Kasih, kenanganku
Ingatkah saat saat dulu
Kasih, apakah dirimu
Merasakan semua itu

Ke mana pun langkahku pergi
Ku masih melihat bayanganmu cintaku
Dan kemana pun arah anginku berlari
Hati ini masih kau miliki

Lelaki ini yang selalu mencintamu
Selalu, tanpa ragu
Lelaki ini yang selalu memuja
Hanya dirimu
Yang bertakhta dalam sanubariku
Sanubari ku
Aku yang mencintakan mu
Hanya dirimu..

Karena cintaku, tak berbatas waktu
Karena cintaku, tak mengenal jenuh hatimu
Hatimu…
Annuar Zain - Lelaki Ini (masyuk dowhhh lagu nih!!)

Aku tukar DOE aku. Well, aku tahu sure senior LP aku tak suka, tapi gi mampos sama dia! Dia kata tulis DOE yang aku betul-betul nak. Maksudnya, yang betul-betul hati aku nak. Aku fikir-fikir...lama betul aku fikir. Should I stick with my old DOE (the look good one), or the one who I truly feel deep in my heart.

So kebetulan masa lepas mandi tu, aku terfikir pasal dia. Lama aku fikir. The more I thought, the more it became clear. So aku pun tarik kerusi and start tulis balik DOE aku. Aku tukar first goal aku and tambah sikit dalam second goal. I know I'm gonna get whacked by my senior LP, but hey...I'm following my heart.

I always trust my instinct and I know deep in my heart, whatever I changed in my DOE, does make my heart sing! :)

Aku tak nak bila aku dah umur 50 or 60 tahun nanti, aku akan tanya diri sendiri, "What would happen if I followed my heart 23 or 33 years ago?". And the last thing I could do is to find peace within me before I die.

Betul ke ni?

Your Seduction Style: Au Natural

You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it. That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power! The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism. You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world. Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in. You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you? You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways. Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you. As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

It has been a while for me not writing anything here.

Yeah, I can easily come up with many excuses and reasons for not doing that; busy myself to the death with LP, busy achieving my 3 important goals by December, busy reasoning myself why the fuck did I sign up for LP, busy busy busy..etc.

Is it really that damning? I mean, being busy and all that.

Hmmm..excuses.

Really...I enjoy making excuses. It makes me feels good and look good. Oh yes, by giving excuse it allows me to keep my 'good image' intact.

When I screw something up, I said..."sorry i did this because yaddi yaddi yadda....". If I'm late to a confirmed appointment or scheduled meeting, I would certainly think of the 'reason' to give to them 5 minutes before I walk into the room. Voila, my image still intact and I feel good about myself.

As if it's okay that I am being late, wasting other people's time and produce reason/excuse to okay that lateness. In other words, I don't give a shit about their time and I don't care about them too. No sense of respect. Although I am late by merely a few minutes or few seconds.

As if it's okay that I don't honor my words. I said, I want to spend time with you when I am free..or when I am on break. But my action is the opposite to what I promised. Is it okay for me to do that? Is it okay for you to do that as well? Of course, I can easily produce excuses or I call it 'reason' to make up for that mishap. How about making someone else feel shitty about it? Feel disheartened. Well, it's okay for as long I can come up with good excuse. He will be alrite...she will be alrite. They would understand my 'reason' or excuses. Don't worry too much about it, ya mate?!

Bottom line is, I don't honor my words with my action. Bottom line is, it makes me a liar. Bottom line is, I am arrogant enough to people that I made my promise too. Bottom line is, I don't care at all to the people that I say I care.

Oh boy...I wonder if there is anyone out there feels the same way too. How many times we are lying to ourselves just to make us feel good, not feeling that guilty, feel like "Heyy...I just do what I could do with this fragile body/emotion"?

What's the price I pay for doing these? What's the price you pay for doing those?