Rindu

Rindu membawa daku kekasih
Pada musim-musim bersamamu
Rasa kasih dan rindu
Yang tertanam buatmu
Di jambangan usiaku



Sejak dua menjak ni aku rajin bermimpi pasal arwah mak aku. Seolah-olah aku memang rindu gile dengan dia. AKu selalu berharap yang aku sedang mengalami mimpi yang tak best. AKu harap bila aku terjaga dari mimpi ni, aku akan nampak mak aku sedang duduk berehat di kerusi malas kegemarannya dan aku dapat tengok dia tersenyum memandang aku.

Dua malam yang sudah semasa aku dalam perjalanan pulang ke rumah dari workshop di KL, aku dapat rasakan perasaan sunyi dan hiba dalam diri aku sendiri. Seriyes, aku jarang melayan perasaan yang sebegini. Biasa lah, hati jantan kan kena selalu keras.

Tapi kali ni aku biarkan rasa sayu tu makin tebal dalam diri. Aku rasa ralat bila aku makin jarang dapat bersua atau pun berbual dengan ayah aku. Tambah-tambah bila aku dah jarang berniaga sama-sama dengan ayah aku dek kesibukan aku dengan workshop technopreneur nih.

Aku pun sendiri perasan yang aku selalu bertanyakan ke mana ayah aku nak pergi kalau dia bersiap hendak keluar. Entah, memang hati ni nak tahu ke mana hala tujuan ayah aku. Aku pun tahu, kalau aku asyik disoal hendak ke mana, aku pun mesti bengkek jugak. Macam di control2. Maybe aku nak selalu dekat dengan ayah aku.

It takes a loss of someone we love to make us understand the meaning of this loss.

Hari Ahad ni aku akan ziarah pusara arwah mak aku. Aku tahu, air mata aku pasti bercucuran bila aku berada dekat dengan pusara arwah mak aku. Arwah mak pernah cakap pada aku, yang aku ni perasa orangnya. Di luar nampak kental, tapi di dalam sangat sensitif.

Hari yang paling aku ingat ialah pada hari Jumaat, sebulan terakhir sebelum mak aku menghembuskan nafasnya yang terakhir. Aku temankan mak aku di wad HUKM dan suapkan dia makan buah honey dew. Aku temankan dia sampai mak aku terlelap, barulah aku beredar dari situ untuk sambung buat kerja aku. Kalau aku tahu itulah kali terakhir aku dapat bual-bual dengan mak aku, dah tentu aku akan stay kat situ sampai dia buka mata dia semula.

Al Fatihah untuk mummy.

Okay...let me get it straight. I come to the technopreneurship workshop to fill up some of my gaps in entrepreneurship knowledge. Really, I personally feel the entrepreneurship is a bit exaggerated in a sense that it is an acquired skill, not so much a privileged trait or inborn trait. Some people may think that in order for them to be an entrepreneur, they must take a course or two on entrepreneurship or perhaps, a degree in entrepreneurship. Only then they are qualified to be entrepreneurs.

Well, I believe an entrepreneurship is an experience of achieving independence in the sense of economic choices and lifestyle choices. All these boil down to the issues of values. What values do I treasure most in my life? Maybe some of my readers have figured them out by reading this blog. Goals driven by the values are so much easier to achieve despite the hardships which come along while indulging myself in business. The inner drive is very much important before the external drive.

I feel blessed to get to know new friends here in this workshop. Some of them are mature enough to share their entrepreneurship experiences with me. I still consider myself as green in this area. There are much to learn and to absorb their knowledge.

The only way to become a better entrepreneur is by taking calculated risk or chances and learn from my past mistakes. Mistakes are costly indeed, but do not ever lose the lessons. Or else, I will be same ol', same ol'.

Yesterday I met with Christoffer Erichsen and we finalized every little details before I commence my service to his company as sales consultant. I just realized that the job is pretty much intense but exciting at the same time. There are some prospects that I may fly to Dubai, Singapore and countries in South East Asia to promote and look for market for their services and products. I think it's awesome job to do. Challenging enough to make me look inside the mirror and ask this question; "Am I ready to Grow?"

On the same night I also took the opportunity to connect with a professor from USM, discussing his technology on production based on herbs. The discussion was great. We managed to bounce the ideas and I was some sort of proposing him an idea of bringing his product to the real market. I have an idea on how to push this idea into the market. I also quietly identify who are the people I want to hire or maybe engage for their expertise in this market segment.

Of course IDEAS are great but they are just ideas. What is more important is how to source for financing the ideas? That was the juice of the discussion that night. That issue I keep in my mind for further investigation and research.

I just want to finish off this night with a reading from Bakri Musa on 'Enhancing the Role of Private Sector in Education', an excellent article about our education dire state and the need to integrate private sector in education policymaking mechanism. Good reading I say!

The End of 2009

I know in just a few weeks away, we all will march into 2010. Yep, new year with new fanfare and new problems and new goals. So let see, how far have I become.

I started in 2009 with three business goals. I want to establish agriculture project, an IT business and an agriculture portal. Yes, I have commenced my agriculture project and IT business and agriculture portal. No doubt about that.

But the result is still shaky.

However, I know I should pat my own shoulder and say to myself, "Well done Farid!". Really, to start up a business actually require me to be tough emotionally, mentally and physically. From time to time I am being overwhelmed with a sheer amount of pressure to maintain the business activities. I know I am taking too much stress lately but I hope I won't get burn up quite easily.

My agriculture project commenced with planting of 2,400 of banana trees in 4 acres land in July this year. My first challenge came in a form of herd of buffaloes which ate some of the banana trees. Of course I was pissed off with orang kampung who don't know to handle their own animals but I couldn't do much because I'm an outsider for that area. Besides, it was my fault to because I didn't take into account of building up the fence around my rented land. So after we calculated the amount of money required to build the fence, it was dawned on me that I was lacking of funding. Alrite, here comes challenge number 2. Lack of funding.

I am still looking for investors for my project. I am actively engaged myself with Jabatan Pertanian Kuala Pilah to get some assistance in form of fencing and water pumps. Hopefully by early next year we can get the stuffs loaded to our farm.

Move to IT business now. My IT business is named MagicQuest Media & Training. But for some unknown reasons, the clerk who type the business name on business registration typed wrongly. She spelled, MagicQuest Media & Trading. So now, we can become trading firm as well. But who cares right?

We have secured an office in Wisma Rampai in Setapak. It was a huge step for me because I was a bit anxious to add my commitment but I guess this works as a leverage for us. By having commitment, we shall be more committed to make sure this business stays afloat. We also in the midst of pitching for jobs here and there.

At the moment we are working on project from MDeC. I am also lay out a plan with our sales associate in Washington DC to secure project from US as well. I'm thinking of making it into Sdn. Bhd so that we can secure small project from the government sector. We'll see about that.

And finally, our agriculture portal, named Mediatani.com is launched. We failed to get Pre Seed grant to fund this project but we believe in its potential so much, we continue to develop it and now it is on the web. Not much, but at least we have the thing online. Next step is to apply iCon grant for this website so that we can promote it for people to use it and get benefit from this portals.

I guess that's about it. Till next time.

Aku dah lama tak menulis kat sini. So maybe aku akan start menulis secara serius dalam masa sebulan dua lagi.

Ada beberapa perkara menarik yang ingin dikongsi bersama, terutama sekali dalam pandangan isu politik, sosial dan pengalaman hidup. Cumanya masalah yang perlu diselesaikan terlebih dahulu ialah pengurusan aktiviti. Ternyata hal ini menuntut banyak kefahaman dan juga kekuatan diri dalam menguruskan diri sendiri. Hehehe, siapa kata menguruskan diri sendiri itu perkara enteng?

Apa-apa pun, banyak benda yang ingin diluahkan dan juga dibicarakan. Atau mungkin jadi satu bebelan yang berpanjangan? Wallahu'alam. Kita tunggu saja.

Sementara itu, mungkin orang ramai perlu membaca lebih banyak berita tentang ekonomi. Aku rasa, dunia akan mengalami satu lagi gelombang gangguan ekonomi dalam masa setahun akan datang. I don't know..that is just my gut feeling.

I see you when I write again.