I sat down at my study table and looking outside of the window. Then suddenly, this came to my mind and I quickly write every imaginative idea down. And here it is, the poem The Solace Road. Meant for somebody who only He knows for me.

The Solace Road

I dream one day
one day for you and me
would walk along the path
where many has gone before us.

I dream one day
one day we both share the world
together with every pretty things
and wave the kiss to every little cute things

but I fear one day
one day we both unknowingly set apart
because we both don't set our heart
to be in each other's soul and heart.

this road isn't ordinary road
it's a road where many people
have gone through, walk through and embrace through
where people make promises
and where people sometime run
or sometimes fall down.

on this solace road
I bend down my knee
and I show you the key
The key to unlock every secrecy
about the truth in me


and with this key is in your hand
I hold you and lead the caravan
through this solace road
until the time comes to an end.

Subuh Hari di State College

Alhamdulillah terjaga awal aku hari ni. Maybe sebab aku dapat tidur lena - konon nak kata jogging malam tadi berkesanlah kiranya...ada impact pada sistem rehat badan aku ni. Anyhow, aku terjaga elok ajer dalam awal waktu subuh. Tak bertangguh (tipu ajer nih) aku bangkit untuk kerjakan solat subuh.

Sekarang ni dah jadi satu tabiat untuk aku laungkan azan dalam bilik sendiri untuk mulakan solat. Amik effort sendiri untuk tunaikan sunat rawatib lepas tu and sekali lagi iqamah untuk tunaikan solat subuh. Selesai solat subuh, cuba-cuba tenangkan hati dengan baca Quran. Baca Quran ni, memang ada kuasa ajaib la kiranya bagi aku. Everytime hati resah, everytime hati rasa kurang tenteram, memang nak ajer cari Quran baca. Yang ni memang biasa dibuat waktu kat Alam Shah dulu. Ye lah, dulu tak tenteram sebab asyik risau pasal PMR and SPM. And now tak tenteram pasal nak menghabiskan degree ni. Lagi satu faedahnya baca Quran ni, kalau tak silap aku lah..ni kata Ustaz Nordin time aku kat sekolah dulu. Dia kata, kalau kita sedekahkan ayat-ayat Quran pada orang-orang yang kita rindukan tu, insya Allah rindu kita tu akan rasa berkurangan and terkawal sikit. Aku rindu kat orang? Hehehehe...syyyy..aku rindu kat semua kenkawan aku!

Selesai berdoa..aku baca doa..sepotong doa yang aku lama belajar dulu dari buku panduan solat sunat. "Ya Allah, sekiranya dia itu baik bagi urusanku, baik bagi urusan keluargaku dan juga baik bagi urusan agamaku, maka dekatkanlah hatinya bagiku dan dekatkanlah hatiku baginya. Sekiranya dia tidak membawa apa-apa manfaat bagi urusanku, urusan keluargaku dan juga urusan agamaku, maka Kau palingkanlah hatinya dari ku dan Kau palingkanlah hatiku daripadanya. Jauhkanlah hati aku daripadanya dan jauhkanlah hatinya daripadaku."

Berita Gembira, Tahniah Diucapkan



Kawan aku, Abdullah Sallehudin Abdullah Salim, waktu di Alam Shah dulu insya Allah akan melangsungkan majlis pertunangann dengan kekasih hatinya, Sunarni Maulan dalam minggu depan rasanya. Penantian selama 14 tahun akhirnya akan tamat juga. Majlis pertunangan ni hanya selangkah saja dari majlis walimah.

Seronok raikan berita kawan, berita sendiri tak pasti. Keh keh keh...

Aku pasti Dolah akan jadi tunang yang baik. Aku kenal Dolah sejak dari zaman sekolah. Dia ni memang amat-amat hormatkan perempuan. And dia juga amat-amatlah suka kat Arni sejak dari sekolah rendah. Tambah-tambah lagi mak Dolah pun memang berkenan sangat dengan Arni. Haa elok sangatlah tu..jaga-jagalah diri masing-masing waktu bertunang..apa-apa hal pun diselesaikan bersama. Aku doakan kawan aku ni bahagianya sampai kahwin and sampai akhir hayatlah berdua..:).

I miss the Malaysia's diversity



The first time I came home, it was in 2001. I must say that people in 2001 and in 1999 were quite different or was it me who viewed them differently? Anyhow, since my homecoming plan wasn't an announced one so my parents didn't pick me up at the airport, instead Kak Anim came and brought me home to her house in Banting. While I was at the airport roughly around 10 pm waiting for my dearest sister, I looked to see the Malaysian people behavior especially the Malays (sebab ramainyer manusia melayu kat KLIA). Needless to say here, I was quite 'jakun' because I hadn't seen them in more or less 2 years. The only Malaysians existed in my State-College-sized-world were Abg J and his family, Auntie Fuzi and her family as well as Aida and Kak Effa. So I was quite excited to see many many Malaysians around me, strutting and fretting as they continued living their life around me.

Two years later, I came home again only to find more and more differences in Malaysian people. The ladies are getting prettier (oh god, I wonder where all the hot chicks have been hiding for all these years?), more people become gadget maniac, KLCC is the most popular rendevous point for KLites and Dome is just another unofficial sponsors for KL youth 'lepak' activity. Hey, I am not saying that I hate 'lepaking', it's just that lepak unnecessarily is not doing any good to you. At first I thought, oh wow..this is great! My country is developing fast enough and it just drives young people nuts! Hehehehe..teenagers start to look like a walking advertising billboard with branded tags coming out from the collar or the pants.



Unfortunately, polarity between races has become more and more prevalent despite the country is modernizing everyday. I am pretty sure everybody is noticed about the Program Latihan Khidmat Negara. This program is supposed to fix the issue of racial segregation but until today, nothing tangible can be shown as to prove that this program manages to achieve its goals.

I wonder where did we do wrong?? Although I understand years ago our father and mother kept telling us about the racial stereotypes and how they try to ingrain in our mind about what is good and what is bad about other race. It happened that way because their father and mother also told them the same thing. It is more than often caused by the nurture process and the education background of an individual.

I personally think that is so ethnocentric. Believing one's culture and one's race is much more superior than others perhap will put us in the same shoes as Hitler. He believes the Aryan, the blonde and fair skin of Germans, is the chosen people of God. Or should I say, if not as same as Hitler, we probably be no less better than Klux Klux Klan - the white supremacy group in US. And when I say we, it doesn't only refer to the Malays, but it refers to anybody who has this kind of sentiment of ethnocentric.



Having a program such PLKN will not solve the problem because it is more on the reactive side of solution. A proactive solution is needed here. A program which has long and short term goals. As we can see, PLKN is actually creating more problems instead of solving the problem ie. sexual harrasment, physical abuse, racial intolerance, truancy and many more. The sole reason of how these problems can arise is due to lack of understanding of the complexity of the problem.

I must say interference from some politicians who have hidden-agenda is most unwelcome. The need to tackle this problem objectively is surpassing one's personal agenda. We are in need of some good fellas in battling this problem - racial polarity. These people should be recruited from academia, Non Government Organization, social activists and perhaps religious leaders from various religions. This group of people will draft a module for PLKN program and it can only be implemented once the result of the pilot program be tabled in the Parliament. The scale of the pilot program should be limited to no more than five thousand youths or relatively to any small numbers. Small number is always good to begin with because it narrows the scope of the problem and let us tackle the problem one by one or at least, grouping the problem so that it is easier to manage. Continuous supervision is greatly needed during this stage because any slight indication of problem should be addressed accordingly. Having an understanding of how the youth behaves and how well they respond to some serious discipline are also should be considered. This will enable the trainers and the coordinators of the program to smoothly blend with them, become their friends instead as 'guardian' and the role of peer influence can be controlled.

See..I can say many things about the implementation of the program but I think I should let the government to realize the utter importance of listening to the input from rakyat. My voice only represents my voice over this issue but together if we collect the inputs from rakyat, it will be much more rewarding in a sense of completeness. Then only, we can together maintain the racial harmony toward prosperous Malaysia. Insya Allah.

Selamanya - Innuendo

Pabila kudengar
Suaramu nun dikalbu
Inginku menanti
Senyuman manismu

Kupasti dirimu
Terkenangkan suaraku
Usahlah kau menafikan
Cinta yang terpendam sesama kita

Kumendoakan
Demi keikhlasanmu
Kubersyukur pada Yang Maha Esa
Hilanglah kesepian kita

Dikau takhta di hatiku
Bersama kita bina istana cinta
Kurela bersamamu
Di angkasa bergema mekar dan rela
Hingga akhir hayatku
Pastinya bersama
Kasihmu yang kurindui
Selamanya

Betapa sukarnya
Kumemahami dirimu
Namun hatiku membara
Tiada apa yang dapat dilakukan

Sekiranya perasaanmu berduka
Kusesali segalanya
Kerna kaulah segalanya bagiku

As Requested For A Friend



Aku Yang Degil

Quite recently, ada a few moments dalam hidup aku ni aku rasakan macam dejavu. Dejavu sebab aku berdepan dengan situasi yang hampir sama. Sekali lagi kata-kata dari Caza dulu menerjah masuk dalam otak aku, "Lang, ko dah tahu akibat perbuatan ko, tapi ko amik jugak jalan tu. Ko degil Lang!". Kak Lisa pun cakap macam tu..ermm.dia tak cakap aku degil lah..dia kata yes or no ajer..and I respect her answer (orang kerja professional councillor ni kena tabik skettt). Hmm..actually dia bagitau aku in the softest tone yang aku pernah terima dari orang. And of course aku teringat balik email dari Aini dulu.

Agaknya aku ni jenis memang tak makan saman. Aku tak pernah serik and aku takkan mengalah selagi aku belum cuba. Aku telah mulakan dengan cara yang baik dan insya Allah aku akan akhiri dengan cara yang paling baik. Tak kiralah penghujungnya akan menyebelahi aku atau pun tak..yang penting aku akan tamatkan. Only time will tell.

Tergoda aku untuk berfikir
Dia yang tercinta..
Mengapa lama telah lama tak nampak
Dirimu di sini,
Jangankan ingin kutersenyum..
Tiada ghairah
Kuingin selalu bersamamu..
Kini kuresah, diriku lemah tanpamu.
Gapai semua jemariku, rangkul aku dalam bahagiamu
Kuingin bersama berdua, selamanya!
Jika ku buka mata ini
Kuingin selalu ada dirimu..dalam kelemahan hati ini
bersamamu.
Aku tegar.

Aku semalam tak dapat nak berfikir dengan betul sebenarnya. Berdebar-debar. Orang kata, tak keruan. Circuit EE 305 yang aku dok belek dari tengah malam tadi nampak macam cacing-cacing yang mati kering. Now aku paham apa yang Kamek rasa masa dia blah tinggalkan Troy time nak attend pre-interview kat Washington DC dulu. Kesian Kamek..Kamek rindu kat Nadiah ek? Hehehe..leks bro..gua paham camner lu rasa..sebab gua pun tengah rindukan orang. Gua tak mahu cakap sapa..yang pastinya gua tak rindukan Siti Nurhaliza atau pun Misha Omar, atau pun Natalie Portman sekali pun.

Sesekali angan-angan nakal aku datang. Nakal bukan sebab apa..nakal sebab 'debar' nak menggatal datang. Menggatal cari 'teman yang abadi'. Mencari teman yang aku bakal peluk cium sebelum tidur dan peluk cium selepas bangun pagi (atau pun peluk cium semasa tidur). Terbayang segala macam angan-angan aku; mahu berikan good nite kiss sebelum tidur, morning kiss waktu baru bangkit dari tidur, mahu buat kerja rumah sama-sama, mahu tengok movie di TV sama-sama, mahu bermesra di dapur waktu memasak. Ah, pendek kata segalanya mahu bersama. Penat lelah bekerja hilang bila balik ke rumah bersama dia, hati yang tak tenang jadi tenang bila bersama dia, resah dia aku mahu kongsi, resah aku mahu diceritakan padanya, kesenangan aku jadi milik kami bersama, kesenangan dia aku akan raikan sebaik mungkin. Pergh..kalau nak citer, memang sampai expired PC ni, gerenti tak habis punya!

Dalam Quran kata, sebaik-baik lelaki ialah lelaki yang melembutkan suaranya pada isteri dan anak-anaknya. Itulah panduan aku. Suara tak perlu tinggi pada ahli keluarga. Papa pun kadang-kadang marah juga pada mummy kalau mummy tengking kami anak beranak. Macam tu lah aku mahu jadi. Selembut suara, semesra hati untuk komunikasi dengan ahli keluarga aku sendiri. Tegas perlu ada tempatnya..had untuk menjadi serius perlu juga diletakkan sebaik mungkin. Hati isteri yang degil mesti diatasi dengan rasa kasih sayang, bukannya kita lawan dengan suara keras ibarat kaldai. Mesti lagi tambah muncungnya. Nanti bukan datang rasa hormat lagi, datang rasa menyampah ade ler. Dan tentu yang terasa hati balik, kitalah..siapa lagi?

Yang kita cuma mampu lakukan sekarang, jangan berputus asa doa pada Dia untuk dikurniakan 'teman' yang sanggup bersama kita di kala susah dan senang, yang menarik kita lagi dekat pada Dia dan yang menjaga kehormatan diri kita dan keluarga kita.

Tak apa, tiap peristiwa dalam hidup kita tu, tuhan dah bentukkan jalannya ke arah pencarian teman itu. Cuma bersabar, pupuk rasa sabar dan didik rasa sabar tu. So, sabarlah ya Alang? Sabarlah dalam mencari 'dia yang di sana'.

Bonda Azya, Mummy & Mama

Aku suka sangat baca blog mak Azya. Aku bahasakan mak azya as auntie saja. Auntie IT? Barangkali ya..mungkin disebabkan gesaan anak-anak yang mahu mudah berkomunikasi dengan mak. Seeloknya aku bahasakan dia sebagai makcik, rasanya bagi aku lebih mesra sebab aku agak kekampungan bila berbasa-basi dengan orang-orang tua. Kalau nak beruncle auntie ni..aku rasa janggal, seakan terlekat tulang ikan kat tekak ni. Sedangkan Datin Seri Wan Azizah pun aku bahasakan dia Makcik Wan, inikan pulak bonda Azya. Tapi tak bermakna kurang pulak rasa hormat aku padanya.

Baru-baru ni mak Azya tuliskan satu entry berkenaan kisah dia dan suaminya. Ahh..sangat romantis sekali! Terasa sangat lembut sekali hati budi mak Azya. Aku rasa Azya sure bersyukur sangat-sangat dapat mak yang macam tu..tak dinafikan aku pun kadang-kadang rasa jealous juga bila tengok mak Azya tulis macam-macam di blognya. Bukan apa, aku teringin sangat nak tahu apa yang ada lama fikiran Puan Rohani Hj Hassan (mummy aku). Apa yang dia fikirkan pasal aku? Apa yang dia selalu fikirkan pasal papa? Atau, apa yang dia fikirkan pasal masa depan aku?

Anak makkah aku kalau aku selalu nak tahu apa yang ada dalam fikiran mak aku? Anak makkah aku kalau aku ni selalu menangkan mak aku, walau pun kehendak aku sendiri terpaksa aku korbankan? Mungkin juga, kot. Period. Hati aku mudah tersentuh kalau bicara soal mummy. Lagi-lagi bila telinga aku dijadikan kaunter pengaduan oleh mummy. Aku tertanya-tanya, apakah mummy selalu mengadu hal yang serupa ini dengan Angah? Atau pun Angah tak pernah ambil pusing untuk bertanya pada mummy, Along apatah lagi! Hanya aku yang gatal mulut selalu tanya perihal adik beradik pada mummy.

Diherdik, dirembat, dilibas, ditengking, dileter. Itulah yang aku selalu dapat dari mummy waktu kecik-kecik. Itulah yang aku ingat sampai ke hari ini. Setiap kata-kata dari mulut mummy lekat kuat di ingatan aku. Tapi aku tak salahkan mummy. Bila usia kita makin meningkat, makin kita fahami tekanan hidup orang-orang tua. Cumanya aku kesal, aku tak mampu buat apa-apa untuk bantu mak aku. Makin kita meniti usia ni kan, makin menebal pulak sayang aku pada mummy dan papa. Aku kena tunjukkan ke sayang aku? Entah..macam aku pernah tulis dalam blog ni..aku tak pernah sekali pun cakap sayang pada mummy, sebab aku malu, sebab aku tak pernah diasuh begitu. Teringat pada Acap, yang tak segan cakap, "Saya sayang mak!", depan aku kat rumah dia sendiri waktu bersantai dengan keluarganya.

Berbeda dengan Puan Norashikin Zainuddin (mama aku). Mama mudah sekali bercakap dengan aku tentang apa yang dia fikirkan. Kalau nak dikira, mama bukanlah mak sedarah sedaging. Setakat mak angkat waktu di sekolah dulu. Tapi dia ringan mulut untuk ceritakan apa yang terbuku dalam hati dia. Lagi-lagi kalau hanya aku berdua saja. Aku pun tak pernah segan nak mengadu pada mama tentang macam-macam. Tentang soal hati...soal pelajaran...soal kehidupan sosial aku. Mungkin mama tak berfikiran macam mummy. Mama berpelajaran tinggi, punya Masters dari Amerika. Dia memang diasuh untuk berfikiran begitu. Mummy pulak lebih reserve, lebih mendiamkan diri dan cuma sekali sekala ajer suarakan pendapat dia. Kebanyakan pendapatnya disuarakan pada papa saja..pada kami, lebih banyak bergurau atau berseloroh ajer (itu pun lepas kami tiga beradik lelaki dah lepas umur 20an).

Alangkah seronoknya kalau aku mampu baca fikiran mummy aku..kalau aku dapat baca fikiran mama aku. Umur aku hanya semakin menaik...usia diorang hanya akan mendekati mati. Bila aku dapat balas jasa kedua-dua mereka? Allah jua yang Maha Mengetahui.

Ayed sayang mummy...ayed sayang mama juga.

You Are Not Alone



Semua orang ada kenangan lalu diorang. Tak kira ler yang best ke, yang tak best ke..yang separuh best ke...asalkan kenangan. Kadang-kadang kenangan yang tak best, kita cuba untuk benamkan dalam-dalam either dalam hati kita..or dalam kepala kita. Amik contoh, kenangan paling buruk US dalam sejarah peperangan diorang ialah waktu perang Vietnam...memang imej US sangatlah teruk waktu tu. Kemudian US belajar banyak dari kenangan buruk tu. Amik contoh lagi pulak..contoh yang manusia tak pernah amik pengajaran dari kenangan silamnya. Sekitar tahun 1969, Dr. Mahathir kena buang dari UMNO sebab dikatakan menimbulkan perpecahan dalam parti UMNO. Bila dia kena buang dari UMNO, dia pun pergi ke Manila dan buruk-burukkan nama Malaysia waktu tu dan mengkritik kepemimpinan Tunku Abdul Rahman, PM pertama kita. Belakang bila orang Anwar Ibrahim buat cenggitu, bila Nurul Izzah ke Manila untuk berjumpa dengan President Estrada dan bercakap tentang keadaan ayah dia...orang-orang dalam UMNO kata mereka ni pengkhianat. Dr. M label diorang sebagai pengkhianat. Hello..look at the history, siapa yang mulakan dulu?

Kenangan adalah sejarah untuk diambil pengajarannya. Apa yang buruk yang pernah jadi dalam hidup kita..tak perlu kita ulangi and tak perlu kita sentiasa tangisi. Kita tengok menda yang dah lepas tu sebagai satu method pendidikan dari tuhan. Apa yang ada sekarang ni, kita teruskan dan cita-cita kita mesti dipenuhi. Cita-cita kita mesti dipandukan agar supaya sampai ke destinasi akhir. Kenangan lalu tu..kita jadikan peneman dan peransang untuk pacukan kita ke arah cita-cita tu.

Aku cakap ni..sebab aku nak tujukan pada somebody termasuklah aku sendiri. Aku harap dia faham dan sedar, apa yang dah berlalu tak dapat pun kita ubah. Yang kita boleh ubah ialah diri kita sekarang ni..dan dengan masa yang ada pada kita ni (hek elehh..cam Gandalf cakap kat Frodo jekk nih). Kita ada dua pilihan ajer, samada kita nak stay lagu tu...or kita nak majukan diri sendiri..Halangan pasti ada...sebab nak gerak mengatasi inertia ni memanglah sangat susah. Insya allah kita semua ada kawan-kawan, dan patutnya kawan-kawan kita ni saling support menyupport (giler lemah BM aku..tak tahu the word support/encourage in malay..barai dahh..barai!) kalau lah diorang betul ngaku diorang kawan.

Untuk member baru aku tu,
"Awak..saya nak awak jangan abandon cita-cita awak tu. Carry on dude! Kita masih lagi muda sebenarnya, 24, muda trang tang tang lagi. Raihlah kejayaan walau macam mana susah sekali pun sebab at the end, semua yang awak buat akan berbaloi. Cikgu saya masa darjah 6 pesan kat saya dulu before UPSR, "Biar menangis sekarang, jangan menangis kemudian". Soalnya sekarang, either kita ndak tak ndak ajer. Gagal hari ni bukan bermakna gagal untuk selama-lamanya."

Pada semua gak..Never Abandon Hopes. Never Abandon Friends. Bak kata motto kat kertas US dollar tu kan, "In God We Trust" and macam askar M'sia kita selalu sebut..."Agi Idup Agi Ngelaban". Atau pun PM Thailand Thaksin Shinawatra yang nak beli Liverpool punya falsafah hidup, "Better die than live like a loser". Paling cibai nyer kata-kata peransang pun..pesan Dr. M, "perjuangan belum selesai"..hehehehe..sadis la plak aku sebut kat sini!!! Anwar Ibrahim pulak cakap,"Kalau takut menanggung risiko, jangan bicara soal perjuangan". Nah..semua kata-kata peransang dah ada..cuma nak tempek ajer kat dahi kita ni..and teruskan hidup and capai cita-cita kita.

Hmm..kenapa aku rasa aku poyo bangat ni?

Tribute to Miss Bank Negara Governor



Kali pertama aku kenal dia waktu aku datang makan malam dengan Datuk Dr. Mahadzir b. Mohd. Khir, Setiausaha Parlimen di Kementerian Pendidikan di Purdue University, Indiana. Masa tu aku lihat dia diam ajer..tak banyak bercakap cuma sekali sekala menawarkan senyuman pada tetamu-tetamu yang turut hadir pada dinner malam tu. Aku pulak kebetulan nampak Pitek ngan Ajeep dari Indiana University, Bloomington, so lepak dengan diorang laa..the rest semuanya aku tak kenal (kecuali bebudak Purdue yang in charge malam dinner tu). Asalnya boring juga nak menunggu Dato Dr. Mahadzhir ni sebab dia lambat turun dari Chicago, konon-kononnya melawat alma mater dia, University of Chicago about 20 years ago.

Kemudian bila waktu makan tu, aku cuba-cubalah sembang dengan kenkawan di sekeliling dia (ingat strategy game Ghost Recon, approach target from right and left flank..hahahaha). Dan dari situ aku kenal Janelle and ada sorang lagi lady from Iowa. Seronok berbual dengan diorang, banyak bertukar information and banyak berkongsi cerita pengalaman masing-masing..ya lah, kita buat kawan baru kan?! Aku tergerak hati sebenarnya nak tegur dia tapi segan beb..lagi-lagi bila dia tak bukak mulut..tak pun jarang giler bercakap. Dalam hati aku budget, either dia ni memang sombong or dia ni memang stok pendiam. Tak apa lah..

Nak jadikan cerita, aku pun beranikan diri menyampuk bila dia tengah sembang-sembang dengan kenkawan dia. Seronok bercakap dengan dia rupa-rupanya. Tak sangka, orang diam macam dia ni banyak menda yang nak diofferkan dalam discussion/conversation, cuma kena pandailah pilih topic of discussion. Dari situ, aku berkenalan dengan dia.

Lagi sekali kami berjumpa waktu di majlis makan malam rasmi dengan tetamu kehormat, Datuk Dr Mahadzir, di Student Union Building tak silap aku. Waktu tu, dia pakai baju kebaya biru. Wahhhhhh...giler babeng gorgeous!! Nak puji, tapi aku segan. Bukanlah puji ada makna, tapi puji untuk bagi compliment ikhlas. Aku ada juga jumpa kawan-kawan aku yang lain macam Amy IUB, Effy IUB, Ticub dari Texas, Judd dari IUB and semuanya nampak cantik, hebat dan hensem belaka. Aku sempatlah tegur dia waktu kami, rombongan PSU tiba kat banquet hall tu. Sempat juga aku tanya dia kena duduk kat seat mana..rupa-rupanya seat dia jauh gak dari aku..tapi tak jauh gak. And once the dinner start, aku tengok dia dari jauh, macam duduk sorang-sorang kat situ..rasa menyesal pulak tak join melepak dengan dia sekali kat dinner table tu (takpe..Cik Caza rock kite ade kat dinner table aku..wohooo!!!)

Lepas habis dinner and persembahan malam tu..aku sempatlah bergambar dengan dia and bertukar email address. Balik dari Midwest Games, aku terus add dia kat MSN Messenger aku.

Dari situ kami terus berhubung, banyaklah juga isu yang disembang/debat/discusskan..walau pun tak selalu tapi cukuplah untuk kenal siapa dia. Tambah-tambah lagi sejak dia pun start buat blog juga (aku baca la jugakkan blog dia dari tarikh awal dia start tulis blog...banyak wooo yang aku baru tahu pasal dia..ngeng ngeng!!). Secara ikhlas hati, aku memang serius shit respect sama dia. Orangnya bijak..dia ni diam-diam ubi berisi. Aku lihat, masa depan dia cukup cerah. Cita-cita dia nak jadi bakal Governor Bank Negara wanita kedua. Aku pun tak ragu-ragu dengan kemampuan dia. Nak kata orangnya ni keras cam besi, rasanya dia pun ada soft spot cuma aku tak tahu kat mana soft spot. Tapi gayanya memang lembut..senang hati sapa-sapa nak kenal dia cuma asal mulanya nampak agak pendiam sikit.

Now dia dah graduate dari Iowa University dengan tiga degree complete with honors. Aku sebagai kawan dia, memang bangga dengan kemampuan dia. Esok dia akan balik ke M'sia dan insya Allah dia akan datang semula ke Ithaca, NY untuk sambung master dia di Cornell University. Aku cukup yakin, satu hari nanti aku akan lihat dia sebagai salah seorang yang berpengaruh, either dalam lapangan kerja dia atau pun mungkin dalam arena politik negara. Siapa tahu kan?

Aku selalu doakan kejayaan selalu datang pada semua kenkawan aku, termasuklah untuk dia. Aku pun selalu doakan kesejahteraan untuk semua kawan aku termasuklah dia. Mudah-mudahan apa yang dia cita-citakan akan tercapai. Mudah-mudahan juga dia akan selamat tiba di destinasi terakhir di Pulau Pinang nanti dan mudah-mudahan juga dia akan selamat kembali semula ke bumi Amerika ni.

Pada Cik Nu*ain Sha*rier, teruskan usaha ke arah cita-cita awak. Saya yakin usaha awak tu akan membuahkan hasil yang sangat hebat. Dan saya percaya, kawan-kawan yang ada di sini akan terus berbangga dengan usaha awak. Moga kita ketemu lagi di lain kali..bon voyage!

Oh by the way....does anybody know the word fellatio? hahahahaha..go and find dictionary..oh man..these blogs really amuse me lahhh.

wakakakakaka....

p/s: I am only a human being ok? Not a saint...

Wahahahaha..Hahahaha..Cam cilake!!

Okay, I came across with this blog. Oh My God! The content is pretty much about day to day life of a woman but it is full of sexual content stuffs. Well, it's pretty interesting actually to read about this (duhhhh..no one..absolutely no one dislikes anything has the word s-e-x in it, ok?) But this is no lame blog, ladies and gentleman. It subtlely touches the scenario in our country in regard to life after 25 with men and women. The reality is usually awfully to understand and I think, I should read her blog more and more..muahahaha!!!

Okay okay..this is an excerpt from her blog..nice one aa! Read people, read!

I wonder sometimes, why some women think the all out backless, strapless, braless thing works? It works honey, but it leaves so little to the imagination. Don't be dull. I know a high powered bitch in charge who wears lace corsets to work under her power suit,few buttons open, that is power definitely. It adds a stroke of flirtatiousness into the whole picture and she's got half the floor drooling, men and women alike. Nothing more attractive than a bitch with a soft side.

In my humble opinion, I think the whole point of teasing is making the after effects last longer and to make it more explosive. I liken it to tantric sex and regulating your breathing during sex. Keep holding it in everytime you're near the edge, rinse, lather and repeat and even men have said to experience multiple orgasms.

Teasing is about giving them a preview.

However, I do have the utmost amounts of scorn for women and men who tease with no hope of a full blown mini-series. If you're doing it just for kicks, then you should tone it down to just simple flirting (which is a mixture of compliments and very little sexuality) and not seduction. Teasing in the traditional sense doesn't bode well for the teaser if you're not willing and ready to take it to the next level. In fact, you'll subject yourself to immense amounts of ridicule and gossip if you choose to tease and not please!

Some skin, just a little skin. - "The Wanton Diaries"

Wohooooo..what do you think of her blog huh? *wink*

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Aku teringin sangat nak tulis pasal kes dera di penjara Abu Ghraib dan perkaitannya dengan peristiwa pembunuhan beramai-ramai di My Lai, Vietnam, kira-kira 30 tahun dulu by the same superpower, United States of America. But everytime I started to write, I couldn't think any word can describe the utter hatred I have upon this arrogant and stubborn nation - The United States of America. Therefore, I have to resort to posting a well-written reports by Seymour Hersh, the same reporter who exposed the My Lai cover up by the Pentagon to the whole world. We owe you big time pal!!

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TORTURE AT ABU GHRAIB
by SEYMOUR M. HERSH
copied from [http://newyorker.com/fact/content/?040510fa_fact]

American soldiers brutalized Iraqis. How far up does the responsibility go?

Issue of 2004-05-10
Posted 2004-04-30

In the era of Saddam Hussein, Abu Ghraib, twenty miles west of Baghdad, was one of the world's most notorious prisons, with torture, weekly executions, and vile living conditions. As many as fifty thousand men and women—no accurate count is possible—were jammed into Abu Ghraib at one time, in twelve-by-twelve-foot cells that were little more than human holding pits.

In the looting that followed the regime's collapse, last April, the huge prison complex, by then deserted, was stripped of everything that could be removed, including doors, windows, and bricks. The coalition authorities had the floors tiled, cells cleaned and repaired, and toilets, showers, and a new medical center added. Abu Ghraib was now a U.S. military prison. Most of the prisoners, however—by the fall there were several thousand, including women and teen-agers—were civilians, many of whom had been picked up in random military sweeps and at highway checkpoints. They fell into three loosely defined categories: common criminals; security detainees suspected of "crimes against the coalition"; and a small number of suspected "high-value" leaders of the insurgency against the coalition forces.

Last June, Janis Karpinski, an Army reserve brigadier general, was named commander of the 800th Military Police Brigade and put in charge of military prisons in Iraq. General Karpinski, the only female commander in the war zone, was an experienced operations and intelligence officer who had served with the Special Forces and in the 1991 Gulf War, but she had never run a prison system. Now she was in charge of three large jails, eight battalions, and thirty-four hundred Army reservists, most of whom, like her, had no training in handling prisoners.

General Karpinski, who had wanted to be a soldier since she was five, is a business consultant in civilian life, and was enthusiastic about her new job. In an interview last December with the St. Petersburg Times, she said that, for many of the Iraqi inmates at Abu Ghraib, "living conditions now are better in prison than at home. At one point we were concerned that they wouldn't want to leave."

A month later, General Karpinski was formally admonished and quietly suspended, and a major investigation into the Army's prison system, authorized by Lieutenant General Ricardo S. Sanchez, the senior commander in Iraq, was under way. A fifty-three-page report, obtained by The New Yorker, written by Major General Antonio M. Taguba and not meant for public release, was completed in late February. Its conclusions about the institutional failures of the Army prison system were devastating. Specifically, Taguba found that between October and December of 2003 there were numerous instances of "sadistic, blatant, and wanton criminal abuses" at Abu Ghraib. This systematic and illegal abuse of detainees, Taguba reported, was perpetrated by soldiers of the 372nd Military Police Company, and also by members of the American intelligence community. (The 372nd was attached to the 320th M.P. Battalion, which reported to Karpinski’s brigade headquarters.) Taguba's report listed some of the wrongdoing:

Breaking chemical lights and pouring the phosphoric liquid on detainees; pouring cold water on naked detainees; beating detainees with a broom handle and a chair; threatening male detainees with rape; allowing a military police guard to stitch the wound of a detainee who was injured after being slammed against the wall in his cell; sodomizing a detainee with a chemical light and perhaps a broom stick, and using military working dogs to frighten and intimidate detainees with threats of attack, and in one instance actually biting a detainee.

There was stunning evidence to support the allegations, Taguba added—"detailed witness statements and the discovery of extremely graphic photographic evidence." Photographs and videos taken by the soldiers as the abuses were happening were not included in his report, Taguba said, because of their "extremely sensitive nature."

The photographs—several of which were broadcast on CBS's "60 Minutes 2" last week—show leering G.I.s taunting naked Iraqi prisoners who are forced to assume humiliating poses. Six suspects—Staff Sergeant Ivan L. Frederick II, known as Chip, who was the senior enlisted man; Specialist Charles A. Graner; Sergeant Javal Davis; Specialist Megan Ambuhl; Specialist Sabrina Harman; and Private Jeremy Sivits—are now facing prosecution in Iraq, on charges that include conspiracy, dereliction of duty, cruelty toward prisoners, maltreatment, assault, and indecent acts. A seventh suspect, Private Lynndie England, was reassigned to Fort Bragg, North Carolina, after becoming pregnant.

The photographs tell it all. In one, Private England, a cigarette dangling from her mouth, is giving a jaunty thumbs-up sign and pointing at the genitals of a young Iraqi, who is naked except for a sandbag over his head, as he masturbates. Three other hooded and naked Iraqi prisoners are shown, hands reflexively crossed over their genitals. A fifth prisoner has his hands at his sides. In another, England stands arm in arm with Specialist Graner; both are grinning and giving the thumbs-up behind a cluster of perhaps seven naked Iraqis, knees bent, piled clumsily on top of each other in a pyramid. There is another photograph of a cluster of naked prisoners, again piled in a pyramid. Near them stands Graner, smiling, his arms crossed; a woman soldier stands in front of him, bending over, and she, too, is smiling. Then, there is another cluster of hooded bodies, with a female soldier standing in front, taking photographs. Yet another photograph shows a kneeling, naked, unhooded male prisoner, head momentarily turned away from the camera, posed to make it appear that he is performing oral sex on another male prisoner, who is naked and hooded.

Such dehumanization is unacceptable in any culture, but it is especially so in the Arab world. Homosexual acts are against Islamic law and it is humiliating for men to be naked in front of other men, Bernard Haykel, a professor of Middle Eastern studies at New York University, explained. "Being put on top of each other and forced to masturbate, being naked in front of each other—it's all a form of torture," Haykel said.

Two Iraqi faces that do appear in the photographs are those of dead men. There is the battered face of prisoner No. 153399, and the bloodied body of another prisoner, wrapped in cellophane and packed in ice. There is a photograph of an empty room, splattered with blood.

The 372nd's abuse of prisoners seemed almost routine—a fact of Army life that the soldiers felt no need to hide. On April 9th, at an Article 32 hearing (the military equivalent of a grand jury) in the case against Sergeant Frederick, at Camp Victory, near Baghdad, one of the witnesses, Specialist Matthew Wisdom, an M.P., told the courtroom what happened when he and other soldiers delivered seven prisoners, hooded and bound, to the so-called "hard site" at Abu Ghraib—seven tiers of cells where the inmates who were considered the most dangerous were housed. The men had been accused of starting a riot in another section of the prison. Wisdom said:
SFC Snider grabbed my prisoner and threw him into a pile. . . . I do not think it was right to put them in a pile. I saw SSG Frederic, SGT Davis and CPL Graner walking around the pile hitting the prisoners. I remember SSG Frederick hitting one prisoner in the side of its [sic] ribcage. The prisoner was no danger to SSG Frederick. . . . I left after that.

When he returned later, Wisdom testified:
I saw two naked detainees, one masturbating to another kneeling with its mouth open. I thought I should just get out of there. I didn't think it was right . . . I saw SSG Frederick walking towards me, and he said, "Look what these animals do when you leave them alone for two seconds." I heard PFC England shout out, "He's getting hard."
Wisdom testified that he told his superiors what had happened, and assumed that "the issue was taken care of." He said, "I just didn’t want to be part of anything that looked criminal."

The abuses became public because of the outrage of Specialist Joseph M. Darby, an M.P. whose role emerged during the Article 32 hearing against Chip Frederick. A government witness, Special Agent Scott Bobeck, who is a member of the Army's Criminal Investigation Division, or C.I.D., told the court, according to an abridged transcript made available to me, "The investigation started after SPC Darby . . . got a CD from CPL Graner. . . . He came across pictures of naked detainees." Bobeck said that Darby had "initially put an anonymous letter under our door, then he later came forward and gave a sworn statement. He felt very bad about it and thought it was very wrong."
Questioned further, the Army investigator said that Frederick and his colleagues had not been given any "training guidelines" that he was aware of. The M.P.s in the 372nd had been assigned to routine traffic and police duties upon their arrival in Iraq, in the spring of 2003. In October of 2003, the 372nd was ordered to prison-guard duty at Abu Ghraib. Frederick, at thirty-seven, was far older than his colleagues, and was a natural leader; he had also worked for six years as a guard for the Virginia Department of Corrections. Bobeck explained:
What I got is that SSG Frederick and CPL Graner were road M.P.s and were put in charge because they were civilian prison guards and had knowledge of how things were supposed to be run.

Bobeck also testified that witnesses had said that Frederick, on one occasion, "had punched a detainee in the chest so hard that the detainee almost went into cardiac arrest."

At the Article 32 hearing, the Army informed Frederick and his attorneys, Captain Robert Shuck, an Army lawyer, and Gary Myers, a civilian, that two dozen witnesses they had sought, including General Karpinski and all of Frederick's co-defendants, would not appear. Some had been excused after exercising their Fifth Amendment right; others were deemed to be too far away from the courtroom. "The purpose of an Article 32 hearing is for us to engage witnesses and discover facts," Gary Myers told me. "We ended up with a c.i.d. agent and no alleged victims to examine." After the hearing, the presiding investigative officer ruled that there was sufficient evidence to convene a court-martial against Frederick.

Myers, who was one of the military defense attorneys in the My Lai prosecutions of the nineteen-seventies, told me that his client's defense will be that he was carrying out the orders of his superiors and, in particular, the directions of military intelligence. He said, "Do you really think a group of kids from rural Virginia decided to do this on their own? Decided that the best way to embarrass Arabs and make them talk was to have them walk around nude?"

In letters and e-mails to family members, Frederick repeatedly noted that the military-intelligence teams, which included C.I.A. officers and linguists and interrogation specialists from private defense contractors, were the dominant force inside Abu Ghraib. In a letter written in January, he said:
I questioned some of the things that I saw . . . such things as leaving inmates in their cell with no clothes or in female underpants, handcuffing them to the door of their cell—and the answer I got was, "This is how military intelligence (MI) wants it done." . . . . MI has also instructed us to place a prisoner in an isolation cell with little or no clothes, no toilet or running water, no ventilation or window, for as much as three days.

The military-intelligence officers have "encouraged and told us, 'Great job,' they were now getting positive results and information," Frederick wrote. "CID has been present when the military working dogs were used to intimidate prisoners at MI's request." At one point, Frederick told his family, he pulled aside his superior officer, Lieutenant Colonel Jerry Phillabaum, the commander of the 320th M.P. Battalion, and asked about the mistreatment of prisoners. "His reply was 'Don't worry about it.'"

In November, Frederick wrote, an Iraqi prisoner under the control of what the Abu Ghraib guards called "O.G.A.," or other government agencies—that is, the C.I.A. and its paramilitary employees—was brought to his unit for questioning. "They stressed him out so bad that the man passed away. They put his body in a body bag and packed him in ice for approximately twenty-four hours in the shower. . . . The next day the medics came and put his body on a stretcher, placed a fake IV in his arm and took him away." The dead Iraqi was never entered into the prison's inmate-control system, Frederick recounted, "and therefore never had a number."

Frederick's defense is, of course, highly self-serving. But the complaints in his letters and e-mails home were reinforced by two internal Army reports—Taguba's and one by the Army's chief law-enforcement officer, Provost Marshal Donald Ryder, a major general.

Last fall, General Sanchez ordered Ryder to review the prison system in Iraq and recommend ways to improve it. Ryder's report, filed on November 5th, concluded that there were potential human-rights, training, and manpower issues, system-wide, that needed immediate attention. It also discussed serious concerns about the tension between the missions of the military police assigned to guard the prisoners and the intelligence teams who wanted to interrogate them. Army regulations limit intelligence activity by the M.P.s to passive collection. But something had gone wrong at Abu Ghraib.
There was evidence dating back to the Afghanistan war, the Ryder report said, that M.P.s had worked with intelligence operatives to "set favorable conditions for subsequent interviews"—a euphemism for breaking the will of prisoners. "Such actions generally run counter to the smooth operation of a detention facility, attempting to maintain its population in a compliant and docile state." General Karpinski's brigade, Ryder reported, "has not been directed to change its facility procedures to set the conditions for MI interrogations, nor participate in those interrogations." Ryder called for the establishment of procedures to "define the role of military police soldiers . . .clearly separating the actions of the guards from those of the military intelligence personnel."

The officers running the war in Iraq were put on notice.

Ryder undercut his warning, however, by concluding that the situation had not yet reached a crisis point. Though some procedures were flawed, he said, he found "no military police units purposely applying inappropriate confinement practices." His investigation was at best a failure and at worst a coverup.

Taguba, in his report, was polite but direct in refuting his fellow-general. "Unfortunately, many of the systemic problems that surfaced during [Ryder's] assessment are the very same issues that are the subject of this investigation," he wrote. "In fact, many of the abuses suffered by detainees occurred during, or near to, the time of that assessment." The report continued, "Contrary to the findings of MG Ryder’s report, I find that personnel assigned to the 372nd MP Company, 800th MP Brigade were directed to change facility procedures to 'set the conditions' for MI interrogations." Army intelligence officers, C.I.A. agents, and private contractors "actively requested that MP guards set physical and mental conditions for favorable interrogation of witnesses."

Taguba backed up his assertion by citing evidence from sworn statements to Army C.I.D. investigators. Specialist Sabrina Harman, one of the accused M.P.s, testified that it was her job to keep detainees awake, including one hooded prisoner who was placed on a box with wires attached to his fingers, toes, and penis. She stated, "MI wanted to get them to talk. It is Graner and Frederick's job to do things for MI and OGA to get these people to talk."

Another witness, Sergeant Javal Davis, who is also one of the accused, told C.I.D. investigators, "I witnessed prisoners in the MI hold section . . . being made to do various things that I would question morally. . . . We were told that they had different rules." Taguba wrote, "Davis also stated that he had heard MI insinuate to the guards to abuse the inmates. When asked what MI said he stated: 'Loosen this guy up for us.''Make sure he has a bad night.’‘Make sure he gets the treatment.’” Military intelligence made these comments to Graner and Frederick, Davis said. "The MI staffs to my understanding have been giving Graner compliments . . . statements like, 'Good job, they're breaking down real fast. They answer every question. They're giving out good information.'"
When asked why he did not inform his chain of command about the abuse, Sergeant Davis answered, "Because I assumed that if they were doing things out of the ordinary or outside the guidelines, someone would have said something. Also the wing"—where the abuse took place—"belongs to MI and it appeared MI personnel approved of the abuse."

Another witness, Specialist Jason Kennel, who was not accused of wrongdoing, said, "I saw them nude, but MI would tell us to take away their mattresses, sheets, and clothes." (It was his view, he added, that if M.I. wanted him to do this "they needed to give me paperwork.") Taguba also cited an interview with Adel L. Nakhla, a translator who was an employee of Titan, a civilian contractor. He told of one night when a "bunch of people from MI" watched as a group of handcuffed and shackled inmates were subjected to abuse by Graner and Frederick.

General Taguba saved his harshest words for the military-intelligence officers and private contractors. He recommended that Colonel Thomas Pappas, the commander of one of the M.I. brigades, be reprimanded and receive non-judicial punishment, and that Lieutenant Colonel Steven Jordan, the former director of the Joint Interrogation and Debriefing Center, be relieved of duty and reprimanded. He further urged that a civilian contractor, Steven Stephanowicz, of CACI International, be fired from his Army job, reprimanded, and denied his security clearances for lying to the investigating team and allowing or ordering military policemen "who were not trained in interrogation techniques to facilitate interrogations by 'setting conditions' which were neither authorized" nor in accordance with Army regulations. "He clearly knew his instructions equated to physical abuse," Taguba wrote. He also recommended disciplinary action against a second CACI employee, John Israel. (A spokeswoman for CACI said that the company had "received no formal communication" from the Army about the matter.)
"I suspect," Taguba concluded, that Pappas, Jordan, Stephanowicz, and Israel "were either directly or indirectly responsible for the abuse at Abu Ghraib," and strongly recommended immediate disciplinary action.

The problems inside the Army prison system in Iraq were not hidden from senior commanders. During Karpinski's seven-month tour of duty, Taguba noted, there were at least a dozen officially reported incidents involving escapes, attempted escapes, and other serious security issues that were investigated by officers of the 800th M.P. Brigade. Some of the incidents had led to the killing or wounding of inmates and M.P.s, and resulted in a series of "lessons learned" inquiries within the brigade. Karpinski invariably approved the reports and signed orders calling for changes in day-to-day procedures. But Taguba found that she did not follow up, doing nothing to insure that the orders were carried out. Had she done so, he added, "cases of abuse may have been prevented."

General Taguba further found that Abu Ghraib was filled beyond capacity, and that the M.P. guard force was significantly undermanned and short of resources. "This imbalance has contributed to the poor living conditions, escapes, and accountability lapses," he wrote. There were gross differences, Taguba said, between the actual number of prisoners on hand and the number officially recorded. A lack of proper screening also meant that many innocent Iraqis were wrongly being detained—indefinitely, it seemed, in some cases. The Taguba study noted that more than sixty per cent of the civilian inmates at Abu Ghraib were deemed not to be a threat to society, which should have enabled them to be released. Karpinski's defense, Taguba said, was that her superior officers "routinely" rejected her recommendations regarding the release of such prisoners.

Karpinski was rarely seen at the prisons she was supposed to be running, Taguba wrote. He also found a wide range of administrative problems, including some that he considered "without precedent in my military career." The soldiers, he added, were "poorly prepared and untrained . . . prior to deployment, at the mobilization site, upon arrival in theater, and throughout the mission."

General Taguba spent more than four hours interviewing Karpinski, whom he described as extremely emotional: "What I found particularly disturbing in her testimony was her complete unwillingness to either understand or accept that many of the problems inherent in the 800th MP Brigade were caused or exacerbated by poor leadership and the refusal of her command to both establish and enforce basic standards and principles among its soldiers."

Taguba recommended that Karpinski and seven brigade military-police officers and enlisted men be relieved of command and formally reprimanded. No criminal proceedings were suggested for Karpinski; apparently, the loss of promotion and the indignity of a public rebuke were seen as enough punishment.

After the story broke on CBS last week, the Pentagon announced that Major General Geoffrey Miller, the new head of the Iraqi prison system, had arrived in Baghdad and was on the job. He had been the commander of the Guantánamo Bay detention center. General Sanchez also authorized an investigation into possible wrongdoing by military and civilian interrogators.

As the international furor grew, senior military officers, and President Bush, insisted that the actions of a few did not reflect the conduct of the military as a whole. Taguba's report, however, amounts to an unsparing study of collective wrongdoing and the failure of Army leadership at the highest levels. The picture he draws of Abu Ghraib is one in which Army regulations and the Geneva conventions were routinely violated, and in which much of the day-to-day management of the prisoners was abdicated to Army military-intelligence units and civilian contract employees. Interrogating prisoners and getting intelligence, including by intimidation and torture, was the priority.

The mistreatment at Abu Ghraib may have done little to further American intelligence, however. Willie J. Rowell, who served for thirty-six years as a C.I.D. agent, told me that the use of force or humiliation with prisoners is invariably counterproductive. "They'll tell you what you want to hear, truth or no truth," Rowell said. "'You can flog me until I tell you what I know you want me to say.' You don't get righteous information."

Under the fourth Geneva convention, an occupying power can jail civilians who pose an "imperative" security threat, but it must establish a regular procedure for insuring that only civilians who remain a genuine security threat be kept imprisoned. Prisoners have the right to appeal any internment decision and have their cases reviewed. Human Rights Watch complained to Secretary of Defense Donald Rumsfeld that civilians in Iraq remained in custody month after month with no charges brought against them. Abu Ghraib had become, in effect, another Guantanamo.

As the photographs from Abu Ghraib make clear, these detentions have had enormous consequences: for the imprisoned civilian Iraqis, many of whom had nothing to do with the growing insurgency; for the integrity of the Army; and for the United States’ reputation in the world.

Captain Robert Shuck, Frederick's military attorney, closed his defense at the Article 32 hearing last month by saying that the Army was "attempting to have these six soldiers atone for its sins." Similarly, Gary Myers, Frederick's civilian attorney, told me that he would argue at the court-martial that culpability in the case extended far beyond his client. "I'm going to drag every involved intelligence officer and civilian contractor I can find into court," he said. "Do you really believe the Army relieved a general officer because of six soldiers? Not a chance."

Pagi Hening Kampus PSU

Hari ni aku sempat bangun awal..tunaikan solat subuh and teruskan dengan bacaan Quran. Masih lagi merangkak nak hafazkan surah Al Mulk..hehhe..nampak sangat hati tu tak bersih, ye dak? Dari 30 ayat tu, aku dapat hafaz 10 ayat ajer...struggle..struggle!!

Kemudian lepas tu aku saja saja ajelah surfing net, tengok blog-blog orang. Sekali terkantoi satu blog budak Hizbi..well bukan Hizbi lagi dah, tapi ex-Hizbi sebab dia dah kembali ke M'sia. Aku kenal dia pun waktu aku pergi program Winter Gathering Hizbi di Scotland dalam tahun 2002 dulu, program yang mengisytiharkan aku sebagai anti kerajaan. Kemudian aku visit lagi rumah dia waktu aku di London sekejap sebabnya bebudak rumah dia semuanya sahabat-sahabat jemaah Hizbi. He he he...citer pasal ni, habis semua sahabat kat London sana tau dahhh..diorang pun dah sedia maklum dengan nasib aku. Alhamdulillah, sokongan moral yang korang bagi..memang sangatlah best! Bestnyer hidup berjemaah ni (aisey..tune poyo dah aku).



"..Satu lagi yg best utk yg baru bergelar suami ni, rasa perlunya kita utk bertanggungjawab tu makin menebal dalam hati..so kita start plan finance, perancangan masa depan, rumah, makanan, nafqah dan sebagainya. Ia menjadikan kita lebih matang utk menghadapi masa hadapan, which in turn helps us dalam kehidupan kita kat dunia ni..dan menggalakkan kita menentukan hala tuju hidup bukan setakat hidup kita sendiri malahan hidup isteri kita, anak2 kita dan keluarga kita berlandaskan syari'at ALlah. Produktiviti kerja pun insyaALlah semakin meningkat dan teratur. Ish..nak citer satu2 fadilat perkahwinan ni sampai nak honeymoon pun tak abis lagi . Yg paling penting sekali, ingat balik apa niat kita berkahwin tu. Andainya niat kita utk mendekatkan diri kepada ALlah, insyaALlah itu lah yg kita akan dapat disamping pelbagai nikmat lagi dari ALlah...mana tak syok..ye tak.."

Anyway, rupa-rupanya dia ni dah pun diijabkabulkan dengan muslimah pilihan dia. Bila baca catatan kat blog dia...mak aih..bunyi macam bahagia sangat beb. Dia kata kat situ, tak pernah dating, tak pernah jumpa, cuma kenal melalui perantaraan. Dalam erti kata yang lain, melalui Unit Baitul Muslim. Ni mesti jemaah Hizbi yang bantu ni, mesti punya lah. And sekali lagi buat aku teringat kat Aini sebab dia kahwin dengan Abang Yusuf dia tu, tak ada tangguh-tangguh and tak ada dating-dating ni.

Bila dia sebutkan pasal perancangan tu..aku teringat balik bila aku join program MISNA waktu aku sophomore dulu di Purdue. Pesan Ustaz Tuan Ibrahim Tuan Man dan juga Dr. Syukri dari UKM bicara tentang Baitul Muslim - keluarga Islam. Diorang kata, yang paling penting selepas diakadnikahkan ialah perancangan selepas perkahwinan. Bukannya yang dibicarakan itu tentang honeymoon, lokasi honeymoon atau pun berapa hari mahu honeymoon, tapi pada perancangan yang lebih menyeluruh. Make sure semua pihak clear dengan peranan masing-masing dan tanggungjawab masing-masing. Make sure perancangan ekonomi dirancang supaya tak timbul soal selisih di kemudian hari. Aku masa tu boleh angguk-angguk ajer la sebabnya kita ni tak ada isteri, apatah lagi family. So tak boleh nak mengiyakan atau pun menafikan. Kena tunggu bila aku dah bina baitul muslim aku sendiri..baru boleh cakap. Orang muda untuk bicara soal perkahwinan dan soal membina keluarga takkan sama dengan orang yang sudah ada rumahtangga dan faham sepak terajangnya dalam berkeluarga ni.

Apa-apa pun..hati rasa tersentuh lah bila tengok mamat ni dah dirikan rumahtangga. Bukannya timbul rasa nak kahwin macam dia juga (ade gak tuh..cuma tak ndak ngaku ajer..hahahaha), cuma rasa rendah diri dengan niat dia bila dirikan rumahtangga and juga kaedah dia menuju alam rumahtangga. Itulah, bila hubungan tu kita pelihara dari perkara-perkara yang mungkar, memang hati rasa sejuk dan bahagia sebab Allah campakkan rasa mawaddah wa rahmah tu.

ayat 21 surah Arrum (QS. 30:21) yang berbunyi (terjemahannya), Dan diantara tanda-tanda kekuasanNya ialah Dia (Allah) telah menciptakan untukmu "isteri-isteri" dari jenismu sendiri, supaya kamu cenderung dan merasa tenteram kepadanya, dan dijadikan-Nya diantaramu rasa kasih dan sayang. Sesungguhnya pada yang demikian itu benar-benar terdapat tanda-tanda bagi kaum yang berfikir.

Aisey..ni kena tanam azam ni tinggi-tinggi..mahu jadi macam mamat ni. Soalan untuk ketua UBM RPI, Abg Zaid bila nak kahwin ni? Hahahahahaha...

P/S: Zaid, aku dah paham dah maksud thiqah yang ko selalu sebut tu..hehehehe..baca ni, "Syeikh al-Kailani meringkaskan sifat-sifat pendakwah dan syarat-syarat untuk mendapat perakuan thiqah di dalam satu sifat yang padat; iaitu sifat tajarrud yang sempurna dan melibatkan diri secara total ke dalam dakwah. Dengan demikian, da'i itu akan lupakan kepentingan dirinya. Tumpuannya hanyalah kepada orang yang diserunya dan hanya menuturkan perkataan yang memberi kebaikan kepada mad’u. Dunia da'i pula adalah luas tanpa had, tanpa perniagaan, tiada hawa nafsu dan tiada mengejar pangkat. Semua itu tiada dalam dunianya. Yang ada di dalam dunia da'i hanyalah para mad'u yang didakwahnya. Itulah perniagaannya, keenakannya dan pangkat kebesarannya."

Gambar Lagi...



Ni masa small gathering last year kat Burger King, KLCC. Aku serius shit tak tahu apsal laa bebudak batch aku suka benar laa wat gathering kat situ. Dulu lepas SPM pun cam tu gak..kat Burger King situ gak..yang small gathering ni pun, konon-konon janji nak jumpa kat KFC. Tapi pi Burger King gak...aisehhh..awek cashier situ cun cun semua ke? Aku tak rasa pun...anyway..time to introduce some of Alam Shah Class of 97 to online friends.

Starting from left,

Shahrin Mat Rabi - rumah Halimi, AJK Kerohanian tak silap aku, now budak UIA. Dulu keding and kaki surau..sekarang sudah tembam same aku.

Raja Shahrin Najmi - orang tanjung karang, anak guru besar. Budak Dato Onn. Dah tamat pengajian buat medic di UKM. Should address him Doc kot. Dulu wakil SAS sesama aku main badminton bawah 18 tahun. Runner untuk rumah Dato Onn. Jambu Cikgu Hajjah Norlia (biase ler..budak medic mesti gempak bio, tak cam aku, hampeh giler Bio).

*yang baju biru tu aku ok? Kalau tak kenal..lagi bagus..:D

Mohd Hafiz Zahri aka FizZah - anak pengetua sekolah menengah. Ketua Paras 1. Budak rumah Hishamuddin. Atlit sekolah tak silap aku, kot. Pengawas paling cibai (suruh jaga bebudak F1, dia pi berjambu ngan budak F1)..hahahahaha... dialah geng study aku, geng buat setan kat bebudak F1, geng layan radio aku, rummet aku 2 minggu time SPM weeks. Geng travel kelantan aku lepas SPM. Now executive kat TELEKOM bawah TMNet.

Mohd Asmawi aka Mawi - now engineer kat estet mane ntah. Budak rumah Dato Onn. Sprinter skolah, sprinter kediaman. Budak rugbi bawah 18 SAS. Anak polis sama cam aku. Pernah sekelas ngan Mawi. Tak banyak cakap, tapi banyak senyum.

Syed Zulkarnain - satu kediaman ngan aku, Aminuddin Baki aka Amiekids. Player hoki bawah 18 tahun sekolah, Calon pemain hoki belia Majlis Sukan-Sukan Negara KL. Otak giler, lawak bodoh cam haram..tapi kelakar. Now Assistant Manager aka engineer kat Perimba Construction..civil engineer from UTM. Dah ada awek.

Amir Adzhan - kaki basketballer..Kapten basketball under 18 SAS. Still main basketball lagi..now dah jadi engineer kat serdang ke..kat seremban, aku tak sure plak.

Shaharurrizal aka Al - rummet aku time F1 kat rumah Aminuddin Baki. Go Amiekids! Loker dia time F1 busuk giler..lepas tu magically time f2 and seterusnya jadi wangi dah!! Sprinter rumah Aminuddin Baki..kaki jambu ngan bebudak F1 ngan budak f2 gak dia ni. Now dah jadi Assistant Manager ke ape kat TELEKOM tu.

Fazlie aka Telur - budak rumah Zaaba. Now dah kerja as Science Officer kat private company, dealing with Nuclear technology. Dengar citer selalu kena gi pelantar minyak, buat ape, wallahu'alam!

Wan Yusran Naim aka WanYusran (mamat pakai jersey putih) - budak rumah Dato Onn. Dulu time F1 kena gelar Superman sebab muka dia ada ala ala Clark Kent itu macam. Budak UIA study engineering. Sudah ade awek..sure aku budget awek dia cun punyer..dah mamat ni hensem tak ingat punyer laa! One thing aku suka pasal Wan Yusran, dia ni memang humble habis...kuat usaha..rajin belajar. Kenangan aku takleh lupa masa aku hantar Wan Yusran masuk emergency ward time F2 dulu, sebab dia sprint pastu pi langgar bontot Shahly aka Balong and then collapsed. Perghhh..aku dah kelam kabut masa tu..seb baik Wan Yusran takde ape-ape..apa aaa yang ade kat bontot Balong tu sampai buat mamat ni pengsan??!!

Al Amin Hassan aka Amonque - mamat besut ni, another rummet aku time F1. Kapten hoki bawah 18 SAS. Main hoki untuk MSSN wakili KL. Pernah wakil Tganu for hoki masa sekolah rendah. Masa dia F1, jambu dia Abang Lan. Setia jadi Pengakap sampai F5..keh keh kehh..sama-sama ngan Abadi..muahahaha!! Jarang giler aku nampak dia marah..asyik senyum ajer. Now jadi Application Engineer kat private company kat KL . Player tetap untuk team bola SAS9397..still single kot..

Md Ithnin - aku ingat dia ni third batch yang masuk dlm batch aku. Asal dari Felda, now dalam proses untuk jadi lecturer di Universiti Perguruan Sultan Idris (office Md Ithnin mengadap office bapak Eak, En Khalid..kekekeke). Sama-sama budak band ngan aku, main trombone dia ni. Budak rumah Tan Sri Jamil Rais.

Azizul Aimi aka Jijoy - mamat ni main drum..kuat jamming..kaki jamming..gaya sempoi tapi otai habis aa main drumset. Budak rumah Dato Onn. Now belajar lagi kat M'sian-France Institute. Dulu time F1, kitorang gelarkan dia the walking dictionary sebab dia buleh hapal dictionary Oxford tu, on top of his head..hebat siot...not bad also for a long distance runner utk rumah Dato Onn.

Teman Sejati
Ada kalanya rasa..sunyi sepi dunia
Sendiri berdiri merempuh
Arah badai menimpa
Di manakah tempatnya?
Manakah kau bisa
mencari teman sejati..berkongsi hati

Adakala tanpa sedar
yang dicari sebenarnya
selama ini berada di hadapan mata
Di sinilah tempatnya.
Meluah segala
Akan kucuba lenyapkan duka
sedaya upaya

Teman sejati..seikhlas tulus hati
Daku berjanji..
bahawasanya daku, tak rela melihatmu
dalam tangis pilu
Lihat saja di sisi akan berdiri teman sejati

Andainya terdaya mengubati luka
Janganlah dikau terasa terhutang di dada
Aku juga mencari, oh teman sejati
Percayalah kepadaku
Niatku hanya satu....

Takkan ku menghampakanmu
Letakkanlah keyakinan
Kita bina satu harapan
meniti hari teguh menanti

Nama blog aku ialah Berita Kepada Kawan..jadi apa apa yang aku tulis kat sini tak lebih daripada ruang fikiran aku pada kawan-kawan. Atau pun tempat aku bertukar-tukar fikiran dengan kawan-kawan, bergossip-gossip dengan kenkawan atau pun 'ranjau-meranjau/pangkah-memangkah' dengan kenkawan semua. Kawan baru aku alu-alukan, kawan lama aku raikan.

Semoga kita terus berkawan-kawan, ok? Bak kata Casey dalam lagu dia, "Andainya ada di antara kita nanti, berubah hala serta memungkiri janji...jangan ada benci!".

Kawan-kawan,

Rasanya terlalu banyak aku berangan-angan di sini. Terlalu banyak omong-omong yang aku suarakan di sini hinggakan aku takut kalau-kalau omongan aku membuatkan aku rasa khayal dengan diri sendiri. Bila terlalu banyak berangan, maka hati aku jadi lemah. Dan bila mana waktu tu tiba, aku takut kalau aku tersungkur and tak ada sapa nak bantu aku bangkit semula.

Angan angan yang aku simpan; mahu jadi anak terbaik, mahu jadi hamba tuhan yang terbaik, mahu jadi bapa/suami yang terbaik dan mahu jadi teman yang terbaik bagi semua kawan aku...apakah terlaksana? Entahlah, aku belum buat check list lagi...terlalu banyak benda yang nak dikejarkan dalam hidup. Umur dah hampir 24, sedikit lagi akan jadi 25 - suku abad hidup di sini. 5 tahun di bumi Amerika. Apa yang aku dapat?

Soalan yang paling penting, apa yang aku dah sumbangkan..samada untuk diri sendiri, untuk ibu dan ayah di rumah, untuk adik beradik...lebih jauh lagi, untuk komuniti sekeliling dan untuk jemaah aku. Soal sumbangan untuk negara, aku tolak ke tepi sebab aku tolak barisan pemimpin yang ada sekarang. At this moment aku memang serius shit rasa usaha yang aku buat ni, jauh sebenarnya dari bernada serius. Semuanya banyak main. Banyak main-main. Leka di sana sini. Banyak cakap tapi action takde. Habis kuat berdegar-degar di ruangan dapur apartment, tak pun bersembang dengan kawan-kawan di Dunkit Donut yang tutup pukul 12 tengah malam, tak pun habiskan masa borak di messenger.

Malas perkataan utama dalam kamus kehidupan aku. Hari-hari aku berperang dengan rasa malas. Hari hari aku kena berjihad lawan hawa nafsu malas ni. Sampai lelah, last-last ikut jugalah rasa malas tu. Nafsu kebendaan toksah kata la, nak tu nak ni, nak beli tu nak beli ni. Usha awek sana usha awek sini, ..cuci mata sini cuci mata sana. Sebelum tidur datang pulak rasa takut, rasa cuak..kalau kalau mati tak sempat mintak ampun kat tuhan. Kalau mati tak sempat bayar balik hutang aku pada PETRONAS...kalau mati tak sempat nak mengundi atau pun jadi apa yang aku cita-citakan.

Akhirnya, perkataan terbaik sekali yang nak dicakapkan - ENTAHLAH....

Sudah cukupkah aku jadi manusia pada hari ini?

Pagi tadi jari kelinking kaki kanan aku terluka. Masa tu tak sedar sebab nak cepat. Dah laaa aku baru lepas mandi, bertowel lagi. Arghhh!! Aku tarik pintu closet wardrobe and pintunya terlanggar jari tu. Mak aihhh..sakit ya amat..ya ampun!!! Mulut aku dah nak mencarut tak ingat dah, nasib baik aku katup cepat-cepat. Berdarah jari tu..aisey..sempat cuci and lapkan ajer luka tu.

Tetiba aku teringat kat Ewoks ngan Wana. Lama dah citer nih. Teringat waktu tu aku visit RPI and waktu nak masak sama-sama ngan Ewoks. Masa tu Ewoks still couple ngan Wana. Ntah camner ntah, Ewoks aa careless and tangan dia terluka sket kena pisau. Wana cecepat belek tangan Ewoks sambil tu mulut si Wana tu biasa ler..orang pompuan kalau dah nampak menda tu jadik kat pasangan dia..ada leter-leter sayang gitu!! Alahaiii....

Kekekeke....masyuknyer couple waktu tengah hot bercinta. Masa jari aku terluka ler aku berangan sekejap..SEKEJAP ajer, ok? Tak dan 2 saat pun.

Kadang waktu macam ni la kita berangan nakkan tender loving care dari pasangan kita..waktu kita tengah hot, waktu kita tengah tension, tengah sakit..tapi bila waktu aman and waktu suka, rasanya kita ingat ke kat partner kita? Hubungan hanya teruji bila satu-satu peristiwa berlaku..tak kisahlah peristiwa kecil atau besar, yang pastinya ianya berlaku.

Again, buat aku teringat lagi sekali pada pasangan Jon ngan Faz dari Purdue. Jon sakit lutut and lutut dia kena operate sebab lutut dia dislocate ke ape (bebudak RPI memang lemah lutut semua!!)..and Faz flew all the way from Purdue to New York just to take care of Jon. Ahhh...sweetnya, tapi diorang dah break up dah now. Aisey..agak suwey sket la..but seriously aku rasa diorang couple yang secocok laa..sama hensem sama lawa..sesama sweet. Apa nak buat, jodoh tak dak!

Hehehehe..camner ler gamaknyer kalau aku dah berpartner nanti..terluka/demam kura sikit sure kecoh satu alam!

Perihal Kondom

Kisah dulu


Aku : Hello..boleh bercakap dengan Puan Farah Hyeranie? (buat suara garau skett + serius)
Farah : Ya bercakap..siapa ni?
Aku : Puan Farah tak ke mana-mana malam ni?
Farah : Err...takde gi mana-mana. Ni siapa ni?
Aku : (takleh tahan gelak lagik dah nih) Hahahaha..ni aku la wehh..Farid!
Farah : Cis cis ciss...terkena aku!
Aku : Kau ape citer sekarang ni? Sihat?
Farah : Sihat macam biasa..sekarang ni tengah cuti. Kau call aku ni sure sebab baru lepas baca email aku kan?
Aku : Ha ah..lame tak dapat email ko..tetiba jekk dapat. Anyway, congrats sebab dah 2 months pregnant.
Farah : Hehehehehe..tengkiu tengkiu.
Aku : Family ko amacam? Sihat? Husband sihat?
Farah : Hehehehe..sihat sihat..macam biasa ajer.
Aku : Haa..weh Farah, ko ingat lagi tak kat Mastura? Member kite time kat Klang Gate dulu?
Farah : Mastura mana ni? Mastura Abdul Rashid ke?
Aku : Alaaa..nampak bapak dia aku tak pasti plak dah..Abdul Rashid ke aa? Ke Abdullah?
Fara : Ni Mastura yang putih-putih tu ke..yang nampak cam ala ala mix tu?
Aku : Ha ah..yang tu laa..by the way, aku jumpa dia balik duhh kat myspace.
Farah : Oh ye ke..dia ape citer eh? Aku dengar dia study kat UM skang ni ek?
Aku : Yup..wat degree dalam CS ke ape..tak ingat lak aku. Aku sempat aa sembang-sembang ngan Mas..baru tau bapak dia bukak restoran kat fasa 6 kat Melawati tu. Aku ingat kat si Mastura pun sebab cikgu kelas kita suka sebut nama dia sebab dia selalu tak datang kelas.
Farah : Laa ye ke..aku pun tak tahu. Lama tak jumpa dia. Hari tu kat UM aku ternampak gak ade minah muka macam dia dalam Vitara. Itu dia la kot.
Aku : Hu uh..oh lagi satu. Ingat Irma Damayanti tak?
Farah : Ingat..sapa tak ingat nama dia..apsal?
Aku : Aku pun jumpa si Maya ni kat friendster..dia kat jepun sekarang ni beb.
Farah : Yang tuh aku tau...aku dapat tahu ni dari kawan pakwe dia kat sana la..si nasrul, ko ingat tak?
Aku : Ermm..tak kot..
Farah : Ohh..lupa lak..ko blah dari Klang Gate masa ko darjah 5 kan?
Aku : yup...oh..lagi satu. Ko ingat Rozilawati? Maya cakap kat aku si Rozilawati dah tunang beb..
Farah : Ingat-ingat kat Rozilawati. Yang selalu gaduh ngan ko tu masa darjah 1 kan?
Aku : Ha ah..ingat ko ek. Aku ingat yang part Rozilawati terkencing dalam kelas ajer time darjah 1. Itu serius shit aku takleh lupa dohhh. Aku ingat lagik minah tu nangis tak ingat-ingatnya...Aku ngan Heri gelak giler babeng siottt..Mujur aku takde kat M'sia kan..kalau idak sure leh sembang citer pasal tu time kenduri tunang dia..
Farah : Jahat giler ahh ko..tak baik wooo..Ko ingat ekk citer dulu-dulu? Aku dah ingat ape ape dah time sekolah rendah dulu..
Aku : Hmmm..aku ingat la kat korang selalu. 3 tahun dok sorang-sorang kat Amerika ni...itu ajer la teman aku..citer-citer dulu pasal kenkawan semua. Anyway, ko pernah terjumpa Farahniza Ruslan tak?
Farah : Tak ahh..aku takde contact pulak bebudak Taman Bunga Raya. Fadzli maybe ade kot..ko ingat kan Fadzli Radzi?
Aku : Ingat laaa..mana buley lupa beb...pakwe ko time darjah 4 dulu ...hahaha..aku siap jadik posmen lagik untuk mamat tu. Aku pernah seh kantoi surat cinta dia kat ko, ape dia tulis ek? "Cintaku semanis madu" ke ape? Kecik kecik dah horny bastard ek ko?
Farah : Dah dah..jangan citer..geli aku wehh..hahahaha..cam siot jekk! Hahahaha...ni apsal tetiba nak carik si Farahniza ni?
Aku : Ada laa..aku dah lama berhajat nak cari dia balik tau. Sejak aku blah dari Klang Gate ari tu..baper tahun tu..dekat nak masuk 13 tahun ni.
Farah : Ko try tanya Fadzli laa..dia maybe ada kot address minah tu. Ni apsal ko nak carik dia balik ni? Ni mesti ade ape ape ni? Ko suke dia ekkk?
Aku : Hahahahaaha..itu time budak-budak la weyyyy..hingus pun meleleh lagik. Last sekali aku tau pasal Farahniza ni, dia masuk UKM buat Law, lepas tu tak lepas dia kluar dari fakulti and lepas tu aku tak tahu dia study apa.
Farah : Oh ye ke...hummm..memang aa..ramai siot budak suka dia..Dia tu lawa apa..kan?
Aku : Lawa tu idak la kot..sweet tu ade..hitam manis..Nantilah..aku balik Msia nanti aku nak cari balik dia. Maybe alamat dia kat Taman Bunga Raya tu aku still ada kot. Leh la ronda-ronda sket area sana.
Farah : Gi la cari dia..sure seronok jumpa member lama..
Aku : Itu la pasal kan..

Hmmm...kisah-kisah lama pasal kenkawan..seronok. Jadi teman aku selama-lama aku sorang-sorang kat sini. Cukup senang buat aku tersenyum sendiri..even gelak sendiri bila teringat zaman budak-budak dulu. Baik pasal kawan-kawan di Sekolah Kebangsaan Klang Gate, Hulu Kelang, mahu pun kawan-kawan di Sekolah Kebangsaan Taman Tasik, Ampang.

Pengalaman Baru

Hehehehe..setelah beberapa tahun aku dah tak menggunting rambut...petang tadi aku dah try gunting rambut sorang junior aku kat sini. Hahahahha..bukan ape, last sekali aku gunting rambut pun masa aku F2 kot. Masa tu aku tala rambut si Hijjaz tu. Siannnn Hijjaz, tapi rambut dia okay apa nak gunting. Tak susah sangat. Tapi rambut junior aku yang seorang ni, ya Allah tebal satu hal, lepas tu aku tak gunting rambut dia dari mula. Dia mintak aku betulkan...so kita buatlah sekadar yang termampu. At least, tak nampak la tobek sangat kan..hahahaha..tu yang penting tuh!

Cakap pasal gunting rambut, aku time kat sekolah dulu selalu mintak aku punya junior gunting rambut aku. Upahnya seringgit ajer. Tak mahal. Tak pun, upah ajer dengan sebiji burger Pak Abu. Settle. Biasa ler, waktu dulu kat sekolah, menda-menda yang tak boleh lah yang kita nak buat. Nak rambut panjang la, nak hisap rokok la, nak fly aaa..

Waktu kecik-kecik papa selalu hantar kami tiga beradik ni pergi gunting rambut kat keling gunting rambut. Selalunyer almost semua botak la kan. Dulu dulu mana gheti fashion-fashion ni. Apa orang kata, kojek style? Togel jekk kepala memasing bila balik dari kedar barber. Gi sekolah pun pakai songkok, sebab botak punya pasal. Hahhahaha..itu dulu-dulu waktu kat sekolah rendahlah kan.

Aku time kat sekolah dulu simpan gak la rambut. Tipikal laa kan. Rambut belakang potong pendek tapi rambut kat depan simpan panjang. Kalau tarik jambul tu, ade ler sampai ke bawah lubang hidung aku ni pergi nyer. Mula-mula warden tak kantoi, sampailah aku nak naik f5. Masa tu aku terkantoi dek Cikgu Rafi Omar. Adehhh..habis sialll dia potong rambut aku kat perhimpunan. Malu aahhh aku dengan mama. Mama nampak! Tapi still aku tak serik.

Bila aku naik f5 and jadi pengawas..aku tak pernah pun nak check rambut budak. Biar ler, aku pun simpan rambut, bakpe aku nak sibuk-sibukkan rambut orang lain. hehehehe..

Now bila dah besar ni, dah takde kawalan rambut ni..aku lagi selesa rambut pendek. Pernahlah juga aku simpan rambut panjang tapi aku cepat rimas. Ndak-ndak time summer panas membahang nih. Along pulak dulu waktu balik dari UK, rambut dia panjang mengurai macam pompuan. Aku kat pintu rumah terkejut tengok rambut dia. Aku selambe jekk tanya kat mummy depan along, "Eh, sejak bila kita ada kakak ni mummy?". Angah suka style botak. Aku rasa, rambut Angah ler dulu yang paling lawa antara kami bertiga sebab rambut Angah lurus macam rambut orang cina. Rambut Along kerinting sket, rambut aku agak wavy pulak. Mujur tak nampak cam orang asli!

Aku ada dua tempat barber shop favourite kat State College ni. Satu di S Pugh Street, kedai gunting Uncle Phil. Murah ajer bayarannya, dalam 9 dollar gitu. Uncle Phil orang lama kat area sini. So sambil gunting rambut, sambil sembang. Lagi satu salon kat East Calder Way. Aku suka gunting rambut dengan auntie ni sebab dia siap shampoo sekali rambut aku. Sambil shampoo, sambil dia urut kepala. Perghhhhh..itu yang masyuk tu. Part kepala kena urut. Tapi bayar mahal ler kan, 20 dollar. All in all, tak kisahlah asalkan rambut aku pendek.

So, sapa lagi mahu kepala dia kena tarah ngan aku? Meh sini meh sini..free of charge!! Pro bono ajer...

Apa kita mengikut mazhab secara membabi buta?

Rasanya memang betullah kita menurut mazhab secara membabi-buta. Dah la membabi buta, lepas tu fanatik pulak tu. Tolak mazhab lain atau pun memandang mazhab lain secara jelek. Sedangkan kita sendiri tak tahu benar mazhab kita, atau pun validity of our madhaab.

Secara umumnya ada 4 mazhab yang dikatakan tergolong dalam Ahlus Sunnah Wal Jamaah. Keempat-empat mazhab ini ialah dari penjelasan fiqh Imam Malik, Imam Ahmad Hanbal, Imam Abu Hanifah dan Imam Syafi'e. Yang hanya berbeda dalam keempat-empat mazhab ini ialah penjelasan fiqh yang khilaf, sebagai contohnya cara-cara mengerjakan solat, cara-cara berwudhuk dan hal-hal yang bersifat fizikal dalam ibadah. Selain daripada itu, kesemuanya punya akidah yang sama, La Ilahaillah Muhammadurrasulullah.

Memetik kata-kata Imam Hj. Mihad dalam novel "Imam" karya Abdullah Hussain berkenaan isu mazhab, "Mazhab sudah menjadi satu kenyataan di kalangan umat Islam seluruh dunia bahkan dalam hubungannya dengan ahli SUnnah Wal Jamaah bermazhab merupakan salah satu ciri pokoknya di samping memahami AL Quran dan hadis. Tak satu pun negara Islam yang kaum Musliminnya terlepas daripada mazhab bahkan Ibn Taymiyyah yang menjadi pemimpin kaum reformasi pun mengikuti mazhab Hambali. Masalah mazhab adalah masalah klasik, bukan barang baru. Sejak zaman Nabu Muhammad s.a.w baginda telah mengisyaratkan bolehnya umat Islam bermazhab. Ini dapat diambil misalnya daripada dialog baginda dengan Mu'az bin Jabal ketika akan dilantik menjadi utusan ke Yaman. Mu'az ialah orang yang diberi sebutan oleh Nabi orang yang paling mengerti tentang soal halal dan haram. Dalam dialog dengan Mu'az itu Nabi sangat gembira kerana mendengar ucapan Mu'az untuk berijtihad dan apabila ijtihad itu diikuti orang bererti telah terjadilah mazhab, mazhab Mu'az. Begitu juga dengan contoh daripada Abdullah bin Zubair yang ditunjuk oleh Nabi menjadi mufti Iraq. Nabi memberi wewenang kepada Abdullah untuk berijtihad. Cuma pada zaman Nabi itu belum muncul mazhab."

Kalau tak silap aku, Imam Syafi'e pernah berkata lebih kurang begini maksudnya - Ambil apa saja daripadanya, tapi kalau ada nas yang sahih dari Al Quran dan sunnah dan hadith rasulullah, maka tinggalkan ajarannya. Tapi kita sekarang ni dah jadi complacent, malas nak check lagi dah, so terus membabi buta bertaklid pada apa yang diajarkan di kelas-kelas agama tanpa mahu check seterusnya sumbernya. Kita sekarang ni seolah-olah meletakkan syariat itu pada keempat-empat imam tersebut, dan menjadikan imam-imam tersebut sebagai penentu syariat berbanding pada asal hukum Islam diambil iaitu Al Quran dan Sunnah dan Hadith baginda Rasulullah.

Aku di sini sendiri terdedah kepada multitude of madhaab disebabkan percampuran umat Islam dari sedunia. Ada datangnya dari Pakistan, ada pula datangnya dari India, kemudian Arab Saudi, dan seperti biasa dari Malaysia. Pada mulanya nampak agak pelik, tapi lama kelamaan menimbulkan rasa ingin tahu dan nak belajar lagi tentang perbezaan mazhab. Bukan untuk dijadikan dasar untuk 'holier than thou', tapi untuk menambahkan ilmu.

Jadi bagaimana kita?

p/s: Abdullah bin Zubair terkenal dengan 3 gelaran yang aku tak ingat. Satu cerita yang masyhur tentang Abdullah bin Zubair ialah tempoh sujudnya yang sangat lama sehinggakan burung-burung hinggap di belakangnya kerana menganggap dia itu seketul batu. By the way, Abdullah bin Zubair ini ialah anak kepada Zubair Ibn Awwam, seorang mujahid Islam yang sangat famous.

Mimpi Aneh

Okay, call me giler ke..sewel ke..ape ke.. I seriously dont mind. Apa yang aku tahu, tengahari tadi waktu aku terlelap kat katil, aku bermimpi satu menda yang aneh.

Aku mimpi aku jumpa Dr. M kat rumah dia. Tapi Dr. M yang aku jumpa ni version lain sket, version orang biasa. Ahli-ahli keluarganya pun bergaya seperti orang biasa. Bukan lagak orang-orang kaya. Duduk bersimpuh atas lantai, makan tengahari beramai-ramai atas tikar getah. Dr. M pulak gaya sempoi berbaju melayu dan berkain sarung dan bersongkok, rasanya baru balik dari solat zuhur di masjid kot.

Rumahnya alahai, sempoi sangat. Rumah 2 tingkat teres kat kawasan perumahan kos sederhana mana ntah. Cuma keretanya lain sikit, kereta Mercedez Benz kaler hitam berkilat tapi besar la..tak tahu siri berapa. Itu satu ajer kereta. Oh, satu lagi ada motor kapcai.

Aneh giler kan? Dr. M berstatuskan orang kebanyakan ??!!

Okay..maybe aku dah sewel sangat sebab takde menda nak buat cuti seminggu ni kot? By the way, apa keputusan saudara Anwar kita pasal mintak bail tu? Mudah-mudahan kali ni nasib menyebelahi dia lah walaupun application untuk tukar hakim telah pun ditolak. Ameen.

Buang Masa

> Just copy and paste in new bulletin and fill it
> about u!
>
> [ full name ]: Mohd F***d Mohd N**
> [ nickname ] : Ayed, Alang
> [ birthday ] : 31 Ogos, 1980
>
> [x]Appearance[x]
>
> HEIGHT : 162 cm
> HAIR : black
> SKIN (colour) : dark brown, tanned
> EYES (colour) : dark brown
> JEANS (style) : straight cut
>
> Do you...
>
> smoke? : nope
> drugs? : nope
> everydaysleep with stuffed animals? : nope
> play an instrument? : saxophone (alto/tenor)
> read the newspaper? : yes, (utusan,berita harian, harakah, malaysiakini, BBC)
> collect anything? : nope
> have any secrets? : yes sure!
> talk to strangers? : yes, I do.
> hate yourself? : sometimes..
> have an obsession? : Mac computer, cooking, making new friends
> care about looks? : sometimes depending on the protocols
> have any bad habits? : malas
> have an imaginary friend? : are you crazy?
>
> [x]Do you believe...[x]
>
> in god? : la ilahaillah muhammadur rasulullah.
> there's life on other planets? : probably.
> in witches? : yeah..Quran mentioned about this.
> in satan? : of course
> in ghosts? : nope.
> in tooth fairy / santa clause? : not at all bro!
> love at first sight?: definitely but obviously it's rubbish.
>
> [x]Favorites[x]
>
> TV SHOW: history channel, star trek
> SHAMPOO: herbal ape ntah..
> Perfume: estee lauder for men.
> BOOK: Fiqh Sunnah (I'm trying to finish this during this one week break)
> MAGAZINE: Mac-based magazines, Wanita, keluarga, Newsweek, National Geographic
> DRINK: plain water
> THINGS TO DO ON THE WEEKENDS: ermm..ermmm
> BAND OR GROUP: I dont have any preference
> HANGOUT: my own room
> COLOUR: blue is always my choice.
> BRAND: no preference..Eddie Bauer would be nice though
> MOVIE: citer hantu, seram, romantik komedi, adventure..movie kartun Transformers aci tak?
> FLAVOUR: chocolate, yang hot and spicy..hehehehe
> SUBJECT: Political Science, Science, World issues.
>
> [x]Have you...[x]
>
> BROKEN THE LAW: oh yeah..i sped up along the interstate highway and got caught by Pennsylvania State Trooper 2 times...
> RAN AWAY FROM HOME: never walaupun time kecik-kecik mak aku selalu ugut nak halau aku keluar dari rumah.
> STAYED UP LATE ON THE PHONE: banyak kali gak la kan.
> SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: never.
> MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: rasanya pernah kot..rasanyer lah.
> SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE: yeap..waktu kat sekolah tak pernah, kat universiti banyak la plak!
> FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: Kau giler ke ape?
> EMBARASSED YOURSELF IN PUBLIC: yep, when I was form 5 in front of 600 Sekolah Alam Shah students and teachers. Mama nampak! Aku malu sehhh...buat malu mama jekk.
> FALLEN MADLY IN LOVE WITH AN ANIMATED CHARACTER : No!
> CRIED AT A MOVIE : errmm..banyak kali la jugakk (syyy..dont tell anyone ok? Sebab tu aku suka gi tengok wayang sorang-sorang.)
>
> [x]Love & friendship [x]
>
> BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND: kawan ramai..yang special masih mencari..but not priority though!
> CHILDREN: tuhan bagi kita amik.
> CURRENT CRUSH: it's for me to know and for you to find out..LOL!
> HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE: yes
> TOO SHY?: sometimes
> BEEN HURT?: yup.
> YOUR GREATEST REGRET: furthering study in USA
> BEST FRIEND : too many laa...
> FAVOURITE PERSON TO TALK TO : my mum, my kakak, caza and the list continues..
> ONLINE? : doesn't matter, i'm a friendship gungho!
>

Jom Menyanyi...

Heheheh..aku suke laa sesangat menyanyi although aku tahu suara aku ni, sedap sket jekk dari suara cengkerik tuh. But aku tak kisah, aku tahu aku puas dapat menyanyi. Tapi bukan menyanyi depan orang laa..nyanyi sorang-sorang layan blues kat bilik ke..masa tengah mandi ke (hahahahahah...)..masa tengah jalan sorang-sorang ke nak gi library/Fenske Lab/ campus...masa tengah memasak ke..time masak tu buruk sket laa..sebab siap nari-nari depan kuali panas..silap ari bulan ade budak mati tersimbah minyak panas karang..

Anyway..sapa pernah dengar lagu ni?

"Tiada lagi..seruling senja mendayu,
Tiada lagi gelak ketawa bersama...
Bila sepi mengusik hati, semuanya kini dalam kenangan.
Tiba di persimpangan jalan terpisah jauh,
Teman dan sahabat taulan dalam ingatan."

Haa..tu lagu farewell masa aku darjah 6 kat Sekolah Rendah Taman Tasik. Aku ingat lagik cikgu muzik aku yang best, Miss Caroline Woods, dia main gitar and iring lagu ni. Best lagu ni cumanya aku tak ingat lirik lagunyer pepenuh..yang tu pun ingat-ingat lupa jekk.

Haa..ade sape sape layan lagu KRU tak?

"Dulu kita terpaksa
Akur dan mengalah kepada situasi
Segalanya suratan pedihnya ditelan

Dipisahkan lautan
Hilanglah khabar daku mengubah haluan
Walaupun daku sedar dan tahu
Tiada wanita di dunia setanding mu.." - Dua, KRU

Hehehe..tu lagu Dua. Rajin siot aku layan feelong dengan lagu ni. Kalau tak silap, lagu ni femes masa aku form 3 gitu kot. Bebudak batch aku tengah sakan syiok layan lagu KRU. Masa tu lagu femes KRU were Apa Saja, Dua, Mengerti..ape ntah lagi! Ada sekali tu balik dari kursus motivasi pejadah ntah kat ITM Shah Alam, waktu on Federal Highway, bebudak memekak nyanyi lagu KRU time dalam bas SAS. Lepas tu nyanyi over over lak gayanyer kat tepi tingkap..sambil usha akak-akak lawa yang trap dalam traffic jam. Hahahaha..bodoh betul nyer perangai kitorang time sekolah dulu!!

"Untukmu kasih, Ku cuba meraih
Bintang di angkasa, Walau tak terdaya kan ku ikhtiar
Untukmu kasih, Gembira bersedih
Selagi ku bernyawa
Untukmu kasih, ku korban apa saja.."- Apa Saja, KRU

Well..aku layan jugak lagu oldies macam lagu mendiang Broery Marantika..lagu dia memang evergreen. First time aku dengar lagu dia masa aku form 1, waktu tu cikgu Selamon Kosren, cikgu Kemahiran Hidup kat sekolah aku, nyanyi lagu Widuri dengan diiringi piano played by form 5 waktu Malam Penutup Orientasi Form 1. Perghhh..masyuk sehh dengar suara cikgu Selamon. Best betul!

"Berhembus angin malam, Mencengkam menghempas
Membelai wajah aku, Itulah kenangan yang terakhir darimu

Kudekati dirimu kau diam, Tersungging senyuman di bibirmu
Itulah senyuman yang terakhir darimu..." - Angin Malam, Broery Marantika

Hmmm...ape lagik ek. Oh, sapa pernah dengar nama kumpulan Medicine? Hehehe..ni tahun early 90s ni punya rock band. Aku tahu Angah suka group ni. Aku pun suka gak although time tu aku kecik lagik..biasa ler, terikut-ikut ngan abang (tapi aku takde la terikut giler Angah kat Siti Nurhaliza tuhhh).

"Sayangku, kau pergi...tinggal ku terus menanti,
Di rimba cintaku, kasihmu terus abadi,
Ku pasti.." - Rimba Cinta, Medicine

Memanglah betul mostly orang melayu suka nyanyi pasal cinta jekk..takde menda lain. Yang pelik sket maybe dengan Zainal Headwind, M Nasir, Pak Pandir, SM Salim...diorang nyanyi lagu itu ada pelik sket la. Tak mostly revolve around putus cinta lah, baru nak bercinta laa..cinta tak bertali gantung atau mati kat tali gantung la..Even nasyid sekarang ni pun banyak pasal cinta..memang la boring amat sehh..tapi kalau dah melodi sedap, aku layan ajer.

Ada banyak menda sebenarnya yang buatkan aku teringat pasal lagu-lagu ni. Mainly sebab aku suka associate lagu ni dengan situasi semasa time tu. Amik contoh lagu-lagu KRU..femes time aku F3, ada PMR. Kemudian lagu Broery Marantika sebab cikgu Selamon nyanyi. Oh...lagu P Ramle pun ada gak aku ingat sebab teringat waktu Foncho (Alfian Md Nor) duet dengan cikgu Rosni waktu Malam Perpisahan F5 kat banquet hotel (arghhh..siot laa..apsal SAS takde prom nite? He he he he...).

Tapi apa apa pun...aku nak tujukan lagu ni khas untuk mak aku. Special untuk dia..although Mom's Day dah lepas kan..

Jangan dititiskan air matamu
Tak usah keliru, tiada menentu
Ada sinar di wajahmu...
Ada syurga di hujung jarimu...
Damai sungguh hati
Kau penawar di kala sunyi
Ratu hati ibu!

Hentikan renungan jauh ke sayup
Hilang tanpamu...bukan kau tak tahu.
Nak kucium kan kupeluk lari kepadamu
Sayang sungguh ibu!

Tak mungkin jemu, tak bisa luntur
semenjak lahir lagi.
Jika tak pernah kunyatakan
Ibu, dengar ini lagu....

Lupakan segala sengketa lalu,
Maafkan diriku....
Memang ku tak tahu....
Ibu mummy, mama ummi..hingga akhir nanti
Pintaku jangan bersedih
usah gusar lagi
Kasihmu abadi untuk di dalam hati
Doaku jangan kau pergi dulu.
Ibu.....- Ratu Hati, Innuendo

Petikan dari diari aku

"..soal kasih dan sayang wanita - kisah yang tak akan luntur sepanjang zaman. Kisah antara Adam dan Hawa, Romeo-Juliet, Laila Majnun, Nabi Yusuf dan Zulaikha dan banyak lagi; kisah seperti ini mekar dan segar sepanjang zaman kerana adanya nilai sentimental ang begitu emosional. Lantaran masyuk dipukul ombak cinta dan kasih sayang, masing-masing akan mencuba sebaik mungkin untuk menjadi Romeo terhebat, Juliet yang paling setia. Masing-masing mahukan Laila yang tercantik buat diri sendiri. Masing-masing mahu mengaku dialah Adam yang sentiasa rindukan kehadiran Hawa dalam hidupnya. Semuanya disebut dan diolah sebegitu rapi seperti syair yang paling muluk atas nama CINTA.

Absurd? Illogical? Irrational? I must say yes. Yet again, nothing logical can be used in arguing human's emotion. Our fluctuating state of emotion will never come to rest unless we are dead. Total death. In science, the way we explain this state is when everything is in crystal state which conforms to Third Law of Thermodynamic; entropy of crystal is zero. We all are in crystal state. No movement. No breathe. No heart beat. No nothing. Numb. Solid like a crystal and we are pretty much in absolute dead..."

Mandom



Aku sebenarnya nak tulis something...waktu aku tengah hangin satu badan nak hempuk laptop aku tu sebab barai tak tentu pasal...takde la marah sangat. Cuma ada rasa sket la nak baling laptop tu keluar dari tingkap..tapi sayang!



Kemudian aku godeh-godeh kotak kecik, kotak yang berisi semua surat-surat peminat..ooppss...bukan-bukan. Surat dari kawan-kawan, termasuklah kawan di UK. Again, bukak surat dia and baca semula, plus belek-belek semula gambar dia..gambar family dia..nice. Tak pernah orang hantar kat aku gambar family diorang kecuali Amy Iowa. Anyway, nice pictures though..teringat family sendiri.

And now aku teringat lak conversation aku dengan caza petang tadik. Hmmm..maybe tak ramai tahu kot, ke semua orang dah tahu? Aku kamceng ngan caza...kamceng sesangat..rasa cam adik beradik aku ajer. Ermm..ok..rasanyer tak semua orang tahu kot. Takpe, tak kisah pun. But aku nak cakap sini, aku sangatlah rapat dengan caza. Tak tahu kenapa. Anehnya kitorang berdua asyik selalu bertelagah. Kadang mendanyer kecik ajer..tapi melarat sampai jadik besar. Alaa..cam korang gaduh dengan abang kakak adik laa..siap tarik rambut, sepak tulang kering laa..tampar belakang la.

Haaa..macam tu la aku ngan caza. Setakat cakap maki maki ni..memang dah biasa dah. Aku dah lali dah dengan sumpah seranah dia..hehehe..tuli dah tinge aku kena! Aku rasa cuping tinge si caza tu pun sure dah tebal dah kena maki ngan aku..hmm..kasar kan? Ha ah..memang kitorang kalau cakap berdua, kasar giler. Tak ingat dunia punye..sape-sape yang agak lembut tu..nampaknya takleh nak join la conversation kitorang..

Although kepala otak kitorang tak pernah sama..tapi we get along very well. Dah nak masuk baper tahun dah ni..jumpanyer pun sekali setahun..cuma chat ari ari laa. DIa tahu wooo kalau aku bengkek/berbulu ngan dia..hehehehe..aku pun takut wooo kalau dia merajuk/bengang ngan aku. Ntah..tak tahu apsal..aku sayang kat dia kot. Ye aa..dia la yang dok layan semua citer sedih aku..ndak-dak sejak dua menjak aku naik junior and senior year nih. Hahahaha..tengkiu caza..tengkiu..

ahh..serius shit..apsal aku citer pasal ko aaa? camner ntah aku leh terbabas citer pasal ko ni caza...

dah aahh....pi kat pakcik harith ko...keh keh keh..:P

Gambar Angah Bertunang

A Lost Cause

I just finished watching movie 'Laws of Attraction' starring Pierce Brosnan and Julianne Moore. I've been wanting to watch this movie ever since I saw its preview at Apple.com movie trailers. So today I got the chance to do so and I went to cinema. It came to me as a surprise when I was the ONLY person in the room to watch that movie. Ahh..maybe not everyone in the mood to watch romantic comedy movie as I was (okay Aini, Aida, aku angkat tangan - surrender!).

Synopsis

Anyway, let me briefly summarizes the movie for y'all. The movie is about two divorce attorneys. They both strive for excellence and both are professional in handling their cases although there are few times they are acting silly in the court room. Pierce Brosnan as Jeff Raffity has a crush on Miss Audrey Woods, starred by Julianne Moore, since he met her first time in the court room. Unfortunately, they are rivals because both of them are so good at handling divorce case of prominent personalities. Case after case and they finally realize that they are in love albeit Miss Wood strongly denies it.

FYI, Jeff Raffity ni agak pelik sket method dia dalam handling divorce case. But it doesn't mean he's a bad lawyer. He doesn't believe in divorce although he handles divorce case. He believes those people who end up in court room over a divorce matter is actually giving up on a fight. In contrary with Audrey Woods, she believes commitment only bring the couple into a state of doom. It's pretty odd but that's the reality for her. Old fashion gentleman with a slight eccentric habits, casual and cool guy to hang with versus Audrey Wood's endless perfection desire, insecurity over commitment and boring/lonely lawyer.

Everything starts to come together when both of them spend the time when they involve in divorce case of rockstar. Mr. Raffity represents the rockstar's wife and Miss Woods represents the rockstar himself over a dispute on property's distribution. So they have to go to Ireland and it starts there. They accidentally married after the two of them got drunk real bad (I would say, they both were trashed! Americans and their drinking habit..sigh).

Disebabkan dua-dua dah 'terkahwin', diorang pun terpaksa lah berlakon-lakon kawen sebab dah terkahwin, or else reputasi diorang habis la sebab diorang berdua ni lawyer yang sama-sama hebat pasal kes cerai kawen ni. Belakang nak jadi cerita, Audrey ni dah betul-betul jatuh cinta dengan Jeff sebab diorang pura-pura hidup bersama tapi tak sebilik/sekatil.

Satu hari waktu diorang tengah berperang kat court room, Jeff terbuat satu kesilapan yang besar pada Audrey. Audrey bengkek sangat dengan Jeff and mintak cerai. One thing I remember what he said to her,"Just because a hiccup in our marriage, you want to call a quit. Call me old fashion, but when someone loves somebody, he ought to give her whatever she wants. I will gladly give you the divorce because you want to!".

Komen

Well I dont want to comment about the movie though because I feel I better leave it to the audience themselves. However, I tend to agree with what Mr Raffity's position in dealing with relationship. Yeah, yeah, yeah..who the hell am I to have say on this because my relationship wasn't the best. Okay, I admit that.

But I totally agree with him.

Saving a relationship is a fight. This is the only universal fight which everyone is entitled the right to go all out for it. Oh yes ladies and gentlemen, it does sound scarry! We can imagine all the hardship and the rough and tough road lies ahead. And divorce is actually the true representation of a lost cause. We lost in the fight because we couldn't care less about the outcome of this catastrophic circumstance. We lost in this fight namely because the road doesn't lead to where we want it to lead. Instead, we took the short cut and we cross our fingers, hoping everything will go well with our plan.

Unfortunately, committed in a relationship is actually like engaging in a constant fight. We can win today and lose tomorrow. Everything around is tempting to oust us into a state of defeat. Supposedly, a small hiccup or even a few hiccups shouldn't be an obstacle for ourselves. Let us try to find a solution to overcome these obstacles. They can sometime be hard to plow through but hey, who says involving in relationship is as easy as ABC, right?

Nevertheless, divorce should be the last resort only and if only it can save our lives in a long run, for instance, if our spouse is a serial killer or a dangerous criminal who constantly abuses his/her partner. Hehhehe..itu sudah jadi lain cerita kan?

So..prepare yourself to fight when you want to plunge yourself into a relationship. Fight for your relationship. I know this because I already lost in a few of them..hehehe..so...ape lagi..siapkan "latihan jihad" kamu!!