It's funny when you feel somewhat disturbed by the fact that a girl you are trying to pursue through online platform has actually changed her relationship status. all the resources invested on such person just wasted .....a sudden feeling of loss came and it wrapped the heart. Made it feel numb.

Geezzz....I'm fucking hate this situation. Having gone to this zone for so many times and I got lost counting the moment.

Anyway...i was trying to describe the feeling i felt now. the feeling of sudden lost. the feeling of helplessness. it came when i saw something posted on the web page of someone i knew. all the hope was suddenly crashing down and it screeched to a halt. Oh dear...never that i realize that i would experience that again. Especially at this age.

So there you go. An emotional outburst from a man. Nothing dramatic though, but the feeling is surreal. The heartache. The agony of broken heart. He failed again and again in searching for the love he wants the most. Who says pursuing love is always in rosy daisy path?

At the end of the day, he only has himself to cry on. Quietly at the corner of his heart.