Tafakur

Di keheningan malam, tafakur di kesyahduan
Merindui janji Mu tuhan
Bantuan di perjuangan
Kutitiskan air mata
Taubat segala dosa
Moga terangkat penghijab kalbu
Di antara Kau dan aku - Tafakur, Diwani

Sedikit petikan surat aku kepada dia yang berubat di Germany,

"Saudara Anwar yang dihormati,
Rata-rata sekarang ramai warga M’sia sedang membicarakan halatuju saudara selepas ini. Saya juga tidak terkecuali tetapi saya tidak mahu mengutarakan soalan itu lagi. Biarlah hal itu menjadi milik dan hak peribadi saudara Anwar. Akan tetapi saudara ada menyebut tentang perencanaan politik untuk rakyat apabila saudara pulang dari Germany nanti, akan tetapi apakah perencanaan saudara ini hanya berlaku di sekeliling saudara? Maksud saya, adakah ianya akan berpusat kepada saudara? Mungkin agak dangkal bagi saya untuk menyebut hal ini, akan tetapi apabila kita bicarakan tentang suara hati rakyat, saya rasa jelas ini menunjukkan perjuangan ini milik rakyat. Untuk dibebankan ke atas satu pundak, ternyata ini tindakan yang merugikan. Dan juga memenatkan. Untuk dipastikan ianya berjaya, maka perlu dibahagi samarata tanggungjawabnya dan peranan masing-masing bagi memastikan perjalanan terus licin dan efektif. Ini pendapat seorang budak berumur 24 tahun, tapi sekurang-kurangnya, saya mahu suara hati saya ini didengari oleh saudara. "

Mudah-mudahan apa yang aku tulis untuk dia, dapat dia fahami dan dapat dia perhalusi tiap langkah yang akan diambil nanti. Bukannya apa, kita tidak mahu mewujudkan 'exclusivity' dalam soal memperjuangkan hak rakyat. Bila terjadinya exclusivity, maka rakyat akan terasa terpinggir dan sekali gus menjauhkan sokongan rakyat kepada gerakan ini. Rakyat akan terasa dipergunakan bagi mencapai tujuan dan maksud personal, tidak kira pada sesiapa sekali pun. Cukuplah selama 22 tahun rakyat telah dipergunakan bagi mengaut keuntungan mereka yang tidak prihatin kepada nasib rakyat secara menyeluruh. Betul tak?

Random Thoughts

It has been 4 years since I received the green shirt from my dear friends, Aini and Aida, as a gift for my 20th birthday. At that time, they were still single (I couldn't remember about Aida though but I know Aini was single at the time). Unfortunately for unknown reason, I didn't wear the shirt immediately. Well, after 4 years, so tonight, I decided to wear the shirt for the first time. Ah well, it fits me nicely. I guess both of them know that I will eventually 'expand' so much so that they got me a size L shirt. Hehehehe..

But I wore the shirt only for solat purpose. See, during the night I always try to dress myself nicely whenever I want to perform prayer. Usually I pick baju melayu or shirt with kain sarung for solat. It has been like that since I was in boarding school. I don't exactly know why. I guess it makes me look more dapper when it come to seeing Him. Yes, I want to look neat and nice in front of Him.

Then after I finished performing solat Isya', I took the English tafseer of Holy Quran and continue my recitation which stopped at Al Ahqaf. I later continued my reading into Surah Al Muhammad. One verse caught my attention.

"O ye who believe! If ye will aid (the cause of) Allah, He will aid you, and plant your feet firmly" - verse 7, Al Muhammad.

I usually hear this verse in Friday sermon but I never know what does it mean until I finally stumbled with it tonight. It always a pleasant feeling when you know the the Lord Himself offers you an aid when you really need it. And the assurance He gives, there is no other can offer the same degree as His which can sooth you. Thus it left me with a feeling of calmness amidst my hectic schedule and my worriness over some troubles I have in my life. It's the same advice I got from my dear friend, an ex-President of MISNA, when he knew I was in trouble with Jabatan Perdana Menteri last year.

I guess because of the same peacefulness in my heart, I fell asleep on the sajadah right after I finished recite the Holy Quran. Yes, I fell asleep in that green shirt.

Allright peeps, time to get a real sleep. May you all have a blessing day from Him and all your work today is being rewarded by Him with jannah in the Hereafter.