Undelivered Message



Loved , and you'll be loved. Seek to understand, and you will be understood. Listen, and your voice will be heard.

I saw that on my sister's YM. I couldn't disagree more with her. Sometimes I do ponder how exactly can I deliver the message to the other soul that I truly care about her. The word care alone doesn't really convey the real message. To say the four-alphabet-word would be a retroactive act, at least for now.

But how to convey the message if the communication channel is closed. This is a real challenge. I am facing a solid wall in front of me.

So after the Isya'a prayer I had a monologue with my Creator. I'd ask, can I make a trade with You? A 'tawasul', if I may. Like in the story of three people behind the closed cave. What if You grant me one du'a with all the good deeds I did in the past? The deeds which I never ask for any return. The deeds which I did for the sake of helping others to improve themselves and get themselves out of scarcity.

And I left the praying mat with a full and clear conscience. My intention is pure and noble. I won't let anything, especially the trivial issues to bog me down and stop me from pursuing my intention. So, help me God.