Melangkah ke alam perkahwinan

22 November ini aku akan tamatkan zaman bujang. Menanti lama sungguh dari umur 27. Bermacam wanita aku berkenalan, bermacam hati aku cuba dekati, berbagai-bagai usaha untuk mencari - akhirnya aku bertemu dengan wanita yang inginkan aku sebagai mana aku inginkan dia.

Tenang saja untuk hari pernikahan. Moga dipermudahkan. Aku mahu cari bahagia bukan untuk sehari, tapi biar sampai pejam mata bersama dia.

Rasa Debar

Hati berdebar sebaik saja aku umumkan tentang hasrat aku. Sekarang perasaan yang real. Yang benar-benar menguji kesabaran dan komitmen aku pada satu perhubungan. Serious aku katakan, lemah kepala lutut aku bila terfikir risiko dan tanggungjawab yang bakal aku tanggung.

Tapi itulah evolusi kehidupan, kan? Dilahirkan ke dunia, membesar bersama keluarga, menjadi lelaki dewasa dan kembali mencari dan membina keluarganya sendiri. Aku harap aku jadi lelaki yang setia. Lelaki yang menjaga seisi keluarganya sebagaimana papa aku menjaga kami semua.

Doakan aku berjaya. Doakan aku jadi suami yang berguna, membahagiakan isterinya, dan menjadikan dia seluruh asbab kehidupanku.

Perihal mencari wang

Bila diri dah tersepit, sibuk nak mencari jalan penyelesaiannya, maka secara mudah ilham datang membantu.

Zaman ini ialah zaman informasi - cari apa maklumat pun boleh dapat. Skill mencari maklumat ni sangat penting. Nak-nak lagi bila nak cari maklumat untuk buat duit.

Aku nak cari RM15,000 untuk simpanan belanja kahwin. Zaman sekarang ialah zaman wang. Bakal mak bapak mertua korang nanti bukannya malaikat diutus tuhan. Wang juga permainannya bila nak dibincang tentang bab kahwin. So, bersiap sedia lah ya anak-anak!

Kursus Pra Perkahwinan

12 hours of full attention for matters related to marriage and divorce - made my head spinned.

Enough said.

But what did I learn? Humility. Submission. Optimistic, could be.

How was your experience?

Excited Upgrade to iOS9

Oh yes, the day has finally come when I can upgrade my iOS8 phone to iOS9.

I've been eyeing on their Note feature because I use that a lot. So now the app in my hand, it's about time to get it tested. Kan?

Detik-detik jari mengusik

Sekadar menari-narikan jari jemari di ruang kekunci huruf ini.

Apa yang aku nak achieve dengan ambil gambar ni pun aku tak tau. Saja nak test camera di iPhone kot. Jakun.

Mungkin juga nak cari idea untuk dikisar-kisar dan dijadikan bahan bercerita. Cerita yang mungkin boleh ketemu pengajaran bagi si pembaca.

Enak lagi kalau cerita itu punya seni romantisnya, tapi tak memerlukan dua jiwa bercinta. Cukup pada penzahiran apresiasi pada keadaan sekeliling. Atau penghargaan pada alam, manusia dan mungkin juga cukup pada detik-detik yang berlalu.

Sebenarnya, biarkan ia jadi satu manifestasi jiwa pada keadaan dirinta yang kosong. Itu sebenarnya yang nak diceritakan. Kosong.

Tentang merdeka

Ini cerita yang selalu diperbahaskan. Ini cerita yang selalu diperbincangkan. Tapi sampai ke hari ini, aku tak rasa majoriti orang ramai memahami maksud merdeka.

Mungkin jugak sebab orang dah bosan nak bicara tentang merdeka. Sebab dari dulu sampai ke hari ini, lenggok dan layanan perasaannya masih sama. Tiada yang berubah.

Ramai yang masih khuatir untuk suarakan pendapat. Tak percaya? Tengoklah yang ada di dalam UMNO. Diam semua pengikutnya. Entahkan bodoh, entahkan bangang - pemimpin yang korup dibiarkan begitu saja. Disuruh tepuk, mereka tepuk. Disuruh lompat, mereka lompat. Ibarat beruk dirantai tengkuk.

Merdeka jelas hilang dari jatidiri orang Malaysia. Hidup dalam ketakutan. Hidup ada rasa dibayangi sang penguasa. Sampai bila kan?

Pertemuan

Setelah lama kami bekerjasama, baru hari ini dapat bertemu. Inilah mereka yang membantu perusahaan aku dan partner aku. Backbone of my accounting application. Mudah-mudahan minggu ini aku dapat settle kan accounting apps itu.

Next step will be the payroll & leave management. Doakan kami berjaya.

Business Trip to Singapore

Yes i am going back to Singapore. This time the events will be held twice in a day. Unfortunately, one of the locations is a bit far from the MRT station, so I guess I will be taking taxi. By now everybody knows the taxi can cost you a bomb in Singapore.

As usual I will be staying in the Pod, a cool and boxy shelter. The environment is kinda pleasant and comfortable, nothing to complain much.

I am just hoping that the visit this time will bring some sales. Need to bring the spirit and the energy to infect these people who will attend the events. Looking forward to dazzle them, hahahaha!

Melayari Perasaan

Tak lama lagi aku akan berkahwin. To be exact akan berlangsung dalam bulan November. Alhamdulillah, sekian lama penantian ini akan berakhir.

Jauh perjalanan cinta aku. Bermula di PPP/ITM, hingga ke Adelaide lepas tu langsung ke Johor. Aku temui ramai wanita berbeda personaliti, perangai dan ragam. Biarlah perjalanan ini berhenti pada November ini.

Aku mahu bina hidup baru. Bersama teman yang akan setia bersama aku. Di  kala susah dan senang. Di saat gembira dan di kala duka.

Insya Allah aku janji akan jaga dia macam papa jaga arwah mummy. Hingga ke liang lahad cinta papa pada mummy. Tak sangka, ucapan dan luahan perasaan aku dalam blog ini pada 2004 akan temui titik noktah akhirnya. Alhamdulillah.

Living and dying

I just got to know that one of my friends is diagnosed with cancer. Confused, then I went to see her to get her explanation.
The doctor has confirmed that her breast cancer is at stage 4. Now, this is depressing.
I guess by now, when one is facing with this situation, things in life has renewed perspective. Automatically they are in new order of priority. Such clarity can either enhance our lives or drive people away from our lives.
But hey, I think it is a good exercise to do this. Rearrange the priority of people tells us about their worth through our own eyes. Who cares if they say you are being judgmental? Who doesn't?
I can only offer my emotional support to her. I am always ready to listen to her whining or complaints. I sincerely hope that she will recover from this illness. And I do sincerely hope that we will live many years ahead together as friends.
God bless you, Wan. Ameen.

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Going to Hong Kong

Jalan makin panjang. Tapi sayang hati makin jauh. Jauhnya dari perasaan untuk terus jadi kuli orang.
Mungkin sebab fokus pada keinginan nak berniaga sendiri.
Hutang RM15,000 dah ada atas kepala.
Bulan-bulan kena bayar RM400 untuk tempoh 5 tahun. Tapi untuk 6 bulan ni sudah selesai. Harus fokus untuk dapatkan result.
Accounting software kitorang makin membuahkan hasil. Tapi kalau kami terlambat, mungkin aku boleh jadi bangkrap.
Soal pengurusan, aku kena terus terang. Kami sudah putuskan untuk tak mahu mamat tu jadi Director lagi dan shareholder. Tak mahu pikul biawak hidup. Cukup-cukuplah.

Food Sponsorship for Chow Kitt Kids

Now dah kol 4 pagi lebih. Mata aku pun dah berat.
Takpelah, type lah sikit untuk memori semalam.

Semalam hari Sabtu aku dan a few kawan-kawan kumpulkan duit and sponsor food untuk kanak-kanak Chow Kitt yang sibuk belajar untuk membaca dan mengira. This event was initiated by this young lawyer who is passionate about education. It's a noble thing to do when everybody is so busy doing his/her own stuffs and suddenly, someone who is caring enough to say, something must be done. Or else, these kids will not have the opportunity like other kids do in urban areas.

As usual, food is something we all love to have and it is something that I love to do. I feel happy if I can feed people and that's what I did yesterday. Managed to get meehun goreng, some karipap and cookies (courtesy of Mak Ngah) and fruit.

So I hope something good will come up from that. I hope.

Little Feeling of Resignation

Day by day I have a feeling of submitting my resignation letter. I have a strong feeling about my venture in accounting software. And also I do believe it is my time to chart my own course. Yes of course I do want to be wealthy but I also realize that it takes time to get to that level.

Shitty Phase

Seriously aku rasa now we are in the shittiest phase being working in a service based company. Sebabnya simple; developer aku quit 24 hours, lead developer aku sakit and masuk hospital, client aku bising about attendee registration dia berterabur. Serabut gak pikir problem ni.

Kan senang kalau aku takyah pikir semua benda nih. But itu namanya melarikan diri dari menyelesaikan masalah. Definitely tu bukan aku. But yang paling bodohnya aku rasa, aku dok buat-buat semua ini tapi ini semua bukan milik aku.

Umur dah masuk 35 tahun net worth tak berubah banyak pun. Hutang pun masih ada, aset langsung tak ada.

Kawan-kawan lain gaji besar dah. Rata-rata berangka lima. Aku masih lagi terhegeh-hegeh mencari.

Tuhan, tolong aku siapkan projek yang aku tengah kerjakan. Ameen.

Reflection for Monday

Ok, let see, what I have done for Monday.
Well, we do have a company meeting. You know, I always dread to attend the company meeting. Maybe because there is not much of progress I can show. Yeah, progress. It's a bane in my sales and marketing unit. I don't have anything against it. It is just I couldnt find the way to move forward with our sales figure.

Anyway, my boss's mood was okay today. So not much of pissing off happened during the meeting. But his analytic eyes wouldnt let anything go beyond his sight. But I respect him because he is the boss. He pays the salary for everyone.

I also went out to meet up with Malaysian who does business in Hong Kong. My boss and I discussed ways of our product to get market traction in Hong Kong. Had an interesting conversation with the Hong Kong guy. Well, let's us just name him a HK guy. He asked a real important question.

Hong Kong skyline at night

A question which we need to answer as a company. Why is it that we want to sell our solution so bad in HK? What is so unique about our product, that people in HK must buy from us, and not from anyone else?

Wow, tough questions eh? I thought so. I believe so.

He said, you need to sell benefits and advantages. Not features. It is Business 101. Ok, I wonder what is Business 100 then (judging from my other 100 courses in Penn State though).

Yes, benefits and advantages. That question knocked hard into my brain. I was struggling to answer that question.

And I tried to relate it with my accounting software. But later today I convinced myself, it's nothing to be ashamed of by copying others. For as long we learn to iterate and innovate, we are okay. Hahahaha..what a way to cheer me up!

Daily log thursday

I didnt do much today.

I attended a launching of eSentral new window apps in Cyberjaya. They successfully developed an apps to operate on Windows machine. Kinda cool come to think again about that.

Supposedly i was required to attend sales appointment. Unfortunately the guy whom i supposed to meet didnt come because my colleague dont have the right IQ to seek ways to communicate with that man. One part of me wanted to yell at her, but another part of me just said, let it go. She's not worth my rage.

By the way, i received sad news tonight. Tuan Guru Nik Aziz has finally passed away due to prolonged illness from cancer. It felt sad. So sad, and i silently cried without knowing why.

Funny eh?