Talking Bout Lonely

Oh well, finally I come to this topic. What prompt me to write such topic? The instinct tells me exactly what I suppose to write. Do not fear the criticism of other people, because this blog is ultimately mine (povided that I don't legally violate Blogger's contract).

Anyway, I just came home from a training in Trolak, Perak. The training was good, very meaningful and beneficial for me. The training also made my whole body aching like an old man in 80s. The muscles sore quite badly. However, the price for attending the training and the lesson received from the training - priceless.

While I was there too I came across with a questions, "What prompt you to get married?". I asked the question to two of my dear friends in agency. Each answered uniquely. I listened to them patiently as the time crept to 1 am. They both gave reasonable answers.

Later that night I pondered myself, why am I asking such question to people? I also asked them, "Do you feel at one point, you feel that your life is so lonely when you come home?". Surprisingly, none of them answered it positively. They said, it just happened. Once you set the date, everything falls down into the place perfectly. Not because they happened for no reason. They happened because they were planned to happen. It's about the word, 'wanting'.

A want. A burning desire to get or achieve something. When a want turns into 'the want', everything look simpler because obstacles are perceived as challenges, not turn offs. Magic happens when you believe that in order to have something, you need to do whatever it takes to make it happen. At the end, it happens in accordance to what you want it to happen.

This gives a cue - life itself moves into the direction we set earlier. Focus on the thing you want, insya Allah you will have it.

Everything I Do, I Do It For....

Look into my eyes,
You will see..what you mean to me
Search your heart, search your soul
When you find me there
You'll search no more.
Don't tell me it's not worth trying for
You can't tell me its not worth dying for
You know it's true..everything I do
I do it for you.. - Bryan Adams, soundtrack of 'Prince of Thieves'

A person who I hold very dear to heart once told me that I do whatever I think it's right to do. For as long it suits my purpose. I believe I agree with what she said to me. I can be hot-headed sometimes and most definitely stubborn in a very subtle way. I never abandon my dream and therefore, I will never walk away from my dreams and hopes.

"Hope is a good thing, maybe the best of things, and no good thing ever dies", said Andy Dufresne in box office movie, Shawshank Redemption. I completely agree with him. I am keeping a hope that I will someday be who I want to be, not whoever else wants me to be. I will not linger on my weakness, instead I will focus on possibilities because they are the driving force behind the mankind's achievement.

Many hopes I keep in my heart and many hopes I keep in my mind. For whatever I am doing right now, I am doing it for myself and for the people who I hold very dear to my heart. They may not see it now, but insya Allah, I am sure 20 or 30 years from now, they will look back and smile with gratitude.

Food Poisoned

I am having a food poisoned situation. Asyik terberak tak henti-henti. Geezz...gross right? I bet it is!

Sickness teaches us to be patient. Illness reminds us that life isn't always filled with flowery news or sunshiny tales. Sickness may also open a new paradigm, but it may also shut down one's brain. Like myself, today.

One thing for sure I know, unhealthy body can create unhealthy mindset. Like, giving up for what you have believed. Doubt. Hmmm...very bad eh?

Therefore, jagalah badan untuk kesihatan minda. Or maybe, to be come Glokal Malay. Errr..what the fuck am I talking about?

Real Reason

What I wrote last night was actually intended to talk about relationship. However, something struck my mind and I changed the topic. Besides, I usually suck in relationship. Opppsss, words have power! I am not supposed to say such thing about myself.

Oh yes, coming back to the real issue. Relationship. I listened to Anthony Robbin's motivational speech in compact disc collection this morning when I was ironing my shirt. It was an awesome speech on relationship. Especially when you heard if from one of the best motivational speaker in the world, Mr. Robbins.

Relationship like any other thing, is a living thing. It must be nurtured and must be maintained. Most of us fail to maintain the relationship especially when the courting session has ended. This is due to Law of familiarity. We have become so familiar with the sensational feeling unlike when we first met with our spouse. Remember?

Do you still remember your spouse's clothes when you meet him/her for the first time? Do you still remember how it felt to see your spouse smiled at you, or even wave his/her hand at you? How did you feel at that time?

However, later when the time moves forward, slowly the awesome and overwhelming feeling of love and joy fade away. Mainly because we are so used to that kind of feeling. In plain English, we take for granted for whatever things we have.

In order to maintain the relationship, Anthony Robbin suggest those people who are in relationship must do pre-supposition by asking themselves empowering questions. For example, like what he does in his marriage, consistently asks his wife Becky of 'how lucky he is to meet a lady like her'. This obviously an empowering question. It emphasizes the word 'lucky'. Indirectly, the questions induces a pre-supposition that he is lucky to meet his wife. Remember, words have power! This word will shape the neuro association in his brain that he is lucky to meet Becky. Due to the same reason, the brain will always associate good feeling, love feeling into his emotion, as it serves as an achor to his subconscious mind.

Wow...is it hard to understand?

No, I don't think so. It's really simple, if you listen to his CD. Oh well, I believe he left a message to those who are not in relationship, ie. myself, to write down a clear description of our miss right. A clear description means, full description of positive and negative behaviour of our miss right (please, by all mean, minimize the negative behaviour for our sake!). Law of perpertual transmutation will take care of it if we are specific enough about our 'dream spouse'. Of course, it must be followed with a high degree of intensity in emotion when we write it down. That will help the subconscious mind to get grip on that written message.

For as long as you focus on that, that dream spouse will eventually show up in your life. Not because you are looking for it consciously. It's actually your subsconscious mind who does it.

Allright, I need to go now. The Starbuck is closing now. Oh, before I forget, girls like surprise! So my fellow mates, surprise your girl and you will be surprised, how much they love it (or maybe, hate it!).

Live your life with passion!!

Satu Kesan Abadi

Hidup kita takkan berhenti hanya kerana kita ditimpa musibah sekali dua. Hidup kita juga tidak akan menjadi baik sekiranya kita hanya berfikir mengenainya tanpa mengambil apa-apa pengajaran daripada musibah yang melanda. Adakalanya juga, kehidupan kita disapa musibah hanya untuk memberikan kita peluang yang lebih baik untuk memajukan diri.

Aku percaya aku sedang berada dalam satu fasa kehidupan yang akan membawa aku ke satu peringkat yang lebih tinggi lagi. Fikiran aku sangat fokus kepada satu misi. Misi untuk mencari kekayaan dunia. Aku yakin, ramai akan mempersendakan aku. Insya Allah, aku takkan tergugat. Setiap hari aku memikirkan cara yang terbaik untuk menghasilkan duit. Robert T. Kiyosaki kata, kita tak perlukan duit untuk menghasilkan duit. Kata Anthony Robbins pulak, selagi kita fokus pada apa yang kita mahukan, nescaya kita akan memperolehinya.

Law of Perpetual Transmutation states that our mind is a formless substance. It will start to form whatever that we have in our mind, for as long we maintain our focus on the thought. Later it will start to manifest in physical matter. It is a law of universe.

Secara terus terangnya, aku memikirkan cara atau kaedah untuk mendapatkan wang yang banyak tanpa bersusah payah. Setakat ini, baru satu cara yang aku tahu. Online investment. Sekarang aku mulakan pula satu kerjaya yang akan memberikan aku nilai yang aku mahukan selagi aku fokus dan juga buat dengan bersungguh-sungguh. Aku fikir, aku tak boleh lagi kerja makan gaji. Selagi aku makan gaji, selagi itulah masa depan aku tak ke mana. Memang betul, agak mencabar bila aku cuba berubah dari mentaliti orang makan gaji dengan orang kerja sendiri. Keadaan kewangan pun tidak menentu. Belum termasuk hutang-hutang lain yang kita kumpulkan. Tapi aku percaya...selagi aku teruskan tumpuan aku terhadap kerjaya ini, insya Allah aku mampu menjadikannya lebih baik dan akan dapat apa yang aku perolehi. Kerjaya yang aku ceburi sekarang ini membantu client aku untuk mendapatkan kestabilan dalam kewangan mereka. Zig Ziglar sebut, "If we help enough people, people will help us in return". And I believe in that.

Setakat ini, ada beberapa orang yang memperkecil-kecilkan apa yang aku buat. Bagi aku, itu semuanya menguatkan lagi semangat aku. Aku bercadang untuk mengumpulkan aset sebanyak mungkin untuk membantu aku memulakan bisnes. Satu dua idea bisnes sudah ada dalam fikiran cuma mahu direalisasikan atas peringkat kertas kerja pula. Yakin atas kemampuan diri..aku akan cuba manifestasikan apa yang ada dalam fikiran aku.

I always believe, a great journey is always started with a small step. And my journey has just begun.

On the Way to Become Mental Warrior

There can be miracles
When you believe (When you believe)
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve (You can achieve)
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe - When You Believe, Mariah Carey

For the past few weeks, I was being constant pounded with new doctrine. A doctrine which is changing my entire view about myself. It is called, "Journey to Become Mental Warrior". Ahah, I know some of you will feel icky about it but I must say this, you and I is different. Although we both are borne from the same matter, but the most important matter is up here in our brain.

Being a mental warrior requires me to change my perception about life. It demands me to change my attitude. Yes, I went through some attitude overhaul for the past few weeks. I try my best to do that and I am still doing it. Cleaning up some parts of my attitude.

I can say that I am going through a crucial phase of my life now. I'm feeling enthusiastic for what I am doing. I don't want to give excuses anymore. Everyday when I wake up from my sleep, the first question I ask myself is, "How's my energy level today?". I will answer, "I'm feeling fantastic!!!". Doesn't matter how sleepy I feel at that moment, but I still want to send a clear message to my brain to energize my whole body.

Change words for better

Since I get to know some interesting and positive minded people, I have started to emulate their habit which is to substitute negative words to positive words. For instance, we usually will say 'tension', 'problem' or any word which reflects the negative tone to ourselves. We need to be reminded that words have power. For that power will either give motivations to your subconscious mind or discourage your mind and makes it weak. Weak mind will produce weak productivity. Therefore I start to use 'challenge' for 'problem' and 'difficult' to 'interesting'.

I wrote my goals in my diary and every night before I go to bed, I will read aloud my goals so that they will come into my subconscious mind. I do the same when I wake up from my sleep. At the moment, yes I am having some financial problem. I do admit that but I don't feel ashamed of that. I constantly ask myself the empowering questions of hows instead of whys (question which I used to ask myself pitifully).

Another thing I learnt a lot is about visualization. I do visualize a lot of my goals. Either financially, personally and emotionally. I am working at this moment to work on my goals and I won't let anyone to be in my way. Of course I am facing many skeptical people. People are questioning whether I am enjoying myself in doing whatever I am doing right now. I just tell them, "This rewards me with many interesting experience!".

Before I end this entry, I just want to say one thing to you all, "Be, Do, Have!". If that intrigues you, feel free to leave any message at the comment link. :). Live your life with passion!!

I Live in The Past, Only For Today

I skipped through my old diary and I found this one entry which somehow attracted my attention. Let me just put it in this blog.

Monday, Jun 8th 2001.
I checked a few apartments for Kak Zu. Too bad, none of them really suit for her and her husband. Anyway, I am satisfied with what I did for her.

I don't know why I still feel tired after coming back from my long winter break. Full of adventure, I could say that.

I went to a lot of places. We traveled to New York City, West Haven (Connecticut), Syracuse (New York upstate area) and stopped by at Cleveland (Ohio) after driving through a blizzard for about an hour. We continued the journey to Charlotte, North Carolina. After we spent a few days in Charlotte, we drove to Ann Arbor in Michigan to send Syawal back to his campus. I stayed a couple of days at Syawal's place. I also caught fever while I was there. Maybe because I didn't have enough rest.

I think, frankly, this tour was the clumsiest tour I ever had. All the places were planned spontaneously. Don't you think it was miserable? Nay...who cares?

Oh well, the real reason I think it's interesting because it is the first entry in my diary. Besides, it reminds me to my good friend, Syawal, who is very faraway from this motherland. Hopefully his ambition will be fulfilled, soon.

Maybe many people were thinking what have I been doing for the past few months. I did many things, really...many things. I read many books, I did many activities, I ventured into new things that I never really think about them before. I helped disabled people. I smiled a lot. I increase my level of acceptance and I start to get in touch with my subconcious mind. It worths of my solitary time, I guess.

So people, hello again! I'll be seeing you from time to time. In the meantime, don't forget to live your life with PASSION!!!!