Huge Disappointments

I don't usually count my disappointments. I rarely do. But today, it's an exception. The first one, it's not such a big deal compare to the latter.

The latter was a bit 'damning', if that word can be used to describe the feeling. My long time friend since childhood got married and I didn't get her wedding card. In fact, I got the news from another friend of ours. [Sigh].

We shared so many stories and experiences since Standard 5. We even shared the same kampung in Tanjung Karang. We kept in touch via snail mail even when we both went to boarding school; she went to southern peninsular and I stayed in KL. I maintained the communication with her when I went to the States for furthering my studies. Exchanging stories and sweet & bitter experiences living and studying alone in State College with her via phone calls and emails. Obediently listened to her while she told me about her fluctuating intimate relationship. Conspired with her to act as her boyfriend in a college formal dinner during my summer break just to make the guy she likes feel jealous. In fact, she's number one in my circle of trust.

And on her most celebrated day.... I didn't get an invitation. A huge disappointment!

I called her just now to say congratulations. She apologized and said sorry. She said she tried to contact me a few times but none is successful. Even her mom said sorry. I could only say, "Hmm...hu uh...hmm..ok..". Don't know much to say. She invited me to come to her house. I don't know if I should come or not. Somehow, the idea of visiting an old friend now sounds foreign to me.

I forgave her. But I will not forget this. I guess people do change their core over period of time.

[sigh]