Another Note, Another Thought

Some people misconstrued my latest entry. I wrote it not to serve as warning or letter of notification but I wrote the entry as this blog serves as a place of expressing myself. Honestly and straightforwardly.

No dik, she's not you. In fact, she is far different than you. I did promise to take care of you and if i may, to continue to nurture you and protect you. I did promise you that you can contact me anytime and anywhere and I'm here if you want some advice or some attention. I am a man of my word and I intend to keep it that way. So, no worry - she's not you.

Anyway, there are so many things going on in my mind. Last weekend I called Kak Anim and we had a long talk over the phone. Yep, she knows exactly what was I thinking. After all, she knows me since I was in Form 4 and she knows precisely how I would behave when it comes to certain matters. I asked her many questions that night. Some of the questions made her a bit dumbfounded. But I guess I need to get some answers from her. She has been the place where I seek humanly guidance especially when I need a quick handbook guide for man-woman relationship. What's the point of asking men when it involves women, actually?

I've been cold to some people lately. Perhaps I put a thinking cap on. Perhaps, I try to find solace in my own dragon's cave. Some solitary moments may help me to do some reflection. Re-evaluating the whole situation. Re-evaluating some relationships. Try to see from a third person's perspective. Some people make me feel elated. Some people make me feel a bit disheartening and some people are just mean. Hey, I can't complain much of what I can take. But if I can't take it anymore, i'll explode and it will make everyone not happy. Who cares? Seriously, who cares? So I choose to be resolute; to be loyal only to my own feeling and I wont give a shit to anyone who doesn't show any respect to my feeling whatsoever. One of my life's mantra, if you don't care about me, then i won't give a shit about you. and if anyone of you starts to feel like i'm being distant from you, maybe it's because I sense no respect in regards to my feeling from you. That's why I keep a distant to protect myself from getting hurt emotionally.

You see, we human have developed a very strong survival instinct.

On another note, I finished reading one romantic novel. A huge achievement for myself considering I hardly read any romantic book except Dan Brown's novel, 'Angel and Demon. And the book has been in the room for the past three years without me noticed it. Now the bad news is, I can't shake this story off my damn mind. The story is so enchanting and I think I over-romanticized the whole drama. Let me put the synopsis here.

The Princess, Jude Deveraux
Her name was Aria - a beautiful, arrogant princess from a small European kingdom. Kidnapped, then left for dead in the ocean off the Florida Keys, she is swept ashore and into the arms of dashing J.T Montgomery, an officer of the American Navy. Disdainful at first, Aria is secretly tantalised by the handsome officer's brash independence...and beneath her proud reserve, J.T discovers a woman of sensuous passion.
But she has enemies who threaten to destroy her, and now she must choose between the kingdom she was born to rule and the mane she was destined to love.

I managed to finish the whole novel in one night. Damn, the story is just too beautiful for me. They've got to make it into movies. Ahhhh..I'm sucker for romantic movie. Hahahaha....

Oh well, I am done with all whining and complaining about my life. Time to plan the meeting for tomorrow. One with Northport Berhad and another one with an engineer in Jalan Yap Kwan Seng. Off to make more money!