Alhamdulillah, finally I managed to get a client in Technip Sdn Bhd. It's an OnG (oil & gas)company and it is a goldmine to many PDUTs. Yeah I know, it wasn't easy because it was tough to get here. Now with the security measure has been heightened, outsiders are no longer allowed to walk in to the office. In fact just now I had to interview my new client at the visitor's lounge on ground floor.
Well, I now have a window to more clients in Technip. Immediately after the appointment, he referred me to another two of his friends.
Like the quote in Cinta, "Kalau kita hendak, mesti ada jalan kan?".
By the way, I received a phone call from a friend this afternoon informing that he tentatively has a project for my company this coming July in Pahang. This project requires creative design for the concept of this event. But of course, I have to sit down with him and discuss what is the breakdown of this project and how can we make it easier for both of us. Hmmm...Pak Lah punya event? Hehehehe..this is the time to make money from UMNO Inc.
Alrite, time to go to gym!
Thursday, January 25, 2007
"Sometimes when you love someone very much, you have to go through every tear, every heartache and every pain. Because in the end,it’s not how you love but how much you hold on."
Hmm...just had a conversation with Dato' Syed Fakhri Barakbah over the phone. Who is he? At first, I didn't know.
I met him at one food court while I was approaching one person who looks like someone I knew from the past. He, being a jovial person and quite patronizing, invited me to sit down with them and offered to buy me teh tarik. Next thing I know, he wrote his phone number on my namecard and asked me to call him afterwards.
So I called him today. I asked him, when shall I meet him and what is the purpose of the meeting. He said, possibly next Saturday somewhere in KL area. "I want to ask you about your purpose of life. I want to know why are you doing what you are doing with teaching at orphanage house, co-founding an IT company and becoming unit trust agent. Maybe we can get clarify one or two things about few things".
Hmmm...I didn't know he is Dato'. I just call him Uncle when I first met him at food court in Menara IBM (the old one). And now he wants to discuss my purpose of life. Gheeezzzz....
Oh yeah, he promised me to buy a book, Islam and Secularism, for me. Let see if he keeps his word firmly.
Some info about him which I found over the net.
Dato’ Syed Fahkri Barakbah
Dato’ Syed Fahkri Barakbah is the Financial Advisor to the President/Chief Executive Officer of Tenaga Nasional Berhad having previously been Vice President of Finance. His prior appointments include Group Finance Director of Sime Darby Berhad, a regional conglomerate, and Group Finance Director or Golden Hope Plantations Berhad. He qualified with a Bachelor of Economics (Hons.) from the University of Malaya and is a Fellow of the Institute of Chartered Accountants in England & Wales having qualified with Peat Marwick Mitchell & Co. in London.
Hmm...just had a conversation with Dato' Syed Fakhri Barakbah over the phone. Who is he? At first, I didn't know.
I met him at one food court while I was approaching one person who looks like someone I knew from the past. He, being a jovial person and quite patronizing, invited me to sit down with them and offered to buy me teh tarik. Next thing I know, he wrote his phone number on my namecard and asked me to call him afterwards.
So I called him today. I asked him, when shall I meet him and what is the purpose of the meeting. He said, possibly next Saturday somewhere in KL area. "I want to ask you about your purpose of life. I want to know why are you doing what you are doing with teaching at orphanage house, co-founding an IT company and becoming unit trust agent. Maybe we can get clarify one or two things about few things".
Hmmm...I didn't know he is Dato'. I just call him Uncle when I first met him at food court in Menara IBM (the old one). And now he wants to discuss my purpose of life. Gheeezzzz....
Oh yeah, he promised me to buy a book, Islam and Secularism, for me. Let see if he keeps his word firmly.
Some info about him which I found over the net.
Dato’ Syed Fahkri Barakbah
Dato’ Syed Fahkri Barakbah is the Financial Advisor to the President/Chief Executive Officer of Tenaga Nasional Berhad having previously been Vice President of Finance. His prior appointments include Group Finance Director of Sime Darby Berhad, a regional conglomerate, and Group Finance Director or Golden Hope Plantations Berhad. He qualified with a Bachelor of Economics (Hons.) from the University of Malaya and is a Fellow of the Institute of Chartered Accountants in England & Wales having qualified with Peat Marwick Mitchell & Co. in London.
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
One Day in A Class
My students from the orphanage house are from T'ganu. Sometimes they speak T'ganu accent among themselves. Although I repeatedly reminding them about not using Bahasa during the class, yet they still use it. Perhaps language barrier is the hardest thing to break till we get stuck in some foreign land.
One day I was teaching them how to solve some Math problems. I gave them UPSR questions and told them that the questions were taken from some boarding school and it was meant for final exam for Form 2 students there. Everyone was surprised and anxious. I could see in their eyes, "Oh shit..these questions must be tough!".
And so everyone took the simple test for a one good hour. Later after I gave them the answer, none came with all correct answers. The highest mistakes was 14 out of 40 questions. Then I explained to them that the paper was actually for standard 6 students. It's kinda frustrated to know that they couldn't even get the basic math right. Especially when the questions were written in bahasa. What more if the questions were written in English? Definitely a disaster!
So I asked them to do the corrections. One student casually replied, "Oh yes, baby!". I spontaneously replied, "I'm sorry. Ayuni, I'm someone else's baby!" and smiled to her.
The whole class broke to a hearty laughter.
My students from the orphanage house are from T'ganu. Sometimes they speak T'ganu accent among themselves. Although I repeatedly reminding them about not using Bahasa during the class, yet they still use it. Perhaps language barrier is the hardest thing to break till we get stuck in some foreign land.
One day I was teaching them how to solve some Math problems. I gave them UPSR questions and told them that the questions were taken from some boarding school and it was meant for final exam for Form 2 students there. Everyone was surprised and anxious. I could see in their eyes, "Oh shit..these questions must be tough!".
And so everyone took the simple test for a one good hour. Later after I gave them the answer, none came with all correct answers. The highest mistakes was 14 out of 40 questions. Then I explained to them that the paper was actually for standard 6 students. It's kinda frustrated to know that they couldn't even get the basic math right. Especially when the questions were written in bahasa. What more if the questions were written in English? Definitely a disaster!
So I asked them to do the corrections. One student casually replied, "Oh yes, baby!". I spontaneously replied, "I'm sorry. Ayuni, I'm someone else's baby!" and smiled to her.
The whole class broke to a hearty laughter.
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Aku sekarang tengah melepak di kedai makan India. The only reason aku lepak kat sini sebab di sini ada free wireless. Hebatkan? Aku menunggu-nunggu bilakah kedai Melayu akan ada wireless internet untuk tampung keperluan orang menggunakan internet.
Aku pun juga pelik bila baca analisis ekonomi pasal orang Mamak berniaga. Mengikut kajian, katanya industri yang dijana oleh kedai makan Mamak memberi pulangan RM 4 billion setahun. Aku terfikir, kenapa kedai makan orang Mamak (atau pun Hindu totok) mampu mengaut keuntungan yang besar tapi tidak dengan kedai makan orang Melayu? Apakah kerana orang kita belum cukup hitamnya? Atau mungkin sebab layanan cokia yang memang tak semenggah?
Aku suggest kalau kita boleh buat pilot project dengan mengumpul dana sebanyak RM 300K untuk buka satu kedai mamak yang lengkap (serve North Indian food, Western food and Malay food). Kemudian kita hire agent yang boleh membawa orang-orang India muslim dari India sana untuk jadi pelayan di sini. Kemudian lagi cash register kena letak orang Melayu. Manager mesti orang Melayu yang memang pandai senyum, pandai cakap and pandai bahasa Tamil (Makcik Jah jiran aku dulu memang pandai cakap Tamil). Kemudian lagi jangan lupa letak tv besar and skrin untuk tayang football game (especially time EPL or UEFA Cup). Lagi cun kalau ada wireless internet yang subscribe corporate broadband connection. Memang masyuk budak-budak melepak kat sini ajer la download movies.
Aku yakin kalau buat camtu, memang gerenti boleh maju. Duit keuntungan yang terkumpul pulak boleh digunakan untuk menjana ekonomi yang lain-lain. Sebagai contoh digunakan untuk beli tanah di lokasi strategik untuk tujuan pembangunan tapak komersil. Sebahagiannya boleh dijadikan tabung biasiswa. Cash mesti ada dalam tangan. Surplus masukkan dalam mutual fund yang bagus (yang boleh bagi return between 14% - 15% per year macam Public Mutual Berhad bagi..hehehehe) untuk pastikan wang berkembang biak.
Wahhh..aku dah boleh nampak duit juta-juta dah beranak-anak dalam kepala otak aku. Pokoknya sekarang, macam mana nak kumpul duit RM 300K?
Aku pun juga pelik bila baca analisis ekonomi pasal orang Mamak berniaga. Mengikut kajian, katanya industri yang dijana oleh kedai makan Mamak memberi pulangan RM 4 billion setahun. Aku terfikir, kenapa kedai makan orang Mamak (atau pun Hindu totok) mampu mengaut keuntungan yang besar tapi tidak dengan kedai makan orang Melayu? Apakah kerana orang kita belum cukup hitamnya? Atau mungkin sebab layanan cokia yang memang tak semenggah?
Aku suggest kalau kita boleh buat pilot project dengan mengumpul dana sebanyak RM 300K untuk buka satu kedai mamak yang lengkap (serve North Indian food, Western food and Malay food). Kemudian kita hire agent yang boleh membawa orang-orang India muslim dari India sana untuk jadi pelayan di sini. Kemudian lagi cash register kena letak orang Melayu. Manager mesti orang Melayu yang memang pandai senyum, pandai cakap and pandai bahasa Tamil (Makcik Jah jiran aku dulu memang pandai cakap Tamil). Kemudian lagi jangan lupa letak tv besar and skrin untuk tayang football game (especially time EPL or UEFA Cup). Lagi cun kalau ada wireless internet yang subscribe corporate broadband connection. Memang masyuk budak-budak melepak kat sini ajer la download movies.
Aku yakin kalau buat camtu, memang gerenti boleh maju. Duit keuntungan yang terkumpul pulak boleh digunakan untuk menjana ekonomi yang lain-lain. Sebagai contoh digunakan untuk beli tanah di lokasi strategik untuk tujuan pembangunan tapak komersil. Sebahagiannya boleh dijadikan tabung biasiswa. Cash mesti ada dalam tangan. Surplus masukkan dalam mutual fund yang bagus (yang boleh bagi return between 14% - 15% per year macam Public Mutual Berhad bagi..hehehehe) untuk pastikan wang berkembang biak.
Wahhh..aku dah boleh nampak duit juta-juta dah beranak-anak dalam kepala otak aku. Pokoknya sekarang, macam mana nak kumpul duit RM 300K?
Monday, January 15, 2007
Sunday, January 14, 2007
Last Friday night ago I came home drenched with rainwater after I had tuition at Taman Melawati. I was thinking to myself, "Why do I need to go through all this?". It's Friday night and I suppose to have a rest at home. Again it is a matter of choice for myself. I had chosen to spend 1 good hour teaching Science on Friday night at Taman Melawati as charity work. Therefore, it is not right for me to complaint or to whine.
It has been two weeks since i started teaching Math and Science tuition at Rumah Anak Yatim Bakawali, Taman Melawati. At first, my students were a bit cautious (probably it is a wrong word to describe their reaction) but later in the first week they became friendly and quite jolly.
As usual, I told them about rules in my class. Number one; everyone must ask questions. Number two; learn to speak louder. Number three; everyone must have paper and pen/pencil during Math tuition and finally number four; don't forget to bring the brain as well to the classroom.
Last week I gave them an assigment. The assignment is to write to me of what they want to be in future. They must describe to me what is their goal and reasosn why they choose their goal. In addition to that, I also stressed that they must include challenges and strategies they adopt to overcome the aforementioned challenges. Some wrote to me in short paragraph and some returned to me with essay.
All I can say after reading through the writings is they don't know much about what they want to be. They based their goal, I mean, their ambition, on common perception and society's perspective. For example, to be a medical doctor one must obtain Ph.D. Hmmm, I'm pretty sure this is so wrong!
I'm now writing a reply letter to everyone personally. I know it's gonna take sometimes but it is important for them to realize that some people do care about what they want to be. Perhaps, tell them to do more research on their goals so they have better understanding of what they want to be in the future.
Anyway, I need a few volunteers who can teach English to these kids. I am now teaching them Math and Science for PMR. I think I've got someone to teach Math and Science for SPM, but still we need somebody to teach them English. Their English is so poor, seriously!
Anybody want to volunteer?
It has been two weeks since i started teaching Math and Science tuition at Rumah Anak Yatim Bakawali, Taman Melawati. At first, my students were a bit cautious (probably it is a wrong word to describe their reaction) but later in the first week they became friendly and quite jolly.
As usual, I told them about rules in my class. Number one; everyone must ask questions. Number two; learn to speak louder. Number three; everyone must have paper and pen/pencil during Math tuition and finally number four; don't forget to bring the brain as well to the classroom.
Last week I gave them an assigment. The assignment is to write to me of what they want to be in future. They must describe to me what is their goal and reasosn why they choose their goal. In addition to that, I also stressed that they must include challenges and strategies they adopt to overcome the aforementioned challenges. Some wrote to me in short paragraph and some returned to me with essay.
All I can say after reading through the writings is they don't know much about what they want to be. They based their goal, I mean, their ambition, on common perception and society's perspective. For example, to be a medical doctor one must obtain Ph.D. Hmmm, I'm pretty sure this is so wrong!
I'm now writing a reply letter to everyone personally. I know it's gonna take sometimes but it is important for them to realize that some people do care about what they want to be. Perhaps, tell them to do more research on their goals so they have better understanding of what they want to be in the future.
Anyway, I need a few volunteers who can teach English to these kids. I am now teaching them Math and Science for PMR. I think I've got someone to teach Math and Science for SPM, but still we need somebody to teach them English. Their English is so poor, seriously!
Anybody want to volunteer?
Thursday, January 11, 2007
My Wishlist 2007
1. My friend Seri to call/sms me to ask for having lunch/tea together (very, very, very unlikely to happen after knowing my friend for almost a year over).
2. Petrol price to go down.
3. Toll fare to go down.
4. Pak Lah to step down and let someone who's capable of running the country more effective to be the PM.
5. Get cash investment of RM 1 million every month consistently.
Heheheheh..seriously, can all my wishes be granted? Seriously?
1. My friend Seri to call/sms me to ask for having lunch/tea together (very, very, very unlikely to happen after knowing my friend for almost a year over).
2. Petrol price to go down.
3. Toll fare to go down.
4. Pak Lah to step down and let someone who's capable of running the country more effective to be the PM.
5. Get cash investment of RM 1 million every month consistently.
Heheheheh..seriously, can all my wishes be granted? Seriously?
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
Kisah Penunggu
Hujung minggu sudah banyak cerita pasal family yang aku tak pernah tahu sampai ke pengetahuan aku. Masa tu anjang satu keluarga dan ucu datang ke rumah bertandang jumpa kami. Memang aku suka bersembang dengan makcik-makcik aku. Banyaklah benda-benda yang aku tanya pada diorang.
Ucu kata sepupu aku ternampak langsuir bersidai dekat dengan rumah atuk aku di Tanjung Karang. Hmmm....ternampak langsuir? Well, kata makcik aku sebenarnya hantu tu dah lama duduk kat situ cuma tak menzahirkan diri ajer. Mungkin sebab sepupu aku tu mulut celupar sikit, sebab tu lah dia nampak.
Yang tu aku tak rasa pelik sangat. Yang paling peliknya bila dia kata, sepupu aku berjumpa dengan 'penunggu' kat rumah atuk. Haiii..siapa pulak yang ada simpan saka ni? Setahu aku atuk memang tak ada saka saka.
Barulah terbongkar kisahnya yang rumah atuk aku tu setelah sekian lamanya dijaga oleh 3 orang. Or maybe I should call them spirits kot, rather than people. Ucu aku kata dia pergi berjumpa dengan Dato Harun Din untuk dapatkan penjelasan sebab dia tak tahan dengar orang fitnah atuk aku pasal atuk aku ada simpan saka. Orang kampung kata sejak dua menjak atuk aku sakit kena strok nih, diorang nampak benda-benda kat rumah atuk. Dato Harun Din beri dia panduan macam mana nak bersemuka dengan penunggu-penunggu rumah atuk nih.
Ucu aku pun buat exactly macam yang Dato suruh buat. And dia kata, memang betul dia bersemuka dengan tiga makhluk ni. Masing-masing perkenalkan diri sebagai moyang makcik aku. Kiranya cam, super grandmother to me lah. Ayah aku suruh Ucu describe macam mana rupa bentuknya moyang-moyang tu. Ayah aku memang cam siapa diorang sebab dia pernah berjumpa dengan moyang-moyang ni masa dia budak-budak. Kata ayah aku, moyang-moyang aku tu orang kuat agama dan mengajar agama di kampung kami.
Kata ruh-ruh ni, diorang dah lama ziarah rumah atuk aku. Diorang sedih sebab rumah atuk aku ditinggalkan begitu saja sejak atuk kena stroke dan pindah ke rumah pak long di lembah keramat. Dah 7 tahun atuk tinggalkan rumah atuk di situ. Dah tujuh tahun kami jarang berkumpul di rumah atuk untuk hari-hari perayaan.
Tapak rumah atuk tu memang tapak rumah keluarga sejak dari dulu lagi. Aku ingat lagi masa nak dibuatkan rumah baru untuk atuk masa aku kecik-kecik dulu. Rumah atuk dulu kalau kami berlari, memang nak roboh gamaknya. Tapi satu keluarga pakat gotong royong naikkan rumah baru untuk atuk. satu-satunya sisa yang tinggal dari rumah lama atuk ialah dapur di belakang yang masih gunakan atap nipah. Ayah aku lah yang pandai menganyam atap nipah untuk dapur tu.
Sepupu aku yang ternampak langsuir tu juga pernah terjumpa dengan ruh-ruh bertiga tu. Kata sepupu aku, super moyang tu pesan pada dia suruh jaga maknya dan juga adik-beradik. Aku pun pelik, kenapa sepupu aku saja jumpa? Kenapa tak aku? Kenapa tak along atau pun Kak Ita, sepupu aku anak pak long tu. Kata makcik aku, mungkin sebab makcik aku ni anak sulung perempuan dan suaminya juga anak sulung lelaki dan sepupu aku tu anak sulung lelaki. Jadi kombinasi tu yang membuatkan dia calon sesuai untuk disampaikan amanat keramat tuh. Kiranya camtulah.
Anyway, ayah aku kata dia memang tak hairan kalau benda-benda tu ada kat rumah sebab atuk aku ada kebolehan untuk tahu satu-satu menda walau pun secara fizikalnya kita rasa tak mungkin dia tahu. Kalau atuk larang buat satu-satu menda tu, ikutlah cakap dia. Kalu idak, memang suwey datang (aku selalu gak langgar cakap atuk aku). Tak pun, atuk boleh tahu kalau ada sapa-sapa datang dengan apa-apa niat walau pun lagi seminggu atau dua tiga hari orang tu nak datang. Mungkin sebab atuk sedar, dia bukan seorang saja orang tua di rumah.
Memang berita ni buat aku rasa creepy sikit nak jenguk rumah atuk. Aku memang dah lama benar tak balik ke Tanjung Karang. Ada lah dalam 5 tahun gamaknya. Tapi kalau aku balik pun, aku rasanya teruja juga dengan the fact yang rumah tu ada penghuni yang tak kelihatan. Yang menjaga suasana rumah dan juga keselamatan rumah. Padanlah aku rasa macam pelik, kenapa pokok mangga yang ada depan rumah atuk tu tak pernah dikebas buah-buahnya masa musim mangga. Sampaikan buah-buah tu busuk jatuh ke tanah. Tapi pisang-pisang di tepi jalan hala ke rumah atuk selalu lesap, tak dan nak tunggu masak. Agaknya ada 'orang' yang jaga rumah atuk dari diceroboh oleh orang-orang yang berperasaan jahat.
Hujung minggu sudah banyak cerita pasal family yang aku tak pernah tahu sampai ke pengetahuan aku. Masa tu anjang satu keluarga dan ucu datang ke rumah bertandang jumpa kami. Memang aku suka bersembang dengan makcik-makcik aku. Banyaklah benda-benda yang aku tanya pada diorang.
Ucu kata sepupu aku ternampak langsuir bersidai dekat dengan rumah atuk aku di Tanjung Karang. Hmmm....ternampak langsuir? Well, kata makcik aku sebenarnya hantu tu dah lama duduk kat situ cuma tak menzahirkan diri ajer. Mungkin sebab sepupu aku tu mulut celupar sikit, sebab tu lah dia nampak.
Yang tu aku tak rasa pelik sangat. Yang paling peliknya bila dia kata, sepupu aku berjumpa dengan 'penunggu' kat rumah atuk. Haiii..siapa pulak yang ada simpan saka ni? Setahu aku atuk memang tak ada saka saka.
Barulah terbongkar kisahnya yang rumah atuk aku tu setelah sekian lamanya dijaga oleh 3 orang. Or maybe I should call them spirits kot, rather than people. Ucu aku kata dia pergi berjumpa dengan Dato Harun Din untuk dapatkan penjelasan sebab dia tak tahan dengar orang fitnah atuk aku pasal atuk aku ada simpan saka. Orang kampung kata sejak dua menjak atuk aku sakit kena strok nih, diorang nampak benda-benda kat rumah atuk. Dato Harun Din beri dia panduan macam mana nak bersemuka dengan penunggu-penunggu rumah atuk nih.
Ucu aku pun buat exactly macam yang Dato suruh buat. And dia kata, memang betul dia bersemuka dengan tiga makhluk ni. Masing-masing perkenalkan diri sebagai moyang makcik aku. Kiranya cam, super grandmother to me lah. Ayah aku suruh Ucu describe macam mana rupa bentuknya moyang-moyang tu. Ayah aku memang cam siapa diorang sebab dia pernah berjumpa dengan moyang-moyang ni masa dia budak-budak. Kata ayah aku, moyang-moyang aku tu orang kuat agama dan mengajar agama di kampung kami.
Kata ruh-ruh ni, diorang dah lama ziarah rumah atuk aku. Diorang sedih sebab rumah atuk aku ditinggalkan begitu saja sejak atuk kena stroke dan pindah ke rumah pak long di lembah keramat. Dah 7 tahun atuk tinggalkan rumah atuk di situ. Dah tujuh tahun kami jarang berkumpul di rumah atuk untuk hari-hari perayaan.
Tapak rumah atuk tu memang tapak rumah keluarga sejak dari dulu lagi. Aku ingat lagi masa nak dibuatkan rumah baru untuk atuk masa aku kecik-kecik dulu. Rumah atuk dulu kalau kami berlari, memang nak roboh gamaknya. Tapi satu keluarga pakat gotong royong naikkan rumah baru untuk atuk. satu-satunya sisa yang tinggal dari rumah lama atuk ialah dapur di belakang yang masih gunakan atap nipah. Ayah aku lah yang pandai menganyam atap nipah untuk dapur tu.
Sepupu aku yang ternampak langsuir tu juga pernah terjumpa dengan ruh-ruh bertiga tu. Kata sepupu aku, super moyang tu pesan pada dia suruh jaga maknya dan juga adik-beradik. Aku pun pelik, kenapa sepupu aku saja jumpa? Kenapa tak aku? Kenapa tak along atau pun Kak Ita, sepupu aku anak pak long tu. Kata makcik aku, mungkin sebab makcik aku ni anak sulung perempuan dan suaminya juga anak sulung lelaki dan sepupu aku tu anak sulung lelaki. Jadi kombinasi tu yang membuatkan dia calon sesuai untuk disampaikan amanat keramat tuh. Kiranya camtulah.
Anyway, ayah aku kata dia memang tak hairan kalau benda-benda tu ada kat rumah sebab atuk aku ada kebolehan untuk tahu satu-satu menda walau pun secara fizikalnya kita rasa tak mungkin dia tahu. Kalau atuk larang buat satu-satu menda tu, ikutlah cakap dia. Kalu idak, memang suwey datang (aku selalu gak langgar cakap atuk aku). Tak pun, atuk boleh tahu kalau ada sapa-sapa datang dengan apa-apa niat walau pun lagi seminggu atau dua tiga hari orang tu nak datang. Mungkin sebab atuk sedar, dia bukan seorang saja orang tua di rumah.
Memang berita ni buat aku rasa creepy sikit nak jenguk rumah atuk. Aku memang dah lama benar tak balik ke Tanjung Karang. Ada lah dalam 5 tahun gamaknya. Tapi kalau aku balik pun, aku rasanya teruja juga dengan the fact yang rumah tu ada penghuni yang tak kelihatan. Yang menjaga suasana rumah dan juga keselamatan rumah. Padanlah aku rasa macam pelik, kenapa pokok mangga yang ada depan rumah atuk tu tak pernah dikebas buah-buahnya masa musim mangga. Sampaikan buah-buah tu busuk jatuh ke tanah. Tapi pisang-pisang di tepi jalan hala ke rumah atuk selalu lesap, tak dan nak tunggu masak. Agaknya ada 'orang' yang jaga rumah atuk dari diceroboh oleh orang-orang yang berperasaan jahat.
Thursday, January 04, 2007
A Night to Remember
Last night I came home from somewhere feeling empty. I felt restless during the whole journey home. It was a serious hollowness crept into the abyss of my heart. I know why I felt that way but I wouldn’t disclose it here. Later that night I decided to entertain myself by watching movie alone in KLCC. My mind was still replaying the moments I had before right in front of my eyes. Yeah, the brain got the cue pretty clear.
I lost my focus on the road and almost got into an accident with Satria. I smashed a bit of her side mirror before I managed to pull the brake and stopped right at the curb of a busy road in KL. Geeezzz…I guess it wasn’t worth to get killed just by indulging myself in this gloomy feeling.
For the first time in my life, I made a change in my style. I pulled out my shirt off the slacks. I usually dress pretty conservative whenever I’m in public but not last night. I even unbuttoned my first button from the top. I wasn’t being myself which was good for me because if I were myself, I wouldn’t stop wallowing and I would make fool of myself in front of everybody.
I know sometimes we have to say no to certain things we really want in our life. Maybe it’s not the time yet or maybe it’s not meant to be. A dear friend told me once, God has delayed something to happen to you because it is a special moment for you. We savor that moment greatly because it was hard-earned.
And the best way to say I care for you is not through words but through action. A selfless act. Despite the hectic schedule and the exhaustion, I managed to make time for the event. Although it wasn’t requested but I still came following my conscience.
The best part of last night was to see that face again. The worst part last night was to walk away from the face and pretending it was alright when deep down in my heart, I know it wasn’t alright at all. Luckily I don’t have to show it in public. Slowly I’m becoming good at masquerading myself in public.
A wise man advised me once, “Don’t show your weakness to people”. That’s what exactly I did last night.
Last night I came home from somewhere feeling empty. I felt restless during the whole journey home. It was a serious hollowness crept into the abyss of my heart. I know why I felt that way but I wouldn’t disclose it here. Later that night I decided to entertain myself by watching movie alone in KLCC. My mind was still replaying the moments I had before right in front of my eyes. Yeah, the brain got the cue pretty clear.
I lost my focus on the road and almost got into an accident with Satria. I smashed a bit of her side mirror before I managed to pull the brake and stopped right at the curb of a busy road in KL. Geeezzz…I guess it wasn’t worth to get killed just by indulging myself in this gloomy feeling.
For the first time in my life, I made a change in my style. I pulled out my shirt off the slacks. I usually dress pretty conservative whenever I’m in public but not last night. I even unbuttoned my first button from the top. I wasn’t being myself which was good for me because if I were myself, I wouldn’t stop wallowing and I would make fool of myself in front of everybody.
I know sometimes we have to say no to certain things we really want in our life. Maybe it’s not the time yet or maybe it’s not meant to be. A dear friend told me once, God has delayed something to happen to you because it is a special moment for you. We savor that moment greatly because it was hard-earned.
And the best way to say I care for you is not through words but through action. A selfless act. Despite the hectic schedule and the exhaustion, I managed to make time for the event. Although it wasn’t requested but I still came following my conscience.
The best part of last night was to see that face again. The worst part last night was to walk away from the face and pretending it was alright when deep down in my heart, I know it wasn’t alright at all. Luckily I don’t have to show it in public. Slowly I’m becoming good at masquerading myself in public.
A wise man advised me once, “Don’t show your weakness to people”. That’s what exactly I did last night.
Monday, January 01, 2007
New Year's Thought
Today is the first day of year 2007. As I am writing now, I don’t hear anything out there. Probably mane people are still not awaken by the glorious shine of the new year’s sun. Surely, many will still remember what they did last night to celebrate the coming of New Year. I myself took a stroll on a bike in KL after midnight, which where all the madness was. I saw a couple on a bike got sprayed with party foam on Jln P Ramlee. I was exactly behind them on my kapcai. When the morons got close to me and ready to spray me the foam, I said, “It’s not funny and you’re not being funny too. So, BACK OFF!”.
Luckily, they backed off. Or else I’d be bathed with white foam. A close resemblance to my shaving foam, except it is much drier.
Okay, let’s not be too philosophical about it. I’m sure many people share sweet and bitter memories last year - including myself.
I don’t have any new goals for year 2007. I just continue my journey to achieve my previous goals; becoming a millionaire by 35, owning my ultimate dream car Mercedes Benz S350L, sending my parents to Hajj and continue to become a kind and generous gentleman to my loved ones, relatives and loved ones. And who knows, later I may become a husband and a father (which I think very unlikely to happen in these two or three years from now).
A lot of people get exhausted to chase their dreams. Or sometimes they just get intimidated by their goals; feeling overwhelmed or simply ridicules their own dreams. I believe all the big goals need to carry some small goals which lead to them. These small goals are like arrows pointing to the final destination. By having this, we will not get lost in the excursion of hope and anticipation. Of course, any success is definitely accompanied by many failures. In fact, it almost becomes a pre-requisite for every success – to fail. Thomas A. Edison somberly claimed that he knows 999 ways of not creating light bulb. He didn’t say he knows 999 ways of failing to create light bulb.
It is all up to us on how to create perspective on our winnings and failures last year. I failed a few times myself. I failed to secure few projects. I failed to win a relationship. I failed to own something. Nonetheless, I remain steadfast. Some are meant for us and some just need to be done in the right way and at the right time. Some need some tweaks here and there and voila, you have it!
Apart of being stubborn and persistent in chasing the dreams (which are my natural traits), I believe people must share their goals with public. I mean, you’ve got a dream and you must tell it to people. However, people get scared when they are asked to do this. They fear people will say NO to their dreams. The fact is, nobody cares about your dream. Seriously. But who knows, maybe one or two people in the crowd may share your dreams as well. Perhaps they want to forge an alliance with you to achieve the same goals and the same dreams. Or maybe, they know the ways to help you to achieve your goals. Isn’t that sweet?
Simultaneously when you announce your goals to the public, your sub conscious mind will begin to work towards the goals. Your intention, your verbal announcement and your clarity of the goals – these will contribute to the success of achieving your goals. So friends, don’t lose sight on your goals. Visualize your prize when you achieve your goals. I always do that. I visualize who I want to be with in my future, what I want to have in my future and what kind of person I want to be in my future.
The past taught us how to embrace the future. And the real kick is, you’ve got to take action now because now will decide your future. Not the past.
One millionaire I met last week ask me this; 2007 will arrive in a few days and you must think what you need to do become what you want.
I shall leave the question to y’all.
Today is the first day of year 2007. As I am writing now, I don’t hear anything out there. Probably mane people are still not awaken by the glorious shine of the new year’s sun. Surely, many will still remember what they did last night to celebrate the coming of New Year. I myself took a stroll on a bike in KL after midnight, which where all the madness was. I saw a couple on a bike got sprayed with party foam on Jln P Ramlee. I was exactly behind them on my kapcai. When the morons got close to me and ready to spray me the foam, I said, “It’s not funny and you’re not being funny too. So, BACK OFF!”.
Luckily, they backed off. Or else I’d be bathed with white foam. A close resemblance to my shaving foam, except it is much drier.
Okay, let’s not be too philosophical about it. I’m sure many people share sweet and bitter memories last year - including myself.
I don’t have any new goals for year 2007. I just continue my journey to achieve my previous goals; becoming a millionaire by 35, owning my ultimate dream car Mercedes Benz S350L, sending my parents to Hajj and continue to become a kind and generous gentleman to my loved ones, relatives and loved ones. And who knows, later I may become a husband and a father (which I think very unlikely to happen in these two or three years from now).
A lot of people get exhausted to chase their dreams. Or sometimes they just get intimidated by their goals; feeling overwhelmed or simply ridicules their own dreams. I believe all the big goals need to carry some small goals which lead to them. These small goals are like arrows pointing to the final destination. By having this, we will not get lost in the excursion of hope and anticipation. Of course, any success is definitely accompanied by many failures. In fact, it almost becomes a pre-requisite for every success – to fail. Thomas A. Edison somberly claimed that he knows 999 ways of not creating light bulb. He didn’t say he knows 999 ways of failing to create light bulb.
It is all up to us on how to create perspective on our winnings and failures last year. I failed a few times myself. I failed to secure few projects. I failed to win a relationship. I failed to own something. Nonetheless, I remain steadfast. Some are meant for us and some just need to be done in the right way and at the right time. Some need some tweaks here and there and voila, you have it!
Apart of being stubborn and persistent in chasing the dreams (which are my natural traits), I believe people must share their goals with public. I mean, you’ve got a dream and you must tell it to people. However, people get scared when they are asked to do this. They fear people will say NO to their dreams. The fact is, nobody cares about your dream. Seriously. But who knows, maybe one or two people in the crowd may share your dreams as well. Perhaps they want to forge an alliance with you to achieve the same goals and the same dreams. Or maybe, they know the ways to help you to achieve your goals. Isn’t that sweet?
Simultaneously when you announce your goals to the public, your sub conscious mind will begin to work towards the goals. Your intention, your verbal announcement and your clarity of the goals – these will contribute to the success of achieving your goals. So friends, don’t lose sight on your goals. Visualize your prize when you achieve your goals. I always do that. I visualize who I want to be with in my future, what I want to have in my future and what kind of person I want to be in my future.
The past taught us how to embrace the future. And the real kick is, you’ve got to take action now because now will decide your future. Not the past.
One millionaire I met last week ask me this; 2007 will arrive in a few days and you must think what you need to do become what you want.
I shall leave the question to y’all.