One or two things that I wrote in the Past

Hope, Trust, Persistence, Determination

I finished my conversation with a friend just now. After that I decided to take a hot shower and put my thinking cap while the hot and refreshing water coming down from the pipe showered me. Then suddenly four words came to my mind; hope, trust, persistence and determination.

I've seen many times in my life that hope does make things happen. It happens to one of my loyal friends, Mr. A, who has been in love with the same girl ever since they were 9 year old. Unfortunately the path that he was hoping to walk on doesn't lead to the way it
should be. He was tormented for quite some years because the girl he adored so much left Malaysia to further her studies in country side of New York up state area. However by the mercy of The Lord, He moved us, friendsof him, to materialize his wish. Across the continents we delivered his love message to this very girl he likes. Probably I should say that we were tired to see this poor guy looked sad and melancholic every timeher name came to him. Even worst, he sometimes unintentionally spelled her name out during the meeting of MPP MMU during his 2-terms tenure as the president of Majlis Perwakilan Pelajar. Gratefully the hope that he bears for years of waiting has now been granted upon him. Miss B, the girl who he has been in love for years, returns his love with the same sincere devotion and affection that he's been showing unto her. I am praying that one day I will have the chance to see both of them on the altar of marriage and join our alumni family.

And then another hope story appears again in my life. A friend whom I hold dearly to my heart, Miss D, has been in love with herboyfriend for more than 4 years now. Although the seven oceans and thousands of miles in different continents separate them, their love grows even stronger from day to day. Many times they've been stumbling with myriads of obstacle as the time passes by but it only strengthen her love to her boyfriendand the love reciprocates smoothly between her and her guy. She once told me that it is her greatest hope toget married with her loved one someday. She would cross the rough oceans and walks the journey of thousand miles just to be with him. I am pretty sure that the guy feels the same way too towards her. Now, 4 years have passed in a blink of eye and now Miss D is
gearing up toward her graduation this semester. However her boyfriend is now preparing to work in Canada by the time she reaches home to Malaysia. I can assure you that this is just another series of test to see how their love can withstand the tumultuous events in their life and I pray hard, surely I pray hard to see that they will get together one day (in fact, I wrote a card to Miss D just before I left US for summer break last year that I always pray good things will come to her including this one). Miss D even promised me to bring me to see her boyfriend when we both in Malaysia. I just can't wait to meet this one lucky guy!

Hope can be miraculous sometimes. It also can be tormenting as well. To lead a life without hope is like to walk without aim. Everything looks dull and everything looks just the same. Never forget that Hope will be your most loyal companion when everything/everyone has deserted you and you only have yourself to carry the burden of journey. It drives your inner wants to the edge of insanity. It provides you the will power you need in order to plow the messy and ugly road in front of you. Truly I am a firm believer that in whatever we do, we should include hope eventhough we have no slightest idea of what the outcome will be due to our action.

Then, how about trust?

Well, trust is not something that you can give in overnight. There is an old saying says, "Rom is not built in one day". True. It takes years if not centuries to develop such rock-solid trust. The trust that I give to my friends like Miss D, Miss X, Miss Y, Mr. A and the people in my circle of trust is built after years of friendship. There were times that my trust was violated and was questioned but we managed to
reconcile the issues between us in the name of camaraderie. It's a two-way thing. You and me. Give-and-take. Exchanging the trust is not something easy but it's doable. It's doable if we give a chance to ourselves in believing someone.

Maybe I should be the one to initiate the move. A move which I am hoping can steer the relationship into a better direction for both of us.

So what is it about persistence and determination?

I shall say that both are the ingredients for a success (yeah..I know it sounds more like a cliche but it works though!). It is like building a structure - a huge and a beautiful one. Obviously it requires a solid foundation in order to withstand the harsh weather. I can imagine the civil engineers will then instruct construction workers to dig deeply into the ground in order to place the solid steel and concrete as to prepare for the unshakeable foundation. But how can we prepare the foundation of love and keeps it stand strong? Well, this is the place for persistence and determination to reside along with hope and trust.

I can't tell you for sure how the building will look like at the end but I can assure you that it will always be adorned with sweet and bitter memories, honesty and sincerity, ups and downs, laughter and tears.

Yes I screwed up a few times, in fact many times. I've been in and out of love for quite sometimes. It happens the same to you too as well. I don't ask that this relationship to blossom quickly. I don't ask that we should start right away and leave everything that
we have now behind. No, it's not the way it should be. It should go slow but steady. There were couples of time that we acted spontaneously without thinking the outcome of it. It's ok. Everyone is allowed to do mistake. Only by doing that, we grow and we learn. Ultimately, we become mature.

Let this friendship blossoms and we see where shall it take us. I am maybe just another man comes into your heart, knocking for your love and so does he. Don't think too much of what will others say about you and me. We alone know what we are doing now. We are friends and as friends, we are allowed to miss each other, to care each other and even to love each other. But to question how far this love can go, we just let the time decides and what does the heart tell us. From there, we go forward and never look back again.

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Hmmm..I surprised myself when I wrote this. See what that for letter words can do unto you!! But anyway, it was in the past and I think it would sweet enough for me to remember this. You know what, I think I can be one hell of writer?!!

Hehehehe..poyo la ko mamat!!!