny miny feeling in your heart about who will come into your life as your significant other.

I heard there is a saying, "If you get her too fast, you will lose her even faster". Is it true? Does this saying hold true in reality? I know for sure, if one has to woo a girl for far too long, he will definitely feel tired and abandon his holy mission. Yet again, how long does he need to wait?

See...there are many many questins haunting every body when it comes to relationship. Sometimes people are afraid to get involved in relationship because they had bad experiences in past relationship. Sometimes there are people who just want to be in relationship but do not want commitment. And there is even kind of people who think going into relationship is just an act of socializing. After all, sociologists claim mankind is social animal.

So, what's your take? How do you determine?

For me..I'll do whatever it takes until I exhaust all the means to go through.

p/s: Still remember her dress in the first meeting and the date of the first meeting.

Saturday, August 12, 2006

Trip to Batu Pahat - Kenduri Kahwin Amin & Ecah

Hari ni memang sangat memancitkan. Aku drive dari Ampang ke Batu Pahat for 3.5 hours. In the middle of the journey, stop by kejap kat R&R Seremban sebab aku kebulur tak breakfast lagik. Mahi, Hawa ngan Kerrie ada dalam kereta tu.

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Sampai di Batu Pahat lebih kurang jam 1.00 petang. Tapi sesat nak cari dewan tempat majlis berlangsung tu ada ler dalam 30 minit. Rupanya si Ecah salah bagi direction dalam map kad jemputan tu. Patutnya dia letak keluar through exit mana kat highway PLUS tu. Hmmm..patut ler aku rasa cam jauh semacam ajer bila amik exit Pagoh.

Majlis berjalanan sederhana ajer. Aku ingat mula-mula tu, kenduri kahwin nya dah habis sebab lengang giler orang. Kereta pun tak banyak. Nampak orang dok susun-susun kerusi bawah khemah kat luar dewan. Ahhh sudah!!! Lewat ke kitorang ni? Tengok-tengok orang baru nak datang.

Nak tunggu pengantin masuk ke dalam dewan pun agak lama la jugak sebab mak andam dok bersolek pengantin perempuan lame bebenor. Kalah mekap artis! Bila masuk ke dalam dewan pun, keadaan agak caca marba. Aku dengan Mahi setuju majlis kenduri kahwin ni akan jadi lebih teratur kalau ada pengerusi majlis. Tak ada lah nampak pengantin perempuan jalan sorang-sorang sambil kena iring ngan mak andam.

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Mat Ranjit telah menjalankan tugasnya sebagai pengapit pengantin lelaki dengan hebat sekal. Aku yakin makcik-makcik yang ala-ala mak datin yang duduk sebelah Mat Ranjit tu mesti teruja dengan dia. Could be the next menantu untuk diorang kot??! Mat Ranjit jugak dengan selambanya merasuah mak andam sebanyak RM50 untuk bagi pengantin lelaki duduk sebelah pengantin perempuan masa bersanding. Kalau tak, alamatnya pengantin lelaki duduk bawah pentas ajer la gamaknya!

Kitorang semua balik dengan mengangkut Mat Ranjit sekali ke KLIA. Aku memang stok terkejut beruk la kejap. Seb baik tak koma otak aku ni bila dok pikirkan, macam mana aku nak menyampaikan si Mahi ni ke Sungai Besi by maghrib and at the same time hantar Mat Ranjit ke KLIA before 8 pm. Masa tu jam dah 7 pm and kitorang baru ajer nak isi minyak di Seremban. Oleh kerana sayangnya si Mahi tu kat kawan dia Mat Ranjit, dia pun beralah and beramai-ramai kitorang menghantar Mat Ranjit aka Razzif hero hindustan ke LCCT. Aku pertama kali laa aih sampai ke terminal LCC tu. Agak menarik. Mengingatkan aku pada LCCT untuk Easy Jet di Luton, UK.

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Aku sampai kat rumah dalam pukul 9 lebih. Penat giler. Tulang belakang aku rasa berlipat-lipat. Bahu pun rasa tegang dan keras cam bau pejal tepi highway. Overall, memang puas hati la dengan road trip ni. So, kalu ada sapa-sapa nak kahwin kat area Johor, insya Allah boleh panggil aku. Cukup korum 5 orang dalam kereta, kita jalan sajaaaaaaa!!