It has been too long for me not to write anything. Not because I was running out of insights or ideas - i am just lacking the time to write. Or maybe lacking of motivation to write anymore.

Writing requires some tenacity. Writing requires some intellects. For those who hate writing, most likely he too will hate to think aloud. Something must be kept close to the chest. Anyway, it is not the case for me. Mama occasionally told me that I am too straight forward in expressing myself. Sometimes I just blurted right in front of anybody without giving much thought about what I intend to say.

Some people say, it's like giving a piece of my mind on the subject matters. Americans would say, i'm not politically correct when it comes to expressing myself. Oh well, I can be a little bit carried away when it comes to posing my arguments.

Anyway, it's gonna be 2 months more before my contract with this company ends. I do know that I learnt quite a bit from them and I am sure the knowledge I got and experienced while working with this company is useful for future. I am still contemplating whether I want to continue or not. I have my own plan after this.

I had a good meeting with Bad just now and we did touch on this issue. I was thinking of drop this whole thing once I am done with the contract and pursue my business full time. I can see its potential. Maybe I'm just scared a bit about the potential. This is like swimming in the blue ocean. Is it? Or is it purple ocean? Oh well, I don't know which ocean I should go. For all I know, i prefer to have my two feet on the ground.

Btw, we got RFQ from US for trading and RFQ from Pahang for our banana seedlings. Yeayyy, I hope more sales will come in! :D

I met a woman. She's 27. A stranger. But she shared a lot for a stranger.

She was married at the age of 20. At that time, she was working in KLIA as staff over there. Her husband was found courting her for betting reason. And she was under a spell. That was why she got married to the guy, according to her.

Now she's 27. She was divorced at 24. Throughout the marriage, she was beaten, abuse, insulted and ridiculed by her husband and his family as well. She has 3 daughters with her husband.

Her husband left her for another woman. One year after he was with the new wife, he left her just to get this woman again.

I pity her life. Men are bastards, sometimes. Of course not all men. Most of my guy friends are gentlemen. But I'm not happy with this situation.

Are we not humane when it comes to be real men?

I don't know. Then I ask her again, why did u get married in the first place with this jerk?

And a question to myself, Can I be a better person than this man if one day I have family and wife?