Sedikit Sebelum Terlena
Hmm..bila bercerita pasal sekolah..sedikit sedikit tersentuh juga hati, terkenangkan kawan-kawan yang jauh dari aku. See..aku tak biasa hidup jauh dari kawan-kawan. First time aku sampai US...aku email Acap dulu..cakap kat dia, aku dah sampai kat US. Doakan aku sentiasa istiqamah dalam ibadah..tapi nak jadik sampai manusia siqoh (macam yang Zaid sarankan tuh..) memang tak dapat la kan..Email dari Acap nasihatkan aku supaya sentiasa dekat dengan sunnah rasulullah tu still aku simpan dalam folder special kat hotmail account aku..same la jugak email kenkawan yang aku rasa special kat hati aku, aku save emails diorang dalam folder tu.
Friends are like diamonds, you need to tend their needs as well as take care of their feelings. Surely through the course of time, either of you will scratch the pristine surface of your friends' heart, but hey..we all are not perfect, are we? The real friendship begins when the two have conflict between each other and they manage to come over it with clear conscience..not with emotional and stressful grudges onto each other. Some of us are afraid to say the truth to us just because they want to maintain status quo among friends. C'mon, wake up laa..if you really want something good for your friends, you should speak up..say the truth. Macam Caza..dia memang cakap direct ngan aku..aku kekadang terasa gak..tapi bila aku pikir lama-lama..kata-kata dia tu betul aaa..except dia kata touch up sket diplomatic skill..hahahaha..but perhaps because we are very close, it doesn't matter anymore. For that..thank you thank you and thank you Cik Norshazaliwati Shamsudin of University South California..muuahhhss..i lap you bebeh!!! Sebenarnya aku rindu la jugak nak sembang-sembang ngan caza macam dulu-dulu...time aku moody mesti aku call caza nyer lah..but now dah sengkek tahap cipan tak ingatnya..Err..by the way..dia member aku ajer, ok? Just member not awek..nanti mampus aku kena hempuk ngan Encik Harith..kweng kweng kweng..
Okay..come back to the issue of friends. Yeah..kawan ramai bantu aku waktu aku di PPP/ITM and di US. Kawan-kawan satu jemaah MISNA, kawan-kawan dalam jemaah MISG, kawan-kawan di Penn State dan kawan-kawan seluruh US..serius shit aku banyak terhutang budi dengan korang. Bantuan dari segi moral, wang ringgit, masa..kiranya memang aku tak dapat nak balaslah..and tiap-tiap hari dalam doa lepas solat aku..aku doakan, "Ya Allah, kau sejahterakan kedua orang tuaku, ahli-ahli keluargaku, sahabat-sahabatku dan seluruh pejuang Islam yang berjuang atas jalan agama Mu". Time aku balik M'sia tahun lepas sebab 'urusan Jabatan Perdana Menteri', ramai giler sahabat-sahabat jemaah MISNA jemput aku datang ke rumah..including wakil dewan pemuda pusat PAS..yang best tu exco dewan muslimat PAS pun ade ajak jumpa aku..hahahaha..sweet dohh minah tu..seb baik Mak Long Kesuma temankan aku pi jumpa sekali kat A&W KLCC...kalau tak sure dah aku terlompat sakan tak ingatnyer!!! But yang Dewan Pemuda tu..iskk..tak pergi ahh..takut ooo..kena follow ngan SB ke ape ke..naye siall aku dibuatnya! Ohhh..time aku dinner ngan alumni MISNA kat Sg Besi ari tu..ade orang siap amik gambar aku lagi tu...celanat aaa..ntah pesal ntah amik gambar memalam buta menghala ke aku pulak tu. Sekali aku tak kisah lagik..ni dah cam lensa kamera tu dok tala aku jek..berapi gak aku dibuatnya! Hidup dikejar bayang-bayang..takpe..ni cabaran sket ajer baru..
Pendek kate..aku really appreciate semua member aku..tak kira la member dari SAS ke..member yang aku kenal masa kat M'sia lepas high school life aku ke..member yang aku kenal time belajar kat US ke..semua-semua lahh..aku sayang korang semua dohhhhh..serius shit wa tak tipu..kalau lu orang susah..lu cari gua la..kalau gua mampu tolong, gua tolong..kalau gua tak mampu tolong..wa tolong takat mana yang mampu la..okeh?
Nostalgia Kain Sarung
Oh..citer pasal kain sarung ek? Haa...first time aku belajar care camner nak pakai kain sarung ni waktu aku F1 kat SAS. HAhaha..giler babeng aku bodoh siall tak gheti pakai kain sarung. Masa tu ler si Gmie penolong ketua bilik aku ajar camner nak pakai..haa..garisan yang lebar kat kain sarung tu..yg takde pattern tu..itu letaknyer kat bahagian belakang..or senang cakap kat area bontot laa..kemudian pakailah kain sarung tu..cam lipat sampin..gerenti lepas tu tak tercabut kain sarung tu..
Memula rasa cam agak aneh sket la kan pakai baju melayu ngan kain sarung untuk kelas prep malam sebab ada rasa sejuk lain macam sket..lelame lepas tu okay dah..aku rasa kain sarung ni banyak kegunaannya lah bagi budak asrama cam aku ni kan..sebabnya..waktu terlupa nak bawak towel everytime aku balik dari overnight..sure kain sarung lah jugak jadik towelnyer...everytime takde selimut..kain sarunglah jadik selimutnya..everytime nak solat..paling selesa pakai kain sarung..everytime aku kena kejar dengan warden..mesti time tu aku tengah berkain sarung..habis tinggi dah aku angkat kain sarung tu..sebab nak sprint punya pasal sampai tak cukup tanah nak lari..
Seingat aku..papa selalu complaint la sebab aku selalu mintak dia belikan kain sarung baru untuk aku sebab kain sarung aku selalu terkoyak..hahaha..kelakar la bab tu..kalau kat rumah pulak, aku suka benar la pulak menibai kain sarung papa..sebab kat rumah Along tak guna kain sarung, Angah pun sama. Kiranyer aku bab berpakaian kat rumah ikut cam style bapak aku ler..berkain sarung dan ber t shirt waktu belah malam. Mujur ler boroi tak sama cam boroi bapak aku..iskk..maintain lagik kot aku..hahahaa..Aku pernah dapat hadiah kain sarung dari orang Singapura..pernah gak dapat hadiah kain sarung dari orang Kedah..dari orang Ampang pun aku pernah dapat..
Kain sarung jugak boleh dijadikan senjata..Cikgu Rasul, cikgu silat aku pernah ajar a few techniques seni cindai (seni beladiri gunakan kain) dalam silat gayong. Cumanya tak sempat nak praktiskan, besides sedikit sangat yang dia ajarkan tu sebab kebiasaannya seni cindai diajarkan pada peringkat bengkung harimau pelangi hitam, bukan bengkung pelangi merah macam aku ni. Maybe hadiah farewell dari dia untuk kitorang bebudak F5 silat kot.
Seingat aku..pernah waktu latihan concert band belah malam masa kat sekolah dulu..aku conduct the band dengan berkain sarung dengan baju melayu ajer...sekali bebudak SSP datang pulak dengan Cikgu Suhaimi..alahai..malu siall aku..segan giler aku..adeh adeh..dah ler si Shiha, Niza, Warie ngan Ishtar tengok aku berkain sarung conduct bagai beriyer..bebudak band aku gelak jek tengok aku..tu pasal aku dok pelik apsal diorang gelak sedangkan aku punyalah serius conduct kat depan..toleh-toleh nampak awek 4 ekor tercegat belakang aku. Hantu bebudak nih! Well..sampai sekarang aku still berkawan dengan diorang..in fact Warie tu member aku dari tadika Kemas kat Klang Gate sampailah dia dah kerja ni...tapi asal berjumpa mesti aku dengan dia bertekak..macam anjing ngan kucing.
Itulah dia..kenangan kain sarung aku.
Wednesday, March 31, 2004
Gaykah kau?
Haa..ape lagi..jawab laa..gay ke ko? Gay ni tak kira, laki pompuan, dua dua ade..dua dua main bantai ajer..belasah sendiri punya.eh tak..itu DIY ek (aku belajar this word from someone else's blog)? Gay ni pakai lanyak ajer kaum sendiri punya..humm..masuk akal tak? Mungkin tak kot sebab sekarang ni dah bersepah orang mengaku gay terang-terangan..giler ke ape?
Aku makin hari makin geli geleman membaca blog gay lelaki..tapi yang peliknya aku tak jumpa la pulak gay perempuan aka lesbian. Selalu dengar citer pasal homoseks jek..boring dah..dari F1 sampai F5 aku dengar menda alah tu, kluar skolah masuk kolej pun dengar citer tu gak..kluar kolej masuk U pun lagik ler..aku kena paksa amik kelas untuk belajar terima golongan homoseks ni (CN ED 302, counseling education course). Hmm..isu gay memang hebat..hebat sesangat sampai Arnie the California Terminator pun suruh state attorney arahkan San Fransisco hentikan gay marriage. Tapi sayangnya Terminator tu tak cukup kuat lawan gay, abih kuat dia kena gentel balik ngan gay..kesiann..
Eh betul ke gay ni asal dari all boys school or all girls school? Ada sesape nak menafikan tak? Aku tak tahu la sebab takde statistical figure (takde kerja sebenarnya buat statistik pasal education background gay) yang sahih pasal ni. But aku ada dengar juga waktu sekolah dulu, ade budak kena kantoi mandi same-same butt naked dengan warden Ustaz Khairudin atau glamernyer dikenal sebagai Girang. Holy shitt...butt naked bebb..dua dua lak tuh...demmit aaa..apsal tak sound reramai..leh kita snap gambar reramai kan! Itu cerita gay la kat skolah aku...another gay story is about penolong ketua bilik 3B1 rumah Dato Onn time kitorang form 1. Ni Ijam yang citer kat aku....sebab Ijam yang nampak menda alah ni..dia tak nampak la macam saksi dalam kes zina, seperti melihat kapur dimasukkan ke dalam botol (ini requirement saksi untuk kes-kes zina mengikut hukum hudud utk pastikan kesahihan). Yang dia nampak, ade sorang brader lembut ni masuk bilik dia bawak selimut, pi kat katil Penolong Ketua Bilik dia yang terletak belakang loker kasut..tersorok la sket..tahu tahu loker kasut tu bergegar..haa..sendirik paham laa..kalau tak paham gak..nak ajer aku lekuk pale tu. Esok pagi dekat nak subuh brader lembut tu kluar dari bilik Ijam ni dengan muka penuh kepancitan sekali!
So, ini ke gay nyer? Tapi brader lembut tu..giler tough siot..maksud aku body dia tough..six pack lagik abs tu..aku pun still one jumbo pack (ehemm ehemm..slowly dah nak tukar jadik a few packs ok?). Pen. Ketua Bilik tu lagik ahh..atlit sekolah..macho habis dude..tapi kenapakah yang tang tu jugak dia talanya?
Batch aku pun ade lelaki lembut..well..in fact one of my friends kat SAS tu pun lelaki lembut tapi keras. Lembut sebab perangai dia..keras sebab keras hati dia study medic, insya Allah akan jadi doktor..wohoo (ubat pree..MC pree nanti utk aku!!!). Tapi aku yakin dia tak gay..aku terjumpa ngan dia time balik M'sia tahun lepas..aku ckp kat dia.."Weh ****, aku tak kisah aa ko lembut ke ape ke..aku tau ko member aku..kita sesame eat shit, had shit, talk shit waktu kat skolah dulu..no halnyer!".
Haa..tapi kan..aku terasa la gak ade sket sket gay gak batch aku. Time F4, waktu tu reramai duduk kat 2nd floor kat Blok A rumah Tan Sri Jamil Rais. Asal nak mandi petang ajer..mesti laa ramai-ramai budak gi panjat dinding nak mengintai. Apalah bodohnyer nak mengintai member sendiri? Lagi satu kalau member tu perempuan ok la jugak kot..ini jantan jugak..hardware pun same la jugak..ishh memang ni bangang tahap cipan punyer laa..sampai ade la jugak yang takut nak mandi petang sebab bebudak setan ni suka sangat mengendap..Aku rasa Foncho ngan Manchak la yang paling setan, gi snap kamera kosong kat dalam shower room..oh itu semua orang suspen laa..kot kot la ade filem betul, mahu tak jadiknyer kisah pelajar terlampau. But anyway, mujur gak time aku mandi takde orang mengintai..kalau mengintai dari atas tu..aku tarik ke lantai aku hantukkan kepala kat pili paip tu sampai pecah kepala..rasakan! Nama pun gengster bus stand klang (aku still tak paham apsal bebudak batch aku panggil aku nick ni time tu)!!
Aku rasa tu semua stok stok gurau melampau la kot bebudak boys. Apelah sangat tengok hardware orang, tengok hardware sendiri la kan..kalau ndak pun sangat stok gersang tak ingatnya, gi ajer la kat blok perempuan Sekolah Teknik kat sebelah tu..tak pun kakak-kakak MPIK yang selalu jogging petang-petang kat padang tu..tak pun kalau berani, fly ler gi asrama perempuan kat Sek. Men. Sains Selangor tu..ini tak..kat sekolah dialah yang paling hebat..paling berani...tapi jumpa jek bebudak SSP, TKC, STF ke..terus terkedu..(kamon la kan...kami ni biasa nampak jantan ajer..nampak aweks sket...terus kejang kejap!)
Sebab nak mengekalkan kewarasan libido memasing kot..tu pasal la semua dok layan magazine Penthouse yang Kuyup punya..mujur si Piye (bakal doktor tajaan USM) tok sheikh batch aku sempat gi bakar magazine tu..
Well..banyak cara sebenarnya untuk tak terlalu taksub pasal jadi gay ni..aku sendiri kat sekolah aktif giler babi..tak sempat pun nak terfikir pasal menda-menda ni..although aku ngaku, it takes effort la jugak untuk bebas dari hasutan menda-menda ni..iman tak kuat..memang ko tercampak la kat lorong hina..jadik mangsa-mangsa toron menoron abang-abang senior yang homo. Pasal tu la aku serius shit kat sekolah tak berapa suka sebenarnya jambu-jambu ni..berjambu ngan student..iskk..tak dapat hasil langsung! Better berjambu ngan cikgu..dapat gaklah sket-sket hasilnya..hahahahaha
But anyway..aku serius rasa sekolah bukanlah punca asal jadi gay ni..yang jadi gay ni maybe banyak factor yang kita tak tahu..terlalu sulit nak bicarakan soal ni sebabnya kita bukan gay. Bila bukan gay bicara tentang gay..memang tak masuk lah..cuba ko budak engineering nak citer pasal budak accounting.gerenti fail lah! Tapi bila gay cakap dia ni perempuan terperangkap dalam badan lelaki..lelaki terperangkap dalam badan perempuan tu..aku pun sendiri susah mahu paham lah.
One thing aku tahu..last time aku check..aku still straight..alhamdulillah..
Haa..ape lagi..jawab laa..gay ke ko? Gay ni tak kira, laki pompuan, dua dua ade..dua dua main bantai ajer..belasah sendiri punya.eh tak..itu DIY ek (aku belajar this word from someone else's blog)? Gay ni pakai lanyak ajer kaum sendiri punya..humm..masuk akal tak? Mungkin tak kot sebab sekarang ni dah bersepah orang mengaku gay terang-terangan..giler ke ape?
Aku makin hari makin geli geleman membaca blog gay lelaki..tapi yang peliknya aku tak jumpa la pulak gay perempuan aka lesbian. Selalu dengar citer pasal homoseks jek..boring dah..dari F1 sampai F5 aku dengar menda alah tu, kluar skolah masuk kolej pun dengar citer tu gak..kluar kolej masuk U pun lagik ler..aku kena paksa amik kelas untuk belajar terima golongan homoseks ni (CN ED 302, counseling education course). Hmm..isu gay memang hebat..hebat sesangat sampai Arnie the California Terminator pun suruh state attorney arahkan San Fransisco hentikan gay marriage. Tapi sayangnya Terminator tu tak cukup kuat lawan gay, abih kuat dia kena gentel balik ngan gay..kesiann..
Eh betul ke gay ni asal dari all boys school or all girls school? Ada sesape nak menafikan tak? Aku tak tahu la sebab takde statistical figure (takde kerja sebenarnya buat statistik pasal education background gay) yang sahih pasal ni. But aku ada dengar juga waktu sekolah dulu, ade budak kena kantoi mandi same-same butt naked dengan warden Ustaz Khairudin atau glamernyer dikenal sebagai Girang. Holy shitt...butt naked bebb..dua dua lak tuh...demmit aaa..apsal tak sound reramai..leh kita snap gambar reramai kan! Itu cerita gay la kat skolah aku...another gay story is about penolong ketua bilik 3B1 rumah Dato Onn time kitorang form 1. Ni Ijam yang citer kat aku....sebab Ijam yang nampak menda alah ni..dia tak nampak la macam saksi dalam kes zina, seperti melihat kapur dimasukkan ke dalam botol (ini requirement saksi untuk kes-kes zina mengikut hukum hudud utk pastikan kesahihan). Yang dia nampak, ade sorang brader lembut ni masuk bilik dia bawak selimut, pi kat katil Penolong Ketua Bilik dia yang terletak belakang loker kasut..tersorok la sket..tahu tahu loker kasut tu bergegar..haa..sendirik paham laa..kalau tak paham gak..nak ajer aku lekuk pale tu. Esok pagi dekat nak subuh brader lembut tu kluar dari bilik Ijam ni dengan muka penuh kepancitan sekali!
So, ini ke gay nyer? Tapi brader lembut tu..giler tough siot..maksud aku body dia tough..six pack lagik abs tu..aku pun still one jumbo pack (ehemm ehemm..slowly dah nak tukar jadik a few packs ok?). Pen. Ketua Bilik tu lagik ahh..atlit sekolah..macho habis dude..tapi kenapakah yang tang tu jugak dia talanya?
Batch aku pun ade lelaki lembut..well..in fact one of my friends kat SAS tu pun lelaki lembut tapi keras. Lembut sebab perangai dia..keras sebab keras hati dia study medic, insya Allah akan jadi doktor..wohoo (ubat pree..MC pree nanti utk aku!!!). Tapi aku yakin dia tak gay..aku terjumpa ngan dia time balik M'sia tahun lepas..aku ckp kat dia.."Weh ****, aku tak kisah aa ko lembut ke ape ke..aku tau ko member aku..kita sesame eat shit, had shit, talk shit waktu kat skolah dulu..no halnyer!".
Haa..tapi kan..aku terasa la gak ade sket sket gay gak batch aku. Time F4, waktu tu reramai duduk kat 2nd floor kat Blok A rumah Tan Sri Jamil Rais. Asal nak mandi petang ajer..mesti laa ramai-ramai budak gi panjat dinding nak mengintai. Apalah bodohnyer nak mengintai member sendiri? Lagi satu kalau member tu perempuan ok la jugak kot..ini jantan jugak..hardware pun same la jugak..ishh memang ni bangang tahap cipan punyer laa..sampai ade la jugak yang takut nak mandi petang sebab bebudak setan ni suka sangat mengendap..Aku rasa Foncho ngan Manchak la yang paling setan, gi snap kamera kosong kat dalam shower room..oh itu semua orang suspen laa..kot kot la ade filem betul, mahu tak jadiknyer kisah pelajar terlampau. But anyway, mujur gak time aku mandi takde orang mengintai..kalau mengintai dari atas tu..aku tarik ke lantai aku hantukkan kepala kat pili paip tu sampai pecah kepala..rasakan! Nama pun gengster bus stand klang (aku still tak paham apsal bebudak batch aku panggil aku nick ni time tu)!!
Aku rasa tu semua stok stok gurau melampau la kot bebudak boys. Apelah sangat tengok hardware orang, tengok hardware sendiri la kan..kalau ndak pun sangat stok gersang tak ingatnya, gi ajer la kat blok perempuan Sekolah Teknik kat sebelah tu..tak pun kakak-kakak MPIK yang selalu jogging petang-petang kat padang tu..tak pun kalau berani, fly ler gi asrama perempuan kat Sek. Men. Sains Selangor tu..ini tak..kat sekolah dialah yang paling hebat..paling berani...tapi jumpa jek bebudak SSP, TKC, STF ke..terus terkedu..(kamon la kan...kami ni biasa nampak jantan ajer..nampak aweks sket...terus kejang kejap!)
Sebab nak mengekalkan kewarasan libido memasing kot..tu pasal la semua dok layan magazine Penthouse yang Kuyup punya..mujur si Piye (bakal doktor tajaan USM) tok sheikh batch aku sempat gi bakar magazine tu..
Well..banyak cara sebenarnya untuk tak terlalu taksub pasal jadi gay ni..aku sendiri kat sekolah aktif giler babi..tak sempat pun nak terfikir pasal menda-menda ni..although aku ngaku, it takes effort la jugak untuk bebas dari hasutan menda-menda ni..iman tak kuat..memang ko tercampak la kat lorong hina..jadik mangsa-mangsa toron menoron abang-abang senior yang homo. Pasal tu la aku serius shit kat sekolah tak berapa suka sebenarnya jambu-jambu ni..berjambu ngan student..iskk..tak dapat hasil langsung! Better berjambu ngan cikgu..dapat gaklah sket-sket hasilnya..hahahahaha
But anyway..aku serius rasa sekolah bukanlah punca asal jadi gay ni..yang jadi gay ni maybe banyak factor yang kita tak tahu..terlalu sulit nak bicarakan soal ni sebabnya kita bukan gay. Bila bukan gay bicara tentang gay..memang tak masuk lah..cuba ko budak engineering nak citer pasal budak accounting.gerenti fail lah! Tapi bila gay cakap dia ni perempuan terperangkap dalam badan lelaki..lelaki terperangkap dalam badan perempuan tu..aku pun sendiri susah mahu paham lah.
One thing aku tahu..last time aku check..aku still straight..alhamdulillah..
Monday, March 29, 2004
This is my story..
I was happy. My girlfriend and I had been dating for over a year, and so we
decided to get married. My parents helped us in every way, my friends
encouraged me. And my girlfriend? She was a dream!
There was only one thing bothering me, very much indeed. That one thing was
her younger sister. My prospective sister-in-law was twenty years of age,
wore tight mini skirts, and low cut blouses. She would regularly bend down
when near me and I got many a pleasant view of her. It had to be
deliberate. She never did it when she was near anyone else. One day little
sister called and asked me to come over to check the wedding invitations.
She was alone when I arrived. She whispered to me that soon I was to be
married, and she had feelings and desires for me that she couldn't overcome
and didn't really want to overcome. She told me that she wanted to make
love to me just once before I got married and committed my life to her
sister. I was in total shock and couldn't say a word. She said, "I'm going
upstairs to my bedroom, and if you want to go ahead with it just come up
and get me."
I was stunned. I was frozen in shock as I watched her go up the stairs.
When she reached the top she pulled down her
panties and threw them down the stairs at me. I stood there for a moment,
then turned and went straight to the front door. I opened the door and
stepped out of the house and walked straight towards my car.
My future father-in-law was standing outside. With tears in his eyes he
hugged me and said, "We are very happy that you have passed our little
test. We couldn't ask for better man for our daughter. Welcome to the
family."
The moral of this story is: always keep your condoms in your car.
Comment aku:
Hahahaha..bangsatnya punya lawak...aku sakit perut sakit pipi nak tahan gelak terkekeh-kekeh dalam lab ni...ade jugak ekk citer camni!!! manusiaa....aiii manusia.
I was happy. My girlfriend and I had been dating for over a year, and so we
decided to get married. My parents helped us in every way, my friends
encouraged me. And my girlfriend? She was a dream!
There was only one thing bothering me, very much indeed. That one thing was
her younger sister. My prospective sister-in-law was twenty years of age,
wore tight mini skirts, and low cut blouses. She would regularly bend down
when near me and I got many a pleasant view of her. It had to be
deliberate. She never did it when she was near anyone else. One day little
sister called and asked me to come over to check the wedding invitations.
She was alone when I arrived. She whispered to me that soon I was to be
married, and she had feelings and desires for me that she couldn't overcome
and didn't really want to overcome. She told me that she wanted to make
love to me just once before I got married and committed my life to her
sister. I was in total shock and couldn't say a word. She said, "I'm going
upstairs to my bedroom, and if you want to go ahead with it just come up
and get me."
I was stunned. I was frozen in shock as I watched her go up the stairs.
When she reached the top she pulled down her
panties and threw them down the stairs at me. I stood there for a moment,
then turned and went straight to the front door. I opened the door and
stepped out of the house and walked straight towards my car.
My future father-in-law was standing outside. With tears in his eyes he
hugged me and said, "We are very happy that you have passed our little
test. We couldn't ask for better man for our daughter. Welcome to the
family."
The moral of this story is: always keep your condoms in your car.
Comment aku:
Hahahaha..bangsatnya punya lawak...aku sakit perut sakit pipi nak tahan gelak terkekeh-kekeh dalam lab ni...ade jugak ekk citer camni!!! manusiaa....aiii manusia.
A Small Measure of Peace Revisit
Okay, last time I wished I could get a small measure of peace. And today, guess what? I found it...right at someone else's kitchen.
I went to my juniors' apartment just to visit them and also to cook something. Oh gosh...when I looked at the kitchen area, it was a total mess. Then I took an effort to clean it up since everyone wasn't at home playing soccer at Pollock field. And suddenly I realized, being myself at the kitchen area gave me a serene reality.
Aku suka sebenarnya ada kat dapur. Aku suka memasak di dapur, as in I can pour all my creativity into cooking. Ye lah, campak ajer la ape-ape yang kita nak masakkan, insya Allah jadilah nanti masakan tu. As long kita pandailah adjust-adjust sket sana-sini. I guess the only thing that deters me going into the kitchen area when I am at home is because of the nagging sound of my mom's voice. I hate people instruct me what to do when I am in the kitchen. I want to feel the independence at my cooking habit. And I hate to see my kitchen in mess. I would rather spend the time to wash all the dishes, cleaning up the rack and the stove as well. Cooking is very therapeutic to me. Seriously hilang stress aku kalau memasak..provided tempat nak memasak tu bersih and lengkaplah dengan apa yang aku nak guna untuk memasak.
Ahaa..so menu dinner untuk malam ni is nasi margerine (thanks to Ika sbb bagi idea kat aku), ayam masak merah madu and telur dadar sempoi. Huhuhuhu...licin semua sekali bila semua orang dalam apartment tu makan!
Waktu tengah makan tu, layanlah sekali movie Something Gotta Give, starring Diane Keaton, Jack Nicholson and Keanu Reeves. Aku layan movie tu sampai habis rupa-rupanya walau pun memula tu distracted laa jugak sebab bebudak ni sibuk nyanyi nasyid pasal kawen/awek kat belakang. Seronoklah juga tengok movie ni...hahaha..layan jiwang laa pulak..ape lah sialnyer aku malam ni aa?
But bila tengok ending movie tu..especially bila Erika (Diane) tengah celebrate birthday dia kat Paris dengan Julian (Keanu) and suddenly Harry (Jack Nicholson) came to see her just to say how much she means to him....hati aku jadi sayu. Entah...hati aku sayu maybe sebab aku dalam diam-diam simpan wish untuk harijadi aku walau pun tak ada orang celebrate birthday aku (but thanks to Aini and Aida sebab tak lupa wish birthday aku every year and belikan kad/hadiah untuk aku!! Jasamu dikenang!). Aku wish aku nak celebrate birthday ni dengan jalan-jalan kat tepi pantai dengan someone special...and I wish I could spend the rest of my life with the person that I first fell in love with 5 years ago..it was love at the first sight for me. Tak semena-mena boleh berkaca-kaca lak mata aku time tu..bertakung la jugak..iskkk..sayu sangat kot rasanya. Mujur la gak takde manusia kat living room..semua sibuk dok menghisap rokok kat bilik hujung...hahahaha..
Okaylah..nak stop sini dulu..enough of my rambling for today. Got to do some study...
Okay, last time I wished I could get a small measure of peace. And today, guess what? I found it...right at someone else's kitchen.
I went to my juniors' apartment just to visit them and also to cook something. Oh gosh...when I looked at the kitchen area, it was a total mess. Then I took an effort to clean it up since everyone wasn't at home playing soccer at Pollock field. And suddenly I realized, being myself at the kitchen area gave me a serene reality.
Aku suka sebenarnya ada kat dapur. Aku suka memasak di dapur, as in I can pour all my creativity into cooking. Ye lah, campak ajer la ape-ape yang kita nak masakkan, insya Allah jadilah nanti masakan tu. As long kita pandailah adjust-adjust sket sana-sini. I guess the only thing that deters me going into the kitchen area when I am at home is because of the nagging sound of my mom's voice. I hate people instruct me what to do when I am in the kitchen. I want to feel the independence at my cooking habit. And I hate to see my kitchen in mess. I would rather spend the time to wash all the dishes, cleaning up the rack and the stove as well. Cooking is very therapeutic to me. Seriously hilang stress aku kalau memasak..provided tempat nak memasak tu bersih and lengkaplah dengan apa yang aku nak guna untuk memasak.
Ahaa..so menu dinner untuk malam ni is nasi margerine (thanks to Ika sbb bagi idea kat aku), ayam masak merah madu and telur dadar sempoi. Huhuhuhu...licin semua sekali bila semua orang dalam apartment tu makan!
Waktu tengah makan tu, layanlah sekali movie Something Gotta Give, starring Diane Keaton, Jack Nicholson and Keanu Reeves. Aku layan movie tu sampai habis rupa-rupanya walau pun memula tu distracted laa jugak sebab bebudak ni sibuk nyanyi nasyid pasal kawen/awek kat belakang. Seronoklah juga tengok movie ni...hahaha..layan jiwang laa pulak..ape lah sialnyer aku malam ni aa?
But bila tengok ending movie tu..especially bila Erika (Diane) tengah celebrate birthday dia kat Paris dengan Julian (Keanu) and suddenly Harry (Jack Nicholson) came to see her just to say how much she means to him....hati aku jadi sayu. Entah...hati aku sayu maybe sebab aku dalam diam-diam simpan wish untuk harijadi aku walau pun tak ada orang celebrate birthday aku (but thanks to Aini and Aida sebab tak lupa wish birthday aku every year and belikan kad/hadiah untuk aku!! Jasamu dikenang!). Aku wish aku nak celebrate birthday ni dengan jalan-jalan kat tepi pantai dengan someone special...and I wish I could spend the rest of my life with the person that I first fell in love with 5 years ago..it was love at the first sight for me. Tak semena-mena boleh berkaca-kaca lak mata aku time tu..bertakung la jugak..iskkk..sayu sangat kot rasanya. Mujur la gak takde manusia kat living room..semua sibuk dok menghisap rokok kat bilik hujung...hahahaha..
Okaylah..nak stop sini dulu..enough of my rambling for today. Got to do some study...
Advice from Dina Zaman
Advice on How to Find a Good Man (Have translated article into English)
1. Is financially stable...[wait until I work laaa, ok?]
2. Can take the place of your parents, and will protect his wife from all dangers and hell. This is because once she is his wife, he takes the place of her parents. [insya Allah I want to be more than that; I want to be friend and a companion]
3. He carries himself well. Whatever he says, are not empty promises. He will always strive to bring his wofe to the right path. [I am doing that now, I think]
4. He is domesticated. He can cook, sew and wash for a man who's fab around the home will not 'bebankan isteri'. [Ahah...this is soo cheesy for me..I do them all the time what?]
5. Trusts women, especially his wife. He is not a jealous man. He is rational. [oh yeah..one particular thing about me, I am not a jealous man..seriously I'm not!]
6. Hardworking, broad minded and does not 'eat' his wife's earnings. He is not lazy, wants progress and does not depend on his wife financially. [certainly I wont 'eat' the wife's earnings..plus I'm a workaholic person]
7. A forgiving man. [I am this type of guy but not forgetful as well]
8. He comes from a good family - a family that prays, is good to others and so forth. [mudah-mudahan...ameen]
Any taker out there? Feel free to email me, ok? Muahahahaha...
Advice on How to Find a Good Man (Have translated article into English)
1. Is financially stable...[wait until I work laaa, ok?]
2. Can take the place of your parents, and will protect his wife from all dangers and hell. This is because once she is his wife, he takes the place of her parents. [insya Allah I want to be more than that; I want to be friend and a companion]
3. He carries himself well. Whatever he says, are not empty promises. He will always strive to bring his wofe to the right path. [I am doing that now, I think]
4. He is domesticated. He can cook, sew and wash for a man who's fab around the home will not 'bebankan isteri'. [Ahah...this is soo cheesy for me..I do them all the time what?]
5. Trusts women, especially his wife. He is not a jealous man. He is rational. [oh yeah..one particular thing about me, I am not a jealous man..seriously I'm not!]
6. Hardworking, broad minded and does not 'eat' his wife's earnings. He is not lazy, wants progress and does not depend on his wife financially. [certainly I wont 'eat' the wife's earnings..plus I'm a workaholic person]
7. A forgiving man. [I am this type of guy but not forgetful as well]
8. He comes from a good family - a family that prays, is good to others and so forth. [mudah-mudahan...ameen]
Any taker out there? Feel free to email me, ok? Muahahahaha...
Sunday, March 28, 2004
A Small Measure of Peace
Baru saja lepas tonton movie The Last Samurai..masuk ni dah kali ke 5 dah aku tonton movie ni. Aku sendiri tak tahu apa appealing nya sangat movie ni pada aku. Maybe watak Samurai tu sendiri yang buatkan aku tertarik, gaya hidup Bushido, the pursue of perfection in their life...certainly it has some holistic values hidden somewhere in the movie..or maybe the whole aroma of heroic-romanticism in this movie attracts me..the hidden romance of relationship between Captain Algreen and Taka..well..I don't know.
All I know is that, this movie never fails to grasp my attention..it pulls me right to it.
And the moment I saw Capt. Algreen put on his samurai uniform, it somehow reminds me to the time when I put on my silat uniform or my tae kwon do uniform. To some people, it maybe just a uniform and it has no value whatsoever. But to us, it provides us with the spirit, the feel and the scent of survival.
Waktu pertama kali aku dengar bunyi gendang silat dimainkan di gelanggang silat, memang darah muda membuak-buak. Rasa hati nak saja aku buka langkah silat, aturkan tapak dan pandang tepat pada lawan aku di gelanggang. Samalah juga di gelanggang tae kwon do semasa aku menyertai tournament karate di Altoona. Pertama kali dalam sejarah hidup aku, aku bertanding dalam acara serangan bebas Olympic style di Altoona melawan mat salleh. Satu perasaan yang sangat berlainan once aku dah pakaikan uniform tae kwon do. Tambah lagi bila aku mulakan warm up aku dengan acara buka gelanggang yang selalu aku amalkan kalau aku nak mulakan latihan silat gayong. Kebiasaannya latihan silat gayong dimulakan dengan upacara buka gelanggang yang diketuai oleh imam gelanggang. Upacara ini dilakukan dengan membaca surah Al Ikhlas 11 kali, selawat ke atas junjungan besar Nabi Muhammad S.A.W sebanyak 7 kali, surah Al Fatihah dan sedikit doa mohon dilindungi dari segala bala bencana dan mara bahaya ke atas pesilat.
When I faced my opponent, the only thing I had in mind was to defeat him. No other thing that I could possibly think of at that time. I scrutinized all of his movements, from his eyes down to his two feet. Everything told me what was his next move could be. The irony is, who says every martial arts practitioner doesn't have fear? As much as Capt. Algreen and Katsumoto have fear of death, and so am I. I had the same fear running everywhere in my blood vessels whenever I have to face my opponent in the fighting court. I could feel my knees started to feel cold and numb. My stomach started to have a slight tingling feeling and my arms seemed could not stop from shaking. However, once I stood in the middle of court with my fists clenched, I set my mind to a victory (defeat comes later if I am destined to be defeated). Never give up..and don't ever give up and I fought till the last breath I had (or till the last whistling sound of referee's whistle).
I guess that applies to my living as well. I was known among my friends as a fighter. I went against all the odds whenever the situation didn't favor me. And I proved to the people around me that I was right. Unfortunately, I don't know if I still have that spirit anymore. Time and time I was given tests; be them good or be them bad...yet again I came through them with hesitation. If I manage to steer through the test, I will just be grateful to Him, but if I don't....I don't know what to do or maybe I will just let it goes the way it should be..
Will I be the fighter whom I used to be? Insya Allah...I pray hard to Him so my fighting spirit will never diminish and I always ask Him to grant me wisdom in handling my life, my crisis and my pain and agony..so that I will become a better person tomorrow. Hopefully whatever I ask from him will be granted and all I could ever ask from Him is just a small measure of peace in my heart.
Baru saja lepas tonton movie The Last Samurai..masuk ni dah kali ke 5 dah aku tonton movie ni. Aku sendiri tak tahu apa appealing nya sangat movie ni pada aku. Maybe watak Samurai tu sendiri yang buatkan aku tertarik, gaya hidup Bushido, the pursue of perfection in their life...certainly it has some holistic values hidden somewhere in the movie..or maybe the whole aroma of heroic-romanticism in this movie attracts me..the hidden romance of relationship between Captain Algreen and Taka..well..I don't know.
All I know is that, this movie never fails to grasp my attention..it pulls me right to it.
And the moment I saw Capt. Algreen put on his samurai uniform, it somehow reminds me to the time when I put on my silat uniform or my tae kwon do uniform. To some people, it maybe just a uniform and it has no value whatsoever. But to us, it provides us with the spirit, the feel and the scent of survival.
Waktu pertama kali aku dengar bunyi gendang silat dimainkan di gelanggang silat, memang darah muda membuak-buak. Rasa hati nak saja aku buka langkah silat, aturkan tapak dan pandang tepat pada lawan aku di gelanggang. Samalah juga di gelanggang tae kwon do semasa aku menyertai tournament karate di Altoona. Pertama kali dalam sejarah hidup aku, aku bertanding dalam acara serangan bebas Olympic style di Altoona melawan mat salleh. Satu perasaan yang sangat berlainan once aku dah pakaikan uniform tae kwon do. Tambah lagi bila aku mulakan warm up aku dengan acara buka gelanggang yang selalu aku amalkan kalau aku nak mulakan latihan silat gayong. Kebiasaannya latihan silat gayong dimulakan dengan upacara buka gelanggang yang diketuai oleh imam gelanggang. Upacara ini dilakukan dengan membaca surah Al Ikhlas 11 kali, selawat ke atas junjungan besar Nabi Muhammad S.A.W sebanyak 7 kali, surah Al Fatihah dan sedikit doa mohon dilindungi dari segala bala bencana dan mara bahaya ke atas pesilat.
When I faced my opponent, the only thing I had in mind was to defeat him. No other thing that I could possibly think of at that time. I scrutinized all of his movements, from his eyes down to his two feet. Everything told me what was his next move could be. The irony is, who says every martial arts practitioner doesn't have fear? As much as Capt. Algreen and Katsumoto have fear of death, and so am I. I had the same fear running everywhere in my blood vessels whenever I have to face my opponent in the fighting court. I could feel my knees started to feel cold and numb. My stomach started to have a slight tingling feeling and my arms seemed could not stop from shaking. However, once I stood in the middle of court with my fists clenched, I set my mind to a victory (defeat comes later if I am destined to be defeated). Never give up..and don't ever give up and I fought till the last breath I had (or till the last whistling sound of referee's whistle).
I guess that applies to my living as well. I was known among my friends as a fighter. I went against all the odds whenever the situation didn't favor me. And I proved to the people around me that I was right. Unfortunately, I don't know if I still have that spirit anymore. Time and time I was given tests; be them good or be them bad...yet again I came through them with hesitation. If I manage to steer through the test, I will just be grateful to Him, but if I don't....I don't know what to do or maybe I will just let it goes the way it should be..
Will I be the fighter whom I used to be? Insya Allah...I pray hard to Him so my fighting spirit will never diminish and I always ask Him to grant me wisdom in handling my life, my crisis and my pain and agony..so that I will become a better person tomorrow. Hopefully whatever I ask from him will be granted and all I could ever ask from Him is just a small measure of peace in my heart.
Saturday, March 27, 2004
Subuh Tersenyum
Aku takleh tido nih. Maybe sebab semalam aku berjaga dari malam sampai ke lepas subuh, inilah bahananya. Lagi pun aku tersadai tidur atas katil lepas balik dari kelas. Maybe sisa mengantuk tu belum beri kesan lagi kot, tambah-tambah bila pergi gym tengah malam tadi sampai jam 1 pagi. Habis ke gym, melepak kat rumah Hase pulak...siap masak nasi goreng kampung lagi untuk isi perut. Laaa..macam mana la nak dapat hasil, same ajer kluar masuk perutnyer nih...
Baru-baru ni aku ada menulis pasal bebudak Amiekids...tup tup aku terjumpa online gallery milik si Safurah, kawan aku sewaktu di tuition MARA time F4 dulu. Seronok juga belek gallery orang ni....alih-alih ternampak gambar si Arai dengan awek dia. Tajuk gambar tu, "Majlis Pertunangan Gna". Wahhh...hantu si Arai ni..dia dah bertunang rupanya! Langsung tak kabar kat member semua..but anyway, I cant help smiling la to see his face again. I guess, I just miss all my SAS buddies kot.
Bercakap pasal Arai ni, menda yang aku paling ingat pasal dia is about dia nyer baju melayu hijau and kain sarung hijau dia. Dari form 1 sampai ke F5 kot, aku asyik nampak wardrobe yang sama. Or maybe dia just suka kaler hijau kot. Lagi satu, kalau nak berpartner silat gayong dengan dia, mintak ampun awal-awal lah...aku memang tolak awal-awal sebab mamat ni tulang dia keras macam besi. Susu jenis ape ntah dia minum ari-ari...Arai ni salah seorang daripada murid kesayangan cikgu silat kami, Cikgu Rasul - sebab tu Cikgu Rasul ajar dia main seni tongkat kayu...aku tak dapat pun belajar main senjata kayu..:(. Cuma dapat main buah tapak hidup seni sembat ajer..(Takpe, at least aku dapat belajar main senjata lembing/parang 2 kat Kompleks Sukan Kg Pandan dengan cikgu kahar).
Arai dengan Gna memang nampak sepadan la pada pandangan mata aku. Sama tinggi, sama elok. Arai nampak gelap sket..macho siottt..dengar cerita dah pandai dah bukak mulut sket (sejak bila lak Arai jadi pendiam ni ekk??), itu pun menurut kata si Gna la...laa..alih-alih bertunang dengan orang yang aku kenal jugak..tak berkembang mana pun family bebudak Sekolah Berasrama Penuh ni..kalau bebudak SAS, mesti couple dengan budak SSP, tak pun STF or paling last sekali pun TKC (Acap & Adliza, a married couple). Well, tak kisahlah dah jodoh memasing. Aku cuma mampu senyum and itulah yang aku akan buat. Aku akan senyum tanda aku happy sebab dapat tengok member member aku happy.
As ramai bebudak batch aku tulis dalam buku autograph memasing time nak blah sekolah dulu, kenkawan Alam Shah la kawan dunia akhirat..wallahu'alam sejauh mana kebenaran tu, belum teruji lagi. Tempoh 11 tahun berkawan tak boleh dijadikan kayu pengukur absolut dalam soal ni. Ukhuwwah yang paling tinggi yang dapat kita tengok kesannya bila adanya ithaar (melebihkan keperluan saudara melebihi keperluan sendiri). Bila tibanya saat tu aku nampak hal ni ada pada diorang, barulah kot leh ngaku, kita ni sahabat dunia akhirat.
But ape ape pun..aku still akan senyum hari ni sebab aku nampak Arai, member sebilik 2B2, member satu kediaman Aminudin Baki, saudara seGayong, bertunang dengan orang yang dia paling sayang lepas family dia, Gna.
Aku takleh tido nih. Maybe sebab semalam aku berjaga dari malam sampai ke lepas subuh, inilah bahananya. Lagi pun aku tersadai tidur atas katil lepas balik dari kelas. Maybe sisa mengantuk tu belum beri kesan lagi kot, tambah-tambah bila pergi gym tengah malam tadi sampai jam 1 pagi. Habis ke gym, melepak kat rumah Hase pulak...siap masak nasi goreng kampung lagi untuk isi perut. Laaa..macam mana la nak dapat hasil, same ajer kluar masuk perutnyer nih...
Baru-baru ni aku ada menulis pasal bebudak Amiekids...tup tup aku terjumpa online gallery milik si Safurah, kawan aku sewaktu di tuition MARA time F4 dulu. Seronok juga belek gallery orang ni....alih-alih ternampak gambar si Arai dengan awek dia. Tajuk gambar tu, "Majlis Pertunangan Gna". Wahhh...hantu si Arai ni..dia dah bertunang rupanya! Langsung tak kabar kat member semua..but anyway, I cant help smiling la to see his face again. I guess, I just miss all my SAS buddies kot.
Bercakap pasal Arai ni, menda yang aku paling ingat pasal dia is about dia nyer baju melayu hijau and kain sarung hijau dia. Dari form 1 sampai ke F5 kot, aku asyik nampak wardrobe yang sama. Or maybe dia just suka kaler hijau kot. Lagi satu, kalau nak berpartner silat gayong dengan dia, mintak ampun awal-awal lah...aku memang tolak awal-awal sebab mamat ni tulang dia keras macam besi. Susu jenis ape ntah dia minum ari-ari...Arai ni salah seorang daripada murid kesayangan cikgu silat kami, Cikgu Rasul - sebab tu Cikgu Rasul ajar dia main seni tongkat kayu...aku tak dapat pun belajar main senjata kayu..:(. Cuma dapat main buah tapak hidup seni sembat ajer..(Takpe, at least aku dapat belajar main senjata lembing/parang 2 kat Kompleks Sukan Kg Pandan dengan cikgu kahar).
Arai dengan Gna memang nampak sepadan la pada pandangan mata aku. Sama tinggi, sama elok. Arai nampak gelap sket..macho siottt..dengar cerita dah pandai dah bukak mulut sket (sejak bila lak Arai jadi pendiam ni ekk??), itu pun menurut kata si Gna la...laa..alih-alih bertunang dengan orang yang aku kenal jugak..tak berkembang mana pun family bebudak Sekolah Berasrama Penuh ni..kalau bebudak SAS, mesti couple dengan budak SSP, tak pun STF or paling last sekali pun TKC (Acap & Adliza, a married couple). Well, tak kisahlah dah jodoh memasing. Aku cuma mampu senyum and itulah yang aku akan buat. Aku akan senyum tanda aku happy sebab dapat tengok member member aku happy.
As ramai bebudak batch aku tulis dalam buku autograph memasing time nak blah sekolah dulu, kenkawan Alam Shah la kawan dunia akhirat..wallahu'alam sejauh mana kebenaran tu, belum teruji lagi. Tempoh 11 tahun berkawan tak boleh dijadikan kayu pengukur absolut dalam soal ni. Ukhuwwah yang paling tinggi yang dapat kita tengok kesannya bila adanya ithaar (melebihkan keperluan saudara melebihi keperluan sendiri). Bila tibanya saat tu aku nampak hal ni ada pada diorang, barulah kot leh ngaku, kita ni sahabat dunia akhirat.
But ape ape pun..aku still akan senyum hari ni sebab aku nampak Arai, member sebilik 2B2, member satu kediaman Aminudin Baki, saudara seGayong, bertunang dengan orang yang dia paling sayang lepas family dia, Gna.
SEX PLEASE, WE'RE MALAYSIANS
by TV Smith
08/06/03
Was it Confucius who once said "Man with hard problem will find solution in hand"? Local men with stiff problem will find solution in foreign hands, nowadays. At the many 'Mini UN' offices in Kuala Lumpur, female representatives from ASEAN, Central Asian, East European & South American countries work tirelessly to alleviate the problems faced by men whose wives are chronic migraine sufferers. Creatively branded as health centers or spas, the ISPs (International Sex Providers) are respectable tenants of five-star hotels, fancy service apartments and futuristic office towers. Its marketing and distribution network runs far and wide. Stroll down Jalan Bukit Bintang and you'll likely be accosted by sales agents touting a delivery service that's faster than any pizza maker in town. At the popular entertainment strip along Jalan P Ramlee, almost every meter-hating cab driver queued up at the 100-meter long taxi stand is a 'down-liner' for some health centers.
Above : Cops read blogs? Night of June 11th; police patrol car appeared every 15 minutes to foil repeated attempts to set two new world records.
Above : World's biggest assembly of meter-hating cab drivers and world's longest taxi stand.
Of course, there's no sinful supply without devilish demand. We're after all a nation of happy humpers with enough sexual energy to rival six billion rabbits. We're talking quantity here, not quality. Some men, reportedly, find these places attractive because they can skip the hassle of foreplay, which is usually ten minutes of begging anyway. In the West, couples with bedroom problems are encouraged to seek joint counseling. In Malaysia, our men adopt a slightly different but unilateral approach. They go to GRO lounges, sit silently with one hand on a breast (and the other on a thigh) and listen to the GRO's endless ranting for about RM 30 an hour (minus tips and drinks). The curious twist is that the the customer pays the GRO to listen to her problems.
One local hooker-hunting politician suggested that foreign women flocked to work at our chicken shops because Malaysian men make good customers. They usually last five minutes or less, he claimed. So we're a nation of unabashed premature-ejaculators then? Perhaps that explains the proliferation of performance enhancing products. Take a look around you; there's endless ads and flyers promoting aphrodisiacs ranging from Ginseng Teh Tarik to Tongkat Ali Instant Noodle. For the women, a thousand Jamu products compete to tighten their pelvic muscles and help them keep a firmer grip on their partners.
With its 70 Million Population Policy going haywire, the government now wants its citizens to bonk at home, not at someone else's. There's no point having a five million increase each year, when another ten million die of venereal diseases, sexual exhaustion or murder by jealous spouses. With all the earlier emphasis on reckless reproduction, many 'counter-productive' subjects remain taboo on mainstream television. Sanitary napkins and condoms commercials are still banned. God forbid, if someone should ever promote a tampon on prime time television, she'll likely be detained under the ISA. Our kids are not supposed to know anything about menstruation or safe sex. Many continue to rely on hieroglyphic inscriptions on public toilet doors for the most basic of sex education.
Above: Computer-enhanced image of artifact excavated from site where a secondary school once stood. Circa 1980. Believed to be inscriptions on the inside of a school toilet door. It was commonly used as a medium for sex education and is still widely adopted by present day Malaysian society.
With the current explosion of incest, child rape and abandoned babies, one would think that our local research institutes are racing against the clock to develop some kind of libido suppressant. No. Instead, our universties are embarking on a government funded study of a local herb, Kacip Fatimah. It purportedly increases a woman's sexual drive and shrinks her uterus faster after child-birth, thus enabling her husband to re-fertilise her within one week of leaving the maternity ward. Never mind that there are more pressing problems like persistent poverty, increasing scarcity of natural resources and life threatening diseases.
Ever since since the disbanding of the NationalFamily Planning Board, Malaysian men have literally risen to the challenge to copulate the country out of its Third Word country status. No wonder rabbit meat never took off in Malaysia. It's considered a sacred animal.
Majulah Seks Untuk Negara.
courtesy of ©2003 TV SMITH
Link to this article: http://www.mycen.com.my/duasen/080603_sexplease.html
My comment:
The first time I read this article, I laughed my ass off like hell! This article really cracked me to the max. But when I sat down and gave a thought about it, yeah, most of the things he mentioned in this sarcastic-tone article are indeed true.
For instance, I once had a conversation with my buddies who are working in major telecommunication company in M'sia about the discussion in the office, how it looks like and what are the things people in cubicle mainly talk about. To my surprise, most of them said, usually the majority of old folks, I mean pakcik pakcik and abang-abang at the office talk about the location to get the sex service in KL. Just ask them and the answer will come to you in a split of second. Gheezzz..I am not aware that KL is beginning to turn into sex paradise for some people.
Well..if you look around you whenever you have a chance to stroll along Jalan Tunku Abd Rahman, or maybe around Midvalley Megamall or the best place is KLCC, you would see teenagers with bare stomach and bare chess tight t-shirt walking around with the pierced ornaments dangling from their ears. Not to mention the compulsive behavior of some Malaysian men who love to woo at pretty women on the streets. Sometimes this scarries me. It scarries me because one day I will have a family and my family will have to live in this society.
Everyday we hear a lot of rape cases. And if the rape cases happens in the East Coast, a nation-wide coverage media will be poured unto this case and it will immediately turn into the headlines of mainstream media. I am not quite sure what's the purpose of it; it's either to celebrate the case or to remind people not to do itpublicly again.
I recall an incident experienced by my ex-senior in high school when he was expelled from the school and later he joined SM Taman Maluri to continue his study. It came as a surprise to him when he was offered a sex service for the price of 5 bucks for 'ringan-ringan' only by the female students in his school (see..all-boys high school cannot offer you this if you're a guy). The place for having that 'ringan-ringan' would be in the female toilet. Then Angah, my second brother told me that in his high school, the favourite spot to have 'project' would be near the banana trees behind the school block. Another story came in forwarded email when photos of a Malay couple humping each other under the staircase in Kerinchi area distributed through mailing list (my parents saw these photos and my mom complaint that the guy in the picture looks like Indon and not handsome at all). Oh yeah, to make things look worse, a set of photos of Malay couple having a daylight sex near KLCC park were distributed through mailing list (I should bring my digital camera everytime I am lepaking at KLCC laaa). Damn!!! Is the force of sex so ubiquitous these days as we don't have any humility left in ourselves?
Seriously, I personally don't care at all if people want to have all sex that they could possibly have. By all mean got get it! Hey..that's your own call, not mine. But be mindful to the public, especially to yourself. There is old saying says, "pandai makan pandai simpan" or "sendiri buat sendiri tanggung" - I am pretty sure people dont pay much attention to these sayings anymore. More and more abandoned babies are left for the government to take care of, more and more primary and high school girls got raped and left school fear for public embarrasment, more and more young people are exposed to HIV, STD and what not.
Ahhh...I dunno la people...Don't know what to do. The Beatles suggested long time ago, "All You Need is Love" to remedy such things..but I dont know if people mistaken it with lust.
by TV Smith
08/06/03
Was it Confucius who once said "Man with hard problem will find solution in hand"? Local men with stiff problem will find solution in foreign hands, nowadays. At the many 'Mini UN' offices in Kuala Lumpur, female representatives from ASEAN, Central Asian, East European & South American countries work tirelessly to alleviate the problems faced by men whose wives are chronic migraine sufferers. Creatively branded as health centers or spas, the ISPs (International Sex Providers) are respectable tenants of five-star hotels, fancy service apartments and futuristic office towers. Its marketing and distribution network runs far and wide. Stroll down Jalan Bukit Bintang and you'll likely be accosted by sales agents touting a delivery service that's faster than any pizza maker in town. At the popular entertainment strip along Jalan P Ramlee, almost every meter-hating cab driver queued up at the 100-meter long taxi stand is a 'down-liner' for some health centers.
Above : Cops read blogs? Night of June 11th; police patrol car appeared every 15 minutes to foil repeated attempts to set two new world records.
Above : World's biggest assembly of meter-hating cab drivers and world's longest taxi stand.
Of course, there's no sinful supply without devilish demand. We're after all a nation of happy humpers with enough sexual energy to rival six billion rabbits. We're talking quantity here, not quality. Some men, reportedly, find these places attractive because they can skip the hassle of foreplay, which is usually ten minutes of begging anyway. In the West, couples with bedroom problems are encouraged to seek joint counseling. In Malaysia, our men adopt a slightly different but unilateral approach. They go to GRO lounges, sit silently with one hand on a breast (and the other on a thigh) and listen to the GRO's endless ranting for about RM 30 an hour (minus tips and drinks). The curious twist is that the the customer pays the GRO to listen to her problems.
One local hooker-hunting politician suggested that foreign women flocked to work at our chicken shops because Malaysian men make good customers. They usually last five minutes or less, he claimed. So we're a nation of unabashed premature-ejaculators then? Perhaps that explains the proliferation of performance enhancing products. Take a look around you; there's endless ads and flyers promoting aphrodisiacs ranging from Ginseng Teh Tarik to Tongkat Ali Instant Noodle. For the women, a thousand Jamu products compete to tighten their pelvic muscles and help them keep a firmer grip on their partners.
With its 70 Million Population Policy going haywire, the government now wants its citizens to bonk at home, not at someone else's. There's no point having a five million increase each year, when another ten million die of venereal diseases, sexual exhaustion or murder by jealous spouses. With all the earlier emphasis on reckless reproduction, many 'counter-productive' subjects remain taboo on mainstream television. Sanitary napkins and condoms commercials are still banned. God forbid, if someone should ever promote a tampon on prime time television, she'll likely be detained under the ISA. Our kids are not supposed to know anything about menstruation or safe sex. Many continue to rely on hieroglyphic inscriptions on public toilet doors for the most basic of sex education.
Above: Computer-enhanced image of artifact excavated from site where a secondary school once stood. Circa 1980. Believed to be inscriptions on the inside of a school toilet door. It was commonly used as a medium for sex education and is still widely adopted by present day Malaysian society.
With the current explosion of incest, child rape and abandoned babies, one would think that our local research institutes are racing against the clock to develop some kind of libido suppressant. No. Instead, our universties are embarking on a government funded study of a local herb, Kacip Fatimah. It purportedly increases a woman's sexual drive and shrinks her uterus faster after child-birth, thus enabling her husband to re-fertilise her within one week of leaving the maternity ward. Never mind that there are more pressing problems like persistent poverty, increasing scarcity of natural resources and life threatening diseases.
Ever since since the disbanding of the NationalFamily Planning Board, Malaysian men have literally risen to the challenge to copulate the country out of its Third Word country status. No wonder rabbit meat never took off in Malaysia. It's considered a sacred animal.
Majulah Seks Untuk Negara.
courtesy of ©2003 TV SMITH
Link to this article: http://www.mycen.com.my/duasen/080603_sexplease.html
My comment:
The first time I read this article, I laughed my ass off like hell! This article really cracked me to the max. But when I sat down and gave a thought about it, yeah, most of the things he mentioned in this sarcastic-tone article are indeed true.
For instance, I once had a conversation with my buddies who are working in major telecommunication company in M'sia about the discussion in the office, how it looks like and what are the things people in cubicle mainly talk about. To my surprise, most of them said, usually the majority of old folks, I mean pakcik pakcik and abang-abang at the office talk about the location to get the sex service in KL. Just ask them and the answer will come to you in a split of second. Gheezzz..I am not aware that KL is beginning to turn into sex paradise for some people.
Well..if you look around you whenever you have a chance to stroll along Jalan Tunku Abd Rahman, or maybe around Midvalley Megamall or the best place is KLCC, you would see teenagers with bare stomach and bare chess tight t-shirt walking around with the pierced ornaments dangling from their ears. Not to mention the compulsive behavior of some Malaysian men who love to woo at pretty women on the streets. Sometimes this scarries me. It scarries me because one day I will have a family and my family will have to live in this society.
Everyday we hear a lot of rape cases. And if the rape cases happens in the East Coast, a nation-wide coverage media will be poured unto this case and it will immediately turn into the headlines of mainstream media. I am not quite sure what's the purpose of it; it's either to celebrate the case or to remind people not to do it
I recall an incident experienced by my ex-senior in high school when he was expelled from the school and later he joined SM Taman Maluri to continue his study. It came as a surprise to him when he was offered a sex service for the price of 5 bucks for 'ringan-ringan' only by the female students in his school (see..all-boys high school cannot offer you this if you're a guy). The place for having that 'ringan-ringan' would be in the female toilet. Then Angah, my second brother told me that in his high school, the favourite spot to have 'project' would be near the banana trees behind the school block. Another story came in forwarded email when photos of a Malay couple humping each other under the staircase in Kerinchi area distributed through mailing list (my parents saw these photos and my mom complaint that the guy in the picture looks like Indon and not handsome at all). Oh yeah, to make things look worse, a set of photos of Malay couple having a daylight sex near KLCC park were distributed through mailing list (I should bring my digital camera everytime I am lepaking at KLCC laaa). Damn!!! Is the force of sex so ubiquitous these days as we don't have any humility left in ourselves?
Seriously, I personally don't care at all if people want to have all sex that they could possibly have. By all mean got get it! Hey..that's your own call, not mine. But be mindful to the public, especially to yourself. There is old saying says, "pandai makan pandai simpan" or "sendiri buat sendiri tanggung" - I am pretty sure people dont pay much attention to these sayings anymore. More and more abandoned babies are left for the government to take care of, more and more primary and high school girls got raped and left school fear for public embarrasment, more and more young people are exposed to HIV, STD and what not.
Ahhh...I dunno la people...Don't know what to do. The Beatles suggested long time ago, "All You Need is Love" to remedy such things..but I dont know if people mistaken it with lust.
Friday, March 26, 2004
Satu Malam yang Panjang
We were working for our CH E 464 process design course since 7 pm last night. And now it's 5 am in the morning and we are still at Fenske Lab together with other people. It was fine initially as me, Saeed, Zeeshan and Charlie were working using Microsoft Visio to draw the process flow diagram or PFD. Process flow diagram is essential a rough blueprint for the actual production plant which we will produce for the final technical report. This is one of the things which we need to include in Assisgnment 3 and it is due on this Friday afternoon.
Since we've been working like dogs since 7 pm, we decided to take a break and had pizzas at the lounge. As usual we started to talk about the professors in Chemical Engineering department, the possibility for PSU to go private instead of public school, crappy stuffs about Prof. Nedwick and his weird and harsh grading system etc. By the time we finished eating pizza and languished our hunger, we came back to the lab. As I plugged in my USB cable to download the digital pictures from my Kodak Dc 5000 digital camera, the screen just went blank. It only gives "no signal" sign.
Oh shit!! What happened??
So Jay, who is another classmate in our CH E 464 class, suggested us to change the monitor. And so we did.
Apparently, that didn't work either. I was about to kick the shit out of this PC. Urghhh..that's why I hate use PC - it constantly irritates me! Then I tried to shake the video card hoping the signal would suddenly pop back at the screen..unfortunately it was just another useless and depressing try.
Finally after getting consensus from Saeed and Charlie, I decided to reset the computer and logged in to another PC. Thank god we saved the file onto network drive so we managed to pull the original file and continued working on that file. Alhough we had to do it all over (well, not exactly all over again, it was just partially of all over again), we were sooooo glad not to spend another 5 hours to draw and included the details of our production plant. And now, we just finished doing the PFD at 5 am in the morning at Fenske Lab. Once again, my group from Asia Pacific Chemical (our group name) managed to go through the night and we are sure that tonight will not be the last night for us working in this cold lab.
We were working for our CH E 464 process design course since 7 pm last night. And now it's 5 am in the morning and we are still at Fenske Lab together with other people. It was fine initially as me, Saeed, Zeeshan and Charlie were working using Microsoft Visio to draw the process flow diagram or PFD. Process flow diagram is essential a rough blueprint for the actual production plant which we will produce for the final technical report. This is one of the things which we need to include in Assisgnment 3 and it is due on this Friday afternoon.
Since we've been working like dogs since 7 pm, we decided to take a break and had pizzas at the lounge. As usual we started to talk about the professors in Chemical Engineering department, the possibility for PSU to go private instead of public school, crappy stuffs about Prof. Nedwick and his weird and harsh grading system etc. By the time we finished eating pizza and languished our hunger, we came back to the lab. As I plugged in my USB cable to download the digital pictures from my Kodak Dc 5000 digital camera, the screen just went blank. It only gives "no signal" sign.
Oh shit!! What happened??
So Jay, who is another classmate in our CH E 464 class, suggested us to change the monitor. And so we did.
Apparently, that didn't work either. I was about to kick the shit out of this PC. Urghhh..that's why I hate use PC - it constantly irritates me! Then I tried to shake the video card hoping the signal would suddenly pop back at the screen..unfortunately it was just another useless and depressing try.
Finally after getting consensus from Saeed and Charlie, I decided to reset the computer and logged in to another PC. Thank god we saved the file onto network drive so we managed to pull the original file and continued working on that file. Alhough we had to do it all over (well, not exactly all over again, it was just partially of all over again), we were sooooo glad not to spend another 5 hours to draw and included the details of our production plant. And now, we just finished doing the PFD at 5 am in the morning at Fenske Lab. Once again, my group from Asia Pacific Chemical (our group name) managed to go through the night and we are sure that tonight will not be the last night for us working in this cold lab.
Apa sudah jadi dengan bebudak Amiekid bilik 2B2?
Kamaruzzaman Kamarudin (Kamp, Negeri Sembilan) - unknown
Yusriman Yusof (Yusse, Melaka) - unknown
Mohd Sobri Nawawi (Moie, Pasir Mas, K'tan) - medic student kat USM
Mohd Hijjaz (Hijjaz, err..tak ingat) - unknown
Nur Ezwan Tahir (Juwe, Selayang KL) - unknown
Fardy Hisham (Parjoe, Kuantan Pahang) - unknown
Al Amin Hassan (Amonque, Besut T'ganu) - System administrator kat private company KL
Khairul Ariffin Zainal (Nawa, Bandar Baru Bangi) - engineer TNB
Irwan Arif Md. Zin (Ude, Shah Alam) - student kat Drexel U
Mohd Hafiz (Chypp, Padang Besar Perlis) - technician KUBTEL
Mohd Shaharurrizal Wartini (Al, Batu Pahat, Johor) - assistant manager, TELEKOM
Syed Zulkarnain Syed Haidzir (Syed, Gombak) - assistant manager kat Peremba
Nizam Nadzimuddin (Ayam, Paka T'ganu) - menganggur baru balik Australia
Ahmad Safwan (Charles, Keramat KL) - buat Master kat Australia
Mohd Farid Mohd Nor (OT/Fred, Ampang KL) - student lagik
Ezly Amer Khalid (EAK, Jitra Kedah) - executive TELEKOM
Asyraf Abdul Rahman (Acap, TTDI KL) - engineer kerja ngan company bapak sendirik
Azrai'e Dosmy (Arai, Ipoh Perak) - executive TELEKOM
Zakaria Abdul Rahman (Zack, Miri S'wak) - unknown
7 Disember 1992 aku dipertemukan dengan diorang semua ni. Ketua bilik kami masa tu Azarul Fazril Asaari (Abg Azarul now kerja dengan PETRONAS in Business & Planning division), Mohd Amin Bakri (Abg Amin) as penolong ketua bilik 1 dan Azmi Khairi (Gmie) as penolong ketua bilik 2. Diorang ni bebudak F4 and kitorang ni budak-budak kecik form 1. Masa form 1 dulu selalu la jugak kitorang kena dengan ketua bilik and penolong-penolong ketua bilik. Tapi kalau nak kirakan, yang paling banyak dera kitorang time F1 dulu si Gmie la ni..see..aku tak panggil dia Abg Gmie sebab aku tak respect langsung kat dia...tapi dia jugak la yang ajar kitorang cara pakai kain sarung dengan betul (so that bila lari dengan kain sarung, kain tak tertanggal) and cara nak pasang kain cadar dengan tegang so that bila baling mangga kunci tu, kain cadar tak terserak.
Kami batch 9397 bebudak rumah Aminudin Baki aka Amiekids memang kamceng tak ingatnyalah sebab kena dera sama-sama time sekolah dulu. Paling aku takleh lupa masa kena enjut steng (posisi gaya duduk atas motorsikal, tapi motornya takde) bawah kipas ramai-ramai satu bilik. Kitorang kena buat enjut steng for 2 hours. In between tu, kitorang kena push up (mulut aku tak berenti maki hamun si Gmie time push up nih), kena lempang (aku & ayam laa kena pelempang ngan Gmie pundek), semua kena terajang dari belakang (dari Gmie pundek gakk). Oh, ade gak part kena komando merangkak masuk bawah katil, habis satu bilik kitorang tawafkan komando tu. Wahhh..giler pancit siot lepas tu. Habis jekk enjut steng 2 jam tu, kaki memasing menggeletar teramat sangat. Nak jalan ke katil memasing pun slow jekk..sebab kaki ketaq kuat sangat. Baju memasing dah memang lencun laa kan..sebab basah dengan air peluh yang mencurah-curah cam air paip. Itulah pengalaman yang aku takkan lupa sampai mati...kena ragging dengan Gmie...over lak mamat ni, padahal penolong ketua bilik jekk.
Masa form 1 jugak aku teringat jugak pasal bebudak batch aku kena baling dengan air kencing dari tingkat 3 blok B waktu kena kumpul ramai-ramai satu batch dengan bilik pengawas pasal F5 signature. Ahhh..memang sial lah time tu. Kiranyer form 1 kat Alam Shah tarafnya hina giler aa..stok stok kena ragging ajer manjang! Yang ragging pun ragging la juga..yang part berjambu tu, berjambu la jugak..hahaha..memang siallah bebudak F5 time tu.
Kemudian kitorang naik F5 in 1997. Most of the thing yang kitorang kena time F1 dulu, tak berulang pun. Kami tak buat pun kat F1, just belasah bebudak F2 and F4 ramai-ramai ajer (aku tak terlibat). Batch aku ni, asyik gaduh jek manjang dengan batch lain. Time F2, kami gaduh dengan bebudak F3. Time F5 gaduh dengan bebudak F4. Time F5 la jugak first time dapat permission dari warden untuk belasah bebudak F2. Yang aku ingat time tu, Syidee member aku dari rumah Dato Onn pi terajang mamat F2 ni sampai terlentang dia jatuh. Kepala mamat tu terhantuk kat dinding lepas tu melantun balik jatuh atas katil. Giler gak aa...
Banyak menda sebenarnya yang aku tak leh lupa waktu aku study kat SAS ni. Kejadian main kejar-kejar dengan warden dah selalu sangat dah aku kena. TIme aku jadi pengawas pun, still main kejar-kejar ngan warden. Ingat lagi time aku kena kejar dengan Ustaz Nordin, kelam kabut aku angkat kain sarung aku..cabut lari masuk belakang surau..pastu terus lari ke bilik aku, sembunyi bawah selimut - buat buat tidur. Another incident pulak, aku kena kejar dengan Cikgu Kamaruddin Add math time kena kantoi tengok TV time kelas prep..masa tu aku F4. Well..aku nakal sket time F4 dulu. Nasib baik la mama tak marah aku..or maybe dia tak tahu kenakalan aku time F4 tu.
Time F3 ramai bebudak buat setan yang kelakar. Waktu minum pagi kat dewan makan, bebudak sukalah sangat main-mainkan kuih lapis yang diorang serve untuk minum pagi. Siap dibaling-balingnya ke siling, tengok sapa dapat baling kuih lapis paling tinggi. Ada sekali tu, Ayie kot baling kuih lapis sampai terlekat kat siling dewan makan tak jatuh-jatuh. Habis bantai gelak semua orang. Everytime kalau dewan makan serve ayam goreng, ramai bebudak avoid makan bahagian kepak ayam. I heard the rumor said, kalau sape-sape makan kepak ayam selalu nanti dia nyer tak 'power'. Makcik pakcik dewan makan selalu pelik, kenapa line batch kami, kepak ayam selalu berlebih. Bodohnyer bebudak, camner la diorang tahu kalau makan kepak ayam buatkan sendirinya tak power? Belum cuba belum tahu...ishh..bangang!
Walau pun semangat batch kuat tapi aku still tak lupa part bebudak batch aku belasah Kamp ramai-ramai sebab dia pi report kat warden pasal bebudak fly. Aku dalam hati maki hamun semua kenkawan yang dok pukul Kamp tu...apalah bodohnya gi pukul kawan sendiri..aku nak tolong backing tapi tak ada kudrat.
Paling semangat waktu F5 laa..waktu kena handle kawad perbarisan untuk kediaman. Aku dan Ayam la yang selalu bawak bebudak junior berkawad untuk Hari Sukan SAS. Ayam semangat giler bawak kayu hoki masa training kawad. Sapa buat slack, siap aa kena hempuk ngan kayu hoki si Ayam tu. Giler lawan dengan bebudak rumah Halimi. Ardy, Halimi and a few other Halimi boys in our batch maintain gempak sebab pasukan kawad rumah diorang menang. Kalau tak silap aku, maskot rumah Aminudin Baki time tu, katak yang terjelir lidahnya. Ni Chypp nyer kerja la ni..pi buat maskot tuh..bengong!
Now dah almost 11 tahun berkawan sama-sama..masih lagi bersama. Acap dah pun kawin (yang pertama dalam batch SASsian 9397), Arai, Al, EAK, Ayam and Charles dah berawek. Tak tahulah sapa pulak yang menyusul Acap. Dengar cerita Arai nak bertunang dengan Gina tahun ni, or tahun depan maybe. Chypp dengan Alin maybe bertunang lambat lagi, memasing nak fokus kerja dulu. Yang lelain aku tak dapat nak keep up or catch up life diorang. Zack kena buang dari sekolah time F2...so dah lame dah lost contact. Mungkin udah naik belon pulang ke S'wak..hehehe..Ude keluar dari SAS time F4 sebab ayahnya sendiri suruh dia keluar (banyak sangat kes disiplin) but now aku jumpa dia balik kat US nih.
The last time I met a few them was in summer 2003. Memang seronoklah. Dapat ulang balik lawak-lawak time kat skolah, only us would understand them. Many people have changed..no doubt la kan. Sekali sekala nak merasa aura Alam Shah, aku akan lepak dengan bebudak SAS nyer rumah sewa kat Maluri, tempat most of the TELEKOM execs from SAS menyewa. Tapi sesekali teringin nak ajak kenkawan semua pergi dewan makan kat Sekolah Alam Shah yang lama kat Bandar Tun Razak, and lepak sambil borak dalam dewan makan. Only us. No others.
Kamaruzzaman Kamarudin (Kamp, Negeri Sembilan) - unknown
Yusriman Yusof (Yusse, Melaka) - unknown
Mohd Sobri Nawawi (Moie, Pasir Mas, K'tan) - medic student kat USM
Mohd Hijjaz (Hijjaz, err..tak ingat) - unknown
Nur Ezwan Tahir (Juwe, Selayang KL) - unknown
Fardy Hisham (Parjoe, Kuantan Pahang) - unknown
Al Amin Hassan (Amonque, Besut T'ganu) - System administrator kat private company KL
Khairul Ariffin Zainal (Nawa, Bandar Baru Bangi) - engineer TNB
Irwan Arif Md. Zin (Ude, Shah Alam) - student kat Drexel U
Mohd Hafiz (Chypp, Padang Besar Perlis) - technician KUBTEL
Mohd Shaharurrizal Wartini (Al, Batu Pahat, Johor) - assistant manager, TELEKOM
Syed Zulkarnain Syed Haidzir (Syed, Gombak) - assistant manager kat Peremba
Nizam Nadzimuddin (Ayam, Paka T'ganu) - menganggur baru balik Australia
Ahmad Safwan (Charles, Keramat KL) - buat Master kat Australia
Mohd Farid Mohd Nor (OT/Fred, Ampang KL) - student lagik
Ezly Amer Khalid (EAK, Jitra Kedah) - executive TELEKOM
Asyraf Abdul Rahman (Acap, TTDI KL) - engineer kerja ngan company bapak sendirik
Azrai'e Dosmy (Arai, Ipoh Perak) - executive TELEKOM
Zakaria Abdul Rahman (Zack, Miri S'wak) - unknown
7 Disember 1992 aku dipertemukan dengan diorang semua ni. Ketua bilik kami masa tu Azarul Fazril Asaari (Abg Azarul now kerja dengan PETRONAS in Business & Planning division), Mohd Amin Bakri (Abg Amin) as penolong ketua bilik 1 dan Azmi Khairi (Gmie) as penolong ketua bilik 2. Diorang ni bebudak F4 and kitorang ni budak-budak kecik form 1. Masa form 1 dulu selalu la jugak kitorang kena dengan ketua bilik and penolong-penolong ketua bilik. Tapi kalau nak kirakan, yang paling banyak dera kitorang time F1 dulu si Gmie la ni..see..aku tak panggil dia Abg Gmie sebab aku tak respect langsung kat dia...tapi dia jugak la yang ajar kitorang cara pakai kain sarung dengan betul (so that bila lari dengan kain sarung, kain tak tertanggal) and cara nak pasang kain cadar dengan tegang so that bila baling mangga kunci tu, kain cadar tak terserak.
Kami batch 9397 bebudak rumah Aminudin Baki aka Amiekids memang kamceng tak ingatnyalah sebab kena dera sama-sama time sekolah dulu. Paling aku takleh lupa masa kena enjut steng (posisi gaya duduk atas motorsikal, tapi motornya takde) bawah kipas ramai-ramai satu bilik. Kitorang kena buat enjut steng for 2 hours. In between tu, kitorang kena push up (mulut aku tak berenti maki hamun si Gmie time push up nih), kena lempang (aku & ayam laa kena pelempang ngan Gmie pundek), semua kena terajang dari belakang (dari Gmie pundek gakk). Oh, ade gak part kena komando merangkak masuk bawah katil, habis satu bilik kitorang tawafkan komando tu. Wahhh..giler pancit siot lepas tu. Habis jekk enjut steng 2 jam tu, kaki memasing menggeletar teramat sangat. Nak jalan ke katil memasing pun slow jekk..sebab kaki ketaq kuat sangat. Baju memasing dah memang lencun laa kan..sebab basah dengan air peluh yang mencurah-curah cam air paip. Itulah pengalaman yang aku takkan lupa sampai mati...kena ragging dengan Gmie...over lak mamat ni, padahal penolong ketua bilik jekk.
Masa form 1 jugak aku teringat jugak pasal bebudak batch aku kena baling dengan air kencing dari tingkat 3 blok B waktu kena kumpul ramai-ramai satu batch dengan bilik pengawas pasal F5 signature. Ahhh..memang sial lah time tu. Kiranyer form 1 kat Alam Shah tarafnya hina giler aa..stok stok kena ragging ajer manjang! Yang ragging pun ragging la juga..yang part berjambu tu, berjambu la jugak..hahaha..memang siallah bebudak F5 time tu.
Kemudian kitorang naik F5 in 1997. Most of the thing yang kitorang kena time F1 dulu, tak berulang pun. Kami tak buat pun kat F1, just belasah bebudak F2 and F4 ramai-ramai ajer (aku tak terlibat). Batch aku ni, asyik gaduh jek manjang dengan batch lain. Time F2, kami gaduh dengan bebudak F3. Time F5 gaduh dengan bebudak F4. Time F5 la jugak first time dapat permission dari warden untuk belasah bebudak F2. Yang aku ingat time tu, Syidee member aku dari rumah Dato Onn pi terajang mamat F2 ni sampai terlentang dia jatuh. Kepala mamat tu terhantuk kat dinding lepas tu melantun balik jatuh atas katil. Giler gak aa...
Banyak menda sebenarnya yang aku tak leh lupa waktu aku study kat SAS ni. Kejadian main kejar-kejar dengan warden dah selalu sangat dah aku kena. TIme aku jadi pengawas pun, still main kejar-kejar ngan warden. Ingat lagi time aku kena kejar dengan Ustaz Nordin, kelam kabut aku angkat kain sarung aku..cabut lari masuk belakang surau..pastu terus lari ke bilik aku, sembunyi bawah selimut - buat buat tidur. Another incident pulak, aku kena kejar dengan Cikgu Kamaruddin Add math time kena kantoi tengok TV time kelas prep..masa tu aku F4. Well..aku nakal sket time F4 dulu. Nasib baik la mama tak marah aku..or maybe dia tak tahu kenakalan aku time F4 tu.
Time F3 ramai bebudak buat setan yang kelakar. Waktu minum pagi kat dewan makan, bebudak sukalah sangat main-mainkan kuih lapis yang diorang serve untuk minum pagi. Siap dibaling-balingnya ke siling, tengok sapa dapat baling kuih lapis paling tinggi. Ada sekali tu, Ayie kot baling kuih lapis sampai terlekat kat siling dewan makan tak jatuh-jatuh. Habis bantai gelak semua orang. Everytime kalau dewan makan serve ayam goreng, ramai bebudak avoid makan bahagian kepak ayam. I heard the rumor said, kalau sape-sape makan kepak ayam selalu nanti dia nyer tak 'power'. Makcik pakcik dewan makan selalu pelik, kenapa line batch kami, kepak ayam selalu berlebih. Bodohnyer bebudak, camner la diorang tahu kalau makan kepak ayam buatkan sendirinya tak power? Belum cuba belum tahu...ishh..bangang!
Walau pun semangat batch kuat tapi aku still tak lupa part bebudak batch aku belasah Kamp ramai-ramai sebab dia pi report kat warden pasal bebudak fly. Aku dalam hati maki hamun semua kenkawan yang dok pukul Kamp tu...apalah bodohnya gi pukul kawan sendiri..aku nak tolong backing tapi tak ada kudrat.
Paling semangat waktu F5 laa..waktu kena handle kawad perbarisan untuk kediaman. Aku dan Ayam la yang selalu bawak bebudak junior berkawad untuk Hari Sukan SAS. Ayam semangat giler bawak kayu hoki masa training kawad. Sapa buat slack, siap aa kena hempuk ngan kayu hoki si Ayam tu. Giler lawan dengan bebudak rumah Halimi. Ardy, Halimi and a few other Halimi boys in our batch maintain gempak sebab pasukan kawad rumah diorang menang. Kalau tak silap aku, maskot rumah Aminudin Baki time tu, katak yang terjelir lidahnya. Ni Chypp nyer kerja la ni..pi buat maskot tuh..bengong!
Now dah almost 11 tahun berkawan sama-sama..masih lagi bersama. Acap dah pun kawin (yang pertama dalam batch SASsian 9397), Arai, Al, EAK, Ayam and Charles dah berawek. Tak tahulah sapa pulak yang menyusul Acap. Dengar cerita Arai nak bertunang dengan Gina tahun ni, or tahun depan maybe. Chypp dengan Alin maybe bertunang lambat lagi, memasing nak fokus kerja dulu. Yang lelain aku tak dapat nak keep up or catch up life diorang. Zack kena buang dari sekolah time F2...so dah lame dah lost contact. Mungkin udah naik belon pulang ke S'wak..hehehe..Ude keluar dari SAS time F4 sebab ayahnya sendiri suruh dia keluar (banyak sangat kes disiplin) but now aku jumpa dia balik kat US nih.
The last time I met a few them was in summer 2003. Memang seronoklah. Dapat ulang balik lawak-lawak time kat skolah, only us would understand them. Many people have changed..no doubt la kan. Sekali sekala nak merasa aura Alam Shah, aku akan lepak dengan bebudak SAS nyer rumah sewa kat Maluri, tempat most of the TELEKOM execs from SAS menyewa. Tapi sesekali teringin nak ajak kenkawan semua pergi dewan makan kat Sekolah Alam Shah yang lama kat Bandar Tun Razak, and lepak sambil borak dalam dewan makan. Only us. No others.
Thursday, March 25, 2004
QUESTIONNAIRES
PURPOSE
This survey is part of the University of New South Wales Foundation Year Academic course.
AIM
This survey is part of our course of study and will attempt to study the commitment between couples, with or without strings attached.
Questionnaire will be anonymous and confidential and will only be used for the mentioned purposes.
Please tick (√ ) one.
Age : _____ years old
18-25
26-30
31-40
Above 40
Gender :
Male
Female
Marital status :
Married
Divorced
Single
_______________________________________________________________________
1. Rate your relationship at present. (Please circle)
I don’t think I can indicate anything here because I don’t have any relationship at the moment. Further responses answered in this survey will be based on the hypothesis that I am having a relationship.
Excellent 5 4 3 2 1 Poor
2. Do you address your partner with special name? (i.e: `darling’, `baby’, ‘sayang’ etc)
Yes
No
Give reason(s) why. To increase the affection and to prosper the relationship
3. Do you keep your partner’s photo in your wallet?
Yes
No
Give reason(s) why: It’s too special to be put in the wallet, which geographically closer to the butt instead of heart. he he he...
4. I buy cards/gifts for my partner…
any time I feel like to
on special occasion (i.e: birthday, anniversary, etc)
Both above
5. a) Do you remember every special dates (i.e: anniversary, birthday, etc) with your
partner?
Yes
No
b) How much effort do you put on celebrating these special dates? (please circle)
Very much 5 4 3 2 1 Very little
6. Do you make time to help your partner do his/her work?
Yes
No
7. When your partner is sick, you…
do nothing, you know he/she can handle it him/her self
call him/her and ask his/her condition.
take him/her to the clinic
cook something for him/her
8. How good is your partner in resolving conflicts between both of you?
Best 5 4 3 2 1 Worst
9. When you and your partner had a fight, you decided to…
talk to or discuss with him/her
apologize to him/her even though it was his/her fault
wait until he/she apologizes because it has always been his/her fault all this while.
let time heal it. After some time you will talk to each other like before.
10. Would you change your attitude to suit your partner’s need?
Yes
No
Depends
Give reason(s) for your answer: everything comes in one package, one has to accept the other one and compromise for the benefit of each other. Win-win situation.
11. In your opinion, what contributed to a failed relationship? (Choose the best three)
Lack of maturity
Third party involvement
Lack of commitment
Opposed by family members
No 'chemistry'
Others (please state): ______________________________________________
12. What does marriage means to you? (Please rate)
Most essential 5 4 3 2 1 Least essential
A sacred bonding, 5
Fulfillment of desires, 3
Legal way of intimacies, 4
Culture, 1
Continuation of generations, 2
13. Your preference is…
a marriage alone
a marriage with children
one-night stand relationship
temporary relationship
being single
14. What are the criteria that matters the most to you in choosing your spouse? (Please tick three only)
Physical appearances
Family background
Maturity
Career establishment
Wealth
Compatibility
15. In your opinion, the most suitable age to get married is ______ years old.
below 20
20 –25
26 –30
above 30
16. Imagine that you are in your early twenties and have a steady relationship. You would consider your partner as…
your future spouse
special, but still looking for one
just another chapter of your life
17. When is the best time to have a child? (after marriage)
< 1 year
1-3 years
3-5 years
> 5 years
none
18. You and your spouse have a great job, so nobody will have time to look after your children. You would…
ask your spouse to quit the job
send them to your parents
hire a nanny/send them to day care center
others (please state) :_______________________________________________
19. What is your opinion on husband helping his wife doing house chores?
Loving
Responsible
Submissive
20. Would you consider hiring a maid/nanny?
Yes
No
State your reason(s): I don’t want stranger in my house. My house is my temple.
22. What would you prefer doing on weekends? (Please fill the numbers in the boxes)
Most preferred 5 4 3 2 1 Least preferred
Spend time with spouse and kids, 5
Doing my personal favourite pastimes (i.e: golf, shopping, etc), 3
Hang out with friends, 4
Others (please state): ______________________________________________
23. You are torn in choosing either to spend weekend with your dream mate or finishing the biggest project work handed to you, which is due in one-week time (impossible for you to finish it on time!). You would…
finish your work by all means, which means you will miss out your only chance to go out with him/her
do your work the furthest possible before going out
just go out with him/her
24. Your spouse has been planning your second honeymoon/special getaway trip, but you found out that you have to follow your boss on a business trip at the same time. You would…
postponed your trip and follow your boss
follow the plan made by your spouse and find someone to replace you
cancel the plan
25. Rank your priorities (fill in the numbers in the boxes):
Most important 4 3 2 1 Least important
Family, 3
Friends,2
Career,1
Parents, 4
Thank you for your time and cooperation
PURPOSE
This survey is part of the University of New South Wales Foundation Year Academic course.
AIM
This survey is part of our course of study and will attempt to study the commitment between couples, with or without strings attached.
Questionnaire will be anonymous and confidential and will only be used for the mentioned purposes.
Please tick (√ ) one.
Age : _____ years old
18-25
26-30
31-40
Above 40
Gender :
Male
Female
Marital status :
Married
Divorced
Single
_______________________________________________________________________
1. Rate your relationship at present. (Please circle)
I don’t think I can indicate anything here because I don’t have any relationship at the moment. Further responses answered in this survey will be based on the hypothesis that I am having a relationship.
Excellent 5 4 3 2 1 Poor
2. Do you address your partner with special name? (i.e: `darling’, `baby’, ‘sayang’ etc)
Yes
No
Give reason(s) why. To increase the affection and to prosper the relationship
3. Do you keep your partner’s photo in your wallet?
Yes
No
Give reason(s) why: It’s too special to be put in the wallet, which geographically closer to the butt instead of heart. he he he...
4. I buy cards/gifts for my partner…
any time I feel like to
on special occasion (i.e: birthday, anniversary, etc)
Both above
5. a) Do you remember every special dates (i.e: anniversary, birthday, etc) with your
partner?
Yes
No
b) How much effort do you put on celebrating these special dates? (please circle)
Very much 5 4 3 2 1 Very little
6. Do you make time to help your partner do his/her work?
Yes
No
7. When your partner is sick, you…
do nothing, you know he/she can handle it him/her self
call him/her and ask his/her condition.
take him/her to the clinic
cook something for him/her
8. How good is your partner in resolving conflicts between both of you?
Best 5 4 3 2 1 Worst
9. When you and your partner had a fight, you decided to…
talk to or discuss with him/her
apologize to him/her even though it was his/her fault
wait until he/she apologizes because it has always been his/her fault all this while.
let time heal it. After some time you will talk to each other like before.
10. Would you change your attitude to suit your partner’s need?
Yes
No
Depends
Give reason(s) for your answer: everything comes in one package, one has to accept the other one and compromise for the benefit of each other. Win-win situation.
11. In your opinion, what contributed to a failed relationship? (Choose the best three)
Lack of maturity
Third party involvement
Lack of commitment
Opposed by family members
No 'chemistry'
Others (please state): ______________________________________________
12. What does marriage means to you? (Please rate)
Most essential 5 4 3 2 1 Least essential
A sacred bonding, 5
Fulfillment of desires, 3
Legal way of intimacies, 4
Culture, 1
Continuation of generations, 2
13. Your preference is…
a marriage alone
a marriage with children
one-night stand relationship
temporary relationship
being single
14. What are the criteria that matters the most to you in choosing your spouse? (Please tick three only)
Physical appearances
Family background
Maturity
Career establishment
Wealth
Compatibility
15. In your opinion, the most suitable age to get married is ______ years old.
below 20
20 –25
26 –30
above 30
16. Imagine that you are in your early twenties and have a steady relationship. You would consider your partner as…
your future spouse
special, but still looking for one
just another chapter of your life
17. When is the best time to have a child? (after marriage)
< 1 year
1-3 years
3-5 years
> 5 years
none
18. You and your spouse have a great job, so nobody will have time to look after your children. You would…
ask your spouse to quit the job
send them to your parents
hire a nanny/send them to day care center
others (please state) :_______________________________________________
19. What is your opinion on husband helping his wife doing house chores?
Loving
Responsible
Submissive
20. Would you consider hiring a maid/nanny?
Yes
No
State your reason(s): I don’t want stranger in my house. My house is my temple.
22. What would you prefer doing on weekends? (Please fill the numbers in the boxes)
Most preferred 5 4 3 2 1 Least preferred
Spend time with spouse and kids, 5
Doing my personal favourite pastimes (i.e: golf, shopping, etc), 3
Hang out with friends, 4
Others (please state): ______________________________________________
23. You are torn in choosing either to spend weekend with your dream mate or finishing the biggest project work handed to you, which is due in one-week time (impossible for you to finish it on time!). You would…
finish your work by all means, which means you will miss out your only chance to go out with him/her
do your work the furthest possible before going out
just go out with him/her
24. Your spouse has been planning your second honeymoon/special getaway trip, but you found out that you have to follow your boss on a business trip at the same time. You would…
postponed your trip and follow your boss
follow the plan made by your spouse and find someone to replace you
cancel the plan
25. Rank your priorities (fill in the numbers in the boxes):
Most important 4 3 2 1 Least important
Family, 3
Friends,2
Career,1
Parents, 4
Thank you for your time and cooperation
The meaning of Development
Okay people, let's talk serious here.
How do you define a development? What is the criterion to be a developed state? Is there any practical time limit for one to demonstrate a positive curve in a development growth chart? Given the variety of ethnicity in our country, which development model should we use?
Quite honestly, I am beginning to feel sick with many statements that one of the states in east coast of Malaysia is not a developed and nothing has changed since the turning of the goverment from BN to PAS. Okay, to be frank, I dont think people are being fair here. C'mon, look at the history of the governance of BN administration in Terengganu.
Firstly, let be honest here. For almost 40 years of receiving the petroleum royalty which should amount to billions ringgit malaysia, what good did it make to Terengganu people? Has the education level improved? Has the poverty level in this particular state improved? How about the debt which the state owes to the Federal government? The poor are only getting poorer, the rich is only getting richer, the education level had not improved much, the scholarship quota didn't increase very much etc.
Then a tide of change came to T'ganu after the 1999 election. However, this tide has been tampered by the Federal government aka the ruling party when they stripped the petroleum royalty from T'ganu government. The main source of its economic fuel is being ripped off from Terengganu people. The state government has to find the alternative for its economic resources. They started sending delegation to foreign countries in order to find the economic investment and to lure foreign investors to bring some factories or industries to Terengganu. How do I know this? Because I talked to Terengganu officials themselves when they came to Chicago in 2001 for ISNA convention and American Muslim Business Convention. The business delegation themselves had to pay their own expenses to come here, not the state government. To me, it shows that the government was prudent in doing its budget.
The period of 5 years certainly not a fair yardstick to measure to achievement made by PAS government in T'ganu compare to 40 years of BN administration previously - given the bad condition they were having, inherited a poor governance of previous government. Of course you can't see much of the development because you dont see any new building, new cinema or new factories build in that state. The tangible evidences cannot be produced due to many reason and one of them is the time. Even for the corporate companies, I dont think they would want to invest without first studying the prospect of economic ventures in Terengganu. The study would probably take months if not years to complete. And then the planning would come right after that and surely to debate the issue whether one should invest or not based on the study. Only then a project can be executed. It's the same thing with what the Terengganu goverment is experiencing prior to 2004.
What fails the economic engine of T'ganu? Our people ourselves. Look at how Federal responded to the plead of Terengganu rakyat to give back their petroleum royalty? Oh man, the arrogance which the Fed shows is disgusting! But the state goverment managed to steer its course through out the trying period. The debt has been reduced, the education scholarship is increased, the right to own land is distributed fairly among the rakyat regardless of race, the opportunity to voice the complaints is given back to the rakyat through Hisbah and other channels in the state government. To me, this is a good start. And then, there are some people who complaint that the state is not developed enough because it doesn't have cinema!
For crying out loud, I think some people just don't get it here. Ok..I will continue later..need to get my lunch first!
Okay people, let's talk serious here.
How do you define a development? What is the criterion to be a developed state? Is there any practical time limit for one to demonstrate a positive curve in a development growth chart? Given the variety of ethnicity in our country, which development model should we use?
Quite honestly, I am beginning to feel sick with many statements that one of the states in east coast of Malaysia is not a developed and nothing has changed since the turning of the goverment from BN to PAS. Okay, to be frank, I dont think people are being fair here. C'mon, look at the history of the governance of BN administration in Terengganu.
Firstly, let be honest here. For almost 40 years of receiving the petroleum royalty which should amount to billions ringgit malaysia, what good did it make to Terengganu people? Has the education level improved? Has the poverty level in this particular state improved? How about the debt which the state owes to the Federal government? The poor are only getting poorer, the rich is only getting richer, the education level had not improved much, the scholarship quota didn't increase very much etc.
Then a tide of change came to T'ganu after the 1999 election. However, this tide has been tampered by the Federal government aka the ruling party when they stripped the petroleum royalty from T'ganu government. The main source of its economic fuel is being ripped off from Terengganu people. The state government has to find the alternative for its economic resources. They started sending delegation to foreign countries in order to find the economic investment and to lure foreign investors to bring some factories or industries to Terengganu. How do I know this? Because I talked to Terengganu officials themselves when they came to Chicago in 2001 for ISNA convention and American Muslim Business Convention. The business delegation themselves had to pay their own expenses to come here, not the state government. To me, it shows that the government was prudent in doing its budget.
The period of 5 years certainly not a fair yardstick to measure to achievement made by PAS government in T'ganu compare to 40 years of BN administration previously - given the bad condition they were having, inherited a poor governance of previous government. Of course you can't see much of the development because you dont see any new building, new cinema or new factories build in that state. The tangible evidences cannot be produced due to many reason and one of them is the time. Even for the corporate companies, I dont think they would want to invest without first studying the prospect of economic ventures in Terengganu. The study would probably take months if not years to complete. And then the planning would come right after that and surely to debate the issue whether one should invest or not based on the study. Only then a project can be executed. It's the same thing with what the Terengganu goverment is experiencing prior to 2004.
What fails the economic engine of T'ganu? Our people ourselves. Look at how Federal responded to the plead of Terengganu rakyat to give back their petroleum royalty? Oh man, the arrogance which the Fed shows is disgusting! But the state goverment managed to steer its course through out the trying period. The debt has been reduced, the education scholarship is increased, the right to own land is distributed fairly among the rakyat regardless of race, the opportunity to voice the complaints is given back to the rakyat through Hisbah and other channels in the state government. To me, this is a good start. And then, there are some people who complaint that the state is not developed enough because it doesn't have cinema!
For crying out loud, I think some people just don't get it here. Ok..I will continue later..need to get my lunch first!
Wednesday, March 24, 2004
Errr..ape? Bersenam?
Ade orang bertanya..apa yang aku buat kalau aku pergi gym..hmmm..camner nak menjawab soalan ni ek? Well..biasanya memang aku jarang ke gym sebenarnya. Macam semester-semester yang lepas, aku biasanyer cukupkan syarat ajer beli pass gym tapi masuk gym only twice or thrice per semester jekk..so cam membazir la jugak.
This semester la aku semangat sket nak ke gym. Maybe because rumet aku, si Brian tu rajin gak gi gym (eleh..dia pun ikut aku, kalau aku rajin, dia pun rajin ler..kalau aku malas..dia pun melepek kat katil tuh!). Maklum ler...summer season dah nak dekat ni..hahaha..
Anyway, biasanya kalau aku ke gym, aku peruntukkan masa selama sejam lebih kurang. 30 minit pertama aku akan buat cardiovascular workout. AKu sekarang tengah fanat workout guna elliptical machine. Untuk tempoh 30 minit aku mampu buat 3 batu larian laa kalau guna elliptical machine..hummfff..hummfff..awal-awal dulu semput gak. Now dah maintain..ok la..
After that.aku akan take a break about 1 or 2 minutes and jalan-jalan sket dalam gym tu untuk regangkan muscles kaki and peha...kemudian aku start pumping iron la. Takde ape sangat..just aku fokus pada a few muscles group. Memula kat abdomen, belakang and triceps, lepas tu kat dada, biseps and last sekali pinggang. Habis satu jam..aku rasa macam nak terpeleot badan aku ni ahhh..
Senaman waktu silat
Tapi kalau nak kira...muscles work out tu okay lagik laa..compare dengan senaman waktu silat. Serius shit waktu buat warming up untuk silat..aku rasa seluruh urat sendi aku kena pulas-pulas. Habis semua sendi kena liuk lentuk. Push up and sit up tu kira perkara biasa dah tu. Waktu buat sit up, cikgu Rasul akan pijak perut kita and hentakkan tumit dia ke perut. Uihh..senak wooo..tapi kalau dah 4 tahun berturut turut kena gentel gitu dengan tumit kaki dia..perut ni pun dah jadi kebal..tak rasa ape dah.
Bersenam dalam silat kena buat sungguh sungguh sebab takut nanti terseliuhlah sendi...terseliuh bahu ke..urat kaki ke..maklum ajer ler, time bersilat ni habis semua anggota badan digunakan. Paling aku ngeri waktu cikgu Rasul mintak volunteer sape-sape nak merasa buah kunci mati - biasanyer kitorang bebudak bengkung merah ler kena sebab kitorang paling senior. AKu pernah kena buah kunci mati nombor 16 dengan cikgu, mak aihhhh..menitik air mata aku tahan sakit. Anak tekak ni rasa macam nak pecah, sendi bahu rasa nak tercabut..cepat-cepat aku tepuk betis cikgu tanda aku sakit sangat dah tak tahan ni. Cikgu buat dekkk ajer.sambil dia sambung cakap-cakap dia pada bebudak bengkung hijau. Demmit laa..slowly lepas tu baru dia lepaskan. Terhincut-hincut aku jalan blah dari dia. MEmang lepas tu aku takkan lupa lah macam mana buah kunci mati nombor 16 tu. Spontan sekarang pun aku boleh buat.
Sama lah jugak dengan Cikgu Selamat, cikgu silat gayong aku kat gelanggang PPP/ITM pulak. Dia dengan selambanya menarik tangan aku untuk buat demo gerak tapak tangkisan pisau. Aku sedar-sedar aku dah ade atas lantai simen tu ahh..bertepek pipi aku sentuh simen..nasib baiklah sejuk, kalau tak barai gak la tulang pipi aku ni. Tu lah bahananya jadi pemegang bengkung yang tinggi sket dari orang lain ni..ndak-ndak kalau dah bengkung merah tu..memang naya ajer la jadi bahan belasahan cikgu untuk buat demo pada bebudak bengkung yang rendah. But all in all..aku memang tak pernah serik lah.
Waktu belajar seni parang dua dengan Cikgu Kahar (cikgu silat gayong kat Kg Pandan), parang terjatuh atas kaki aku..mujur luka sikit ajer. Aku lagik aaa kagum tengok Kak Ayu, jurulatih silat Gayong kat SMAP Labu untuk perempuan bersilat main parang 2 dengan partner lelaki dia. Ya Allah, aku terus gerun nak dekat dengan kakak tu..nampak ajer kecik, cakap pun ayu ayu gitu..sweet pun ya..tapi bila dalam gelanggang..sekali dia hentak parang tu ..memang api lah yang keluar! Hmm..langkah serikandi tu!
Work out guna machine ni tak best sangat sebenarnya..yang best work out ramai-ramai dengan kenkawan. Kat sekolah dulu bolehlah buat..now dah takleh. Dulu tak sama macam sekarang dah..ye dak!
Ade orang bertanya..apa yang aku buat kalau aku pergi gym..hmmm..camner nak menjawab soalan ni ek? Well..biasanya memang aku jarang ke gym sebenarnya. Macam semester-semester yang lepas, aku biasanyer cukupkan syarat ajer beli pass gym tapi masuk gym only twice or thrice per semester jekk..so cam membazir la jugak.
This semester la aku semangat sket nak ke gym. Maybe because rumet aku, si Brian tu rajin gak gi gym (eleh..dia pun ikut aku, kalau aku rajin, dia pun rajin ler..kalau aku malas..dia pun melepek kat katil tuh!). Maklum ler...summer season dah nak dekat ni..hahaha..
Anyway, biasanya kalau aku ke gym, aku peruntukkan masa selama sejam lebih kurang. 30 minit pertama aku akan buat cardiovascular workout. AKu sekarang tengah fanat workout guna elliptical machine. Untuk tempoh 30 minit aku mampu buat 3 batu larian laa kalau guna elliptical machine..hummfff..hummfff..awal-awal dulu semput gak. Now dah maintain..ok la..
After that.aku akan take a break about 1 or 2 minutes and jalan-jalan sket dalam gym tu untuk regangkan muscles kaki and peha...kemudian aku start pumping iron la. Takde ape sangat..just aku fokus pada a few muscles group. Memula kat abdomen, belakang and triceps, lepas tu kat dada, biseps and last sekali pinggang. Habis satu jam..aku rasa macam nak terpeleot badan aku ni ahhh..
Senaman waktu silat
Tapi kalau nak kira...muscles work out tu okay lagik laa..compare dengan senaman waktu silat. Serius shit waktu buat warming up untuk silat..aku rasa seluruh urat sendi aku kena pulas-pulas. Habis semua sendi kena liuk lentuk. Push up and sit up tu kira perkara biasa dah tu. Waktu buat sit up, cikgu Rasul akan pijak perut kita and hentakkan tumit dia ke perut. Uihh..senak wooo..tapi kalau dah 4 tahun berturut turut kena gentel gitu dengan tumit kaki dia..perut ni pun dah jadi kebal..tak rasa ape dah.
Bersenam dalam silat kena buat sungguh sungguh sebab takut nanti terseliuhlah sendi...terseliuh bahu ke..urat kaki ke..maklum ajer ler, time bersilat ni habis semua anggota badan digunakan. Paling aku ngeri waktu cikgu Rasul mintak volunteer sape-sape nak merasa buah kunci mati - biasanyer kitorang bebudak bengkung merah ler kena sebab kitorang paling senior. AKu pernah kena buah kunci mati nombor 16 dengan cikgu, mak aihhhh..menitik air mata aku tahan sakit. Anak tekak ni rasa macam nak pecah, sendi bahu rasa nak tercabut..cepat-cepat aku tepuk betis cikgu tanda aku sakit sangat dah tak tahan ni. Cikgu buat dekkk ajer.sambil dia sambung cakap-cakap dia pada bebudak bengkung hijau. Demmit laa..slowly lepas tu baru dia lepaskan. Terhincut-hincut aku jalan blah dari dia. MEmang lepas tu aku takkan lupa lah macam mana buah kunci mati nombor 16 tu. Spontan sekarang pun aku boleh buat.
Sama lah jugak dengan Cikgu Selamat, cikgu silat gayong aku kat gelanggang PPP/ITM pulak. Dia dengan selambanya menarik tangan aku untuk buat demo gerak tapak tangkisan pisau. Aku sedar-sedar aku dah ade atas lantai simen tu ahh..bertepek pipi aku sentuh simen..nasib baiklah sejuk, kalau tak barai gak la tulang pipi aku ni. Tu lah bahananya jadi pemegang bengkung yang tinggi sket dari orang lain ni..ndak-ndak kalau dah bengkung merah tu..memang naya ajer la jadi bahan belasahan cikgu untuk buat demo pada bebudak bengkung yang rendah. But all in all..aku memang tak pernah serik lah.
Waktu belajar seni parang dua dengan Cikgu Kahar (cikgu silat gayong kat Kg Pandan), parang terjatuh atas kaki aku..mujur luka sikit ajer. Aku lagik aaa kagum tengok Kak Ayu, jurulatih silat Gayong kat SMAP Labu untuk perempuan bersilat main parang 2 dengan partner lelaki dia. Ya Allah, aku terus gerun nak dekat dengan kakak tu..nampak ajer kecik, cakap pun ayu ayu gitu..sweet pun ya..tapi bila dalam gelanggang..sekali dia hentak parang tu ..memang api lah yang keluar! Hmm..langkah serikandi tu!
Work out guna machine ni tak best sangat sebenarnya..yang best work out ramai-ramai dengan kenkawan. Kat sekolah dulu bolehlah buat..now dah takleh. Dulu tak sama macam sekarang dah..ye dak!
Langit biru langit merah
Ahh..cantiknya hari ni. Langit biru tak berawan. Cuaca pun agak panas walaupun angin sejuk tetap bertiup. Sesekali aku menggigil juga sebab hawa yang sejuk tak dapat ditewaskan oleh sinaran matahari Amerika Utara. Aku sangat-sangat menyenangi keadaan begini sebabnya terlalu lama depressed dengan kurangnya cahaya matahari dan sejuknya hawa musim sejuk.
Sayangnya perasaan macam tu tak kekal lama. Rupa-rupanya langit di timur tengah tercemar warna birunya dengan warna merah darah. Hati kembali tersentuh bila baca New York Times, laporan berita tentang seorang alim ulama cum jihadist, mati dibunuh oleh Israel apabila beliau pulang dari solat subuhnya di masjid (errkkk..dia pergi masjid tu untuk solat subuh, sedangkan antara kita masih lagi terbongkang di katil enak menarik selimut kulit babi). Sheikh Ahmed Yassin yang dilahirkan sekitar tahun 1930an menjadi salah seorang pengasas Hamas pada awal tahun 1980an. Beliau dikatakan berjaya menyatukan rakyat Palestin menerusi Hamas berjuang untuk membebaskan Palestin dari dirampas Israel sedang negara-negara Arab berhampiran hanya beromong-omong kosong tentang status Palestin setiap kali berhimpunnya ketua-ketua negara di konvensyen Liga Arab.
Kematian As syahid Sheikh Ahmed Yassin telah membangkitkan perasaan marah umat Islam seluruh dunia. Beliau yang dianggap sebagai pejuang sejati memperjuangkan kemerdekaan bumi Palestin sangat-sangat dihormati baik di rantau Timur Tengah mahu pun di kalangan negara-negara Islam.
Nabi kata, salah satu tanda akhir zaman ialah apabila banyak ilmu hilang dari mukabumi apabila Allah panggil menjemput ulama-ulama kembali bertemuNya. Di sini kita lihat salah satu tanda-tandanya. Kematiannya ditangisi oleh berjuta-juta umat Islam seluruh dunia.
Kematiannya mengingatkan aku kembali pada seseorang yang telah lama kembali ke rahmatullah.
Malaysia juga telah hilang salah seorang ulamanya pada 2002, Ustaz Fadzil Noor, yang kematiannya ditangisi oleh ratusan ribu rakyat Malaysia (hampir 300,000 rakyat malaysia hadir melawat jenazahnya). Solat jenazahnya didirikan sebanyak 6 kali dan setiap kali solat jenazahnya, hampir 6 ribu manusia menjadi makmumnya. Itu belum termasuk solat jenazah ghaib yang dilakukan di banyak tempat bagi sesiapa yang tak berkesempatan menziarahi jenazahnya di Kedah. Beliau disemadikan di tanah perkuburan tidak jauh dari madrasah Muassasah Darul Ulum yang didirikannya dengan perbelanjaan sendiri. Beza kematiannya dan kematian Sheikh Ahmed Yassin ialah cara kematian masing-masing. Seorang pulang pada rahmat Allah kerana sakitnya dan seorang lagi pulang menghadap Allah Rabbul Alamin kerana dibedil peluru Israel. Tapi mereka sama-sama berjuang untuk kehormatan agama masing-masing.
Jika hati kita masih lagi beku dan kaku, masih lagi tidak berasa apa, sayu atau pun hiba atas kehilangan orang-orang yang rapat dengan perjuangan agama - eloklah juga kita bertanya hari ini, apakah kita juga 'saudara' kepada mereka? Kata nabi dulu pada sahabat-sahabatnya, orang islam seperti satu badan, kalau ada anggota lain tercedera maka seluruh badan akan terasa sakitnya.
Adakah kita terasa sakitnya hari ini?
Ahh..cantiknya hari ni. Langit biru tak berawan. Cuaca pun agak panas walaupun angin sejuk tetap bertiup. Sesekali aku menggigil juga sebab hawa yang sejuk tak dapat ditewaskan oleh sinaran matahari Amerika Utara. Aku sangat-sangat menyenangi keadaan begini sebabnya terlalu lama depressed dengan kurangnya cahaya matahari dan sejuknya hawa musim sejuk.
Sayangnya perasaan macam tu tak kekal lama. Rupa-rupanya langit di timur tengah tercemar warna birunya dengan warna merah darah. Hati kembali tersentuh bila baca New York Times, laporan berita tentang seorang alim ulama cum jihadist, mati dibunuh oleh Israel apabila beliau pulang dari solat subuhnya di masjid (errkkk..dia pergi masjid tu untuk solat subuh, sedangkan antara kita masih lagi terbongkang di katil enak menarik selimut kulit babi). Sheikh Ahmed Yassin yang dilahirkan sekitar tahun 1930an menjadi salah seorang pengasas Hamas pada awal tahun 1980an. Beliau dikatakan berjaya menyatukan rakyat Palestin menerusi Hamas berjuang untuk membebaskan Palestin dari dirampas Israel sedang negara-negara Arab berhampiran hanya beromong-omong kosong tentang status Palestin setiap kali berhimpunnya ketua-ketua negara di konvensyen Liga Arab.
Kematian As syahid Sheikh Ahmed Yassin telah membangkitkan perasaan marah umat Islam seluruh dunia. Beliau yang dianggap sebagai pejuang sejati memperjuangkan kemerdekaan bumi Palestin sangat-sangat dihormati baik di rantau Timur Tengah mahu pun di kalangan negara-negara Islam.
Nabi kata, salah satu tanda akhir zaman ialah apabila banyak ilmu hilang dari mukabumi apabila Allah panggil menjemput ulama-ulama kembali bertemuNya. Di sini kita lihat salah satu tanda-tandanya. Kematiannya ditangisi oleh berjuta-juta umat Islam seluruh dunia.
Kematiannya mengingatkan aku kembali pada seseorang yang telah lama kembali ke rahmatullah.
Malaysia juga telah hilang salah seorang ulamanya pada 2002, Ustaz Fadzil Noor, yang kematiannya ditangisi oleh ratusan ribu rakyat Malaysia (hampir 300,000 rakyat malaysia hadir melawat jenazahnya). Solat jenazahnya didirikan sebanyak 6 kali dan setiap kali solat jenazahnya, hampir 6 ribu manusia menjadi makmumnya. Itu belum termasuk solat jenazah ghaib yang dilakukan di banyak tempat bagi sesiapa yang tak berkesempatan menziarahi jenazahnya di Kedah. Beliau disemadikan di tanah perkuburan tidak jauh dari madrasah Muassasah Darul Ulum yang didirikannya dengan perbelanjaan sendiri. Beza kematiannya dan kematian Sheikh Ahmed Yassin ialah cara kematian masing-masing. Seorang pulang pada rahmat Allah kerana sakitnya dan seorang lagi pulang menghadap Allah Rabbul Alamin kerana dibedil peluru Israel. Tapi mereka sama-sama berjuang untuk kehormatan agama masing-masing.
Jika hati kita masih lagi beku dan kaku, masih lagi tidak berasa apa, sayu atau pun hiba atas kehilangan orang-orang yang rapat dengan perjuangan agama - eloklah juga kita bertanya hari ini, apakah kita juga 'saudara' kepada mereka? Kata nabi dulu pada sahabat-sahabatnya, orang islam seperti satu badan, kalau ada anggota lain tercedera maka seluruh badan akan terasa sakitnya.
Adakah kita terasa sakitnya hari ini?
Tuesday, March 23, 2004
The day I was a polling agent
Jarrod Daniel, 5:20pm Tue Mar 23rd, 2004
MalaysiaKini.com
I am writing to document my experiences as a polling and counting agent (Paca) in Sunday’s general elections. This letter aims to provide a brief insight as to what actually happens during the polling process and the agony that ‘opposition’ polling agents have to go through during the electoral process.
I was assigned to a polling station where I thought things would get interesting. We were provided with materials and training to ensure that we would be able to monitor the situation as effectively as possible. The training provided by the Mafrel (Malaysians for Free and Fair Elections) was extremely mind blowing. Mafrel had warned us of the troublesome presiding officers (ketua tempat mengundi).
But somebody telling you something is not the same as you experiencing it yourself. Along with our kit which was provided, we received a list of suspicious voters. We had some houses where more than 90 people were living in it! The current ruling coalition had a 150 metres head start in this election. However, what shocked me was the process itself.
Malaysian law dictates that every vote is secret. Nobody has the right to know my vote until and unless one decides to tell you. But the Elections Commission (EC) intentionally demands that all voter IDs be recorded on the counterfoils of ballot papers. That means, if they want to, they can trace each and every vote to the individuals. This is wrong. And more importantly, this is downright illegal. This is intimidation beyond anything else. This is why whispers in the government servant circles went along the lines of "tow the line or else..."
So we lodged a protest. But the EC handbook was clear. Polling clerks were mandated to write the unique voter IDs on each and every ballot counterfoil. But what was more interesting was the fact that opposition polling agents, like myself, were frowned upon. This was especially so if we knew our rights. If we knew what was allowed by the law, we were troublemakers. This was because we were lodging complaints on irregularities.
My first complaint was accepted without any problems. That was the complaint about writing unique voter ID's on the ballot paper counterfoils. As the day progressed, I started lodging reports on irregularities. There was a voter who came in the afternoon that had somebody else with the same IC number voting for her in the morning. I advised these individuals to lodge police reports immediately.
But perhaps the most appalling incident in my polling centre was when a man had walked in although the register showed that he was supposed to be a female. I had immediately lodged a protest. I argued with the presiding officer that he cannot allow a man to vote when the register clearly showed that the IC belonged to a female. The presiding officer overruled me and said that he had the right to overrule me. He said that the National Registration Department had probably made a mistake and with that he was allowing the gentleman to vote.
I argued that the election laws were clear that one cannot allow a male to vote when he/she is registered as a different gender. I cautioned the presiding officer that he was committing electoral fraud. I then demanded that the man take an oath that he really is the "woman" in the SPR roll. The presiding officer overruled me again, telling me that it was his call and he believed that the National Registration Department had made a mistake. The BN polling agent kept quiet throughout the incident.
I then decided to lodge an official complaint. Election laws say that polling agents are allowed by law to lodge complaints on irregularities on the polling process. The man refused to accept my complaint saying that I had no right to complain because everything was legal and okay. This is the same man who had no problems with me protesting on phantom voters. In this issue, he refused to budge. He didn't want to accept my complaint. I argued and argued to no avail. The system was clearly failing me.
At some points during the whole process I felt that the whole country was against me. Here I was trying to ensure that the elections were fair. Nothing more, nothing less. That everybody got their due process. Heck, during the vote counting process, I even told the Barisan guy that some votes for him that he said were spoilt were not spoilt as it was allowed by law.
I felt cheated and I felt betrayed. There was absolutely nothing I could do. Thank God the other polling agents were my friends. They provided moral support when frustration ran high. We were the only ones raising objections. That was because we were strong-minded Malaysians who knew our rights very well. We were used to arguing things out. But when the whole system is against you, I finally understood what it was like to be the underdog. Thousands of residents were depending on me to ensure that the vote went on ahead as usual in a fair manner. At that point, my spirits were raised a bit. Because I knew that I was doing my best.
I'll admit, there were points in there where I just felt like crying, dropping things and running away. But I realised that I cannot and must not do it. The rage in my blood was beyond boiling. I was seething at how unfair things were. Despite providing the presiding officer that there was evidence that some voters were most likely phantom, he brushed me off. He accepted my objections but gave me a hard time when I asked him to sign documents to acknowledge receipt of the complaint. He allowed all the suspected phantom voters to vote without even requesting them to take an oath that their identities were valid by filling an identification form (form 11).
More than 10 of these voters from the same house showed up in various other rooms. But I wasn't surprised anymore. If he can let a man vote when the registration clearly showed that the individual should be a woman, what else was I to say? I was so disappointed with the EC that it was beyond comprehension. It is as easy as listing the roll on the Excel sheet and finding the phantom voters. That was how our guys did it. But the EC has long insisted that the roll was clean. This is a factual fallacy and I saw it with my own eyes. It was so obvious that the officer who were in the room were biased. All I asked was for a fair go at things.
How I felt on elections day was a situation that I have never really dealt with in my lifetime. Total and ultimate helplessness when doing the right thing. You know what was worse? We were the only guys who actually knew what we were doing and why we were doing it. Some opposition representatives from other parties for example, did not know what to do as a polling agent. They were there because somebody had told them that they had to cross out names on the voting rolls. The BN polling agents were individuals who were paid to effectively come and find voter demographics by race. No complaints were lodged by any of the BN polling agents in my room despite the fact that I shared information about phantom voters.
The whole elections process seems so tainted to me that I really do not know what to do. But there were people who were backing us up. One PAS polling agent who talked to one of us "noisy" ones said that we had done a good job. He said the reason he didn't raise objections was that he knew that it wouldn't make any difference. The system had wore him down. The system had failed the ordinary Malaysian citizen who wanted to uphold the law. And you know what's worse? This situation is being perpetuated by other Malaysians. By Malaysians who believe that it is okay to play unfair in the elections to win.
At the end of polling I was tired, depressed and didn't know what to do. But I realised, that I have to be part of the new Malaysia that shapes things according to what is right - not what is required to win an election. I guess I can be happy with one thing. That I actually did something about my dissatisfactions with the democratic process in this country. I walked the talk unlike the Election Commission or Pak Lah. Nobody in his right mind will be able to say that the elections were free and fair.
I am a disappointed and frustrated. I feel cheated. The rakyat has been failed.
My Comment:
Siapa kata susah sangat nak jadi phanton voters? Semua boleh jadi kat Malaysia Bolehlahland...:)
Jarrod Daniel, 5:20pm Tue Mar 23rd, 2004
MalaysiaKini.com
I am writing to document my experiences as a polling and counting agent (Paca) in Sunday’s general elections. This letter aims to provide a brief insight as to what actually happens during the polling process and the agony that ‘opposition’ polling agents have to go through during the electoral process.
I was assigned to a polling station where I thought things would get interesting. We were provided with materials and training to ensure that we would be able to monitor the situation as effectively as possible. The training provided by the Mafrel (Malaysians for Free and Fair Elections) was extremely mind blowing. Mafrel had warned us of the troublesome presiding officers (ketua tempat mengundi).
But somebody telling you something is not the same as you experiencing it yourself. Along with our kit which was provided, we received a list of suspicious voters. We had some houses where more than 90 people were living in it! The current ruling coalition had a 150 metres head start in this election. However, what shocked me was the process itself.
Malaysian law dictates that every vote is secret. Nobody has the right to know my vote until and unless one decides to tell you. But the Elections Commission (EC) intentionally demands that all voter IDs be recorded on the counterfoils of ballot papers. That means, if they want to, they can trace each and every vote to the individuals. This is wrong. And more importantly, this is downright illegal. This is intimidation beyond anything else. This is why whispers in the government servant circles went along the lines of "tow the line or else..."
So we lodged a protest. But the EC handbook was clear. Polling clerks were mandated to write the unique voter IDs on each and every ballot counterfoil. But what was more interesting was the fact that opposition polling agents, like myself, were frowned upon. This was especially so if we knew our rights. If we knew what was allowed by the law, we were troublemakers. This was because we were lodging complaints on irregularities.
My first complaint was accepted without any problems. That was the complaint about writing unique voter ID's on the ballot paper counterfoils. As the day progressed, I started lodging reports on irregularities. There was a voter who came in the afternoon that had somebody else with the same IC number voting for her in the morning. I advised these individuals to lodge police reports immediately.
But perhaps the most appalling incident in my polling centre was when a man had walked in although the register showed that he was supposed to be a female. I had immediately lodged a protest. I argued with the presiding officer that he cannot allow a man to vote when the register clearly showed that the IC belonged to a female. The presiding officer overruled me and said that he had the right to overrule me. He said that the National Registration Department had probably made a mistake and with that he was allowing the gentleman to vote.
I argued that the election laws were clear that one cannot allow a male to vote when he/she is registered as a different gender. I cautioned the presiding officer that he was committing electoral fraud. I then demanded that the man take an oath that he really is the "woman" in the SPR roll. The presiding officer overruled me again, telling me that it was his call and he believed that the National Registration Department had made a mistake. The BN polling agent kept quiet throughout the incident.
I then decided to lodge an official complaint. Election laws say that polling agents are allowed by law to lodge complaints on irregularities on the polling process. The man refused to accept my complaint saying that I had no right to complain because everything was legal and okay. This is the same man who had no problems with me protesting on phantom voters. In this issue, he refused to budge. He didn't want to accept my complaint. I argued and argued to no avail. The system was clearly failing me.
At some points during the whole process I felt that the whole country was against me. Here I was trying to ensure that the elections were fair. Nothing more, nothing less. That everybody got their due process. Heck, during the vote counting process, I even told the Barisan guy that some votes for him that he said were spoilt were not spoilt as it was allowed by law.
I felt cheated and I felt betrayed. There was absolutely nothing I could do. Thank God the other polling agents were my friends. They provided moral support when frustration ran high. We were the only ones raising objections. That was because we were strong-minded Malaysians who knew our rights very well. We were used to arguing things out. But when the whole system is against you, I finally understood what it was like to be the underdog. Thousands of residents were depending on me to ensure that the vote went on ahead as usual in a fair manner. At that point, my spirits were raised a bit. Because I knew that I was doing my best.
I'll admit, there were points in there where I just felt like crying, dropping things and running away. But I realised that I cannot and must not do it. The rage in my blood was beyond boiling. I was seething at how unfair things were. Despite providing the presiding officer that there was evidence that some voters were most likely phantom, he brushed me off. He accepted my objections but gave me a hard time when I asked him to sign documents to acknowledge receipt of the complaint. He allowed all the suspected phantom voters to vote without even requesting them to take an oath that their identities were valid by filling an identification form (form 11).
More than 10 of these voters from the same house showed up in various other rooms. But I wasn't surprised anymore. If he can let a man vote when the registration clearly showed that the individual should be a woman, what else was I to say? I was so disappointed with the EC that it was beyond comprehension. It is as easy as listing the roll on the Excel sheet and finding the phantom voters. That was how our guys did it. But the EC has long insisted that the roll was clean. This is a factual fallacy and I saw it with my own eyes. It was so obvious that the officer who were in the room were biased. All I asked was for a fair go at things.
How I felt on elections day was a situation that I have never really dealt with in my lifetime. Total and ultimate helplessness when doing the right thing. You know what was worse? We were the only guys who actually knew what we were doing and why we were doing it. Some opposition representatives from other parties for example, did not know what to do as a polling agent. They were there because somebody had told them that they had to cross out names on the voting rolls. The BN polling agents were individuals who were paid to effectively come and find voter demographics by race. No complaints were lodged by any of the BN polling agents in my room despite the fact that I shared information about phantom voters.
The whole elections process seems so tainted to me that I really do not know what to do. But there were people who were backing us up. One PAS polling agent who talked to one of us "noisy" ones said that we had done a good job. He said the reason he didn't raise objections was that he knew that it wouldn't make any difference. The system had wore him down. The system had failed the ordinary Malaysian citizen who wanted to uphold the law. And you know what's worse? This situation is being perpetuated by other Malaysians. By Malaysians who believe that it is okay to play unfair in the elections to win.
At the end of polling I was tired, depressed and didn't know what to do. But I realised, that I have to be part of the new Malaysia that shapes things according to what is right - not what is required to win an election. I guess I can be happy with one thing. That I actually did something about my dissatisfactions with the democratic process in this country. I walked the talk unlike the Election Commission or Pak Lah. Nobody in his right mind will be able to say that the elections were free and fair.
I am a disappointed and frustrated. I feel cheated. The rakyat has been failed.
My Comment:
Siapa kata susah sangat nak jadi phanton voters? Semua boleh jadi kat Malaysia Bolehlahland...:)
Weh weh..jangan bawak kereta laju sangat!!
I couldn't help myself to laugh at this one incident. It happened between me, Acap and Wady back when we were in PPP, UiTM. Wady was our housemate and Acap and me were roommates. One day Acap asked us to follow him to Universiti Malaya because he wanted to meet somebody. Ermm..that somebody happened to be his girlfriend.
So we followed him in his dark maroon Proton Megavalve to UM. At first, everything was okay and we all made stupid jokes as usual. Once we reached Kolej 11, Acap quickly walked to Asrama Siswi to find his girlfriend. All along before this, I knew Acap had problem with his girlfriend which I didn't understand what the problem was about. All I know at that time that his girlfriend went out with other guy and didn't come home for a few nights. Obviously Acap was so mad about it. First he heard the news from his girlfriend's dad himself and secondly the guy who went out with his girlfriend,namely B, is our senior back in Alam Shah. Kalau jadi kat aku, sah sah la aku angin beb!!
So he went to UM to confront his girlfriend. He brought me and Wady maybe because he wanted us to restraint him just in case if he needed to confront B as well (or maybe the way I see..I have silat gayong, Wady ade tomoi, Acap ade silat cekak..kalau beduk mamat tu..sure sayur gak kan?). Unfortunately his girlfriend (aiyaa..penat la panggil gf gf ni, let me put her name as A) A just went out with B to his hostel in Kolej 10.
So what Acap did...he quickly jumped into the car together with us and drove the car like crazy. He didn't want to be late or else he would miss the couple on sight. Oh my god..that was the first time ever seeing Acap in his bad mood. I've been friend with Acap since Form 1 in SAS but I never saw he acted that way before. Swear to God..we all were quite nervous. I held the car's door very tight and the safety belt. Both of my feet pushed the floor as in I was trying to push the brake paddle. Wady's face was pale. Acap looked very determined to find A.
Seriously this guy drove like crazy. He pushed the acceleration's paddle straight down to the floor - flat. The car was moving like a blazing thunder and suddenly Acap made a swift right turn while the car was moving fast down the hill. Kolej Zaaba is located near the UM's hill near the LDP highway. You can clearly see Kolej Zaaba or Kolej 10 from the LDP highway itself. I remember I yelled this to Acap.
"Wehh acap..slow down sket kereta ni weh!! Aku nak hidup lame lagik!!!".
"Acap wehh..cool down laa weh..aku belum kahwin lagi ni!! Tak nak mati teruna!", Wady shouted from the back of the car.
I could feel the car was about to turn upside down when he made that right turn at very high speed. The adrenaline quickly rushed into my blood vessel and I felt my knees were a little bit cold and shaky. Geezuzzz..this guy seriously needs to learn evasive driving maneuver laaa!!!
Acap managed to park the car just outside the building. We went out and saw the couple at the car park. Acap asked both of us, me and Wady to stay put and let him approached the couple. Obviously I said "yeah..sure.." because I was still in shock. But for some reason, I was beginning to feel the adrenaline pumped into my heart again. Maybe because I afraid something bad may turn out if Acap suddenly went berserk with this guy. I clenched my fists and walked around the car just to make the feeling went away because I know..I usually have this kind of feeling only when I am in silat gelanggang ready for free sparring. Wady also look uncomfortable with the situation.
Finally Acap came back but only without his girlfriend. The girl refused to follow Acap, instead she chose to stay with B. I couldn't help to feel sorry for Acap as I know he was brokenhearted. I offered to drive the car since Acap wasn't in good mood but he politely declined my offer. All of us kept on istighfar to ease ourselves. We tried to make a joke out of the situation but apparently, it didn't work.
I was wondering what would happen if Acap didn't control his anger while confronting both of them. Seriously if they started to throw punch to each other, I would definitely join the crowd! I wont let my roommate to be beaten up by someone else.
Alhamdulillah now Acap is married to another girl whom he loves so much, Adliza. As his former roommate, I sometimes asked Adliza if Acap still snoring while he's sleeping (other than snoring, mamat ni jenis kuat ngigau jugak time tidur..). Hehehe..kiranya semua rahsia acap tu ada dalam poket aku la..Alhamdulillah everything is cool and I am pretty sure he's happy with what he has right now. Good job, good wife and good life. Insya Allah soon or later, a good family will come later.
I couldn't help myself to laugh at this one incident. It happened between me, Acap and Wady back when we were in PPP, UiTM. Wady was our housemate and Acap and me were roommates. One day Acap asked us to follow him to Universiti Malaya because he wanted to meet somebody. Ermm..that somebody happened to be his girlfriend.
So we followed him in his dark maroon Proton Megavalve to UM. At first, everything was okay and we all made stupid jokes as usual. Once we reached Kolej 11, Acap quickly walked to Asrama Siswi to find his girlfriend. All along before this, I knew Acap had problem with his girlfriend which I didn't understand what the problem was about. All I know at that time that his girlfriend went out with other guy and didn't come home for a few nights. Obviously Acap was so mad about it. First he heard the news from his girlfriend's dad himself and secondly the guy who went out with his girlfriend,namely B, is our senior back in Alam Shah. Kalau jadi kat aku, sah sah la aku angin beb!!
So he went to UM to confront his girlfriend. He brought me and Wady maybe because he wanted us to restraint him just in case if he needed to confront B as well (or maybe the way I see..I have silat gayong, Wady ade tomoi, Acap ade silat cekak..kalau beduk mamat tu..sure sayur gak kan?). Unfortunately his girlfriend (aiyaa..penat la panggil gf gf ni, let me put her name as A) A just went out with B to his hostel in Kolej 10.
So what Acap did...he quickly jumped into the car together with us and drove the car like crazy. He didn't want to be late or else he would miss the couple on sight. Oh my god..that was the first time ever seeing Acap in his bad mood. I've been friend with Acap since Form 1 in SAS but I never saw he acted that way before. Swear to God..we all were quite nervous. I held the car's door very tight and the safety belt. Both of my feet pushed the floor as in I was trying to push the brake paddle. Wady's face was pale. Acap looked very determined to find A.
Seriously this guy drove like crazy. He pushed the acceleration's paddle straight down to the floor - flat. The car was moving like a blazing thunder and suddenly Acap made a swift right turn while the car was moving fast down the hill. Kolej Zaaba is located near the UM's hill near the LDP highway. You can clearly see Kolej Zaaba or Kolej 10 from the LDP highway itself. I remember I yelled this to Acap.
"Wehh acap..slow down sket kereta ni weh!! Aku nak hidup lame lagik!!!".
"Acap wehh..cool down laa weh..aku belum kahwin lagi ni!! Tak nak mati teruna!", Wady shouted from the back of the car.
I could feel the car was about to turn upside down when he made that right turn at very high speed. The adrenaline quickly rushed into my blood vessel and I felt my knees were a little bit cold and shaky. Geezuzzz..this guy seriously needs to learn evasive driving maneuver laaa!!!
Acap managed to park the car just outside the building. We went out and saw the couple at the car park. Acap asked both of us, me and Wady to stay put and let him approached the couple. Obviously I said "yeah..sure.." because I was still in shock. But for some reason, I was beginning to feel the adrenaline pumped into my heart again. Maybe because I afraid something bad may turn out if Acap suddenly went berserk with this guy. I clenched my fists and walked around the car just to make the feeling went away because I know..I usually have this kind of feeling only when I am in silat gelanggang ready for free sparring. Wady also look uncomfortable with the situation.
Finally Acap came back but only without his girlfriend. The girl refused to follow Acap, instead she chose to stay with B. I couldn't help to feel sorry for Acap as I know he was brokenhearted. I offered to drive the car since Acap wasn't in good mood but he politely declined my offer. All of us kept on istighfar to ease ourselves. We tried to make a joke out of the situation but apparently, it didn't work.
I was wondering what would happen if Acap didn't control his anger while confronting both of them. Seriously if they started to throw punch to each other, I would definitely join the crowd! I wont let my roommate to be beaten up by someone else.
Alhamdulillah now Acap is married to another girl whom he loves so much, Adliza. As his former roommate, I sometimes asked Adliza if Acap still snoring while he's sleeping (other than snoring, mamat ni jenis kuat ngigau jugak time tidur..). Hehehe..kiranya semua rahsia acap tu ada dalam poket aku la..Alhamdulillah everything is cool and I am pretty sure he's happy with what he has right now. Good job, good wife and good life. Insya Allah soon or later, a good family will come later.
Monday, March 22, 2004
One Last Thing....
Things are a bit haywired here. I mean, my life for today. I didn't do much to begin with. Slept too much, surfing the internet too much (searching for election news everywhere and anywhere possible), playing Ghost Recon too much...well I guess I need to take lesson from Nuramy laa..be grateful for what I have right now and thriving for excellence with respect to what God has given me..(read..God aka Allah, not BN or Pak Lah or Najib Tun Razak ok?).
This whole things about election brings many qualities inside us. It tells us of who we are actually and how are we differ from the rest of the group. As for me, I dont mind anyone to disagree with me in this matter because I believe everyone has his/her own preference. To be critical and to be sincere in making an unbias judgement on certain issues - a quality which we need desperately here.
And we all would agree, every coin has two sides - it's the same thing with the general election. So many news are floating around us and waiting to be heard and to be evaluated by laymen like us. I read the news from both sides and also from independent source. It is unfair to wholeheartedly accept the defeat without studying the cause of loss despite of what had happened on the day of election. Chaotic and irresponsible action taken by Electorial Commisision is indeed unforgivable since they were given ample time to make sure the election runs smoothly. Many of its actions before the election and on the day of election itself were suspicious (if anyone could think objectively with sane and sound mind).
I will not dwell more about the election because I simply think it would not improve anything (but it doesn't mean I agree with the result as well). I guess this would serve as a lesson to everyone, especially people in National Front and Alternative Front. More work needs to be done with clear mind and clear conscience. To achieve more democratic and uncorrupted country, it takes guts and sweat and more importantly, it takes pride to what we are doing right now. And my friends, believe me, the journey starts here - in our heart and mind.
Things are a bit haywired here. I mean, my life for today. I didn't do much to begin with. Slept too much, surfing the internet too much (searching for election news everywhere and anywhere possible), playing Ghost Recon too much...well I guess I need to take lesson from Nuramy laa..be grateful for what I have right now and thriving for excellence with respect to what God has given me..(read..God aka Allah, not BN or Pak Lah or Najib Tun Razak ok?).
This whole things about election brings many qualities inside us. It tells us of who we are actually and how are we differ from the rest of the group. As for me, I dont mind anyone to disagree with me in this matter because I believe everyone has his/her own preference. To be critical and to be sincere in making an unbias judgement on certain issues - a quality which we need desperately here.
And we all would agree, every coin has two sides - it's the same thing with the general election. So many news are floating around us and waiting to be heard and to be evaluated by laymen like us. I read the news from both sides and also from independent source. It is unfair to wholeheartedly accept the defeat without studying the cause of loss despite of what had happened on the day of election. Chaotic and irresponsible action taken by Electorial Commisision is indeed unforgivable since they were given ample time to make sure the election runs smoothly. Many of its actions before the election and on the day of election itself were suspicious (if anyone could think objectively with sane and sound mind).
I will not dwell more about the election because I simply think it would not improve anything (but it doesn't mean I agree with the result as well). I guess this would serve as a lesson to everyone, especially people in National Front and Alternative Front. More work needs to be done with clear mind and clear conscience. To achieve more democratic and uncorrupted country, it takes guts and sweat and more importantly, it takes pride to what we are doing right now. And my friends, believe me, the journey starts here - in our heart and mind.
Mixed up Feelings, Election - Between the truth and the 'truth'
mukeh: ha dud
aku: aduihhh..sedih aku dengar result election
mukeh: tu pasal..aku rase ade satu konspirasi yg sgt mencurigekan. nak tau asal?
aku: apsal? citer sket laa suasana election kat aku..aku tak tahu siot
mukeh: sbb kebanyakan kawasan yg DAP bertanding, DAP menang
mukeh: kenaper PAS/keadilan kalah walaupun orang2 kuat die pun kalah? so sendiri pk la
aku: humm..kenapa ekk?
mukeh: DAP sapu 4 dari 6 kawasan KL
aku: aku seriyes takleh nak pk
aku: oh..one thing..Lim Kit Siang menang majoriti 1,000 siot
mukeh: PAS nak sapu kelantan pun payah..so kesimpulannyer kat sini
mukeh: aku rase..again n again penipuan berlaku di kawasan undian yg libatkan PAS sebab calon BEBAS pun leh sapu 2 kat kawasan SABAH ngan selambe kalahkan BN
aku: i see i see logik gak kan
mukeh: sangat logic..kawasan aku nih.. ismail kamus kalah
aku: Oh mannn...giler busuk ati aaa
mukeh: gile tak paham aku
aku: oh man..ismail kamus kalah?
mukeh: ha kalah
aku: Allahu akbar..
mukeh: seriyes aku tak paham..paling aku tak paham tu bile haji hadi awang kalah, kan?
aku: yang aku lagi tak paham tu, Ustaz Hadi nyer parlimen seat kalah tuh
aku: haa..itu la
mukeh: ha tu la..nik aziz tu pun
aku: aku serius shit tak paham...
aku: serius laa..aku memang budget this time election paling kotor!
mukeh: tapi yg aku sure, DAP leh bangge aa ngan kemenangan die
aku: tu pasal aku tak semangat sangat nak check result election, sebab dah boleh agak dah camner
mukeh: n aku pi undi hari nih.. aku sangat marah dan mengutuk gile babih, sbb election cam babih ..ko leh bace aaa kat aku nyer site
aku: haa..dengar kecoh banyak ek?
mukeh: ntahapehape
aku: aku dah baca dah tadik
mukeh: aku balik2 tu aku terus diskas ngan ayah aku
aku: seronok la orang BN lepas ni..
mukeh: asal aaa die tak pk pasal smartcard ke yg orang leh undi memaner je
mukeh: pastu cam leh update ngan serta merta dan cepat..bodoh la tul dak?
aku: real-time result kan
mukeh: menda nih sangat kuno sial
aku: ha ah...kat sini pun pakai computer untuk mengundi
mukeh: pastu ayah aku jawab ngan simple gile, 'kalau dah canggih, susah la die nak menipu undi',…thats it!
aku: heehhe..sungguh tu..sebabnya semuanya kena log kan!! ko leh trace log, sapa log in..senang!
mukeh: yup sbb die leh detect EXACT numbers..so takleh la nak bawak masuk undi lelain kalau cam zaman kuno skarang nih..ko bawak je la 40 peti undi, ade 100 kertas undi vote BN jek, tade sape pun pedulik..sume ingat 40 peti undi tu betul dan sah
aku: true true
mukeh: pastu aku cam sangat busan ngan melayu sebab ape ko tau
aku: haa..naper
mukeh: bile PAS menang..sume nak sekat..sume tak kasik..sume menda la tak kasik pastu TERBUKTI, PAS perintah sah MUNDUR..sbb sah2 laaa BN menang pusat..ok pastu bile BN amik alih kelantan/terengganu..wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh BN la bagus sbb BN majukan dedua negeri nih..sbb sah2 la BN menang pusat, so die la luluskan sume2
aku: hehehehe..kita tengok this time..BN menang T'ganu kan?
mukeh: ya Allah, kenaper rakyat malaysia nih bodoh bengal sangat sial nak percaye?
aku: kita tengok camner depa maintain T'ganu
mukeh: kalau ko tgk DAP. DAP dari dulu menang Bukit Bintang..ko tgk ade mundur dak? lek lek maju kaw kaw nyer, tul dak?
aku: ha ah
mukeh: sbb MCA pakat tolong same..tarak halnyer sesame cine nih, kite nih?
aku: Melayu sesame melayu asyik nak pangkah memasing ajer
mukeh: asal PAS menang, dengki, mundur, busan - ntahapehape
aku: itulah penyakit melayu...
mukeh: mmg sangat
aku: melayu memang banyak penyakit hati..nabi kate, penyakit wahan (cintakan dunia)..yang aku musykilkan..takkan yg bijak pandai boleh berfikir elok, buleh vote for BN!
mukeh: aku dah bace manifesto PAS ngan keadilan - mmg tade masalah pun beb
aku: itulah..semuanyer utk rakyat siot..dua dua balance
mukeh: tapi sbb BN slalu war warkan yg PAS nak negara islam kaw kaw nyer ekstremis..sampai sume orang cam takut..pastu tak abis war warkan pas mundur macam mane tak mundur kalau dah mmg BN asyik dok sekat
mukeh: kesian sial…ko tau dak kat gombak nih baru tar jalan?
aku: ye ke? Demmm..kekekeke..jalan kat area gombak before this cam lancau jekk
mukeh: ha tau sape tar jalan nih? Ismail Kamus sendiri,.. duit sendiri beb
aku: oh ye ke..duit sendirik ek? allahu akbar..kesiannya
mukeh: mintak perutukan kerajaan selangor, tak dapat, kesian beb
mukeh: aku kene chow nih
aku: allrite
mukeh: member aku dah tunggu, nanti diskas lagi lanjut
mukeh: senang kate..Allah Maha Mengetahui yg PAS/Keadilan nih tak ready lagi utk memerintah..so lek lek dulu..tade menda yg kekal kat dunia nih. Bile dah tade menda yg kekal..BN ape2 pun PASTI akan kalah gak
aku: ameen
mukeh: jgn risau la..cume mase je..ok salamm
aku: ok ok..slamat! insya allah BA boleh cuba lagi
aku: allrite, salaam!
Mukeh or his real name is Mukhlis Mustapa is my old friend from Alam Shah. Currently a creative designer in one of the multimedia companies in Shah Alam, he is an avid supporter of PAS as his whole family is also PAS supporters. He got the chance to taste the real event of voting when he voted yesterday in his area, Gombak.
Visit his newly website at http://www.s0lidmind.com ...lots of things to offer you..errmm..graphically and the stories of his colorful life..:)
mukeh: ha dud
aku: aduihhh..sedih aku dengar result election
mukeh: tu pasal..aku rase ade satu konspirasi yg sgt mencurigekan. nak tau asal?
aku: apsal? citer sket laa suasana election kat aku..aku tak tahu siot
mukeh: sbb kebanyakan kawasan yg DAP bertanding, DAP menang
mukeh: kenaper PAS/keadilan kalah walaupun orang2 kuat die pun kalah? so sendiri pk la
aku: humm..kenapa ekk?
mukeh: DAP sapu 4 dari 6 kawasan KL
aku: aku seriyes takleh nak pk
aku: oh..one thing..Lim Kit Siang menang majoriti 1,000 siot
mukeh: PAS nak sapu kelantan pun payah..so kesimpulannyer kat sini
mukeh: aku rase..again n again penipuan berlaku di kawasan undian yg libatkan PAS sebab calon BEBAS pun leh sapu 2 kat kawasan SABAH ngan selambe kalahkan BN
aku: i see i see logik gak kan
mukeh: sangat logic..kawasan aku nih.. ismail kamus kalah
aku: Oh mannn...giler busuk ati aaa
mukeh: gile tak paham aku
aku: oh man..ismail kamus kalah?
mukeh: ha kalah
aku: Allahu akbar..
mukeh: seriyes aku tak paham..paling aku tak paham tu bile haji hadi awang kalah, kan?
aku: yang aku lagi tak paham tu, Ustaz Hadi nyer parlimen seat kalah tuh
aku: haa..itu la
mukeh: ha tu la..nik aziz tu pun
aku: aku serius shit tak paham...
aku: serius laa..aku memang budget this time election paling kotor!
mukeh: tapi yg aku sure, DAP leh bangge aa ngan kemenangan die
aku: tu pasal aku tak semangat sangat nak check result election, sebab dah boleh agak dah camner
mukeh: n aku pi undi hari nih.. aku sangat marah dan mengutuk gile babih, sbb election cam babih ..ko leh bace aaa kat aku nyer site
aku: haa..dengar kecoh banyak ek?
mukeh: ntahapehape
aku: aku dah baca dah tadik
mukeh: aku balik2 tu aku terus diskas ngan ayah aku
aku: seronok la orang BN lepas ni..
mukeh: asal aaa die tak pk pasal smartcard ke yg orang leh undi memaner je
mukeh: pastu cam leh update ngan serta merta dan cepat..bodoh la tul dak?
aku: real-time result kan
mukeh: menda nih sangat kuno sial
aku: ha ah...kat sini pun pakai computer untuk mengundi
mukeh: pastu ayah aku jawab ngan simple gile, 'kalau dah canggih, susah la die nak menipu undi',…thats it!
aku: heehhe..sungguh tu..sebabnya semuanya kena log kan!! ko leh trace log, sapa log in..senang!
mukeh: yup sbb die leh detect EXACT numbers..so takleh la nak bawak masuk undi lelain kalau cam zaman kuno skarang nih..ko bawak je la 40 peti undi, ade 100 kertas undi vote BN jek, tade sape pun pedulik..sume ingat 40 peti undi tu betul dan sah
aku: true true
mukeh: pastu aku cam sangat busan ngan melayu sebab ape ko tau
aku: haa..naper
mukeh: bile PAS menang..sume nak sekat..sume tak kasik..sume menda la tak kasik pastu TERBUKTI, PAS perintah sah MUNDUR..sbb sah2 laaa BN menang pusat..ok pastu bile BN amik alih kelantan/terengganu..wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh BN la bagus sbb BN majukan dedua negeri nih..sbb sah2 la BN menang pusat, so die la luluskan sume2
aku: hehehehe..kita tengok this time..BN menang T'ganu kan?
mukeh: ya Allah, kenaper rakyat malaysia nih bodoh bengal sangat sial nak percaye?
aku: kita tengok camner depa maintain T'ganu
mukeh: kalau ko tgk DAP. DAP dari dulu menang Bukit Bintang..ko tgk ade mundur dak? lek lek maju kaw kaw nyer, tul dak?
aku: ha ah
mukeh: sbb MCA pakat tolong same..tarak halnyer sesame cine nih, kite nih?
aku: Melayu sesame melayu asyik nak pangkah memasing ajer
mukeh: asal PAS menang, dengki, mundur, busan - ntahapehape
aku: itulah penyakit melayu...
mukeh: mmg sangat
aku: melayu memang banyak penyakit hati..nabi kate, penyakit wahan (cintakan dunia)..yang aku musykilkan..takkan yg bijak pandai boleh berfikir elok, buleh vote for BN!
mukeh: aku dah bace manifesto PAS ngan keadilan - mmg tade masalah pun beb
aku: itulah..semuanyer utk rakyat siot..dua dua balance
mukeh: tapi sbb BN slalu war warkan yg PAS nak negara islam kaw kaw nyer ekstremis..sampai sume orang cam takut..pastu tak abis war warkan pas mundur macam mane tak mundur kalau dah mmg BN asyik dok sekat
mukeh: kesian sial…ko tau dak kat gombak nih baru tar jalan?
aku: ye ke? Demmm..kekekeke..jalan kat area gombak before this cam lancau jekk
mukeh: ha tau sape tar jalan nih? Ismail Kamus sendiri,.. duit sendiri beb
aku: oh ye ke..duit sendirik ek? allahu akbar..kesiannya
mukeh: mintak perutukan kerajaan selangor, tak dapat, kesian beb
mukeh: aku kene chow nih
aku: allrite
mukeh: member aku dah tunggu, nanti diskas lagi lanjut
mukeh: senang kate..Allah Maha Mengetahui yg PAS/Keadilan nih tak ready lagi utk memerintah..so lek lek dulu..tade menda yg kekal kat dunia nih. Bile dah tade menda yg kekal..BN ape2 pun PASTI akan kalah gak
aku: ameen
mukeh: jgn risau la..cume mase je..ok salamm
aku: ok ok..slamat! insya allah BA boleh cuba lagi
aku: allrite, salaam!
Mukeh or his real name is Mukhlis Mustapa is my old friend from Alam Shah. Currently a creative designer in one of the multimedia companies in Shah Alam, he is an avid supporter of PAS as his whole family is also PAS supporters. He got the chance to taste the real event of voting when he voted yesterday in his area, Gombak.
Visit his newly website at http://www.s0lidmind.com ...lots of things to offer you..errmm..graphically and the stories of his colorful life..:)
Sunday, March 21, 2004
Seketika di tengah malam Sabtu
reading material:
1. Kertas Kerja Pengurusan Pembiayaan Awam by Prof. Madya Hj Sibly Maros & Dr. Ku Azam Tuan Lonik dari USM
2. Virtues of Basic Knowledge of Fiqh & Shariah published by Daar-ul Ehsaan USA.
Tadi masa aku di gym, sempat aku tengok berita di CNN channel. Aku sebenarnya tak berapa berminat sangat tapi disebabkan channel lain banyak tunjuk music video (aku tak berminat tengok video clips..banyak mengarut dari yang okay), so layan berita. Besides, dah jadi satu habit untuk aku baca berita tak kira di mana mana and dalam keadaan apa-apa sekali pun. Penting untuk aku keep up to date with what's going on dalam dunia sekeliling aku.
CNN kata kadar pengangguran di US sangat tinggi. So far, poll bulan Ogos lepas kata US hanya menawarkan 360,000 pekerjaan tapi dalam masa yang sama, sejak Mac 2001 yang lepas, sudah 2.3 juta orang hilang pekerjaan. Setahu aku, ini bukan steady-state pun, ini sebenarnya accumulation ni..kalau aku apply ilmu chemical engineering pasal steady-state reaction la kan..Well..orang bangang math pun tahu itu tak balance. Yang aku peliknya, ekonomi US sebenarnya tengah berkembang pesat ni although the country is experiencing huge deficit. So, macam mana still unemployment rate is skyrocketing.
The same phenomenon is happening to our country. Aku kurang pasti pasal defisit negara tapi yang aku tahu masalah unemployment agak meruncing la juga. Profesor KS Jomo, ahli ekonomi dari Universiti Malaya bagi warning kalau politik negara masih lagi mengamalkan kronisme dan tidak mengamalkan transparency dalam economy practice, soon or later Malaysia's economy will go down the drain. Imagine janji janji Barisan Nasional untuk terus memakmurkan negara nampaknya akan hanya omong-omong kosong pre-election saja lah sebab tak nampak pun strong political will untuk banteras unhealthy business practise and economy transparency di kalangan pimpinannya. Ambil contoh senarai nama calon-calonnya. Ada yang memang umum mengetahui mereka ini semuanya jenis parasit, kenapa mesti nak letakkan lagi untuk bertanding? Kata Pak Lah, mahu banteras korupsi dan mahu berkhidmat untuk rakyat. Kalau betul, kenapa buat menda yang rakyat tak mahu? Company anak Pak Lah, Scomi tu, nilai sahamnya naik 1000% sebaik sahaja Pak Lah jadi PM. Tambah lagi company tu asalnya buat kondom ajer, right now dah expand into multiple business field. Dapat pulak kontrak dari PETRONAS. Bukan nak kata jealous, tapi this only happens after Pak Lah jadi PM. What a coincidence?
Kalau rakyat masih lagi mahu bersama Barisan Nasional, aku pun tak tahu nak kata apa-apa lah. Kita hormati saja kehendak rakyat. Yang pentingnya, aku takkan lupa janji-janji manis BN dan aku akan tuntut janji-janji BN bila aku tamat tempoh scholarship dengan PETRONAS. Tak kiralah menerusi saluran apa-apa pun, tapi aku tahu aku mesti tuntut janji-janji diorang kalau diorang menang. Sama juga dengan BA, kalau diorang menang majoriti which is impossible, aku akan tetap tuntut.
Memori Duka - Sons of Adam
Secara tiba-tiba aku mengingatimu
Di kamar sepi malam syahdu
Inikah katanya rindu
Sengsara tiada terhingga
Setelah perpisahan pun berlalu
Terdengar lagu cinta membawa kesayuan
Membangkitkan hasrat yang terluka
Lalu aku terdiam pada lena yang panjang
Terurailah rahsia yang terpendam
Bertahun dalam derita
Tanpamu aku melara
Berbekalkan saat mimpiku di perjalanan ini
Pemergian dirimu putuslah cinta yang lama
Menghentam diriku dalam memori
Malam kian memaksa lagu menghanyut pilu
Wajah-wajah duka pun hilang
Jika tersua lagi mungkin aku menangis
Menahan getaran hati yang musnah
Sepanjang hari ini sebenarnya tak ada apa yang aku buat. Duduk meleser di bilik sambil-sambil tengok tv. Penyakit malas datang macam ombak ganas bila aku habis 2 midterm baru-baru ni. Achievement aku paling besar dalam weekend ni pun ialah dapat pergi ke gym and also download lagu Memori Duka tu. Aku memang suka lagu tu, aku suka humming or nyanyi nyanyi lagu tu kalau aku sorang-sorang. Cumanya aku tak pernah tahu lirik penuh. Entah apa kemaruknya aku suka lagu tu, aku pun tak tahu.
Malam ni aku di Fenske Lab untuk buat sizing distillation tower. Dalam pada tu, aku terfikir beberapa perkara. Mungkin ini satu hal yang redundant tapi aku tak mampu untuk keluarkan dari kepala otak aku. Ada beberapa perkara yang aku menyesal aku tak buat dalam hidup aku. Dan aku terfikir apa akan jadi kalau aku buat menda-menda tu. Apakah akan menukarkan keadaan aku sekarang atau pun ianya tetap sama saja?
1) Hari Anugerah Cemerlang Ko-kurikulum 1997.
Kenapa aku tak terfikir untuk amik mic sebelum aku conduct Alam Shah wind orchestra and sebut nama ayah aku in front of the public? Aku memang nak sangat ayah aku hadir pada hari tu sebabnya aku menang Anugerah Setiausaha Terbaik 1997, anugerah yang pertama sekali sekolah perkenalkan. Aku menang pun sebab aku terlibat secara aktif dalam Kadet Pancaragam sekolah. Band menang 5 anugerah pada hari tu, semua kelab makan asap ajer ari tu tengok Drum Major Band naik pentas. Tak putus-putus cikgu-cikgu datang jumpa aku and ucap tahniah. Entah, itu tak penting sangat bagi aku. Yang penting, aku nak tengok ayah aku datang and tengok aku beraksi atas pentas sebagai konduktor. Aku nak bagitau ayah aku yang band pada waktu tu sangat penting dalam hidup aku. And aku nak tujukan persembahan terakhir aku sebagai Pengarah Muzik Kadet Pancaragam SAS pada hari tu pada ayah aku. A bit terharu jugak sebab kawan-kawan Form 5 semua bagi standing ovation bila aku habis conduct dua lagu, satu lagu klasik and satu lagu medley melayu klasik.
2) 13 Ogos 1999, KLIA
Kenapa aku tak cakap kat Asiah yang aku suka dia waktu dia datang ke airport? Aku ambil kesempatankah kalau aku cakap aku suka dia waktu dia tengah menangis tersedu-sedu depan aku? Kenapa aku tak pernah bagitau kat dia yang aku pernah rindu pada dia sampai menitik air mata aku tahan rindu? Kenapalah aku tak pernah terus-terang dengan dia bila aku tahu dia accident dulu, aku menangis macam budak kecik sebab takut dia 'pergi' dulu sebelum aku. Sebab aku takut aku takkan dapat jumpa dia lagi. Maybe sebab tu kot aku asyik in and out when it comes to relationship sebab aku tak boleh nak buang dia dari fikiran aku. 5 tahun dah berlalu. Wallahu'alam, God knows the best.
Mungkin waktu ni aku terfikir pasal parallel world. Parallel world is actually an idea arises from the theories of quantum mechanic which the idea revolves around the possibility to have many world based in every possible decision taken in our life. Who knows, maybe ada menda-menda ni and maybe tak ada.
Tapi apa-apa pun aku tetap bersyukur dengan apa yang ada sekarang ni. Mungkin ada reason yang bukan bersifat immediate yang aku harus nampak instantaneously. Mak Long Kesuma selalu pesan pada aku, apa yang berlaku mesti ada hikmahnya. Buat masa ni aku wajib bersabar dan redha dengan apa yang dah jadi. Hidup seperti biasa. No regret, as William Parrish had said in Meet Joe Black.
reading material:
1. Kertas Kerja Pengurusan Pembiayaan Awam by Prof. Madya Hj Sibly Maros & Dr. Ku Azam Tuan Lonik dari USM
2. Virtues of Basic Knowledge of Fiqh & Shariah published by Daar-ul Ehsaan USA.
Tadi masa aku di gym, sempat aku tengok berita di CNN channel. Aku sebenarnya tak berapa berminat sangat tapi disebabkan channel lain banyak tunjuk music video (aku tak berminat tengok video clips..banyak mengarut dari yang okay), so layan berita. Besides, dah jadi satu habit untuk aku baca berita tak kira di mana mana and dalam keadaan apa-apa sekali pun. Penting untuk aku keep up to date with what's going on dalam dunia sekeliling aku.
CNN kata kadar pengangguran di US sangat tinggi. So far, poll bulan Ogos lepas kata US hanya menawarkan 360,000 pekerjaan tapi dalam masa yang sama, sejak Mac 2001 yang lepas, sudah 2.3 juta orang hilang pekerjaan. Setahu aku, ini bukan steady-state pun, ini sebenarnya accumulation ni..kalau aku apply ilmu chemical engineering pasal steady-state reaction la kan..Well..orang bangang math pun tahu itu tak balance. Yang aku peliknya, ekonomi US sebenarnya tengah berkembang pesat ni although the country is experiencing huge deficit. So, macam mana still unemployment rate is skyrocketing.
The same phenomenon is happening to our country. Aku kurang pasti pasal defisit negara tapi yang aku tahu masalah unemployment agak meruncing la juga. Profesor KS Jomo, ahli ekonomi dari Universiti Malaya bagi warning kalau politik negara masih lagi mengamalkan kronisme dan tidak mengamalkan transparency dalam economy practice, soon or later Malaysia's economy will go down the drain. Imagine janji janji Barisan Nasional untuk terus memakmurkan negara nampaknya akan hanya omong-omong kosong pre-election saja lah sebab tak nampak pun strong political will untuk banteras unhealthy business practise and economy transparency di kalangan pimpinannya. Ambil contoh senarai nama calon-calonnya. Ada yang memang umum mengetahui mereka ini semuanya jenis parasit, kenapa mesti nak letakkan lagi untuk bertanding? Kata Pak Lah, mahu banteras korupsi dan mahu berkhidmat untuk rakyat. Kalau betul, kenapa buat menda yang rakyat tak mahu? Company anak Pak Lah, Scomi tu, nilai sahamnya naik 1000% sebaik sahaja Pak Lah jadi PM. Tambah lagi company tu asalnya buat kondom ajer, right now dah expand into multiple business field. Dapat pulak kontrak dari PETRONAS. Bukan nak kata jealous, tapi this only happens after Pak Lah jadi PM. What a coincidence?
Kalau rakyat masih lagi mahu bersama Barisan Nasional, aku pun tak tahu nak kata apa-apa lah. Kita hormati saja kehendak rakyat. Yang pentingnya, aku takkan lupa janji-janji manis BN dan aku akan tuntut janji-janji BN bila aku tamat tempoh scholarship dengan PETRONAS. Tak kiralah menerusi saluran apa-apa pun, tapi aku tahu aku mesti tuntut janji-janji diorang kalau diorang menang. Sama juga dengan BA, kalau diorang menang majoriti which is impossible, aku akan tetap tuntut.
Memori Duka - Sons of Adam
Secara tiba-tiba aku mengingatimu
Di kamar sepi malam syahdu
Inikah katanya rindu
Sengsara tiada terhingga
Setelah perpisahan pun berlalu
Terdengar lagu cinta membawa kesayuan
Membangkitkan hasrat yang terluka
Lalu aku terdiam pada lena yang panjang
Terurailah rahsia yang terpendam
Bertahun dalam derita
Tanpamu aku melara
Berbekalkan saat mimpiku di perjalanan ini
Pemergian dirimu putuslah cinta yang lama
Menghentam diriku dalam memori
Malam kian memaksa lagu menghanyut pilu
Wajah-wajah duka pun hilang
Jika tersua lagi mungkin aku menangis
Menahan getaran hati yang musnah
Sepanjang hari ini sebenarnya tak ada apa yang aku buat. Duduk meleser di bilik sambil-sambil tengok tv. Penyakit malas datang macam ombak ganas bila aku habis 2 midterm baru-baru ni. Achievement aku paling besar dalam weekend ni pun ialah dapat pergi ke gym and also download lagu Memori Duka tu. Aku memang suka lagu tu, aku suka humming or nyanyi nyanyi lagu tu kalau aku sorang-sorang. Cumanya aku tak pernah tahu lirik penuh. Entah apa kemaruknya aku suka lagu tu, aku pun tak tahu.
Malam ni aku di Fenske Lab untuk buat sizing distillation tower. Dalam pada tu, aku terfikir beberapa perkara. Mungkin ini satu hal yang redundant tapi aku tak mampu untuk keluarkan dari kepala otak aku. Ada beberapa perkara yang aku menyesal aku tak buat dalam hidup aku. Dan aku terfikir apa akan jadi kalau aku buat menda-menda tu. Apakah akan menukarkan keadaan aku sekarang atau pun ianya tetap sama saja?
1) Hari Anugerah Cemerlang Ko-kurikulum 1997.
Kenapa aku tak terfikir untuk amik mic sebelum aku conduct Alam Shah wind orchestra and sebut nama ayah aku in front of the public? Aku memang nak sangat ayah aku hadir pada hari tu sebabnya aku menang Anugerah Setiausaha Terbaik 1997, anugerah yang pertama sekali sekolah perkenalkan. Aku menang pun sebab aku terlibat secara aktif dalam Kadet Pancaragam sekolah. Band menang 5 anugerah pada hari tu, semua kelab makan asap ajer ari tu tengok Drum Major Band naik pentas. Tak putus-putus cikgu-cikgu datang jumpa aku and ucap tahniah. Entah, itu tak penting sangat bagi aku. Yang penting, aku nak tengok ayah aku datang and tengok aku beraksi atas pentas sebagai konduktor. Aku nak bagitau ayah aku yang band pada waktu tu sangat penting dalam hidup aku. And aku nak tujukan persembahan terakhir aku sebagai Pengarah Muzik Kadet Pancaragam SAS pada hari tu pada ayah aku. A bit terharu jugak sebab kawan-kawan Form 5 semua bagi standing ovation bila aku habis conduct dua lagu, satu lagu klasik and satu lagu medley melayu klasik.
2) 13 Ogos 1999, KLIA
Kenapa aku tak cakap kat Asiah yang aku suka dia waktu dia datang ke airport? Aku ambil kesempatankah kalau aku cakap aku suka dia waktu dia tengah menangis tersedu-sedu depan aku? Kenapa aku tak pernah bagitau kat dia yang aku pernah rindu pada dia sampai menitik air mata aku tahan rindu? Kenapalah aku tak pernah terus-terang dengan dia bila aku tahu dia accident dulu, aku menangis macam budak kecik sebab takut dia 'pergi' dulu sebelum aku. Sebab aku takut aku takkan dapat jumpa dia lagi. Maybe sebab tu kot aku asyik in and out when it comes to relationship sebab aku tak boleh nak buang dia dari fikiran aku. 5 tahun dah berlalu. Wallahu'alam, God knows the best.
Mungkin waktu ni aku terfikir pasal parallel world. Parallel world is actually an idea arises from the theories of quantum mechanic which the idea revolves around the possibility to have many world based in every possible decision taken in our life. Who knows, maybe ada menda-menda ni and maybe tak ada.
Tapi apa-apa pun aku tetap bersyukur dengan apa yang ada sekarang ni. Mungkin ada reason yang bukan bersifat immediate yang aku harus nampak instantaneously. Mak Long Kesuma selalu pesan pada aku, apa yang berlaku mesti ada hikmahnya. Buat masa ni aku wajib bersabar dan redha dengan apa yang dah jadi. Hidup seperti biasa. No regret, as William Parrish had said in Meet Joe Black.
Saturday, March 20, 2004
Ayam: ko kenal tak husbang nurul izzah
Aku: tak
Aku: kenapa ngan husband dia
Aku: aku dengar hsuband dia engineer shell kan?
Ayam: sajer je
Ayam: eng shell, bagus gile
Ayam: tak kena aper2 ke. kawen ngan anak tokoh refromase. hehehehe
Aku: shell ni multinational company, bukan nyer state owned company
Aku: cara practise dia lain. global corporate tak cam m'sia
Aku: in fact..any corporate company should not behave like state owned company
Ayam: hehehee. tue yg pet nak jadi - multinasional of choice
Aku: unfortunately x dpt beb...x dpt
Ayam: oit syawal nie dak pet kan
Aku: as long the company is gripped by the govt - we're screwed!
Aku: ha ah, syawal dak pet
Ayam: susah la anak mamak jadi advisor
Aku: dia amik political science major
Ayam: oooo
Aku: dia gempak siot dlm bab ni, serius shit
Aku: patut jadik political aide siot
Aku: dia nye analysis power
Ayam: hhehehe, dah ader org offer dier ke
Aku: should be given a chance laa. blom la
Aku: sbb dia ni cam ko la ... underground
Aku: only kenkawan yg rapat ajer
Aku: yg selalu discuss pasal politik
Aku: dia ni skang ni tgh fokus malaysian election ni
Ayam: dier kat aner skang
Aku: michigan
Ayam: bagus bagus
Aku: mei ni abih la study
Ayam: faiz camner
Aku: dia tukar major byk kali siot
Aku: faiz?
Ayam: anak sahri
Aku: dia kat DC skang ni
Ayam: bapak dier still bertanding
Ayam: hehehehe, bagus bagus
Ayam: jemaah korang nampak kuat
Ayam: apsal prinsip ke busy
Aku: haa? camne
Aku: tak paham aa
Aku: btw, aku nyer laptop ni lately bangang
Aku: dia leh crash tetiba jek
Ayam: okke
Aku: kalo aku x reply msg ko lame, maksudnyer system kong aa tu
Ayam: crash la yer
Ayam: yo fred aku kena beransur la
Ayam: ader keje skit
Aku: hu uh. allrite, selamat mengundi
Ayam: nak jejln kat luar
Aku: wokeh
Aku: usha awek ke?
Ayam: tengok development...heehehe
Aku: ke ko still ngan awek lame ko?
Ayam: kluar la ke kajang. yg mane nie
Aku: ehh...yg tua setahun tu
Ayam: heeheh, yg dok shah alam ke?
Aku: ko on lagi ke
Ayam: hahahaha
Aku: ehh baper ramai awek ko ade ni, player ekkk
Ayam: biler aku citer ngan ko nie
Aku: ade
Aku: ko citer kat aku pasal awek ko..yg dia tua setahun
Ayam: ader la awek nak dekat 2 thn
Aku: satu skool ngan ko kat aussie
Aku: still orang yg same ek
Ayam: aku rase lain le
Ayam: aku mmg suke jenis tue sethn
Ayam: ahhahahaaa
Aku: it's ok. anyone u like dude
Aku: anyone u like - go full nine yards if u need to
Aku: as long it makes u happy
Aku: aku stay single ajer lagi
Ayam: cheers mate
Aku: tunggu la sape sape nak rekomen
Aku: ok, ciao beb
Ayam: takper life start at 40, nanty aku intro la kat ko
Ayam: ok la. salam reformasi
Ayam: babai
Ayam ni atau nama betulnya Nizam, member aku sejak dari Form 1 di Alam Shah. Sama-sama budak Silat Gayong, sama-sama budak kediaman Aminuddin Baki, sama-sama jadi pengawas, sama-sama gi interview petronas scholarship. Now dah habis study kat Australia under PETRONAS scholarship, balik M'sia and nak kerja dengan PETRONAS. Penyokong kuat Keadilan ni...selalu escort Auntie Wan kalau auntie wan visit anak lelaki dia, Ihsan di Australia sana.
Aku: tak
Aku: kenapa ngan husband dia
Aku: aku dengar hsuband dia engineer shell kan?
Ayam: sajer je
Ayam: eng shell, bagus gile
Ayam: tak kena aper2 ke. kawen ngan anak tokoh refromase. hehehehe
Aku: shell ni multinational company, bukan nyer state owned company
Aku: cara practise dia lain. global corporate tak cam m'sia
Aku: in fact..any corporate company should not behave like state owned company
Ayam: hehehee. tue yg pet nak jadi - multinasional of choice
Aku: unfortunately x dpt beb...x dpt
Ayam: oit syawal nie dak pet kan
Aku: as long the company is gripped by the govt - we're screwed!
Aku: ha ah, syawal dak pet
Ayam: susah la anak mamak jadi advisor
Aku: dia amik political science major
Ayam: oooo
Aku: dia gempak siot dlm bab ni, serius shit
Aku: patut jadik political aide siot
Aku: dia nye analysis power
Ayam: hhehehe, dah ader org offer dier ke
Aku: should be given a chance laa. blom la
Aku: sbb dia ni cam ko la ... underground
Aku: only kenkawan yg rapat ajer
Aku: yg selalu discuss pasal politik
Aku: dia ni skang ni tgh fokus malaysian election ni
Ayam: dier kat aner skang
Aku: michigan
Ayam: bagus bagus
Aku: mei ni abih la study
Ayam: faiz camner
Aku: dia tukar major byk kali siot
Aku: faiz?
Ayam: anak sahri
Aku: dia kat DC skang ni
Ayam: bapak dier still bertanding
Ayam: hehehehe, bagus bagus
Ayam: jemaah korang nampak kuat
Ayam: apsal prinsip ke busy
Aku: haa? camne
Aku: tak paham aa
Aku: btw, aku nyer laptop ni lately bangang
Aku: dia leh crash tetiba jek
Ayam: okke
Aku: kalo aku x reply msg ko lame, maksudnyer system kong aa tu
Ayam: crash la yer
Ayam: yo fred aku kena beransur la
Ayam: ader keje skit
Aku: hu uh. allrite, selamat mengundi
Ayam: nak jejln kat luar
Aku: wokeh
Aku: usha awek ke?
Ayam: tengok development...heehehe
Aku: ke ko still ngan awek lame ko?
Ayam: kluar la ke kajang. yg mane nie
Aku: ehh...yg tua setahun tu
Ayam: heeheh, yg dok shah alam ke?
Aku: ko on lagi ke
Ayam: hahahaha
Aku: ehh baper ramai awek ko ade ni, player ekkk
Ayam: biler aku citer ngan ko nie
Aku: ade
Aku: ko citer kat aku pasal awek ko..yg dia tua setahun
Ayam: ader la awek nak dekat 2 thn
Aku: satu skool ngan ko kat aussie
Aku: still orang yg same ek
Ayam: aku rase lain le
Ayam: aku mmg suke jenis tue sethn
Ayam: ahhahahaaa
Aku: it's ok. anyone u like dude
Aku: anyone u like - go full nine yards if u need to
Aku: as long it makes u happy
Aku: aku stay single ajer lagi
Ayam: cheers mate
Aku: tunggu la sape sape nak rekomen
Aku: ok, ciao beb
Ayam: takper life start at 40, nanty aku intro la kat ko
Ayam: ok la. salam reformasi
Ayam: babai
Ayam ni atau nama betulnya Nizam, member aku sejak dari Form 1 di Alam Shah. Sama-sama budak Silat Gayong, sama-sama budak kediaman Aminuddin Baki, sama-sama jadi pengawas, sama-sama gi interview petronas scholarship. Now dah habis study kat Australia under PETRONAS scholarship, balik M'sia and nak kerja dengan PETRONAS. Penyokong kuat Keadilan ni...selalu escort Auntie Wan kalau auntie wan visit anak lelaki dia, Ihsan di Australia sana.
Mimpi Lagi
Aku mimpi aneh lagi. Kali ni aku mimpikan papa, along and pak long. Aku ingat lagi apa yang aku cakap dalam mimpi tu pada Along. Sama macam apa yang aku email pada dia kira-kira tiga tahun dulu. "Where were you before this? You can't just simply walk into my life now and start preaching what is good and what is bad for me!". Dalam mimpi aku tu juga ada Pak Long yang seolah-olah jadi orang tengah. Orang tengah untuk apa? Dan kenapa? Entah, aku pun tak baper sure sebab penghujungnya samar-samar. Yang aku tahu emosi aku waktu tu emosi orang tengah marah. Setakat ni dah dua kali Pak Long muncul dalam mimpi-mimpi aku. Pertama kali dulu aku mimpikan Pak Long datang jumpa aku untuk bawa aku pergi tengok jenazah atuk. Aku menangis dalam mimpi aku tu. Sedar-sedar bantal aku basah dengan air mata and pelupuk mata aku basah, bukan dengan air liur, ok?
Kemudian aku muncul pulak kat situasi yang lain. Ada this one lady yang aku kenal through chatting panggil aku, "abang" in the most intimate intonation. Wowwieee...aku pun tak pasti apa hubungan aku dengan dia dalam mimpi tu. But nak ke mana-mana pun dia akan sentiasa bersama aku and kalau dia nak pergi ke mana-mana dia minta izin dari aku.
Hmm..ada seorang awek ni yang aku pernah minat dan suka, sama macam aku suka Asiah dulu. Dia kata dia pernah mimpikan dia datang jauh-jauh dari UK untuk bersama aku di New York City (Apsal NYC? Apsal tak State College ke... Philadelphia ke..dekat la sket kan?). Kemudian katanya lagi kami melintas jalan sama-sama dan dia berpaut pada lengan aku dulu. Then katanya lagi lepas tu aku dengan selamba badaknya pegang tangan dia and kami sama-sama berjalan-jalan di NYC. Cukup dengan berpegangan tangan walau pun tak berkata apa-apa pun. Katanya, ada semacam satu perasaan yang nyaman bila dia berpegangan tangan denganku dan dia rasa seolah-olah mimpi dia macam satu realiti. Betapa aku waktu tu memang berharap sangat pun mimpi dia tu jadi realiti.
Tapi sayangnya hubungan kami dah pun berakhir sebelum sempat menghasilkan apa-apa. Mungkin disebabkan kebodohan dan keegoan masing-masing. Ahh..kadang-kadang datang rasa rindu nak berbual-bual di telefon tapi apakan daya..segalanya dah tamat. Dia masih lagi marah pada aku. Agaknya sudah berkerat rotan berpatah arang dengan aku. Tak apalah, aku redha saja. Aku simpanlah elok-elok kenangan ni dalam poket ingatan.
Mimpi..mimpi..banyak mainnya dari yang betulnya.
Aku mimpi aneh lagi. Kali ni aku mimpikan papa, along and pak long. Aku ingat lagi apa yang aku cakap dalam mimpi tu pada Along. Sama macam apa yang aku email pada dia kira-kira tiga tahun dulu. "Where were you before this? You can't just simply walk into my life now and start preaching what is good and what is bad for me!". Dalam mimpi aku tu juga ada Pak Long yang seolah-olah jadi orang tengah. Orang tengah untuk apa? Dan kenapa? Entah, aku pun tak baper sure sebab penghujungnya samar-samar. Yang aku tahu emosi aku waktu tu emosi orang tengah marah. Setakat ni dah dua kali Pak Long muncul dalam mimpi-mimpi aku. Pertama kali dulu aku mimpikan Pak Long datang jumpa aku untuk bawa aku pergi tengok jenazah atuk. Aku menangis dalam mimpi aku tu. Sedar-sedar bantal aku basah dengan air mata and pelupuk mata aku basah, bukan dengan air liur, ok?
Kemudian aku muncul pulak kat situasi yang lain. Ada this one lady yang aku kenal through chatting panggil aku, "abang" in the most intimate intonation. Wowwieee...aku pun tak pasti apa hubungan aku dengan dia dalam mimpi tu. But nak ke mana-mana pun dia akan sentiasa bersama aku and kalau dia nak pergi ke mana-mana dia minta izin dari aku.
Hmm..ada seorang awek ni yang aku pernah minat dan suka, sama macam aku suka Asiah dulu. Dia kata dia pernah mimpikan dia datang jauh-jauh dari UK untuk bersama aku di New York City (Apsal NYC? Apsal tak State College ke... Philadelphia ke..dekat la sket kan?). Kemudian katanya lagi kami melintas jalan sama-sama dan dia berpaut pada lengan aku dulu. Then katanya lagi lepas tu aku dengan selamba badaknya pegang tangan dia and kami sama-sama berjalan-jalan di NYC. Cukup dengan berpegangan tangan walau pun tak berkata apa-apa pun. Katanya, ada semacam satu perasaan yang nyaman bila dia berpegangan tangan denganku dan dia rasa seolah-olah mimpi dia macam satu realiti. Betapa aku waktu tu memang berharap sangat pun mimpi dia tu jadi realiti.
Tapi sayangnya hubungan kami dah pun berakhir sebelum sempat menghasilkan apa-apa. Mungkin disebabkan kebodohan dan keegoan masing-masing. Ahh..kadang-kadang datang rasa rindu nak berbual-bual di telefon tapi apakan daya..segalanya dah tamat. Dia masih lagi marah pada aku. Agaknya sudah berkerat rotan berpatah arang dengan aku. Tak apalah, aku redha saja. Aku simpanlah elok-elok kenangan ni dalam poket ingatan.
Mimpi..mimpi..banyak mainnya dari yang betulnya.