Dilema Kita Hari Ini

Aku baru tadi jenguk video Malaysian Games aka Midwest Games 2004 from PERSISMA punya website. Persatuan Mahasiswa Malaysia Minnesota. Menarik..memang menarik video diorang. Aku paling suka tengok tarian yang lagu Kurik Kendi, entah..tarian tradisional is really appealing to watch. Frankly speaking aku memang suka menari-nari ni..and suka gak tengok orang menari ni.

Tapi bila aku tengok video clip tarian modern dance yang bebudak tu tunjukkan..I can't never escape this feeling. Feeling of dilema. Entah..nak kata suka tu..memang aku suka tengok menda-menda camni. Arts. Tapi at the same time, kita yang ada religious conscious kata menda camni tak elok. Tak lelaki dan perempuan terkinja-kinja di khalayak ramai, tak ada segan and tak ada silu. Memang dilemma la bagi aku.

Dulu-dulu aku tak pergi Malaysian Games. Reason aku, aku takleh terima sport volleyball coed. Campur lelaki dan perempuan. So aku boikot games tu. Masa tu, maklum ler..baru ajer ditarbiyyahkan oleh Al Maktabah PPP/ITM selama setahun..hehehe. Kira masa tu stok baik-baik lagi aaa. Takde campur-campur lelaki dan perempuan ni. Aku stok cakap dengan perempuan tunduk muka la kiranya. Kalau jalan selisih dengan perempuan, memang aku pandang tempat lain la..tak pun tunduk menonong jek. Masa tu ajer la.

As time progresses, aku mula terdedah pada banyak idea. Idea-idea yang lebih menarik..menarik dari segi nafsu la. Idea-idea yang lebih menggetarkan jiwa, mendebarkan nafsu dan menggoncangkan iman. And of course, all these wordly ideas appeal to my 'beast' side. Bak kata Ustaz Ahmad Awang, bekas presiden Persatuan Ulama M'sia dalam ceramahnya di PPP/ITM dulu, "Manusia ni ada bahagian manusia dan ada bahagian binatangnya. Dari pusat ke kaki, itu bahagian binatangnya. Dari pusat hingga ke kepala, itu bahagian manusianya". Itu kata dia...and aku akui memang betul pun.

Even the great philosopher of Greek, Aristotle, claims that we human are like the riders of charriot. The thruster of a charriot is the two horses or possible one horse and the navigator is the person on the charriot. If we let the faculty of mind is controlled by inclination or vegetative desire, we are doomed to its extreme destruction. Hmm..thanks to PHIL 001, an introduction course of Philosophy..heheh..

So slowly aku indulge in such situation. Bila dah terkeluar jauh dari lingkungan kawan-kawan yang sama-sama berusrah di PPP dulu..aku jadik makin lemau. Salah sendirik gak sebab tak rapat sangat dengan muslim community. Nak kata rapat, taklah rapat, tapi kalau jumpa orang masjid, still aku angkat tangan and bagi salam. Cuma tak kamceng. Unlike some people yang aku tahu memang kaki masjid.

Okay, coming back to the issue of Midwest Games ni. Dalam video tu lagi ada sebut, apa real motivation for them to come to this event and which university has the hottest chic. Okay, aku allrite ajer dengan first question tu..but the second one? Is it necessary to ask such question? And you publish it for public view. One thing aku rasa that kind of question is degrading to some people and second of all, i think it is inappropriate. Okay, one thing I need to clear it up, it's ok for me to ask about how hot the girl is - as long it stays as a personal thing. To make it a public..it's the shallowest thing to do. Some may not agree with me which is fine. But tell me, what do you feel if someone generalize you as not hot chic aka "bughok giler tak lalu nak tengok chic"? Heheeheh..someone will get real piss!

But anyway..lelama kemudian aku pun join la Malaysian games. Saja nak tengok kemeriahan games tu. It's actually more than coed mingling and who's-the-hottest-chic-of-the-event program. It's a place which you can meet you friends after separated for so long. It's a place where you create connection, making new friends and print new memories. Good time is indeed what you're looking for.

My first malaysian games at Buffalo, NY is something I cannot forget. Really, fun! Although aku kena drive 5 jam sorang-sorang dari Penn State, but it's okay.