If it worth to be living...



Some people may disagree with me when it comes to writing my own storyline online. SOme people may say, it's private. So exposing themselves if a big no no. Well, they could be true.

However, I must say that I agree hundred percent with what Anthony Robbin says in his cd Personal Power II, "If my life worths to be living, then it is worth to be recorded and put in a journal".

Here I channel all my frustrations, my anger, my appreciation, my cynicism and my passion. Here I wrote freely for what I feel and how I see things. Some may not agree with me and some may nod their head with me. I appreciate both groups. But I do not have to heed to either criticism. I write here neither for commercial purposes nor for desire to be famous. My simple intention is to record my thoughts and memories I have about people and events occured in my life.

I end the note with a few questions. Hopefully the reader would have time to sincerely answer them, not for the amusement of myself, but rather for the readers' self-enlightenment.

1) What would you do if you are not bounded to any limitation, either emotionally, financially and physically?

2) What is the most important thing in your .....(life, finance, personal relationship etc)?

3) How would you act if you are the best .....(lover, partner, father, mother, son, daughter etc)

Belasungkawa Buat Cikgu Ghafar Baba

Angin tetap berhembus
Tak henti...
Walau pun sampai akhir hayatku
Tapi tak lagi kau berada
Di sisiku - Angin Malam, Broery Marantika

Pertama kali aku bertemu dia semasa aku bersekolah rendah di Kampung Klang Gate. Ketika itu dia datang atas kapasitinya sebagai Timbalan Perdana Menteri untuk merasmikan Dewan Besar Abu Bakar Ali Basha. Aku ketika itu berada di tepi jalan, mengibarkan bendera Malaysia, menyambut kedatangannya ke situ.

Itu saja yang aku mampu kenang tentang dia. Selebihnya aku baca dari media. Selebihnya hanya tekaan-tekaan nakal.

Barangkali dia seorang pemimpin rakyat. Barangkali dia mewakili aspirasi politik bangsa. Barangkali dia juga seorang suami dan juga ayah yang baik.

Tapi itu tak penting sekarang. Yang penting, doa anak-anaknya dan juga amal jariahnya semasa hidup. Al Fatihah untuk bekas Timbalan Perdana Menteri, Tun Ghafar Baba.

p/s: Orang-orang kapitalis UMNO perlu ambil iktibar tentang liku-liku kehidupan individu ini. Dialah antara pewaris akhir semangat tulen politik bangsa Melayu pra kemerdekaan dan pasca kemerdekaan.

Screw It!!



I finished reading Sir Richard Branson's latest book, "Screw It! Just Do It" in two days. Actually, it shouldn't take more than 3 or 4 good hours to complete this amazing reading material. It's just that I didn't buy the book. Instead, I read the book at Kinokuniya (I promise to myself to own that book for my inspiring book collection).

I recommend anyone to read his book. Indulge yourself in his life experiences. The book is all about self-motivation, love, perseverence, sense of direction and most important of all, enjoying the life to its fullest potential. The pre-requisite of success, according to Richard Branson, is to believe in yourself. I couldn't disagree more with him!

Quoting Sir Richard Branson, "I believe in the hands that do work, in the mind that thinks and in the heart that loves."

All these great people share the same trait, "Be - Do - Have". It translates into "Heart & Mind, Action, Wealth to Aid People".

p/s: Quietly charting another goal; visiting Baitul Haram next year for umrah. Need to ask Him one or two favors.

Aku berhenti berharap
Dan menunggu datang gelap
Sampai nanti suatu saat
Tak ada cinta kudapat - Berhenti Berharap, Sheila on 7

Ada kalanya ku merasa hidup ini seperti kaca
Jikalau tidak bersabar
Hancur berderailah akhirnya
Tabahkanlah hatiku
Melalui semua itu... Ooh...
Kuatkanlah
Cekalkanlah diriku - Ku Mohon, Sheila Majid

Hmm..the song moves me. It moves me in a way that we all, once a while, will fall out to our cribs and silently pray to ask for things from Him. I believe if we sincerely enough asking something meaningful for us, He will definitely grant our wishes. I've been in a real disastrous situations before and lessons taught me to come clean to Him and sought His help. He didn't turn me down. Never once. I am a strong believer that He educates us through experiences. Problems are given not as mere coincidents but they serve as lessons in disguise. A modicum of humility and wisdow would slowly add on after each memorable experience. That is what I call a process of acquiring maturity.



Anyway, the picture above of Sheila Majid was taken in Hard Rock Cafe last Friday night. Yes, I visited HRC with an old friend from SAS. He took the photo. I rarely go to the place which serves liqour but this one, I cannot resist because of live music it offers. Besides, I know where to draw my line when it comes to entertainment.

We both seriously enjoyed the entertainment that night. Partly because of the presences of good singers, particularly Sheila Majid. And for my friend, he was busy snapping photos of celebrities and mortals in HRC (he probably should turn to paparazzi profession). Whenever I found any good song, I would definitely sing it along. I also enjoyed a stint of conversation with Sarimah and thank her for the reply in email. Didn't forget to congratulate the producer for doing sucha good job at delivering the program (everyone should deserve a warm smile and encouragement wishes after doing a tough job, I think).



Later as we both walked out from HRC, we managed to hang out a bit with NTV7 staffs. I had the opportunity to talk to the director of the program. Learnt a lot about live broadcasting. Never I know the cost to own an OBU (Out station Broadcasting Unit) is nearly RM 10 million. Definitely I was amazed by the explanation of Mr. Abu Bakar, director of Konsert Prelude AIM13. My friend, he was busy capturing the 'kodak moments' of NTV7 staffs packing the OBU.

I only came home after 12.30 am.

Sorting out few issues.
Scouting for the best offers.
Reaffirm to my goals and ambitions.
Having discussion with my own self later tonite.
Never forget to pray for the well being of my beloved ones.

"If Tomorrow Never Comes"



Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
She's lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face this world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance to tell her how I feel

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face this world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes

Sayonara dik, kita jumpa lagi nanti!
Belajar rajin-rajin di tempat orang.
Cari ilmu, cari kawan, cari pengalaman.
Balik nanti, pulangkan semula pada negara.

Hilangnya Member Karaoke



"Bro, layan lagi ke karaoke?".
"Aisey..takleh la weh. Dah kahwin ni. Tu yang bengkek sket."
"Laa..dah kahwin pun, takkan takleh karaoke kot?".
"Boleh tu boleh..tapi orang rumah pun nak ikut juga!"
"Errr..takyah la weh..segan doh aku nak nyanyi depan bini ko!".

Had a lunch with Shahrin, my buddy from Alam Shah. Had a nice chat with him. I apologized to him because I didn't turn up on his wedding day. He didn't mind because he told me, the wedding reception was quite in a mess. The catering somehow, didn't put up much to the expectation. He had many guests complaint about the food. Awww, poor that guy though!

We had a real good chat. The last time I met him was end of last year (errr..was it early this year?). I think so. He was quite frustrated to see not many SAS fellas attended his wedding reception though. Ouchhh..quite a hint he gave me. And so I apologized again. Surely, I'll pay a visit to his house on one sweet day.

"Ishh..ramai dah ek bebudak kita kawen?".
"Lehh dude..take your time."
"Eh, lepas kawen takleh karaoke ngan member-member lagi ke? Takleh runding ke part tu?"
"Hmm..tu la namanya sacrifice."
"Umm..oohh..ok ok."

p/s: Teringat bebudak ramai layan karaoke kat Yow Chuan Plaza lepas Zamin punya wedding awal tahun ni.

Dare to Dream



Don't lose your way
With each passing day
You've come so far
Don't throw it away
Live believing
Dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story
Faith, hope & glory
Hold to the truth in your heart

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I

Rindu ini sudah lama berlabuh.
Aku masih rasa bahagia,
walau kau tidak sudi menyambungnya.
- A Samad Said, Sasterawan Negara.