Let the bygones be bygone. No use to ponder upon it, for it will bring more harm than good to myself or to anyone else. Sometimes I did something awfully stupid because I didn't use my rationale rationally. As a result, someone may get hurt emotionally. It doesn't matter if they are friends or foes, still I apologize wholeheartedly.

I believe things will get better.

And it will be better.

I was thinking to write something, especially after I got back from TTDI just now. I feel something is unsettled - dissappointed and feel unjustly treated. But why do I bother about it when one is not even bothered about what I just said.

So I decided...I'm done with this. I just don't give a fuck anymore. Stop being a good guy, won't make you any good. Seriously. Rasa macam kita pulak terhegeh-hegeh.

Anyway, I read this joke from Judd's page. Nice one!

That's Impossible !!!
Once there was a Genie. A woman saw him. The amazed woman asked if she got three wishes. The genie said, Nope, sorry, three-wish genies are a storybook myth. I'm a one-wish genie."

So... what'll it be?"

The woman did not hesitate. She said, "I want peace in the Middle East. See this map? I want these countries to stop fighting with each other and I want all the Arabs to love the Jews and Americans and vice-versa. It will bring about world peace and harmony."

The genie looked at the map and exclaimed, "Lady, be reasonable. These countries have been at war for thousands of years. I'm out of shape after being in a bottle for five hundred years. I'm good but not THAT good! I don't think it can be done. Make another wish and please be reasonable."

The woman thought for a minute and said, "Well, I've never been able to find the right man. You know, one that's considerate and fun, likes to cook and help with the house cleaning, is great in bed, and gets along with my family, doesn't watch sports all the time, and is faithful. That is what I wish for.. a good man."

The genie let out a huge sigh and said,

"Let me see that fucking map again."

P/S: Even when the men have all the aforementioned qualities, they still don't want to appreciate the men, even more to be partners with them.

Two weeks ago I asked my students of what grade they obtained in their first midterm. Especially in Math and Science since I am teaching them both subjects. Only one out of nine students got B and the rest was everywhere down the grade ladder. I assigned to everyone to write a short story if they’d like of why do they like their grade so much. It is so obvious that they like their C or D or E because they keep getting that result.

So below is the sample of one student who got B in her Math test.

Bagaimana Saya Boleh Mendapat Gred B Dalam Matematik?
Sebenarnya saya sendiri pun terkejut dapat gred ‘B’. Saya suruh cikgu kira balik kertas saya, sebab sebelum nie saya dapat gred ‘D’.
Atau pun mungkin sebab semua soalan adalah soalan Tingkatan 3. Tapi lepas cikgu bagitahu hari nak periksa saya buat ulangkaji. Sehari satu soalan bagi satu tajuk. Saya teringat mami kata, “Kalau malas nak ulangkaji, focus masa cikgu mengajar. Pastu ingat balik apa cikgu cakap, then tulis (nota kecil)”.
Mungkin juga sebab saya suka topic Tingkatan 3 dan saya rasa seronok belajar sebab ia sesuatu yang baru serta mencabar minda saya. Mungkin juga sebab saya ikut cakap sir sebelum tidur cakap, “I’m a grade A student, I have 8 A’s in my PMR”. Tapi kalau saya buat sir suruh imagine saya dapat ape, mungkin saya dapat grade A.
Tapi saya memang suker subjek Maths. Dulu saya memang kurang suker subject ni. Tapi lama saya cakap takpe buat untuk PMR, then now. I love Maths. Tiap-tiap hari masa gie sekolah saya teringat kata mamai yang ni, “Kalau tak faham Tanya cikgu, jangan buat bodoh sombong”. So, tiap kali ada Maths, kalu tak faham saya Tanya cikgu. Sampai tiap kali masa Maths, cikgu mesti panggil saya, then Tanya yang tak faham.
Then, mungkin sebab kawan-kawan selalu Tanya saya, so saya selalu buat rujukan semula dan ajar dorang. Mungkin juga saya selalu buat latihan Matematik. Kawan – kawan kat sekolah juga banyak membantu. Saya dengan kawan saya, Intan selalu Tanya Hafizzudin, orang yang terror Maths in my class.
I will work hard to get A in my PMR. Saya nak buktikan kat semua orang I’m not that stupid!

This is another writing sample of my student who obtained E in her Math test.

Why do I like E for my Math.
Sebab saya dapat E ialah saya tak selalu ulangkaji. Saya lebih pada mata pelajaran penghafalan. Bukan math tak penting, tapi bagi saya, saya tak suke buat latihan math.
Math ni memang best bagi saya tapi bila tak dapat selesaikan masalah math, saya jadi macam patah semangat untuk buat math. Memangla ada mulut untuk tanya tapi saya tak suka buat Math.
Math pada bulan Mac ni menaik sikit la....daripada bulan februari dulu walaupun saya failled.
Saya cuba tapi bila exam saya jadi bler untuk buat math. Tulah sebab saya lebih mata pelajaran penghafalan daripada kira-kira ni.
Saya harap saya lebih lagilah. Kalau saya practise saya boleh buat tapi saya malas.

I didn’t say much after reading their so called stories. Their writing reflects their mentality and their mindset. I only told them four things which they need to stick to their mind like they memorize their first boyfriend’s name;

1. No excuse
2. No blame
3. No complaint
4. No harap-harap

You can’t ask someone else to do push up for you, ain’t it right peeps? Someone has to do it and that someone is them – themselves.

Change your thought and you change your destiny!

A sucessful man is a man..



who has lived well, laughed often, and loved much;
who has gained the respect of intelligent men and the love of children;
who has filled his niche and accomplished his task;
who leaves the world better than he found it, whether by an improved poppy, a perfect poem, or a rescued soul;
who never lacked appreciation of earth's beauty or failed to express it;
who looked for the best in others...

and gave the best he had.

Hari ni aku pegi ke Subang Hitech area untuk dapatkan tandantangan klien aku. It was almost about to rain when I drove to his place. Sampai saja kat sana, client aku pulak tak ada. Adoiiihhhh! Kena menunggu sekejap.

I guess it was okay because I had a chance to have a chat with Indian guards at the guard post. You see, MAXIS is not only owned by the telecommunication mogul who is not only Indian, but it is also guarded by the Indian. But it's alrite, they are friendly people.

Ada pulak satu makcik cleaner ni baru habis bekerja. Kesian dia. Baru nak balik, tengok-tengok hujan dah turun dengan lebatnya. Dia duduk menunggu lama juga di sebelah pondok jaga tu. Aku sempat bersembang dengan makcik indonesia ni. Tak lama lepas tu aku nampak dia nak pinjam payung dari pondok jaga. Katanya dia nak redah hujan jalan kaki hingga ke bus stop yang boleh tahan berpeluh jugak kalau menapak dalam hujan tu.

Masa tu client aku baru saja sampai and aku pun cakap kat makcik tu, takyah jalan kaki ke sana. Biar aku hantar dia terus sampai ke depan area rumah dia. Hujan-hujan macam ni, kesian pulak dia tunggu bas dalam hujan. As soon as I got the client's John Hancock, terus aku jemput makcik cleaner tu naik kereta. Sambung balik berbual pasal dia. Macam-macam aku tanya pasal makcik tu. Dari mana asalnya, dah lama ke kerja di sini...suaminya pulak kerja di mana..

Aku rasa seronok dapat tolong orang. In fact, aku rasa lagi seronok dapat kenal orang. Lagi pun, tak rugi pun kita tolong orang for as long kita tau orang tu tak jahat pun.

So moral of the story...tolong la sapa-sapa pun. Jangan sebab kita pakai pakaian yang lagi mahal daripada orang lain, atau pun profession kita lebih hebat dari orang lain..jadikan hati kita hitam dan sebal untuk bantu orang lain. Mesti at the end of the day, kita rasa tak best kan?

So today, I smile with a victorious feeling. A feeling of wanting to help more people. How about you?

I tried to get a nice spot in Alexis Bistro tonight but my effort was not that successful. So here I end up at Starbuck, getting online to update my blog. It's not so much of updating ......it is more like whining. Ermm...maybe it's not whining.

Anyway...it has been quite sometimes since I enjoyed listening to life jazz music. Last time I was there with Che Wan. We both stayed there till Noryn Aziz finished her performance. I must say, she's good with jazz music. Her voice has some soul, you know?! It's always nice to listen to live music once in a while. I find it very relaxing.

I used to enjoy live music in Schroom Cafe at KLCC. Sometimes I requested one or two from my favourite song list. Sometimes they sang my song...and sometimes they didn't. Perhaps because they didnt know of that tune. Of course, I dont think many of you too would share the same musical taste as mine. Usually I just sat there with a Coke or possibly, Teh Tarik, and hummed along with the singer. The crowd was pretty okay.

Oh yeah..I had a discussion with my friend on yesterday about giving an expensive dinner for family. Hurmm..was it about family..or was it about the expensive dinner? I can't remember exactly..but it was something like that. I said, it's ok for me to give an expensive dinner for family because I feel they worth it. Because I feel, it's like giving credit to myself by acknowledging my own capability to give them one. I personally feel that I desire all the expensive stuffs in life. I feel if I work hard and earn so and so income, I should give credit to myself and go spend some of my earnings. Alang-alang tu, belasah la benda-benda mahal. No?

I want to earn a lot for myself. I want to earn a lot because I want to provide many things to my family. As I told my friend, I bought so many supplements and medical remedies for my mom. Sometimes they are cheap..but most of the time..they are not. I also want to bring them to some good places. I think they deserve to have all the good things life can offer. In fact, I think my future spouse and my children one day should get all the good things life can offer.

That is why I must work hard right now. It's not so much for me. But it is everything for my future family....which I don't know when they will come. Hahahahaha....

Aku menungkan satu hari
Yang indah ketika hanya aku dan dia
Kita bertemu, bersua dan berjumpa
Untuk berbual-bual cuma
Melepaskan rasa rindu yang bertandang sahaja.

Sesekali juga aku mengimpikan
Untuk berselisihan dengannya
Hanya untuk melihat kelibat wajah
Yang jarang sekali resah
Untuk aku serahkan sekuntum bunga
Tanda kasihku padanya,
Tanda setiaku padanya,
Tanda ikhlasku untuk tawan hatinya. - Bicara Hati, July 27, 2006

Kawan kamceng aku sudah tunang!! Yeayyy..akhirnya selepas beberapa tahun bercinta...tunang jugak ko ek, Caza!! Anyway...congratulations beb! Aku memang seriyes tabik spring dengan kawan aku sorang ni..percintaan yang sungguh dramatik gitu.



Ada dua event yang aku terlepas masa last weekend sebab aku attend satu kursus nih. Aku ter miss Amat punya kenduri kawen and Caza nya majlis pertunangan. Amat member aku sejak dari sekolah rendah. Aku cuma sempat datang ke rumah Amat pada waktu malam sebelum kenduri bermula. Sembang-sembang dengan dia. Sembang-sembang dok bercerita pasal kawan-kawan lama kami dulu. Tanya-tanya juga pasal belanja kahwin. Bukan sikit-sikit beb orang nak berkahwin ni. Kurang-kurang lebur RM 20,000. Itu pun kena ambil kira pasangan kita dari mana pulak. Macam Amat ni, orang rumahnya dari belah pantai timur. So, kira lain pulak dah cara belanja kahwin dia.

Bila aku habis saja kursus di Damansara Perdana, terus aku bergegas balik untuk ke rumah Amat. Sampai sana pun dah dekat-dekat nak maghrib dah. Sembang dengan mak ayah dia kejap, ngan mamat tu sekali..sambil layan nasi minyak orang baru kahwin. Dia sempat perkenalkan isteri dia kat aku. Kekok pulak aku....sampai sekarang sebenarnya aku kekok nak bersembang-sembang dengan isteri kawan-kawan aku. Senyum-senyum sambil berbasa-basi. Cukuplah tu.



Hmm...seronok aku berkawan dengan Amat. Dari zaman kami bersekolah rendah sama-sama, sampai ke zaman bekerja..hubungan kami tak pernah putus. Baik orangnya Amat ni and penyabar. Taat pada mak ayah. Taat pada agama. Aku rasa orang rumah Amat ni mesti beruntung sebab dapat Amat. Aku tahu, mamat ni ramai peminat masa belajar kat UIA dulu. Amat pernah cakap dia reject tiga awek junior yang datang nak mengurat dia.

Sebelum aku balik dari rumah dia, sekali lagi terkena soalan cepuk emas. "Beb, kau bila lagi?". Hahahaha..soalan macam ni yang aku malas nak menjawab. "Mat, aku pandai pancing duit...ribu-ribu ke..juta-juta ke..insya allah aku boleh usahakan. Pancing perempuan...mintak maaf, aku serious tak pandai".

Kami gelak ajer sama-sama. Amat gelak suka. Aku gelak buat-buat suka.