I am not a Hopeful Fool



Almost ten years ago I wrote a well planned plan for myself. I was 17 year-old kid. By the end of 10th year, I should have been married to anyone or rather, someone. However, that doesn't appear to be happening anytime in the near distance future. Now my 10 year plan is running out of its time. It will expire next year. So far, the plan has been followed closely. But sometimes along the line, there were some instances of skewed outcomes and therefore they led to some weird precedents. Anyway, I still believe there must be good reason why they happened that way.

To be honest, I don't exactly know what will happen to me in the next 10 years. I could be broke. I could be poor. And I could also be filthy rich. Many older people told me that once you reach 30, whatever comes after that will be passing through like shooting bullet. Things happen so fast after you have reached 30. For all you know, you will be 40 or 50 and realized you should have done something when you were a lot younger. For instance, planning for wonderful and exciting retirement.

If I were given an option right now of what kind of self image I would like to project for myself, certainly I'll choose a positive and exciting self image. Why do I need to opt for a negative self-image? It just doesn't feel right to do that to myself.

I will project constantly that aforementioned self-image so that I can influence my own thought to focus on it. In my projected self-image, I also picture myself as a financially independent person who has a loving family, a beautiful and loving wife and children and I am also being a very good parent and son to my parents. In another 10 more years, I will make sure I'll achieve those inspirations. In my guts feeling and deep down in my heart, I know someday I will be somebody who is very important to many, many people out there. I don't know how I will achieve that but I know I will be that kind of person. Someday.

I don't really know what will happen next to me. But I do know one thing, I want to make those aspiration come true. Despite the unseen obstacles, I will tackle it one by one. A step at a time. For whatever will happen to me after it, I will take it like a man. Like what I always did for the past 25 years of my existence.

Life is a field of endless possibilities. Why don't we start dreaming right now? But don't forget to chase the dreams.