Adik aku akan balik dari Jepun esok. Dia sampai di KLIA dalam jam 5 petang cenggitu. Aku akan berbuka puasa dengan dia kat KLIA. Hmm..lama tak jumpa dia. Dalam dekat-dekat nak setahun gitu. Balik ajer dia dah nak pau satay hj samuri dari aku. Hmm..tak kisahlah. Bukannya selalu belanja orang makan satay, kan?



Actually a few weeks before birthday aku, aku dengan adik aku ada gaduh sikit. Bukan gaduh lah. It's more like berselisih faham. Sampai masa birthday aku pun dia tak wish happy birthday. Isk isk isk..sedey gak lah (saje nak bagik dia rasa bersalah ni kalo dia baca nih!). Reason berselisih faham tu sebenarnya agak remeh temeh lah. So lepas aku ada arguement dengan dia tu, aku pun gave a long stare at my laptop and began to write quiet a lengthy email to her.

If there is any wisdom in that message, i'd like to share it here.

This is for hamizah.

Dear dik,
I know you are facing tough question. It is one of the important questions ever thrown to you in your entire life. You are at the crossroad. Everybody has gone to that place. Myself including.

At the moment, you feel the heat comes from every angle. You also feel the pressure is building up and it presses you. You feel trapped. You feel small. But let me tell you dik, everything that you feel right now is just in your head. They aren't real. They will be real if you let them be real. Unfortunately, knowing you, you will feel week and brain dead.

Hey....Let me remind you, "be brave, be courageous".

Sometimes life doesn't deliver to us of what we want. Instead, we must show to ourself that we control our life. Not the life itself. We are the captains of our fate. Have faith in what you are doing and by God's willing, everything will start to fall into its rightfully place.

I was reminded by my senior design lecturer, Prof Nedwick, "Guys, if you ever remember anything from my class. Just take this, if it doesn't kill you...it will only make you stronger!". I pass you his wisdom so that you can keep this close to your heart and understand that nothing will or can stop you from achieving what you want in your life. Don't let other people make you feel small.

You can be as big as you want in your imagination. All you need to have is faith upon yourself. It will subconsciously project to your surrounding via your believe. I went through that. I know it is not easy. But I can tell you one thing; the final result is the feeling of relief! How do you feel when you feel relief? You feel good, aren't you? Yes...you feel good.

So dik, be calm. Do simple calculation of every step you want to make. Sometimes you just have to close your eyes and hope your feet land on safe land. Sometimes it does but sometimes, it doesn't. You don't have to know it all but you must be ready. Only by doing that, success will be with you!

If you need support, you know where to find me. Wake me up at 3 am or buzz me at 3 pm when I'm busy with my business. I will still entertain you. You know that I'll be your number 1 supporter. If you ever decide to give up, that simply means I don't do a good job. That means I have failed you as your brother. Don't let me fail in doing my duty. Just don't do it.

Pick up the challenge. Jack up your spirit. Have faith you can conquer your fate and you life will change. Take the risk and you will see, there are many options table in front of you. Spread your wings and soar to the air.

I wish you good luck and I bid you all the best. Have faith, have belief. God won't give you anything you can't handle. Trust the Big Boss, ok? Take care and love always be with you.

abg f*rid.